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Miss_ShaSha
11-25-2019, 06:21 PM
Bumping this!!
After a shitty October where I only made $2500 that month, I got into EFT tapping, because my vibration was low, no matter how many motivational clips I was watching and no matter how much I was trying to meditate and manifest. My guts and subconscious didn't want to cooperate.
I started doing this video, because I wanted a challenge. Basically, doubling my income from the past month
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_TYhk5imsZE.
I just followed her along, repeating what she was saying, but in my own language and spelling "dollars" instead of pounds. And really believing in what I was doing there. I decided to just trust the process.
Little add: I have been doing such a thing, earlier in the year and at the end of the last year, when I was writing my intention and goal of the month on a piece of paper and I was reading it, out loud, every day. And I was making it. But EFT tapping is different and more exciting.
Soon after the first days, I started to get flooded with new ideas about my camming hustle. I decided to try them on.
Fast forward, today, November 25, I reached the $5k mark.
If this isn't manifestation, Idk what it is.
I highly reccomend that clip.
Fuck this is awesome Sister!
Esixxx
11-25-2019, 06:43 PM
Bumping this!!
After a shitty October where I only made $2500 that month, I got into EFT tapping, because my vibration was low, no matter how many motivational clips I was watching and no matter how much I was trying to meditate and manifest. My guts and subconscious didn't want to cooperate.
I started doing this video, because I wanted a challenge. Basically, doubling my income from the past month
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_TYhk5imsZE.
I just followed her along, repeating what she was saying, but in my own language and spelling "dollars" instead of pounds. And really believing in what I was doing there. I decided to just trust the process.
Little add: I have been doing such a thing, earlier in the year and at the end of the last year, when I was writing my intention and goal of the month on a piece of paper and I was reading it, out loud, every day. And I was making it. But EFT tapping is different and more exciting.
Soon after the first days, I started to get flooded with new ideas about my camming hustle. I decided to try them on.
Fast forward, today, November 25, I reached the $5k mark.
If this isn't manifestation, Idk what it is.
I highly reccomend that clip.
This is bad ass!!!
I am inspired to do this!!!
sexysusie
11-25-2019, 10:30 PM
Need this! Thanks <3
Miss_ShaSha
11-26-2019, 09:58 AM
Dude, I was gonna try 6 days this week, but after streaming 5 days straight (34 hrs) I'm exhausted.
Gonna take today off. Just ordered boneless wings & a Dr Pepper. Fuck, all I wanna do is lay around. Gonna read funny stuff on Reddit, stuff my face, then watch stuff on GAIA.
I'm fuckin wasted. Brushing my teeth took so much energy. Jesus this job during fall is the pits. I cringe at the thought of winter.
Just gonna indulge today. I've had a subliminal self-esteem album on for about an hr & just wanna go to sleep & I slept 10 hrs. Sheesh.
Esixxx
11-26-2019, 10:05 AM
Dude, I was gonna try 6 days this week, but after streaming 5 days straight (34 hrs) I'm exhausted.
Gonna take today off. Just ordered boneless wings & a Dr Pepper. Fuck, all I wanna do is lay around. Gonna read funny stuff on Reddit, stuff my face, then watch stuff on GAIA.
I'm fuckin wasted. Brushing my teeth took so much energy. Jesus this job during fall is the pits. I cringe at the thought of winter.
Just gonna indulge today. I've had a subliminal self-esteem album on for about an hr & just wanna go to sleep & I slept 10 hrs. Sheesh.
Sounds like a good plan. Indulge and recharge those batteries.
Esixxx
11-26-2019, 10:15 AM
Woke up at 8:30 am this morning- went to bed at 1:30- 2:00 am last night.
My body was too tired to do the detox bath last night- I have to heat water on the stove and I didn't want to mess with it.
This morning- journaling session and coffee.
Mood- wow, just wow- this morning I felt like I was high - like I just won the fucking lottery.
Took a detox bath with epsom salt, lavender essential oil, and boiled orange slices.
My body and mind feels so relaxed right now- so I see why the reiki practioner told me to implement this as part of my regular self care.
