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Jodyjensen
01-26-2021, 01:29 AM
Dunno what’s up with me atm but my MH has went to shit again this week. Felt so low and anxious since Saturday night. I had a great week last week, I should feel happy and proud of myself but I feel so low, useless and demotivated. Took two days off and thought that would help but nope, still feel shitty. Gonna force myself to muster up some energy to ring the Drs later and up my meds as I can’t afford to be taking a load of time off.

Miss_ShaSha
01-26-2021, 11:50 AM
Dunno what’s up with me atm but my MH has went to shit again this week. Felt so low and anxious since Saturday night. I had a great week last week, I should feel happy and proud of myself but I feel so low, useless and demotivated. Took two days off and thought that would help but nope, still feel shitty. Gonna force myself to muster up some energy to ring the Drs later and up my meds as I can’t afford to be taking a load of time off.

Sending white light sister.

Miss_ShaSha
01-26-2021, 11:51 AM
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Dunno why but can barely manage 20 min HIT on the bike. My stamina is shot! Ugh.

Addition:

Just bought the FLOWTIME meditation headband to track progress of meditation sessions. Excited to see my results.

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0824L385C/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o00_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1

thatgingercamgirl
01-26-2021, 01:17 PM
I met a guy about a week ago. I messaged him first. He responded promptly. I asked to vid chat first. He showed his punctuality by answering on time. I asked him out on a first date. He was early.

& our first date was so special. His eyes spoke kindness. We both agree friendship first is a priority, but have both expressed there is chemistry.

I asked him to take the love languages quiz. Turns out we're compatible. I asked him to take the attachment style test & he's secure. (Patrick lied on his). I'm really looking forward to getting to know Mustafa more.

He's taking me out for Mediterranean tomorrow, pool Tues, & if all is well...I'm cooking him chicken adobo Wed & we'll watch a movie at my place.

I'm not about rebounds, but getting to know someone new isn't against my rules.

I'm happy & it's quite nice.

We went on a second date today and he was early. I had Babaganush (SP) but that shit was GOOD. He was the perfect gentleman and even held my hand. He's been responding to my messages with lightning quick speed and it's really nice.

I'm not rebounding, but the positive attention is ACE!!!

Yes! Enjoy it girl <3

Jodyjensen
01-27-2021, 06:25 AM
Feeling a lot better today. Have a drs appointment in a couple of weeks so hopefully work on a way to improve/manage my MH then. Done a lot of OnlyFans research as I’m in a slump with that and was about to give up on it. Feel a lot better about it and have some new ideas so that’s good. About to dye my hair and give myself a bit of a pamper then clean the house. I’ll get back to streaming tomorrow, hopefully feel like a new woman by then haa

Miss_ShaSha
01-27-2021, 08:30 AM
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Took a quick break to meditate on gratitude. This AM has been great. Low goal, healthy smoothie, good tea, and good morning text messages from M. I'm happy.

Miss_ShaSha
01-28-2021, 03:12 AM
Got the FLOWTIME meditation headband & did a Synctuition meditation. B waves were high which means I was alert & focused.

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UPDATE:

25 min Synctuition meditation. My B waves were high so I was focused & intense. Second highest score was O wave which was deep relaxation or light sleep. I'm proud of these stats & want to improve.

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Miss_ShaSha
01-29-2021, 07:06 AM
Synctuition claims Gamma waves are accessed during each journey. That's no lie. Yesterday's meditation to the Passion journey had my Gamma waves at 13%. That's high! Damn Synctuition & FLOWTIME rock!

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Miss_ShaSha
01-30-2021, 05:00 AM
AM ROUTINE:

Green kombucha tea
Echinacea
Anxiety free tea
Lemon
Ginger


SMOOTHIE:

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UPDATE:

THE most successful meditation session yet with Synctuition. 14% Gamma wave frequency is crazy good!

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Demisexual
01-30-2021, 03:08 PM
I apologize in advance for the vent, but I have to hide from everyone irl and I don't know where else to ask. I come from an extremely abusive family (both parents narcissists) and a third world country. After a ton of hard work and sacrifice and working vanilla jobs, I was able to graduate college and get a job that allowed me to move out from my parents house.

