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Jodyjensen
11-25-2020, 11:12 AM
Been drinking the anxiety free tea for 11 days. It's been 6 days since I've had a derealization episode. They usually hit every 6-8 days. I feel well despite the stress from a lower hrly on cam. I am using affirmations such as I handle anxiety well and I manage my stress well. Hopefully this all works to prevent further episodes.

My kiddo's emotional support dog is here with me for 5 days. He's incredible sweet. I love him. We just had our second walk of the day and now he's right by my bed in his bed and I just feel so safe and relaxed.

I've been doing the new money manifestation meditation nightly now for 15 min. I'm trying to manifest a large settlement as I have an open case that should reach resolution in the next couple months. Hoping for BIG MONEY!!!

2.5+ hrs on cam and it's seriously dead for me. $26 and I'm starting to get very bored. I have 8 hrs planned today. Not sure if I can do it. I'll meditate here soon to shift mood.

I find pets can be a great calming influence. I give my cat kisses and a sniff (sounds daft, I know) when I feel anxious and her scent calms me. That’s until she has the zoomies and bites though, that definitely isn’t calming!

Miss_ShaSha
11-25-2020, 11:38 AM
GIRL my mouth never went numb and apparently too much of it can be dangerous, you might want to check your dose. I know what you mean though because IME things like calming supplements soothe with little things like day-to-day annoyances, but they won’t help big issues/big triggers.



Oh, it's known to make your mouth numb. At least real kava does. I had a shot at a kava bar and it tasted horrible and my mouth, tongue, and throat were numb lol. When I have the Yogi Kava I never feel the numbing effects, but legit kava does.

Miss_ShaSha
11-25-2020, 11:41 AM
I find pets can be a great calming influence. I give my cat kisses and a sniff (sounds daft, I know) when I feel anxious and her scent calms me. That’s until she has the zoomies and bites though, that definitely isn’t calming!

I'm interested to see if his being here helps to reduce stress. He's kinda amazing at love. When I visited them last winter I was sick and he slept on the couch with me. It was so sweet.

Haha, OMG...that last part made me laugh loud. Sounds like she's a big help. It's nice you two are together.

naughtybabe1
11-25-2020, 03:44 PM
I had to put down my cat yesterday and of course i feel like shit. I'm all cried out and now it's just the numb/lost/sad feelings. I don't feel this way very often at all (not since 2013 after loosing my dad) so it's something I'm not used to. He was a cool huge big ball of love (unlike my prissy princess female cat). He had diabetes and then developed kidney diesease. Just a bag of bones in the end and after many many vet trips I just couldn't watch him suffer so best to just let him go hang out on the big cat tree in the sky. I still have my other cat and my mini aussie dog but there is a hole of course. Here's to all our pets who are a huge part of our lives....sometimes I forget how much. RIP tahoe...mama loves you! I'll still get on and cam today (lest I forget it's a SM contest and I just got my period and put my cat down week)...how much worse can it get?....haha. But I also remember how lucky I am to have camming for now and when all this virus stuff is over I can get a PT real world job if I want or whatever I feel like. I'm lucky and I know it. HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all web cam ladies. Love yourself first!

Esixxx
11-25-2020, 03:51 PM
I had to put down my cat yesterday and of course i feel like shit. I'm all cried out and now it's just the numb/lost/sad feelings. I don't feel this way very often at all (not since 2013 after loosing my dad) so it's something I'm not used to. He was a cool huge big ball of love (unlike my prissy princess female cat). He had diabetes and then developed kidney diesease. Just a bag of bones in the end and after many many vet trips I just couldn't watch him suffer so best to just let him go hang out on the big cat tree in the sky. I still have my other cat and my mini aussie dog but there is a hole of course. Here's to all our pets who are a huge part of our lives....sometimes I forget how much. RIP tahoe...mama loves you! I'll still get on and cam today (lest I forget it's a SM contest and I just got my period and put my cat down week)...how much worse can it get?....haha. But I also remember how lucky I am to have camming for now and when all this virus stuff is over I can get a PT real world job if I want or whatever I feel like. I'm lucky and I know it. HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all web cam ladies. Love yourself first!

Hugs... Pets are the best- I wish I could have one at my place. Animals I think are at times better companions than people.