During the detox bath- I visualized all those yucky negative energies detaching from my body. After the soak I showered off, and visualized the negative energies going down the drain.
Going to check out a meditation on Gaia then EFT for inner child. Take care of my to do list and then cam tonight.
I feel sooooooo soooooo very good
anonymous camgirl
11-26-2019, 10:17 AM
Dude, I was gonna try 6 days this week, but after streaming 5 days straight (34 hrs) I'm exhausted.
Gonna take today off. Just ordered boneless wings & a Dr Pepper. Fuck, all I wanna do is lay around. Gonna read funny stuff on Reddit, stuff my face, then watch stuff on GAIA.
I'm fuckin wasted. Brushing my teeth took so much energy. Jesus this job during fall is the pits. I cringe at the thought of winter.
Just gonna indulge today. I've had a subliminal self-esteem album on for about an hr & just wanna go to sleep & I slept 10 hrs. Sheesh.
I am exhausted after 2 days straight on cam .. but normally I would do 8 hours each day or more.
Miss_ShaSha
11-26-2019, 10:25 AM
I am exhausted after 2 days straight on cam .. but normally I would do 8 hours each day or more.
Yeah, I hear you. What's weird is it's sitting most of the time yet I'll be exhausted after 6-8 hrs. Smiling that whole time just takes it out of me. Then add in trying not to let freeloaders & time wasters get to me? Jesus, this job is tough!
Miss_ShaSha
11-28-2019, 11:02 AM
Quick gratitude meditation. Happy Thanksgiving <3
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Miss_ShaSha
11-28-2019, 11:04 AM
Woke up at 8:30 am this morning- went to bed at 1:30- 2:00 am last night.
My body was too tired to do the detox bath last night- I have to heat water on the stove and I didn't want to mess with it.
This morning- journaling session and coffee.
Mood- wow, just wow- this morning I felt like I was high - like I just won the fucking lottery.
Took a detox bath with epsom salt, lavender essential oil, and boiled orange slices.
My body and mind feels so relaxed right now- so I see why the reiki practioner told me to implement this as part of my regular self care.
During the detox bath- I visualized all those yucky negative energies detaching from my body. After the soak I showered off, and visualized the negative energies going down the drain.
Going to check out a meditation on Gaia then EFT for inner child. Take care of my to do list and then cam tonight.
I feel sooooooo soooooo very good
I just saw this. OMG I can feel all the good energy <3
Esixxx
11-28-2019, 08:21 PM
I've started a more regimented morning routine since the Reiki session
-journaling
-gratitude
- meditation
-EFT tapping
My energy, emotions and sensory sensitivity are heightened- sometimes very positive and sometimes on overload.
I am taking a lot of quiet time to myself. Holidays are generally brutal for me as everything is "busier" which can sometimes have an effect of my brain being overload.
Yesterday I provided a cuddling session (it was the 2nd this week) then ran errrands- I felt like my brain was going to shut down lol.
I worked less than an hour before deciding my energy was tanked.
Took a nice detox bath, smudged myself with sage and burned a white candle during the soak.
Today had Thanksgiving with my sister and her family. At times my emotions were peaked (tears) talking about past stuff.
Felt really heavy afterwards took a detox bath. Did the Energy Armor Meditation on Gaia.
I am feeling really good.
Miss_ShaSha
11-29-2019, 04:13 AM
^^I am going to do that meditation myself. It sounds like you're really in touch with your emotions which is great!
Miss_ShaSha
11-29-2019, 10:49 AM
I have an 8 hr shift planned. I'm only 1 hr and 20 min in, but I became frustrated with a lack of sales and the ins and outs...so I did a 5 min round of EFT tapping for frustration and I feel a whole lot better.
I've gotta keep my vibe up today and tomorrow. I'm not going to make any sales with a piss poor attitude.
Alright...I'm ready. Let's gooooo!!!
ravenskyy
11-29-2019, 10:58 AM
Logged on and 5 minutes in, anxiety attack. I literally want to scream. I need to make money but my anxiety is getting in the way. Not sure what to do anymore.