Then I married someone who lost their job when covid hit and my job is paying me half of what it used to, so I have been camming for a year and a half. I am trying to be grateful for the fact that we have food and I am away from my physically and emotionally hurtful parents but I hate it so so much.

I will list some reasons because I am fairly isolated and I google and find all those "I just love my life as a camgirl" posts and I am going through a deep depressions.

1. I was always a tomboy/queer and having to pretend to be feminine, do make up, wear lingerie is causing me dysphoria and stress. I tried to cam as more of "real me" but I was told that I am "too plain" and didn't make money, so it's not an option.

2. ENDLESS boring, repetitive conversations and creeps trying to guess my country, time zone, vanilla past job (it must be morning there atm, right?). Someone said that camgirls are virtual geishas, but I disagree, because geishas entertained powerful intelligent men, while (me at least) have to deal with toxic individuals who have zero interest in self development and the personality of a dead fish.

3. Having to engage and fake arousal from disgusting sex acts. I am a demisexual and unless I feel a deep emotional connection with them I do not feel sexual attraction. It still blows my mind how those men think that doing c2c and seeing a disheveled micropenis hoarder masturbating in his pajamas on his couch can arouse me.

4. The ups and downs in payments and the constant stress over it, having to sit online for hours and hours and make next to nothing.

5. The constant demands for emotional labor, bitching, nagging and whining. I couldn't cam on Christmas because 2 poor younger relatives came to spend the holiday with me and my husband and a regular fan club member threw a fit and said "I logged in for you every night and you never showed up!". I asked him if I should have kicked my family on the street to create privacy to cam. I feel unprofessional responding like that (ok, rarely), but I wonder why those losers think I owe them to put them above my family (I had messaged that I won't be live during the holidays).

6. I suffered from anorexia as a teen and the constant comments on my body are triggering me. I also started with my real age on one site (32), made next to nothing and then joined another and put 27 as fake age and did much better. All that ageism from much older men. Apparently at 32 I am too old to entertain men in their 40s and 50s. Great for my self esteem.

I could go on, but I won't burden you further, if you have read this far thank you so much. I wanted to get this off my chest and I am asking if anyone has negative feelings and how do you deal with them. If you offer advice, I would be very happy to follow.

Thank you

Natalie

Miss_ShaSha
01-31-2021, 09:16 AM
^^I responded to this but my comment was deleted. I'll just say this: I'm sorry it's so rough and I hope you can work through it the best you can with self care.

PhatGirlDynomite!!!
01-31-2021, 09:56 AM
^^I responded to this but my comment was deleted. I'll just say this: I'm sorry it's so rough and I hope you can work through it the best you can with self care.

There is no comment showing as deleted? I would be able to see it if there were. Originally there was only one post and that belonged to her.

Miss_ShaSha
01-31-2021, 10:01 AM
Finding FLOWTIME a bit glitchy. Of 16 sessions 2 have just totally glitched out. That's not a good sign for a device that's $200. I might need to talk to customer service about this.

I love the features, but I want it to work for what it's worth.

Will try another meditation session today to see if it continues.

thatgingercamgirl
01-31-2021, 02:13 PM
Thanks! We are playing pool tonight. I'll see if he's a contender. I need a friend and a good looking one too lolollll.

How has your energy been? You ok? Still painting?

This is my current WIP:

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I'm doing okay, I think I'm dealing with burnout again lol. Still painting though! Still have not figured out how to post them here tho lol, one of these days!

That's beautiful!

Miss_ShaSha
02-01-2021, 06:11 AM
^^Thanks! Glad you're well.

ADDITION:

Meditated to Synctuition No Shame journey & Gamma waves low but Beta waves high meaning I was intensely focused.

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Esixxx
02-01-2021, 06:11 AM
I apologize in advance for the vent, but I have to hide from everyone irl and I don't know where else to ask. I come from an extremely abusive family (both parents narcissists) and a third world country. After a ton of hard work and sacrifice and working vanilla jobs, I was able to graduate college and get a job that allowed me to move out from my parents house.