Jodyjensen
11-25-2020, 03:52 PM
I had to put down my cat yesterday and of course i feel like shit. I'm all cried out and now it's just the numb/lost/sad feelings. I don't feel this way very often at all (not since 2013 after loosing my dad) so it's something I'm not used to. He was a cool huge big ball of love (unlike my prissy princess female cat). He had diabetes and then developed kidney diesease. Just a bag of bones in the end and after many many vet trips I just couldn't watch him suffer so best to just let him go hang out on the big cat tree in the sky. I still have my other cat and my mini aussie dog but there is a hole of course. Here's to all our pets who are a huge part of our lives....sometimes I forget how much. RIP tahoe...mama loves you! I'll still get on and cam today (lest I forget it's a SM contest and I just got my period and put my cat down week)...how much worse can it get?....haha. But I also remember how lucky I am to have camming for now and when all this virus stuff is over I can get a PT real world job if I want or whatever I feel like. I'm lucky and I know it. HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all web cam ladies. Love yourself first!
Sorry to hear this, I can’t imagine how painful that is x

Miss_ShaSha
11-25-2020, 04:19 PM
I had to put down my cat yesterday and of course i feel like shit. I'm all cried out and now it's just the numb/lost/sad feelings. I don't feel this way very often at all (not since 2013 after loosing my dad) so it's something I'm not used to. He was a cool huge big ball of love (unlike my prissy princess female cat). He had diabetes and then developed kidney diesease. Just a bag of bones in the end and after many many vet trips I just couldn't watch him suffer so best to just let him go hang out on the big cat tree in the sky. I still have my other cat and my mini aussie dog but there is a hole of course. Here's to all our pets who are a huge part of our lives....sometimes I forget how much. RIP tahoe...mama loves you! I'll still get on and cam today (lest I forget it's a SM contest and I just got my period and put my cat down week)...how much worse can it get?....haha. But I also remember how lucky I am to have camming for now and when all this virus stuff is over I can get a PT real world job if I want or whatever I feel like. I'm lucky and I know it. HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all web cam ladies. Love yourself first!

Oh my heart hurts. I'm really sorry for your loss. Sending white light and hope you can get some decent sleep tonight so tomorrow isn't so tough.

Miss_ShaSha
11-26-2020, 03:33 PM
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It's been a bit since I've logged daily meditation. This is a 40 min meditation that started with gratitude & ended with manifestation. This session felt incredible! Towards the end my body was vibrating. I may have possibly went into a lucid dream as I have no other way to explain it.

Legit my body felt as though there were currents of electricity running through it. I was aware I was meditating, but the body experience seemed unreal.

Never had that happen meditating for long periods. Whoa! Wild lol.

Miss_ShaSha
11-27-2020, 10:08 AM
Was feeling really sluggish after good sleep and 2.5+ hrs on so I took a break to do some EFT for energy. Now I'm vibrating with good energy.


https://youtu.be/5oTk7ni1WZM

UPDATE:

Did this tapping routine again but twice so 8 min of tapping and it really perks me up...like right away. When he tells you to take a deep breath afterwards that's when you feel all the good vibrations from the EFT. So cool!

Miss_ShaSha
11-28-2020, 01:38 AM
Had an incredible dream. I was a student in HS. I was at school; it was packed, and out of nowhere someone hit me hard in the face. I was dazed and confused. Didn't even see them. As soon as I came to the person hit me again. I saw him run off. It was a very large, strong black guy.

There was a really attractive guy who saw me in distress and came to ask if I was ok. I said "No. Some guy just hit me." Then the black guy came back to hand me some of my work in folders. As soon as he walked up and handed me the last bit of my things I grabbed him, hit him, then had him by his throat choking him to death.

The attractive guy told me to stop and let the guy go. I choked the guy til he passed out and fell to the ground. The attractive guy checked his pulse and said "He's alive. Let's get out of here!"

The attractive guy took me to a classroom. We sat down and I tried to relax. The attractive guy passed me a soda and I smiled. We sat in class for a while. While in class I caught myself in a mirror. I was gorgeous with a short cut. I fluffed my hair and said I look like a mess. The attractive guy sitting next to me leaned over, whispered in my ear "you look great" then we locked eyes. I almost kissed him, but he pulled away.