Miss_ShaSha
11-29-2019, 11:18 AM
Logged on and 5 minutes in, anxiety attack. I literally want to scream. I need to make money but my anxiety is getting in the way. Not sure what to do anymore.
I feel this. The last 4 weeks have been horrible for me & sitting on cam not making any money has made me bitter.
I had a full blown panic attack earlier this week & the only thing that saved me was EFT tapping.
Raven, you're not alone. It can be scary. Breathe. You're ok. You're safe.
CammyK
11-29-2019, 05:35 PM
I've cammed before. I've made friends. I've had a great time. I want to cam. BUT it's been a while, and I'm trying to switch from chaturbate to streamate after my earnings declined and I stopped for a year. I've been doing everything I can to prepare myself. Watch some other cams, do yoga, have a small healthy meal, have a bottle of my favorite alcohol.. but it was still so bad when I clicked stream that I had to disconnect after a few seconds because I felt like I was going to faint - like my vision was getting dark and everything. I know most people have a little hump of nerves when they first get on, but this is SO bad compared to what it used to be for me.
What the heck can I do? I'm going to chaturbate tonight so I hopefully make some money instead of no money, and I'm not finding it so hard to click start. Just a little nervy. No dead terror though. I think part of what gets me is the 1-on-1 aspect of SM. I do privates on CB, but it's not ALL privates.
laurielegs
11-29-2019, 05:58 PM
Wow, that's some bad anxiety.
Tension Tamer Tea helps me a LOT. I make it strong with super hot water, 2 teabags steeped for 5 mins and a little sugar and soymilk, yummy taste too.
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Most groceries and vitamin/health food stores in my area carry it.
ravenskyy
11-29-2019, 06:18 PM
I feel this. The last 4 weeks have been horrible for me & sitting on cam not making any money has made me bitter.
I had a full blown panic attack earlier this week & the only thing that saved me was EFT tapping.
Raven, you're not alone. It can be scary. Breathe. You're ok. You're safe.
I'm gonna stay up tonight and do a night shift. Then starting tomorrow, I'm dancing again. Camming is awful for my mental health. I need to be done with it.
Thanks Sha. I hope it picks up. The slowness is ridiculous. I hope next month rocks.
I dont have a remedy but an advice, treat SM like CB, is easier than the other way around.
I mean u can show off for tips (GOLD) in freechat (no genitals of course), u can do gold shows that are group shows, dont think the guys on SM will all want privates, it's soo difficult to make them pay for pvt shows these days even on SM.
I would feel not comfy with the environment of a token site cause i dont feel comfy to perform in public plus if too many guys are in my room i feel overloaded (including on SM).
Just take a deep breath and start the live stream same like u do on CB, believe me u will need to convince these guys to take u pvt sometimes.
You have a lot of learning on a new site cause SM is soo very different than CB and members are different but dont get scared, they cant harm u, the only thing they can do is to leave. Good luck!
minniesoporno
11-29-2019, 06:54 PM
What keeps my anxiety down is a routine. I am also thinking of blocking certain websites so I can get work done.
Starting out there wasn't social media it was just a few message boards and you had to wait for the thread to get a reply sometimes it took hours. social media makes things instant and created anxiety for me I've noticed.
So I am going to keep it simple. Start of the year I stumbled on fly lady flylady.net her house cleaning system. along with getting out of debt following Dave Ramsey baby steps. so that covered how I manage my household and where is my money going. that meant me I needed a simple schedule of what keeps me busy, which honestly was hours of playing video games, coloring books and other arts and crafts and some exercise.
When you have a structure routine the anxiety has less energy to creep in. Plus yes being in therapy helps break down things I am missing.
naomi_doll
11-29-2019, 07:00 PM
What keeps my anxiety down is a routine. I am also thinking of blocking certain websites so I can get work done.
Starting out there wasn't social media it was just a few message boards and you had to wait for the thread to get a reply sometimes it took hours. social media makes things instant and created anxiety for me I've noticed.
