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~Carmen~
03-31-2021, 12:53 PM
I wouldn't say that I have been a heavy hitter when it comes to self care recently.
The weather has been nicer so I pulled myself out of potato mode on Saturday and took my happy ass out for a walk at the park, and did went for a walk on Sunday after visiting family.
Without fail I still journal every morning- and been putting more focus into gratitude to keep my mind right. Monday morning I worked on affirmations for surrender and trust. https://www.spiritualityhealth.com/articles/2021/03/02/16-affirmations-for-surrender-and-trust?inf_contact_key=367c0b8387a45a0285ee5e630138 53a6f651f238aa2edbb9c8b7cff03e0b16a0.
My application for Pineapple Support group on Bouncing Back from Burnout was accepted. I am looking forward to that it starts on April 22.
In the morning I am doing a quick 5 minute yoga routine to wake my body up. Morning yoga seems to be a good pick me up to get my day started.
The kiddo and I are going to hang out for a bit today on my afternoon break. Routines seem to be helping and doing just a little bit of self care each day is better than none :)
I love those affirmations. I printed it out. Thank you for sharing :)
moneybags
03-31-2021, 07:27 PM
My application for Pineapple Support group on Bouncing Back from Burnout was accepted. I am looking forward to that it starts on April :)
I read this book Camming: money, power, and pleasure. I feel so much better about being a sex worker. I internalized the stigma. Now with therapy and support group, I feel so much better.
I’m going to watch a movie. I got my stimulus check, so I’ve just been relaxing.
Miss_ShaSha
04-01-2021, 12:08 PM
For social medicine I'm taking BF out to an upscale sushi bar tonight. We have reservations at 6:45pm. I'm uber excited. He's never been there and he loves to eat. We are gonna pig out. It'll be expensive but our first real dinner date so it'll be worth it. He has been taking me out for ping pong, drinks, and appetizers forever now. It's my turn to treat him.
Meditated today and fell asleep. Guess I was tired from our hour long training session. I did 30 min indoor cycle in Zone 3--upper aerobic--then we did strength for core.
Still falling asleep to positive affirmations of self-love.
Having greens in the AM with plant protein powder and then a smoothie for lunch and carbs for dinner.
I'm still doing a weekly book talk about Letting Go and I'm really going to try to apply the concepts moving forward in regard to anger. Camming can really piss me off: when it's slow especially. So I hope to be a more chipper person on cam. The stress from so much irritation can't be good.
Miss_ShaSha
04-02-2021, 03:19 PM
Man, realized today how out of shape my heart is. I'm not doing any high intensity training til next week, but I wanted to test the waters today and see how my heart would react to some short attacks at hard effort. Well, my heart rate skyrocketed after just 15 seconds at hard effort which is poor as in the past it took about 30 seconds to see a real high spike. Then it took forever for me to recover from that tiny effort.
This might mean I can't even train lactate threshold (zone 4) for another 2 weeks. This is a total bummer as aerobics on the bike is incredibly boring. Sitting and spinning for 30 min can be real monotonous. So on Mon I'll try 30 sec attacks from lower zone 3 (upper aerobic) to high zone 4 (lactate threshold) and recover for triple the time: 90 seconds. IF, and I doubt I can in this shape, I can recover down to low zone 3 in that 90 seconds I'll do a whole 30 min session of HIT.
Anyway...long winded way of saying I'm disappointed in my fitness lolollll.
BUT I'm not giving up!!!
Genoveve
04-02-2021, 03:48 PM
^^^I find that cardiovascular strength improves really quickly if it makes you feel any better. It's like the body catches up really quickly to what it's supposed to be able to normally do.
Miss_ShaSha
04-02-2021, 04:25 PM
^^That does make me feel a bit better. My body is different at 43. I'm not exactly sure what to expect at this age, but you have given me some hope. Thanks!
bigbum
04-03-2021, 05:30 PM
its been a rough past week
my other business more than $5,000 of funds were on hold with the payment processor.
my car broke down on the side of the rode, i got it fixed and then it broke down the next day in the starbucks drive through.
i got an offer for a contracting job at $300 an hour i was so excited. the firm called me 3 times begging me to work for them, i was really hesitant but finally agreed.
after they won me over, they said their client "canceled the contract" after i spent 1 week preparing. focusing on that instead of camming. such a fool i was!
i was so stressed that my period didnt come, and ruined my camming week with a small 2 week long delayed period from stress.
finally i got the payments for my other business, got my period, and my car fixed again and thought everything was ok to return to camming.
but, a few nights ago
i fell down a flight of tile stairs in my house that were wet. i tumbled down the whole flight. i got a kidney bruise i was screaming in pain and could barely walk. my body is covered in huge bruises. i am embarrassed to cam.
i have been so damn depressed.