I took a look through the info the black guy gave me & realized he had been stealing stuff from my locker. I was highly upset as it was good art work that I hadn't seen in a long time.

Class ended and the attractive guy took off. I was a bit disappointed but gathered my things. I walked off campus to a bunch of picnic tables. I chose a spot next to a Mexican girl. I moved something out of the way next to her and sat down. She very rudely said something. I responded with "Oh, someone is sitting here? I don't see them, so it's definitely ok for me to sit here." She turned away in defeat. Then the guy next to me said something funny. I realized I was being a bitch and moved over to his other side.

We chatted a bit then he left.

I woke up. I feel incredibly good right now. Totally empowered. Like I had two problems in that dream and solved them. A bit aggressively, but I solved them.

Just before bed I was reading Letting Go by David Hawkins which talks about sitting with all feelings then letting them go which is the key to true happiness. Perhaps reading I have more control in life than I think resulted in this empowering dream.

Lately I've been having dreams that I'm in control of without them being lucid dreams. In lucid dreams I face problems head on and turn out victorious. This was not a lucid dream, but I felt powerful. Definitely a victory!

To add:

I logged on after that dream for 1.5 hrs. Didn't make a penny. Logged off then went back to sleep on my back. I usually have lucid dreams when I fall asleep on my back. Well I did have a lucid dream and it was rad!

Reading that book Letting Go before sleep really has an effect on my mind and in a really good way.

Genoveve
11-28-2020, 12:06 PM
^^^Well damn. Last night I just dreamt that I was on a boat in the ocean near a gigantic deformed dolphin LOL. (even though that sounds horrifying it actually wasn't a nightmare)

Miss_ShaSha
11-28-2020, 12:37 PM
^^Haha, well dolphins are super positive mammals and I think even if it was deformed it had to have been a good sign.

Miss_ShaSha
11-30-2020, 04:54 AM
Woke from a weird ass dream at 3:30am. It was about snakes which are my phobia. I was handling them well, but damn I was feeling strange when I woke so I did a long Zen Healing meditation to relax & reset. Feel much better.

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Update:

40 min training session on the bike this AM. I was off from gym 7 days & needed to just train aerobically so for this session I kept heart rate low. 139 is my recovery rate when I train HIIT. So staying below it for the whole ride was my objective. Accomplished that & I feel good.

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AuroraJade
12-01-2020, 07:34 AM
Second day of no smoking now. I am quitting using patches. Havent used the vape either. I feel depressed but I know it will pass. I am feeling less anxious tho: the patches have less nicotine in them then smoking 1/2 pack a day and nicotine is what makes you jittery and on edge. My mouth and teeth already feel cleaner and better. Going to the dental hygienist tomorrow and getting them cleaned thoroughly. Also already seeing small improvements in my health, stamina and how I feel physically.

thatgingercamgirl
12-01-2020, 10:55 AM
I've been stressing about making sure my family is taken care of financially, and today I can feel myself vibrating with anxiety. Time for a self care night, I think! I've been neglecting my painting, and it's time to get back to it, maybe give myself a facial and do my nails :)

Pokahantas
12-01-2020, 02:22 PM
I am slowly but surely coming out of a deep depression that lasted for three and a half weeks. It was so brutal and life just seemed hopeless. But today is day 7 out of depression, well at least I’m able to take showers, eat and get out of bed now. Yesterday I felt somewhat proud of myself for being able to take some killer selfie photos for my onlyfans and was on a cam session with a regular that turned out to be very lucrative financially. I’ve had depression my entire life, been in and out of hospitals over the years and for a while it was managed pretty well until covid hit and then it just came back with a force. Tomorrow I’m hoping to get back on my treadmill something I really miss because it was so helpful with my depression. Keeping my fingers crossed that this trend of moving away from depression continues. I have so much anxiety about it returning but I’m enjoying feeling better overall. As I’m writing this post I’m sitting in front of my open house door and the sun is beaming through with my three dogs and cat and it feels nice. I hope everyone on sw is doing well and wish you much success in the industry in these uncertain times.