So I am going to keep it simple. Start of the year I stumbled on fly lady flylady.net her house cleaning system. along with getting out of debt following Dave Ramsey baby steps. so that covered how I manage my household and where is my money going. that meant me I needed a simple schedule of what keeps me busy, which honestly was hours of playing video games, coloring books and other arts and crafts and some exercise.
When you have a structure routine the anxiety has less energy to creep in. Plus yes being in therapy helps break down things I am missing.
You'll like flylady a lot! I still use a modified version of her routines to get things done daily :)
naomi_doll
11-29-2019, 07:08 PM
1 - Don't use alcohol to fix anxiety, it's a terrible trap to get into.
2 - Unfortunately the best thing is exposure therapy. Make your goal on chaturbate so you don't have to stress if you don't make your money on SM. Tell your self what is the absolute worst that could happen? Think about that and live out that moment entirely. Then ask yourself, what is the absolute best thing that could happen? Think about that and live out that moment entirely. What is the most likely thing to happen? Think about that and live out that moment entirely. Then log on and use grounding techniques to stay in the moment and stay as long as you can. If its only a few min, thats ok! Then calm yourself and try again. The more you do it the more you teach yourself there is nothing to be afraid of.
3 - If you can, I use a bluetooth earpiece to listen to tv while I stream. For some reason a sound other than just me in an empty room with music and my thoughts is much more calming.
You've got this!
ravenskyy
11-29-2019, 07:17 PM
I've cammed before. I've made friends. I've had a great time. I want to cam. BUT it's been a while, and I'm trying to switch from chaturbate to streamate after my earnings declined and I stopped for a year. I've been doing everything I can to prepare myself. Watch some other cams, do yoga, have a small healthy meal, have a bottle of my favorite alcohol.. but it was still so bad when I clicked stream that I had to disconnect after a few seconds because I felt like I was going to faint - like my vision was getting dark and everything. I know most people have a little hump of nerves when they first get on, but this is SO bad compared to what it used to be for me.
What the heck can I do? I'm going to chaturbate tonight so I hopefully make some money instead of no money, and I'm not finding it so hard to click start. Just a little nervy. No dead terror though. I think part of what gets me is the 1-on-1 aspect of SM. I do privates on CB, but it's not ALL privates.
You're not alone. I'm going through the same thing. Idk what it is, but camming has made my anxiety worse. I'm trying to figure out what it is that's making me so anxious. I used to get online without a problem. Now, I start having a full blown panic attack at the mere thought of being online. Maybe it's Streamate.
nattyfetish
11-30-2019, 02:40 AM
You're not alone. I'm going through the same thing. Idk what it is, but camming has made my anxiety worse. I'm trying to figure out what it is that's making me so anxious. I used to get online without a problem. Now, I start having a full blown panic attack at the mere thought of being online. Maybe it's Streamate.
It is not Streamate. It is something going in your life that makes you feel it. Exposure theraphy is the best. I tell you this as I know, been there done that.
The way to get through it would be to force myself to log in, feel the huge anxiety in the first few minutes and than realise it is not that bad. Push trough it. Breathe so it does not turn into a panick attack. Do things that make you happy before logging in and in your spare time. Figure out what is going in your life that made the anxiety start over again. Maybe the holydays coming ? That triggers lots of people. The holydays are a 2 ways knife for people: either supere joy or a reason for depression.
space_cowgirl
11-30-2019, 09:07 AM
Good music will save your damn life.
minniesoporno
11-30-2019, 09:35 AM
You'll like flylady a lot! I still use a modified version of her routines to get things done daily :)
Many things from fly lady I edit out. it simplified things for me of what needs to be done. then found some youtubers who also follow a version of flylady.
Then for wardrobe I stumbled on https://my.liveyourtruth.com/dyt/home/
So with flylady, live your truth to organize my clothes and personal style, and the Dave Ramsey 7 baby steps so i can get out of debt and build my own wealth.
All I have to do is work my schedule, and enjoy the company of my boyfriend.
my therapist told me that handling anxiety is about fear and how you handle coping. So yes sometimes you really do have to go into ask yourself what's the worst that could happen and how would you handle it. Most times it's not as a bad as you think it would be, and it forces you to think in solutions.
focus on the controllable and let go of the rest. Webcam you can control when you work, and how long you work. you also control how you response to your customers, yes I feel like a coin operated toy, but if saying the same things in a pattern every time makes me reach my financial goal, then that is what I will do for 2 to 4 hours.