Then I married someone who lost their job when covid hit and my job is paying me half of what it used to, so I have been camming for a year and a half. I am trying to be grateful for the fact that we have food and I am away from my physically and emotionally hurtful parents but I hate it so so much.

I will list some reasons because I am fairly isolated and I google and find all those "I just love my life as a camgirl" posts and I am going through a deep depressions.

1. I was always a tomboy/queer and having to pretend to be feminine, do make up, wear lingerie is causing me dysphoria and stress. I tried to cam as more of "real me" but I was told that I am "too plain" and didn't make money, so it's not an option.

2. ENDLESS boring, repetitive conversations and creeps trying to guess my country, time zone, vanilla past job (it must be morning there atm, right?). Someone said that camgirls are virtual geishas, but I disagree, because geishas entertained powerful intelligent men, while (me at least) have to deal with toxic individuals who have zero interest in self development and the personality of a dead fish.

3. Having to engage and fake arousal from disgusting sex acts. I am a demisexual and unless I feel a deep emotional connection with them I do not feel sexual attraction. It still blows my mind how those men think that doing c2c and seeing a disheveled micropenis hoarder masturbating in his pajamas on his couch can arouse me.

4. The ups and downs in payments and the constant stress over it, having to sit online for hours and hours and make next to nothing.

5. The constant demands for emotional labor, bitching, nagging and whining. I couldn't cam on Christmas because 2 poor younger relatives came to spend the holiday with me and my husband and a regular fan club member threw a fit and said "I logged in for you every night and you never showed up!". I asked him if I should have kicked my family on the street to create privacy to cam. I feel unprofessional responding like that (ok, rarely), but I wonder why those losers think I owe them to put them above my family (I had messaged that I won't be live during the holidays).

6. I suffered from anorexia as a teen and the constant comments on my body are triggering me. I also started with my real age on one site (32), made next to nothing and then joined another and put 27 as fake age and did much better. All that ageism from much older men. Apparently at 32 I am too old to entertain men in their 40s and 50s. Great for my self esteem.

I could go on, but I won't burden you further, if you have read this far thank you so much. I wanted to get this off my chest and I am asking if anyone has negative feelings and how do you deal with them. If you offer advice, I would be very happy to follow.

Thank you

Natalie

Sounds like maybe you hit burnout.

What has helped me in the past and recent past is taking a break from live streaming and either focus on other eggs-(content, PSO, membership sites,etc) , side hustles or pick up a job. (I recently did this, and have picked up part time jobs in the past.)

-Self care- loving and taking good care of yourself- eating well- proper nutrition, learn coping skills to deal with and manage stress (this thread is full of good tools,) a good support network- I believe moneybags mentioned pineapple support has a weekly support group.

-As far as customer interactions- they can get draining. I would take the time to list out the interactions that drain you and come up with ways to effectively manage them. (and take breaks when it gets to be too much)
(I'm stopping here for now- otherwise I would write a novel.)

Miss_ShaSha
02-01-2021, 01:54 PM
Took the rest of today off after 8 straight days streaming. Taking tomorrow off to self care.

Getting social medicine tonight with M the guy I'm seeing. We are playing bar games & I'll cheat on my diet & have 2 glasses of wine.

I napped off & on after cam. Was totally burnt out. Going to be kind to myself & chill.

Miss_ShaSha
02-02-2021, 03:05 PM
Pool with M last night was ACE! I lost 4-1 but not by much. I had at least a ball or two on the table when he won verses having 5 or more. So he beat me but not totally killed me hahahaaa.

We had brisket nachos and I had wine. We laughed quite a bit and smiled a lot.

I like spending time with him. He's optimistic and I like it.

Today is my full day off and it's been great. Slept 10.5 hrs lololll totally needed that. Meditated, ate yummy food, vid chatted with M, and did some live streaming to connect with old friends.

I'm well, so very well which is a surprise as I have SAD (seasonal depression) and I've avoided it this winter so far. I'm pleasantly surprised and feel totally spared. God Bless self care!!!