Miss_ShaSha
12-02-2020, 08:53 AM
Second day of no smoking now. I am quitting using patches. Havent used the vape either. I feel depressed but I know it will pass. I am feeling less anxious tho: the patches have less nicotine in them then smoking 1/2 pack a day and nicotine is what makes you jittery and on edge. My mouth and teeth already feel cleaner and better. Going to the dental hygienist tomorrow and getting them cleaned thoroughly. Also already seeing small improvements in my health, stamina and how I feel physically.


Well done! Quitting is hard. I've done it a couple times with the patch. They work. Great to hear you can already feel a difference.



I've been stressing about making sure my family is taken care of financially, and today I can feel myself vibrating with anxiety. Time for a self care night, I think! I've been neglecting my painting, and it's time to get back to it, maybe give myself a facial and do my nails :)

Yeah, good idea. I take those self care days too and they truly help.


I am slowly but surely coming out of a deep depression that lasted for three and a half weeks. It was so brutal and life just seemed hopeless. But today is day 7 out of depression, well at least I’m able to take showers, eat and get out of bed now. Yesterday I felt somewhat proud of myself for being able to take some killer selfie photos for my onlyfans and was on a cam session with a regular that turned out to be very lucrative financially. I’ve had depression my entire life, been in and out of hospitals over the years and for a while it was managed pretty well until covid hit and then it just came back with a force. Tomorrow I’m hoping to get back on my treadmill something I really miss because it was so helpful with my depression. Keeping my fingers crossed that this trend of moving away from depression continues. I have so much anxiety about it returning but I’m enjoying feeling better overall. As I’m writing this post I’m sitting in front of my open house door and the sun is beaming through with my three dogs and cat and it feels nice. I hope everyone on sw is doing well and wish you much success in the industry in these uncertain times.

I'm glad to hear it's lifting. Hang in there. You're on the right track it sounds.

Miss_ShaSha
12-02-2020, 08:57 AM
Had a proper date night with BF. We played pool, darts, and A holes. He's great at darts and A holes, but sucks so bad at pool lol. I drank myself into a stupid mess. I don't remember half the night. Woke this morning naked and asked BF what happened. He said I attacked him when we got back to my place then I spent a good while throwing up in the toilet while he held my hair and rubbed my back.

Thank God I don't remember any of it haha. He said "baby, you can't drink like that when you go out with your friends. Someone could hurt you." I think I had 4 glasses of red wine...I think.

No hangover but I'm really really tired.

UPDATE:

55 min meditation session on breathing awareness.

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Jodyjensen
12-02-2020, 09:20 AM
Had a proper date night with BF. We played pool, darts, and A holes. He's great at darts and A holes, but sucks so bad at pool lol. I drank myself into a stupid mess. I don't remember half the night. Woke this morning naked and asked BF what happened. He said I attacked him when we got back to my place then I spent a good while throwing up in the toilet while he held my hair and rubbed my back.

Thank God I don't remember any of it haha. He said "baby, you can't drink like that when you go out with your friends. Someone could hurt you." I think I had 4 glasses of red wine...I think.

No hangover but I'm really really tired.
That really made me laugh. I’ve had so many nights like that, but my blackouts usually start after the second bottle of white! Haa. Hope you perk up quickly. Sounds like a fun night at least!

I haven’t had a drink in 52 days now, the hangover updates from my friends really help my willpower :)

Esixxx
12-02-2020, 09:35 AM
Took the day off yesterday. My monthly visitor kicked my ass.

Had a detox salt bath. Did some self reiki. Then slept on and off throughout the day. Treated myself with a burger and milkshake- had a really bad craving for it.
I am glad I took the day off because I feel tons better today.

AuroraJade
12-02-2020, 12:24 PM
Self reiki? That sounds really cool. How do you start with that :)

Feeling really tense because of the upcoming move. Going to get settled in there before Christmas hopefully. When that is done I am going to a spiritual massage therapist. this woman can do different massages and also 'read' you, like a medium. Got her recommended by my mother in law, she really feels the benefits from her work. Very curious: ready to start my spiritual journey in the new year.

Having a lot of migraines lately. Thinking about getting some Botox in my glabella area, that helped a lot. I would recommend it to everyone. My clinic has big discounts for Christmas, so maybe I will give it a shot again (lol).