Miss_ShaSha
11-30-2019, 10:20 AM
I was at my wits end earlier. I streamed 3.5 hrs and for 3 of those hours couldn't get one GOLD show to go through. I did get some shows and have made $65, but the rejection I felt from unsuccessful attempts just pissed me way off.
This whole month of Nov has been utter shit for me. I WAS PISSED! I've made $264 less than low monthly goal and I've put in 98 hrs this month. It's worse than June when summer slow down hit me.
My anger levels were dangerous earlier. I literally wanted to break something. I did some EFT tapping for anger and frustration at 2 hrs in and I just did a negative energy cleanse which has me seeing straight now.
I'm calm and I think I'll do another meditation session before attempting to stream more.
52391
Is Nov bad for anyone else? Last year I streamed 88 hrs and it was the worst, but I had just come back from a 6 year break. I get that it's supposed to be a struggle starting back up. I'm almost 1 year full time and the expectation was I'd be making $1K a week by now. It just has been such a struggle.
Esixxx
11-30-2019, 10:30 AM
I was at my wits end earlier. I streamed 3.5 hrs and for 3 of those hours couldn't get one GOLD show to go through. I did get some shows and have made $65, but the rejection I felt from unsuccessful attempts just pissed me way off.
This whole month of Nov has been utter shit for me. I WAS PISSED! I've made $264 less than low monthly goal and I've put in 98 hrs this month. It's worse than June when summer slow down hit me.
My anger levels were dangerous earlier. I literally wanted to break something. I did some EFT tapping for anger and frustration at 2 hrs in and I just did a negative energy cleanse which has me seeing straight now.
I'm calm and I think I'll do another meditation session before attempting to stream more.
52391
Is Nov bad for anyone else? Last year I streamed 88 hrs and it was the worst, but I had just come back from a 6 year break. I get that it's supposed to be a struggle starting back up. I'm almost 1 year full time and the expectation was I'd be making $1K a week by now. It just has been such a struggle.
It's been challenging for me as well.
My situation is a little different as I didn't put in the work earlier this year- as far as time online, so I know that is a major factor for me. (I know this is isn't the case for you- you have worked your ass off.)
Right now my focus is how can I manage my energy when I am online. You are doing a damn good job at that Sha!
The other thing that I have been focusing on is how can I better market myself?
Along with other ways to build my income aside from camming (i.e.- content, phone sex, Indy)
I feel sometimes it is a matter of patience and perseverance. At other times I feel like it is a time to take a day off to reset- which I did last night.
Miss_ShaSha
11-30-2019, 10:44 AM
It's been challenging for me as well.
My situation is a little different as I didn't put in the work earlier this year- as far as time online, so I know that is a major factor for me. (I know this is isn't the case for you- you have worked your ass off.)
Right now my focus is how can I manage my energy when I am online. You are doing a damn good job at that Sha!
The other thing that I have been focusing on is how can I better market myself?
Along with other ways to build my income aside from camming (i.e.- content, phone sex, Indy)
I feel sometimes it is a matter of patience and perseverance. At other times I feel like it is a time to take a day off to reset- which I did last night.
Thank you for chiming in. And I have tried so hard on this egg that I let other eggs die...this isn't smart and I think has had a major impact on my mood overall. I'm definitely going to work on other eggs for December.
Right...sometimes take the time to recharge and reset. This is good advice.
Miss_ShaSha
11-30-2019, 10:47 AM
Sister Esixxx, thank you for mentioning the Energetic Armor on GAIA. I just did it and feel totally rejuvenated. It's a great little breath work piece. I'll revisit it as I enjoyed it very much.