Miss_ShaSha
02-02-2021, 05:02 PM
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Esixxx
02-02-2021, 05:11 PM
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Girl I love that!!!!

moneybags
02-02-2021, 05:22 PM
I’ve spent the beginning of the week do basic self care. I talked to my therapist. I’ve had a lot of doctors appointments. I got a new battery for my car because it needed a jump like almost everyday! I bought a new cell phone carrier (I was stranded at the grocery store because I didn’t have data to get an Uber!) Got medicine for another UTI (probably from camming.) I’m going to eat some yummy food and do cardio. All things considered I’m doing good I just have a lot on my plate. I think I’m going to clean my apartment tonight. I still have soooo much to do, but I think I’m gonna tap out at midnight and go to bed. I’m trying to journal every night before bed.

Next week, I’m going to clear my calendar and do a camathon. I need a week where I can just focus on making money.

Miss_ShaSha
02-02-2021, 07:25 PM
Girl I love that!!!!

Same! I saw it and was like "yesssss bish" lololl


I’ve spent the beginning of the week do basic self care. I talked to my therapist. I’ve had a lot of doctors appointments. I got a new battery for my car because it needed a jump like almost everyday! I bought a new cell phone carrier (I was stranded at the grocery store because I didn’t have data to get an Uber!) Got medicine for another UTI (probably from camming.) I’m going to eat some yummy food and do cardio. All things considered I’m doing good I just have a lot on my plate. I think I’m going to clean my apartment tonight. I still have soooo much to do, but I think I’m gonna tap out at midnight and go to bed. I’m trying to journal every night before bed.

Next week, I’m going to clear my calendar and do a camathon. I need a week where I can just focus on making money.

Sounds like you're doing a great job. I missed support group twice due to Mon dates. I'm moving them to Tues so I can attend Mon group.

You've been through a lot yet coming out on top. That killer $$$ week is proof. You just keep being badass sister!

Miss_ShaSha
02-03-2021, 07:08 AM
Holy fuck!!! Just had the most successful Synctuition meditation session. I was super focused on manifestations and it shows:

Gamma wave frequencies at a whopping 17% and Beta at 43%. That is fuckin wild. I mean it felt good AF and I was seeing my manifestations before my eyes, but to see the data just blows my mind.

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Esixxx
02-04-2021, 08:27 AM
Been doing morning yoga. It's short but it gives me energy and puts me in a good mood.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NhnVdSkJFpc

Miss_ShaSha
02-05-2021, 04:47 AM
It was so slow on cam I took a meditation break. Totally happy with Gamma wave production: 18%. I was seriously focused on LOA visualizations the whole time. Rad!

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Damn, it's totally dead today on SM lololll. I'm almost at 4 hrs and I just needed an energy boost so I did this EFT tapping session and I feel much better:


https://youtu.be/VAYhafI4YCE

moneybags
02-06-2021, 12:55 AM
^^^ I’ll have to try that soon.

I did some financial self-care. It was scary to look at my numbers, but I actually feel better. It was very time consuming. I’m gonna finish logging my purchases than I’m done.

I don’t even want to think about taxes.

Esixxx
02-06-2021, 08:07 AM
^^^ I’ll have to try that soon.

I did some financial self-care. It was scary to look at my numbers, but I actually feel better. It was very time consuming. I’m gonna finish logging my purchases than I’m done.

I don’t even want to think about taxes.

I did this recently- it helps tremendously.. I wrote everything out that I spend on money on- regular monthly expenses, groceries, make up, supplements, etc. etc. It's good to have that picture. I am baby stepping with tax stuff- listed out all the information I need to collect, and slowly putting the spreadsheet together.

Esixxx
02-06-2021, 02:25 PM
I fucked off after an hour and half of streaming this morning. I slept like crap last night.

This afternoon I went to a local artisian market-picked up some aromatherapy goodies- a lavendar and hops bed pillow and a room spray. Booked a reiki session for Monday night- I am well over due for a session - I really looking forward to it.

Spent the rest of the afternoon knitting and listening to podcasts. Dinner plans tonight with a friend for social self care.

Miss_ShaSha
02-08-2021, 08:46 AM
^^I think listening to your body the way you do is a great way to self care.

That pillow sounds divine. & that social medicine? Great!

Esixxx
02-10-2021, 04:34 AM
Reiki session was rescheduled from Monday night to last night because of road conditions.