This Corona bullshit is not good for my mental health either. Excuse my language. Went shopping for the new house today and we got a comment from a store clerk that my HUSBAND and I had to SOCIAL DISTANCE. my HUSBAND. we sleep in a bed together. we have sex. we live together. They were like: you cant be at a cash register close together. So I was like: its okay, we are married! No, still not allowed. Come on? What the hell is this world becoming? I completely lost it when I got home. This particular store was already in the local news because they have a strict 2-person policy, and a mother got denied because she was shopping there with her TWIN BABIES. You can be pro or anti corona measures, but this is going too far and actually scares me.

Miss_ShaSha
12-02-2020, 12:40 PM
That really made me laugh. I’ve had so many nights like that, but my blackouts usually start after the second bottle of white! Haa. Hope you perk up quickly. Sounds like a fun night at least!

I haven’t had a drink in 52 days now, the hangover updates from my friends really help my willpower :)


Thanks! We'll damn! Well done abstaining!!!



Took the day off yesterday. My monthly visitor kicked my ass.

Had a detox salt bath. Did some self reiki. Then slept on and off throughout the day. Treated myself with a burger and milkshake- had a really bad craving for it.
I am glad I took the day off because I feel tons better today.


Glad to hear self care did the trick! Kick ass today.



Self reiki? That sounds really cool. How do you start with that :)

Feeling really tense because of the upcoming move. Going to get settled in there before Christmas hopefully. When that is done I am going to a spiritual massage therapist. this woman can do different massages and also 'read' you, like a medium. Got her recommended by my mother in law, she really feels the benefits from her work. Very curious: ready to start my spiritual journey in the new year.

Having a lot of migraines lately. Thinking about getting some Botox in my glabella area, that helped a lot. I would recommend it to everyone. My clinic has big discounts for Christmas, so maybe I will give it a shot again (lol).

Awesome to hear you'll be on a new spiritual journey. Keep us updated! Please!!!

Esixxx
12-02-2020, 01:03 PM
Self reiki? That sounds really cool. How do you start with that :).

After I started getting reiki treatments I became really curious about and found a course on sale on Udemy. My healer knew I was studying reiki- during one of the reiki sessions she was guided to give a level 2 attunement (which means I can practice reiki on others) I completed the course and have taken others since- it is really cool and is something that I am really fascinated with.


PS Udemy does sales every so often, it's good to keep an eye out on- some as low as 9.99

Miss_ShaSha
12-03-2020, 05:38 AM
It is officially 14 days free of derealization. I've been drinking an anxiety free tea for 19 days. I have at least one cup every morning with ginger and lemon plus honey. I let it steep for 15 min. I've been resteeping so I get at least 3 uses each go. I bought a 14 day supply and I still have enough for 3 more uses. It's a bit costly, but resteeping helps make the supply last.

I'll link it here for others to try if you'd like. I'm going to buy another 2 week supply. The great thing about the tea is the ingredients and a mini course they give you in addition to the tea which teaches you different ways to tackle anxiety holistically.

https://cerebralteas.com/

To add:

I'm going doing a Pink Himalayan Salt detox today to flush my system. I've been drinking a lot of alcohol. I want to start my cleansing process. I am planning to get a Reiki healing session done soon. It has been months since I've had one. I want to be clean inside and out so I'll detox today.

I'll be hydrating today too then eating gut healthy as I will have cleansed not only bad bacteria out but the good too. So I'll drink 120 oz water today then eat clean all day. Super excited!!!

UPDATE:

Detox complete and have eaten super gut healthy as well as had 70 oz water so far today. My energy levels are through the roof. I feel exceptionally well and in a very good mood.

Meditated on Abundance for 15 min and that felt great.

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Miss_ShaSha
12-03-2020, 05:53 AM
After I started getting reiki treatments I became really curious about and found a course on sale on Udemy. My healer knew I was studying reiki- during one of the reiki sessions she was guided to give a level 2 attunement (which means I can practice reiki on others) I completed the course and have taken others since- it is really cool and is something that I am really fascinated with.


PS Udemy does sales every so often, it's good to keep an eye out on- some as low as 9.99

Thanks for this!!! I just got 4 courses ($350 value) for $42 on Udemy.