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Esixxx
11-30-2019, 11:40 AM
Sis, I feel you 100%
I let my other eggs slide as well- I have content uploads to catch up on and let some of my other eggs slide. They can be resurrected :)
Energetic armor is a good one. Thank you for mentioning Gaia- I've been nerding out on it :)
Miss_ShaSha
11-30-2019, 11:49 AM
Sis, I feel you 100%
I let my other eggs slide as well- I have content uploads to catch up on and let some of my other eggs slide. They can be resurrected :)
Energetic armor is a good one. Thank you for mentioning Gaia- I've been nerding out on it :)
I'm not alone & that feels good. Ha, yeah I totally get lost on GAIA. There's so much good shit there!
Esixxx
11-30-2019, 12:08 PM
Before I get to mention this, in my ventures of getting lost in the rabbit hole (researching.)
I came across this https://drjudithorloff.com/protect-energy-vampires/
Her website is really great for empaths and highly sensitive people. I am buying "The Empaths Survival Guide" this upcoming week.
Miss_ShaSha
11-30-2019, 12:25 PM
Before I get to mention this, in my ventures of getting lost in the rabbit hole (researching.)
I came across this https://drjudithorloff.com/protect-energy-vampires/
Her website is really great for empaths and highly sensitive people. I am buying "The Empaths Survival Guide" this upcoming week.
This piece of advice for dealing with an energy vampire is great:
"Try this visualization. Around this person imagine yourself surrounded by a cocoon of white light. Think of it as a protective covering that keeps you from being harmed. Tell yourself that you are safe and secure here. The cocoon filters out the negativity so it can’t deplete you."
Miss_ShaSha
11-30-2019, 03:03 PM
I tried. LEGIT really tried. Couldn't successfully do one GOLD show in 6 hrs out of the 7 hrs streamed. I'm giving up. 7 hrs is a good try. Running a hot epsom & coconut oil bath then eating while watching GAIA.
Camming has sucked all Nov on SM. I pray Dec is better.
Miss_ShaSha
12-01-2019, 07:44 AM
I suffer from severe anxiety. I've been using EFT tapping for everything: anxiety, fear, anger, money blocks, etc. Try this before logging on:
https://youtu.be/heQvpti4uvo
Then log on & plan just 5 min. See how you feel after 5 min. If ok, stream 5 more. If not? EFT again then log in & try 5 min. Repeat.
Anxiety is real. & can be a real pain in the ass. But you got this! Knock em dead.
Miss_ShaSha
12-01-2019, 12:08 PM
SUUUUUPER slow on SM. I've done a total of 5 hrs so far. Planning 5 more. Breaking for veggie spaghetti with power greens then back at it. Drank 20 oz water so far.
Intentions: eat clean, drink 80 oz water, meditate, and EFT tapping.
Miss_ShaSha
12-01-2019, 01:48 PM
6 hrs & it's just so slow. Took a break to do an almost 30 min long mindfulness gratitude meditation as I was starting to feel ungrateful for the amount I've earned so far. $27 an hr just seems dismal for a Sunday, but I need to be satisfied as it's more than $0.
52398
I'm supposed to do 4 more hrs, but I'm not motivated to do it at all. I'm exhausted with all the ins & outs with zero conversation. I gotta turn this feeling around. I'm planning 10 days off & need to make something significant before leaving.
Gonna lay for 10 more min then GTFbackO. C'mon Sha...you can do this!!!
izshadow
12-01-2019, 11:59 PM
I noticed I am getting super angry when streaming on SM. Like super angry. I'm snapping at the idiots coming in the room, I'm snapping at my cat, the dogs, etc. Like right now, I yelled at the cat for jumping in the window (had to hit the break button real quick) and then the dog for standing up on the bed to try to lay closer to me and now one dog is MIA and the other is staring at me from the hallway because I yelled. I dont know how to manage myself when I log in to SM. These men that come on there bring out the worst in you. And I cant find another site that is as simplistic as SM so I'm like screwed with trying to make just CMD and NF work. Sigh. I'm venting. I'm failing at self care.
Miss_ShaSha
12-02-2019, 03:39 AM
^^Iz, it's not just you. I get it. All of November I put in 105 hrs and averaged $500 a week. I cannot support myself on $500 a week and I'm a year full time here real soon. After taxes that ain't shit. I swear...it has turned me into a complete bitch. I've been so damn angry...like wanting to hurt someone or break things angry and I self care hardcore!