I feel soooo much better now and had a great night of sleep. She cleared many blocks and cut cords- which I knew that would be the case with the recent anxiety producing past :)

One of my homework assignments was to make a list of 10 people/things that I am grateful for, and practice connecting with that energy. Then practice connecting with that energy without anything inspiring it- I think the gist of it- is to be grateful no reason- which is pretty bad ass in my opinion.

I made that list this morning. One of my most recent purchases and practices was that I picked up a Happy Planner at Wal-Mart. I'll link once I find the version I picked up. It's sort of like a gratitude/reflection/ Intention journal all in one. I usually write it in before bed. My healer also suggested looking at in the morning before I start my day as well to really get the practice of gratitude wired in.

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Feeling really good this morning. Things are moving in a positive direction and I am so stupid grateful for all of this.

Miss_ShaSha
02-10-2021, 05:42 AM
^^ <3 <3 <3

Miss_ShaSha
02-10-2021, 05:48 AM
I caught a cold over the weekend my family was here. It started as allergies and just got worse. I've been blowing my nose for 3 days now lololll. I feel well other than sneezing and blowing my nose. Still have sense of smell and taste so it's def just a cold.

Time with family was so special. We ate good food, watched good movies, and played at the park. My granddaughter is so sweet. She really gives me good energy.

Took yesterday off too, so now it's been 3 days off cam. I'm on now and have been for an hour and it's slow AF. lololll guess it's to be expected. It is Feb after all a month that usually sucks for me.

I'll be meditating here soon. I plan to do smoothies for breakfast and lunch then a healthy low carb dinner plus drinking 90 oz water.

Despite the cold, my energy is good and I feel well.

Esixxx
02-10-2021, 06:55 AM
I caught a cold over the weekend my family was here. It started as allergies and just got worse. I've been blowing my nose for 3 days now lololll. I feel well other than sneezing and blowing my nose. Still have sense of smell and taste so it's def just a cold.

Time with family was so special. We ate good food, watched good movies, and played at the park. My granddaughter is so sweet. She really gives me good energy.

Took yesterday off too, so now it's been 3 days off cam. I'm on now and have been for an hour and it's slow AF. lololll guess it's to be expected. It is Feb after all a month that usually sucks for me.

I'll be meditating here soon. I plan to do smoothies for breakfast and lunch then a healthy low carb dinner plus drinking 90 oz water.

Despite the cold, my energy is good and I feel well.


Sounds like you had a great weekend with the fam :) Happy for you!

Do you have any echinacea tea? I keep some handy when allergies, sinus and cold season hits it helps.

Got good self care going on (like you always do) :)

Miss_ShaSha
02-10-2021, 08:14 AM
^^Yes, I do an echinacea tea every morning. I think that's the only thing keeping my symptoms tolerable. I'm sure it could be much worse.

Thanks.

Meditated due to how slow it is. 2.5 hrs for $21 is just sad lololll. Meditation session decent. I thought I would have had a lot more Gamma waves, but 15% is decent.

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UPDATE:

STFO and low goal exceeded in 3 hrs 44 min. So glad I didn't just log off again. It picked up and had 3 shows in 45 min.

Strawberryblonde
02-10-2021, 08:25 AM
I meditate daily too, could not do it this morning. I also practice yoga and listen to sleep meditations. There is something else I do involving cold water either shower, bathe or go outside. Sounds crazy but does give me a boost.

Miss_ShaSha
02-11-2021, 09:02 AM
AM routine:

green tea kombucha
echinacea tea
anxiety free tea
lemon
ginger

Soothie:

power greens
turmeric
pumpkin seeds
pecans
chia seeds
blueberries
6 oz OJ


32 oz water

meditated for 25 min

UPDATE:

EFT to lift mood. I'm 7.5 hrs into a 10 hr shift and it's so dead there isn't even crickets. This shit bout to make me crack lololll. Damn, but that EFT did help me feel better.

moneybags
02-11-2021, 05:04 PM
^^^i need to do the cold showers! I have a hard getting up early. Sounds like that would do the trick. My PT told me he does hot then ice cold.