Miss_ShaSha
04-04-2021, 04:41 AM
its been a rough past week
my other business more than $5,000 of funds were on hold with the payment processor.
my car broke down on the side of the rode, i got it fixed and then it broke down the next day in the starbucks drive through.
i got an offer for a contracting job at $300 an hour i was so excited. the firm called me 3 times begging me to work for them, i was really hesitant but finally agreed.
after they won me over, they said their client "canceled the contract" after i spent 1 week preparing. focusing on that instead of camming. such a fool i was!
i was so stressed that my period didnt come, and ruined my camming week with a small 2 week long delayed period from stress.
finally i got the payments for my other business, got my period, and my car fixed again and thought everything was ok to return to camming.
but, a few nights ago
i fell down a flight of tile stairs in my house that were wet. i tumbled down the whole flight. i got a kidney bruise i was screaming in pain and could barely walk. my body is covered in huge bruises. i am embarrassed to cam.
i have been so damn depressed.
Holy smokes! That is tough! It sounds unbelievable & sad. I'm so sorry.
Miss_ShaSha
04-04-2021, 05:22 PM
Got a new bed frame not too long ago. BF had plans to put it together but could only do it in the eve after his tennis lessons. He was getting to my place about 7pm. I just had this feeling it'd take hours & I go to bed between 9-9:45pm. I just put it off until he could do it daytime.
Well we chose today. Woke at 6am with plans to have old frame taken apart, dumped, & assemble new one before his family time at 11am. After breakfast & a little quality time we got around to the first task at 9:30am. No fuckin lie: finished at 12:30pm. He never put a frame together & screwed 3 things in improperly & I had to point that out so he could redo them.
Bless his heart. He tried. It's all figured out & I do love it, but God damn was it a headache. I was so overwhelmed by it all that after he left I had to take a nap lolollll. Totally killed any opportunity to stream. Ooops.
But I'm happy AF cause there's no more metal frame ghetto squeaking hahahaaaa. I'm sure that noise had to have killed some boners :D
Just rested the majority of the day. Feels nice after a couple long days on cam that could have burnt me out.
Miss_ShaSha
04-05-2021, 08:15 AM
Wow, very proud of my heart today. I slept very well, my resting heart rate was low, and I killed that HIT session. It was only 18 min, but I was able to get into high zone 4 and recover to low zone 3 NO PROBLEM haha. Damn, I feel amazing!
Then BF and I did core and back for 20 min. Very pleased with my training session today and getting up earlier tomorrow so I can do 30 min HIT and 30 min strength.
YAY!!!!
minibagel
04-05-2021, 10:29 AM
^^Your new bf sounds cute! Sounds like you have fun together.
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Currently stressed cuz I have to keep aggressively stacking up my solo 401k until May 17th to reduce my tax burden. Maybe I'm an idiot for choosing to pay annually & eating the penalty, but my accountant told me he does the same. So then maybe we're both idiots :D. But at least he's a rich idiot since he owns his tax/accounting firm and has a growing real estate portfolio, so I'm sure he has access to even more tax loopholes than I do. He certainly recommends paying quarterly FWIW, and maybe for 2021 I'll do at least biannual. Barf. Anyone else pay annually?
I was able to squirrel away $4,500 into my 401k last month and this morning just dumped another 1k. I can't wait to breathe again and relax, my treat to myself will be a new vacuum cleaner and possibly a storage box for my deck lol. Woooo
Miss_ShaSha
04-05-2021, 11:11 AM
^^We've had two disagreements in 4 weeks and he's actually able to admit when he's wrong. My ex never did. Yeah, he's a good guy and really sweet. Thanks. We are playing ping pong this week and he's gonna treat me to Mexican cause I quit vaping :D
Damn girl...you are doing well for yourself. I pay annually and eat it. Oh well...not gonna have to for very long. Gonna career change. If I made as much as you in the same amount of time I'd stay in camming, but I'm making shit for 30-40 hrs.