You're not alone. It's been horrible the last few months with the exception of Oct, but even in Oct I worked so many goddamn hours. I literally ate, slept, showered, and streamed and still didn't make $1K a week.
My anger levels have been through the roof. Livid really. I'm not supposed to feel this way about anything. Fuck...I meditate at least 30 min a day. Sometimes I'd be so angry even a 30 min meditation session or 15 min of EFT tapping couldn't help as I'd find myself angry again after about 30 min in free on SM.
I'm sorry sis...I'm so sorry! It's not just you. You're human, and humans can only deal with so much shitty treatment for hours on end before snapping. When you try and get hardly anything in return and you HAVE to...it just makes your blood boil when members are either wasting your time or trying to get free shit.
I swear...this job is harder than full time Spinning Instruction where I was on the bike 15 to 17 hrs a week. Jesus...just too damn hard! If it's any consolation...you're a great PSO and cam girl. You're beautiful and worth shows back to back. If you're gonna make camming work you just need to repeat these things over and over again cause it's a goddamn waiting game for real. It'll happen, but you just have to put up with shit until the good ones come by to shower you with GOLD. Sending you lots of love sister. ((((HUGS))))
Miss_ShaSha
12-02-2019, 04:38 AM
For self care I'm going to try my best to stay out of venting in camming sucks & just post here when I've delt with anger & frustration in a healthy way.
I'm planning my exit from camming with an experation month of April 2020.
Ill be engaging in as much self care as possible to make it through the winter. I usually get depressed (Seasonal Affective Disorder) during these next few months. Going to try my best to only experience a light depression. Lord help me please on the last legs of this camming journey.
Esixxx
12-16-2019, 07:34 PM
I miss the daylights out of you Sha!
Bumping this.
Today I haven't had a meditation session, it's been a crazy busy day. I have been doing EFT on the regular.
I ran across this just a little bit ago and thought I would share-
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSj_B-8RKNA
MsJess
12-16-2019, 08:16 PM
i'm getting bald patches on my head, i can't manage my stress and anxiety anymore, will my hair grow again? at least the spots are not visible at all but damn i would never thought of me having this issue, halp :(
Don't know where to post this so I'll post it here.
Regarding individual therapy, is it working, it has results in time? I had two sessions already and i feel like nothing changes but i get very emotional from talking about my issues, it's really draining and exhausting.
The therapist said it will take a while to see results/ changes but i fear I'll not have the money to reach that point. I assume she said it will take a while cause my case is complex.
I don't know what to expect from this, is the first time for me i am doing therapy. Anyone can chime in please? Thanks xx
P.S: i read somewhere this phase is called "therapy labor", the very painful phase before giving birth to a new you.
Esixxx
12-16-2019, 11:05 PM
Don't know where to post this so I'll post it here.
Regarding individual therapy, is it working, it has results in time? I had two sessions already and i feel like nothing changes but i get very emotional from talking about my issues, it's really draining and exhausting.
The therapist said it will take a while to see results/ changes but i fear I'll not have the money to reach that point. I assume she said it will take a while cause my case is complex.
I don't know what to expect from this, is the first time for me i am doing therapy. Anyone can chime in please? Thanks xx
P.S: i read somewhere this phase is called "therapy labor", the very painful phase before giving birth to a new you.
I've been to therapy a few times- CBT- which really helped, assertiveness training, depression and anxiety, abuse etc.
One of the things they say in recovery meetings - you gotta feel before you can heal.
Part of it is allowing yourself to feel- (damn emotions) often times we repress or resist feeling what we feel. It's acceptance of the feelings, processing them and then letting go.
The other part for me in my experience was using the coping strategies and tools to get them ingrained in my system to where it became second nature. I do catch myself slipping from time to time, but I recognize then correct myself. Healing does take time, along with learning new ways to cope.
I hope this helps. Other things that have helped me as well is having a good support system. If there are support groups in your area, it might be worth checking out as well.