Miss_ShaSha
12-05-2020, 07:10 AM
Felt slightly derealized yesterday, but it was so mild; I think the tea is really working. Often times my thoughts are full of catastrophe which induces panic, but I was able to think positively and get a lot of chores done.

Yesterday was a self care day as well as a get chores done day. I had put laundry off for a couple weeks and had to do two full loads. I was able to get groceries and clean the kitchen too.

When I have derealization episodes I'm so scared and feel totally unreal, but yesterday I was just slightly disconnected. I didn't text all my loved ones like I usually do to check up on them which is huge progress. And I was able to genuinely laugh and joke around. That does NOT happen usually. Super happy about that.

Excited about tonight as I'm discussing a new self help book I'm reading over Skype vid chat. Then Sunday I'm finally getting a Reiki Healing session done. It's been months since I've been able to afford one. I'm also getting some social medicine in on Tues by spending the eve with a good friend to cook and catch up.

Esixxx
12-05-2020, 09:39 AM
Yesterday ended up being a self care day- although I intended to work (put the war paint on- which I usually do not do on my days off)

I woke up at 1:30 am yesterday morning- In journaling I realized how much I am going to miss camming full time (certain aspects of it.) Practiced the techniques in letting go and came to terms with this upcoming transition. I wasn't expecting these feelings to come up.

Performed a self reiki treatment, then had a huge burst of energy got my weekly cleaning done then listened to a paraliminal "abundant Money Mindset"

Did a grocery run. Took a power nap then went to see my Dad - haven't visited him in a couple of months. It was a good visit- needed that day

Miss_ShaSha
12-05-2020, 11:54 AM
Yesterday ended up being a self care day- although I intended to work (put the war paint on- which I usually do not do on my days off)

I woke up at 1:30 am yesterday morning- In journaling I realized how much I am going to miss camming full time (certain aspects of it.) Practiced the techniques in letting go and came to terms with this upcoming transition. I wasn't expecting these feelings to come up.

Performed a self reiki treatment, then had a huge burst of energy got my weekly cleaning done then listened to a paraliminal "abundant Money Mindset"

Did a grocery run. Took a power nap then went to see my Dad - haven't visited him in a couple of months. It was a good visit- needed that day

So glad to hear your social medicine lifted you up. With the pandemic it's hard to socialize, but getting it in--especially during winter--is so imperative.

Also glad to hear your journaling is helping you work through stuff. It's such a great self care tool that I don't engage in enough.

Miss_ShaSha
12-06-2020, 07:39 AM
Very excited for this afternoon as I'm having a Reiki session. It will be my first in months.

Feeling tired & sluggish. After a very slow 1.5 hrs on cam I decided to break & balance my chakras. Still feeling tired so I'm going to meditate again. Will use a guided Shamanic journey track to visit spirit guides & hopefully gain some energy.

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Guided Shamanic journey revealed an image of a deer & a tall, thin, gray haired man in a long silver robe. I asked how to eliminate derealization episodes and was faced with drink the anxiety free tea and believe in yourself.

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thatgingercamgirl
12-06-2020, 02:48 PM
Very excited for this afternoon as I'm having a Reiki session. It will be my first in months.

Feeling tired & sluggish. After a very slow 1.5 hrs on cam I decided to break & balance my chakras. Still feeling tired so I'm going to meditate again. Will use a guided Shamanic journey track to visit spirit guides & hopefully gain some energy.

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Guided Shamanic journey revealed an image of a deer & a tall, thin, gray haired man in a long silver robe. I asked how to eliminate derealization episodes and was faced with drink the anxiety free tea and believe in yourself.

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Enjoy lady! I can't wait until I can get my first reiki session.

The shamanic journey you experienced is intriguing; I have been strongly considering trying the anxiety free tea. Thank you for the recommendation!

Miss_ShaSha
12-07-2020, 05:25 AM
^^Thanks! Reiki is so special. I've been having sessions for more than a year. They truly help me out!

And the tea is so healthy. It's got so many nutrients in it. I think it's a great product :)

Miss_ShaSha
12-07-2020, 05:33 AM
Reiki session was great! I need work on heart and sacral chakra so I have some homework. My third eye also needed work. She said she she saw this amazing golden light and felt a lot of love when working on me. And after the session was complete...my chest felt so light and open!!! She def opened up that heart chakra.