Finances are stressful. Sorry to hear. Maybe a nice walk will help you feel better. The weather has been nice here. Hope it's nice there.
minibagel
04-05-2021, 11:56 AM
Happy for you, I hope he turns out to be a good one. Having an s.o. as a workout buddy sounds motivating. The most exercise my bf and I do as a couple is go on hikes lol
Aww, I will miss you on the forum :( you are are always so encouraging and supportive to everyone. You said you make $1k in that time frame? That’s honestly still very good money especially for an individual, many Americans would love to make that. But I hope whatever you choose to do next makes you happy and brings less stress! Camming is definitely a roller coaster of emotions. You could always keep it around for a side hustle for whenever you want quick cash :)
Miss_ShaSha
04-05-2021, 12:07 PM
^^Hiking is good exercise and healing. Nature is the best. I used to hike all the time but DFW is flat AF lololll.
I think I'll still be on the forum and keep SM open just in case haha. But I need a new career. I'm tired of camming in the closet. My BF parents are lawyers and he's big into God. He has no idea what I do now and if he did...he might run. Sucks.
Thanks. You're a huge motivation on the forums. I see your posts and I just get all excited lolollll.
minibagel
04-05-2021, 01:37 PM
^Oh no, sounds like quite the predicament. I hope one day you can be open about it and that he is accepting. Unless your plan is to switch careers asap and never tell him lol
But I totally get you. No one knows about it in my life either except my boyfriend and it’s really tough lying to family& everyone else and basically living a double life. Regardless, camming has been an amazing opportunity to fund real world goals so I’m not gonna let it go.
Once you move on to your new career, if you want you could turn on your webcam even just a couple nights per month to shoot for say an extra $500/month. That small goal adds up over a years time and is a super easy way to max out an IRA for example with little time and effort. That’s how my frugal ass views $ anyway haha. But you could use the extra cash for whatever you desire. Amazing opportunity imo cuz how many other people can scrounge up an extra $500 from the comfort of their own home?
Miss_ShaSha
04-06-2021, 08:26 AM
^Oh no, sounds like quite the predicament. I hope one day you can be open about it and that he is accepting. Unless your plan is to switch careers asap and never tell him lol
But I totally get you. No one knows about it in my life either except my boyfriend and it’s really tough lying to family& everyone else and basically living a double life. Regardless, camming has been an amazing opportunity to fund real world goals so I’m not gonna let it go.
Once you move on to your new career, if you want you could turn on your webcam even just a couple nights per month to shoot for say an extra $500/month. That small goal adds up over a years time and is a super easy way to max out an IRA for example with little time and effort. That’s how my frugal ass views $ anyway haha. But you could use the extra cash for whatever you desire. Amazing opportunity imo cuz how many other people can scrounge up an extra $500 from the comfort of their own home?
Haha, my plan is to switch and never tell him :D
You make a good point about keeping it as a side hustle. I just might. I've had this SM account since 2010 haha. I never really gave fetish up even when I became a fitness instructor. I just can't stay away lololll.
moneybags
04-06-2021, 06:00 PM
Good luck.
It’s unfortunate that we can’t have our cake and eat it too! We should be able to. It’s crazy how oppressed we are, and sometimes it’s just not worth it. You can always come back to camming. I wouldn’t tell my SO about my camming and stripping. I’d just quietly quit once he decided to put a ring on it. Until then I don’t think I owe a guy an explanation or loyalty- a smart lady taught me that. Probably not the healthiest thing to do, but come on there’s no reason to lose out on income. Until a guy is willing to take care of me for life, I need to put myself first. That’s just my personal opinion.
Anyways, my treat for meeting my monthly goals-which are pretty low (my goals is to make 3k this months and make videos and pics for my SM fan club) is taking a day off to do this. I usually like to do these in the beginning of the month to set my monthly intentions.
https://pineapplesupport.org/happiness/
Esixxx
04-07-2021, 06:11 AM
Had a good sleep score last night. Did my usual morning journaling and two cups of coffee- still for the life of me my body(not my mind) just wasn't waking up. Trotted my happy ass down to the fitness room in my building to do 15 minutes on the elliptical.