I second not worry about my high goal. I want to at least make my rent this week and I’ll be happy. I had a COVID scare. I need to be flexible and realistic with my goals. I tend to beat myself up. Silly me. Progress not perfection.

I have been having a hard time with depression. I need to be gentle with myself. I’m functioning right now with a lot of problems out of my control. As long as I’m paying my bills and doing self-care that’s good enough this month.

Miss_ShaSha
02-12-2021, 03:05 AM
Fell asleep with sleep band headphones for 36 days to self love subliminal messages. I have for the last week fallen asleep to the Ho'oponopono on repeat. I fall asleep quickly and stay asleep. I wake in the morning in such a good mood.

It's been 3 months drinking the anxiety free tea, 2 months since first Reiki session (had a second about a month ago) and my derealization is practically non-existent. When I start to get symptoms I speak kindly to myself, take CBD, then meditate and the episode is stopped in its tracks.

It's been more than a month meditating with Synctuition and I LOVE IT! Each 25 min session is like 4 hrs of deep meditation.

It's been 4 weeks drinking 2 healthy smoothies a day with one low carb meal. I don't think I've lost weight, but I'm not gaining.

This winter I've avoided a deep depressive episode and I'm so damn joyous!!! This is huge for me as I have seasonal depression (SAD).

This is my new food plan:

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UPDATE:

2.5 hrs and dead AF. These early hours just don't produce anymore. I'm gonna start sleeping in from now on lololll.

Meditated cause my mood was shit. Totally struggled through this session:

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Miss_ShaSha
02-12-2021, 03:24 AM
Self-care goals this weekend are to go on a snowy hike in the woods, build a snowman, paint my nails, find my Apple pencil so I can start drawing again, and enjoy my long awaited and newly released video game Little Nightmares 2!

Tonight I will carve out some time for camming tonight but I will try not to stress if I don't hit goal. I desperately need to RELAX and enjoy a night of gaming!! so I need to try to silence the part of my anxious brain that constantly nags about $ and numbers and all the financial goals I need to hit and blah blah blahhh so over it I just want to be a kid again lol

Sound great to me. I often find allowing my inner child to play is immensely helpful.



^^^i need to do the cold showers! I have a hard getting up early. Sounds like that would do the trick. My PT told me he does hot then ice cold.

I second not worry about my high goal. I want to at least make my rent this week and I’ll be happy. I had a COVID scare. I need to be flexible and realistic with my goals. I tend to beat myself up. Silly me. Progress not perfection.

I have been having a hard time with depression. I need to be gentle with myself. I’m functioning right now with a lot of problems out of my control. As long as I’m paying my bills and doing self-care that’s good enough this month.

Progress not perfection is so awesome to affirm. I like it!


I meditate daily too, could not do it this morning. I also practice yoga and listen to sleep meditations. There is something else I do involving cold water either shower, bathe or go outside. Sounds crazy but does give me a boost.

Yikes, I've heard about cold therapy, but I just can't bring myself to do it. Nice.

Miss_ShaSha
02-13-2021, 04:16 AM
After such a horrible day yesterday, I went to bed early and slept well. I woke this AM in a good mood, engaged my morning routine and have decided to stream from 5am-12pm CST.

At 12 I'll take a warm Pink Himalayan Salt detox bath, eat healthy, hydrate, meditate to balance chakras and also cleanse aura, then just watch some wholesome movies to self care the rest of the day so I'm ready for bonus and contest week.

I just bought 6 new canvases and paint brushes to work on painting more. I feel really good about this month so far. I've paid all bills and was able to put $600 in savings yesterday. I'm really ahead of the game financially and that feels amazing. I just got a new line of credit too, so my credit score is improving. Everything I make the rest of this month is going into savings and I couldn't be happier about it.

UPDATE:

Streamed a total of 4.5 hrs, exceeded high goal, and now it's time to self care. Phew! Thank God this week is over lololll. Time for a burrito bowl from Chipotle with cauliflower rice hahahaaa. I earned it.

Strawberryblonde
02-13-2021, 04:28 AM
Sound great to me. I often find allowing my inner child to play is immensely helpful.




Progress not perfection is so awesome to affirm. I like it!