Before the session I had been having trouble with sleep: not getting enough and feeling tired often even after 7 hrs. Amazingly I got 9.5 hrs last night with a sleep score of 88 which is the second highest score I've ever had!

I have homework for heart chakra and sacral chakra which is to meditate on seeing light in my heart and extending outward to surround my whole body, write myself a love letter, and do some painting or doodling.

Really truly satisfied with that session!!!

thatgingercamgirl
12-08-2020, 05:32 PM
Reiki session was great! I need work on heart and sacral chakra so I have some homework. My third eye also needed work. She said she she saw this amazing golden light and felt a lot of love when working on me. And after the session was complete...my chest felt so light and open!!! She def opened up that heart chakra.

Before the session I had been having trouble with sleep: not getting enough and feeling tired often even after 7 hrs. Amazingly I got 9.5 hrs last night with a sleep score of 88 which is the second highest score I've ever had!

I have homework for heart chakra and sacral chakra which is to meditate on seeing light in my heart and extending outward to surround my whole body, write myself a love letter, and do some painting or doodling.

Really truly satisfied with that session!!!

Yes! I love that it did you so much good, getting that boost to your vibration is going to help so much! I love the homework she gave you too, it's going to keep it all going :)

Miss_ShaSha
12-09-2020, 11:56 AM
Yes! I love that it did you so much good, getting that boost to your vibration is going to help so much! I love the homework she gave you too, it's going to keep it all going :)

YESSSS! I feel well.

When will you have your first Reiki session?

Miss_ShaSha
12-09-2020, 11:57 AM
Almost 2.5 hrs & it was so slow so I meditated on self love.

This track is my fav! I purchased it & sleep to it every night.


https://youtu.be/HuKorirYplY

Miss_ShaSha
12-10-2020, 09:16 AM
WHOA! Energy is incredible today. I had the Reiki session on Sunday and yesterday I was feeling good, but today I'm on fire. My 40 min aerobic training session on the bike was ace and then the 20 min of strength kicked ass.


BF added 10 lbs to my bench press and I did 4 sets of 10. I'm feeling strong AF. Other good news is in 20 days I've lost 7 lbs. So I'm 145 now and just 5 from goal weight. Very pleased by this.

Cherry on top is BF said I look good haha. He's a good guy :)

thatgingercamgirl
12-11-2020, 05:04 PM
YESSSS! I feel well.

When will you have your first Reiki session?

I'm not sure, hopefully soon! I'm financing two separate businesses aside from SW at the moment, you know how it is. I can't wait for mine tho!

So glad to read your most recent post! You are kicking ass!

Miss_ShaSha
12-12-2020, 07:25 AM
^^Whoa, you're busy. I hear it tho. Sessions aren't exactly cheap.

Oh, shit lol. I do ok. I'm like a $23 an hr girl now lol. Sometimes it's good & sometimes it's bad. But the good days sure feel good :D

Miss_ShaSha
12-12-2020, 11:20 AM
Since I am hulking SM bonus week starting tomorrow doing 40 hrs, I took Fri and today off. Yesterday I just vegged with BF by eating good food and watching funny, educational, and inspiring stuff. We cuddled quite a bit and I totally got my fill of oxytocin. Yesterday just felt good!

Today I've done chores and a lot of them! I don't have to do shit for a week now. YAY!!!

I'm now committing to 30 days of Manifest Miracles meditation which I did once before (last time I did it daily for more than 90 days and great things happened).

I'm starting my AM with the anxiety free tea then the meditation. This is this AM's session which turned out great! I've been in an exceptionally good mood today.

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This is the meditation if anyone is interested:


https://youtu.be/UcuJvFl7aZE

I'm finishing off this self care day with my weekly Skype vid chat to discuss Letting Go a self help book that is already changing my life. It's so cool to have a buddy to discuss the material with and join me on this exciting new journey.

Esixxx
12-13-2020, 08:08 AM
Since I am hulking SM bonus week starting tomorrow doing 40 hrs, I took Fri and today off. Yesterday I just vegged with BF by eating good food and watching funny, educational, and inspiring stuff. We cuddled quite a bit and I totally got my fill of oxytocin. Yesterday just felt good!