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Not a fan of cardio, but I knew it would be a surefire way to wake up.
Miss_ShaSha
04-07-2021, 07:38 AM
Had a good sleep score last night. Did my usual morning journaling and two cups of coffee- still for the life of me my body(not my mind) just wasn't waking up. Trotted my happy ass down to the fitness room in my building to do 15 minutes on the elliptical.
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Not a fan of cardio, but I knew it would be a surefire way to wake up.
5 min peak! Damn, well done. Really nice stats a such a good thing for body & mind!
DeliveryLadyx
04-07-2021, 07:42 AM
That reminds me how I need to start working out, 15-30 minutes intense as you did. My sleep score is quite poor because am trying to get up earlier with one hour every morning (7 am today and fell asleep after midnight). My brain is still asleep ha,, but getting up earlier is better for wellbeing...
Esixxx
04-07-2021, 07:55 AM
That reminds me how I need to start working out, 15-30 minutes intense as you did. My sleep score is quite poor because am trying to get up earlier with one hour every morning (7 am today and fell asleep after midnight). My brain is still asleep ha,, but getting up earlier is better for wellbeing...
I've been wanting to get back into a regular exercise routine- I usually do a quick morning yoga routine. This morning I knew yoga wasn't going to cut it. I needed something to get the blood flowing.
I know in the past what was a momentum builder was baby stepping it until I built up momentum. Sounds like you are doing well with your goal of waking up earlier. I myself would like to do that as well- seize the day :)
We'll get there lady!!!!
5 min peak! Damn, well done. Really nice stats a such a good thing for body & mind!
Thank you! I am not well versed on the stats when it comes to cardio (I'm clueless lol)
And thank you for being an excellent source of encouragement and support- I needed that bug in my ear earlier this week :)
Miss_ShaSha
04-07-2021, 10:37 AM
Totally stoked about today's training session. I did 25 min HIT on the indoor bike zones 2 and 3 not 3 and 4 as today was leg day and I didn't wanna fry my legs haha. But it felt so good. Usually I'm in the lower zone 3 times as long as the higher zone but today I was recovering fast!!! Huge improvement.
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Then 30 min legs with BF. Totally smashed 4 sets of 10 in squats with 50lbs. I was struggling on set 4 but BF was like it's all about how you finish. FINISH STRONG. And I did hahaahaaaa.
Miss_ShaSha
04-08-2021, 09:20 AM
OMG I'm in trouble now: too much energy lololll. At gym I was tired after my intervals and BF was like wake up baby...we gotta strength train. I was like I don't know why but I'm tired. I need an energy drink.
He's so sweet: he bought me a BANG.
Well, killed strength and now I can't sit still hahahaahaaaa. FUCK!!!
Miss_ShaSha
04-11-2021, 04:10 AM
Stashed another $1k into the 401k yesterday. Grateful for that, but this cam week has been so lazy and half-assed despite my maybe impossible contribution goals and this fast approaching deadline. Like wtf am I doing not camming. I just barely hit weekly cam goal but only cuz I got lucky with some MFC pvts, SM traffic has been trash and I barely had any motivation to be online in a dead room.
I randomly broke down the other day thinking about my #1 indie finsub, who is gone now. My #1 indie vanilla guy has been giving me literal breadcrumbs for the past 5 months now, since before Thanksgiving. No explanation. He used to send on average 2-3k/month, sometimes 5k+. Last month he gave me 475 lol and hasn't sent anything in April. He has been wanting free attention lately and it gets my hopes up every time. He actually bothered me once to inform me that he had just completed the goddamn dishes (!!?!?) Last weekend he acted like he was going to send money and never did... but made sure to wish me a happy Easter with multiple bunny emojis. And as of April 5th I think, Google Pay now officially requires a phone number to send $ instead of just an email and he hasn't even mentioned it, it's like he doesn't even care. Maybe I should ghost him, block his ass everywhere. /endvent
Of all days I would have expected Easter cash. SMH, I would have been irritated. Maybe ignore til he sends cash.