^^^Thank you soo much for input Esixxx, it helps me understand the therapy process cause i was kinda puzzled also because them therapists same like us cam girls want to sell their services so i needed input from outside.
Thank you again, much love xx
Esixxx
12-16-2019, 11:25 PM
^^^You're welcome.
The last time I was in therapy we had worked towards some goals. Which helped me because I felt like I was making some sort of progress.
Goals like identifying if my depression was genetic or environmental, learning new coping skills, self care then realistic achievable ones.
The best thing to do is ask yourself what you want out of the therapy?
^^^You're welcome.
The last time I was in therapy we had worked towards some goals. Which helped me because I felt like I was making some sort of progress.
Goals like identifying if my depression was genetic or environmental, learning new coping skills, self care then realistic achievable ones.
The best thing to do is ask yourself what you want out of the therapy?
I think after two sessions is too soon for her to get to a conclusion and work towards goals?!
Guess this will come later on, right?
Right now we identify my issues and regarding depression/ anxiety i personally cant determine if it's genetic or not cause i dont know my biological parents, i am adopted.
What i want from my therapy is have a better life (feel better, cope better, minimize the fear of death, see a future cause right now i am plain stuck in fear of death and not seeing any future for myself plus i wanna stop the panic attacks -> no new one occurred in the last days since my doc changed my meds a little).
I will mention the goals to her (she is pretty young and not sure how experienced she is but i trusted to tell her about me camming cause i cant tell an older lady or a guy about this job as the older generation is not open minded here where i live and men, oh well, men are men).
Thank u lots, i highly appreciate ur input! xxx
seicento
12-17-2019, 03:55 AM
Don't know where to post this so I'll post it here.
Regarding individual therapy, is it working, it has results in time? I had two sessions already and i feel like nothing changes but i get very emotional from talking about my issues, it's really draining and exhausting.
The therapist said it will take a while to see results/ changes but i fear I'll not have the money to reach that point. I assume she said it will take a while cause my case is complex.
I don't know what to expect from this, is the first time for me i am doing therapy. Anyone can chime in please? Thanks xx
P.S: i read somewhere this phase is called "therapy labor", the very painful phase before giving birth to a new you.
If CBT, it sure has results and yes, in time. I did 16 sessions at first, 1 a week, so 4 months. I started seeing results after like 4 sessions maybe. My issues being anxiety, panic attacks and agoraphobia. I had a relapse like one year later and went for another 4 sessions. Relapses can happen, especially in stress conditions.
What matters most is to have a really good therapist and the effort you put into it matter as much as the therapist's skills. I know from my therapist that it doesn't work for everyone or not as quick and some need medication too. When we finished she said I worked hard to get well, although it didn't feel like a huge effort to me then.
Anyway, 4 years later I can tell that although it was expensive, it was all worth. I just regret not knowing about CBT earlier. At first I did a few sessions of psychoanalysis. That was what I found to be draining and it was breaking me emotionally, I didn't feel it was helping me but making me feel worse. Psychoanalysis might be good when you want to fix deeper issues but it also lasts years while CBT changes your perception over things and helps you feel better sooner.
^^^ Ty xxx, I will answer back in detail when at the PC.
ETA: My issue is more organic than behavioral, due to wrong levels of hormones in my brain plus a high level of stress cause of work being extremely slow back in springtime my brain did what is called "blue screen error" that lead to a psychotic episode with hallucinations then followed immediately by severe panic attack.
I been hospitalized for it, received medication and recovered pretty fast.
My issue now is, when I remember what happened to me I induce myself panic attacks cause I fear it could happen again and I might be home alone.
Stress is not helping, I should be relaxed but how camming on SM is lately it just triggers stress then high level of cortisol (stress hormone) then other hormones react too and the mix 'could' trigger another episode like I originally had.
I mean, I can never know what can lead to another episode like that so I wanna avoid it and understand what happened to me, that's the reason I went for therapy, to avoid a 'blue screen error'.
The chemistry in my brain is modified cause of hormones being too little or too low so I take meds to balance it, i really need meds and to learn to control the stress level plus sort my other issues if I want to (other traumas).