Yikes, I've heard about cold therapy, but I just can't bring myself to do it. Nice.

I could not do the outdoor cold therapy today, really suffered yesterday so just cold shower to wash hair and shave legs - seems to be smoother in cold.

Miss_ShaSha
02-14-2021, 08:20 AM
AM routine:

Green tea Kombucha
Echinacea tea
Anxiety free tea
Lemon
Ginger

AM smoothie:

Pecans
Pumpkin seeds
Chia seeds
Turmeric
Blueberries
Power greens
Plant based protein powder
Water
Ice

AM meditation:

Didn't go so well. Hard to focus. Hmmm, hopefully today is good.

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moneybags
02-15-2021, 03:33 PM
https://www.xbiz.tv/v/2498471920/Anti-bullying--Sex-Workers-United-Against-Bullying

I watched this video. It on pineapple's website. I dunno why, but I think it's really resonated with me. I'm going to a group meeting tonight.

I'm just taking a mental health day. I made an appointment with my therapist for next week, but for now I'm just going to do some mental health self-care.

I really need to work Tues-Sat as much as possible. Making money helps me feel better. Really takes the wind out people;s criticism and judge about my lifestyle when I'm making money.

Miss_ShaSha
02-15-2021, 06:55 PM
^^I'll watch that later. Hope group was good.

Today was bad. Slightly derealized & bummed. Had go cut M loose. His behavior was questionable. I don't want to waste my time with another questionable guy. So I'm single & a bit lonely.

I meditated twice today, cleaned, & talked to friends. I needed a break from cam. I was on for an hour and made $20. It was far too upsetting to stay on. So I bailed.

The snow storm here in TX is bad & I can't leave my apt. I'm isolated & scared.

Going to take tomorrow off too & self care. I need rest.

moneybags
02-15-2021, 07:03 PM
^^I'll watch that later. Hope group was good.

Today was bad. Slightly derealized & bummed. Had go cut M loose. His behavior was questionable. I don't want to waste my time with another questionable guy. So I'm single & a bit lonely.

I meditated twice today, cleaned, & talked to friends. I needed a break from cam. I was on for an hour and made $20. It was far too upsetting to stay on. So I bailed.

The snow storm here in TX is bad & I can't leave my apt. I'm isolated & scared.

Going to take tomorrow off too & self care. I need rest.

I think you would have liked the group tonight we talked about dating and healthy relationships as sex workers.

I struggle with making time for group and my other obligations, so I don’t want to pressure you. But it might be really helpful if you feel isolated. It helped me tonight! I was going every other week, but I’m going every week. I need a weekly support group. It’s hard being a sex worker!

They have other groups too! They have a burn out group!

Miss_ShaSha
02-16-2021, 11:01 AM
^^Thanks! I'll try my best to make next week's group. I'm sure it'll help. I'm a part of a Facebook support group and it helps for mental health.

Miss_ShaSha
02-16-2021, 12:47 PM
OOOooohhhh I was so angry sitting 2.5 hrs for $8.75 so I meditated and the SMILE journey on Synctuition just put me in the best mood.

25 min meditation session was quite successful. Great brain wave stats:

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https://youtu.be/oNjt8fL9xCg

Miss_ShaSha
02-17-2021, 04:56 AM
An hour into a 10 hr shift and it's so dead for me I decided to do an EFT tapping for abundance. I'm going to break every hour to do this one to remain sane:



https://youtu.be/SgAkzbVBe0g

Miss_ShaSha
02-17-2021, 06:05 AM
Hr 2 and took a break to do some EFT for abundance. This one felt good too:


https://youtu.be/s0H5ASj0i88

UPDATE:

5 hrs into my 10 hr day and had to break to meditate. Damn, this was one hell of a good session: breath coherence was right on (breathing rhythmically) and my avg heart rate was 61 bpm. It got as low as 58 bpm. Whoa! Then Gamma waves were high at 17% and Beta high too at 43%. I was supremely focused on my breath the whole time. I feel fantastic!!!

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AuroraJade
02-17-2021, 07:32 AM
Lets go online and make some money. Feeling not very good today, this contest is hard. But I am doing better every day, today is just a small hiccup :)