Today I've done chores and a lot of them! I don't have to do shit for a week now. YAY!!!

I'm now committing to 30 days of Manifest Miracles meditation which I did once before (last time I did it daily for more than 90 days and great things happened).

I'm starting my AM with the anxiety free tea then the meditation. This is this AM's session which turned out great! I've been in an exceptionally good mood today.

53707

This is the meditation if anyone is interested:


https://youtu.be/UcuJvFl7aZE

I'm finishing off this self care day with my weekly Skype vid chat to discuss Letting Go a self help book that is already changing my life. It's so cool to have a buddy to discuss the material with and join me on this exciting new journey.


Isn't this the one you used to do back in the day?

Miss_ShaSha
12-13-2020, 08:51 AM
^^Yes, this is the one that eliminated derealization for almost 4 months!!!

ChloeGreenX
12-13-2020, 09:58 AM
I love meditating. Although I am not doing it as often as I should these days. I am getting back to it from today onwards. Meditation has helped me a LOT back in the day. It's amazing. I also want to get back to yoga :)

Miss_ShaSha
12-13-2020, 10:47 AM
^^Yeah, it totally saves me when I have to STFO. Yoga is great too. I've been practicing it off and on for more than 2 decades. I've really gotten far more consistent with meditation tho rather than yoga, but both are so good for my mental health.

Miss_ShaSha
12-13-2020, 11:55 AM
Day 3 of Manifest Miracles and that track just chills me way the fuck out lol. The drop from 100 bpm to 60 is proof of how that track works to just zen you out haha.

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Back on cam. I went 3.5 hrs and even after a quick EFT lift I felt my vibe dropping. Feeling much better and ready to STFO and earn this bonus money on SM.

Jodyjensen
12-14-2020, 06:54 AM
I was having such a shitty day until my new dildos came, now I cannot stop laughing. Next time a man tells me his cock is 10 inches I’m gonna bash him across the face with my 10incher for being a big fat liar :) :). Really made my day ha

Miss_ShaSha
12-14-2020, 08:34 AM
^^LOLOLLL that just made me crack up in free!!!

izshadow
12-18-2020, 09:18 AM
I know they say you should try to think positive and keep good thoughts flowing, which is hard right now and has been hard this year. I'm having an issue with manifestation and sending out in to the universe what I want because it has never worked for me but I do keep trying. One area I dont know how to fix, I was wondering if you had some advice on. They say the first thought when you wake up should be good and how you see or want the day. My issue is as soon as I open my eyes, I automatically wish I was dead and then follows the I hate life, I'm tired, I dont want to do this anymore, life is a joke, etc etc. How do you change that split second when it has become so automatic? That thought, those thoughts are now out there to the universe and you cant take them back and its been a thought for a very long time that gets stronger everyday and has for quite some time.

Miss_ShaSha
12-18-2020, 10:46 AM
^^I hear ya girl. I can have bad days like that too. I think what helps me is going to bed with a gratitude meditation then waking up in the morning with a cup of tea and being thankful I have that.

I think waking up with gratitude in mind helps ease the stress.

Panthera
12-18-2020, 12:23 PM
How do you change that split second when it has become so automatic? That thought, those thoughts are now out there to the universe and you cant take them back and its been a thought for a very long time that gets stronger everyday and has for quite some time.

They say you need to hold a thought for 17 seconds in order for it to gain enough momentum to start manifesting. Of course, there are other factors that come into play for a successful manifestation. But yeah, just a "split second", thank God, does not matter. You have 16 seconds to bitch and then you have to start giving thanks for the good things in your life :) I perfectly understand you, I wake up most mornings with the same "what a bad joke" thought, but yeah... for some reason we have to go on. I still trust there must be a valid reason for all this :)

Panthera
12-18-2020, 12:29 PM
also: Who's in for the "30 days of Yoga" with Adriene, starting the 1rst of January? It's free on Youtube, one video a day for 30 days, every January 1rst (in the last 7 years I think) This year's theme is "Breath". I have been doing them all, and in the last 4 years, also in real-time! I wholeheartedly recommend this!