minibagel
04-11-2021, 09:24 AM
^This vanilla dude has been paying me for over five years now. I know I shouldn't expect $ and idk if our relationship is just fizzling out or what, but the resentment keeps building each passing month. The strange thing is he didn't say happy Thanksgiving, merry Christmas/happy birthday and no spoils on those days either. :( Only a couple tiny spoils sprinkled in between. And then radio silence for six weeks from lateJan-early March. I deactivated my Kik (chat app) out of frustration and he sent me $$ within like an hour. Go figure
My finsub and I were much, much closer so I always knew what was up with him for example if he freaked out after a session and needed to disappear for a week or two. But never to the tune of 5 months like with this vanilla guy. I don't feel comfortable asking vanilla guy what's up and would prefer that he thinks I am totally indifferent about him sending drastically less LOL.
Can anyone else with serious longtime highspending clients relate? It's so easy to take them for granted when they pay you for years and years. Losing both him & my top finsub basically at the same time has been a real bitch
moneybags
04-11-2021, 12:00 PM
Yesterday, I went and got my Covid shot (I feel fine), took the night off just in case i had a reaction (I may have been a bit under the weather, but other was fine.) and watched Wonder Woman 84 (great movie!). Got some yummy food from the health market and a pint of Halo ice cream.
I went for a walk this morning. I am spending today doing a happiness retreat. https://pineapplesupport.org/happiness/
Tomorrow, i have various appointments for my health issue. My health is improving, but as a former athlete I’m still sad. I’m going to my women’s money group tomorrow.
My goal is to go to bed and wake up early and do a camathon until Sunday evening. Fingers crossed nothing gets in the way.
Miss_ShaSha
04-11-2021, 01:13 PM
^^Yay!!!
Miss_ShaSha
04-12-2021, 05:16 AM
I got bad news last night, but with the good vibes from friends I slept really well:
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And I saw this just now:
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Today is gonna be a good day!
Miss_ShaSha
04-12-2021, 01:37 PM
I had so much on my mind today that I let it all out on the bike today. I did an hour total, but work efforts were 49 min. I was at high intensity most of the ride and damn did it feel good.
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Then I did 30 min legs. I feel powerful and well. Not letting anything bring me down. I AM WORTHY.
kamiliam
04-12-2021, 02:08 PM
Can anyone else with serious longtime highspending clients relate? It's so easy to take them for granted when they pay you for years and years. Losing both him & my top finsub basically at the same time has been a real bitch
I can relate. Keep in mind I keep my contact solely to SM so I evade a lot of their ways to reach me. I am bad with my messages there even and make that pretty clear.
One guy I had for 3 years and then he got weird about a 1 dollar price increase. I blocked him via our messages and never thought about him again until now, he would do hours long shows every week though, just talking. I probably came to know a lot about him and by the end I really hated him.
same thing is happening with a guy who has been with me since I started. He just isn’t spending, he has done this before. He pops in to brag about his spending on himself or other models then leaves. His spending was down before this last spell, and I am trying to follow my own advice but haven’t pulled the trigger. I’m pretty much doing what you are doing, acting indifferent but so badly wanting to block him in chat.
Then I have one guy that I actually am pretty grateful for. Fours years and he hasn’t violated any boundaries I have set. He knows I won’t bend my contact limits and he is reliable with his spending. Personality of the client is the biggest factor, he is definitely different then the guys previously mentioned. Long story short, the second they start whining and decreasing their spending it is gonna end how dragged out is your call. Blocking felt a lot healthier but it’s hard when a big chunk of long term big spenders are pains in the ass from the get go.
~Carmen~
04-12-2021, 03:43 PM
I can relate. Keep in mind I keep my contact solely to SM so I evade a lot of their ways to reach me. I am bad with my messages there even and make that pretty clear.
One guy I had for 3 years and then he got weird about a 1 dollar price increase. I blocked him via our messages and never thought about him again until now, he would do hours long shows every week though, just talking. I probably came to know a lot about him and by the end I really hated him.
same thing is happening with a guy who has been with me since I started. He just isn’t spending, he has done this before. He pops in to brag about his spending on himself or other models then leaves. His spending was down before this last spell, and I am trying to follow my own advice but haven’t pulled the trigger. I’m pretty much doing what you are doing, acting indifferent but so badly wanting to block him in chat.
Then I have one guy that I actually am pretty grateful for. Fours years and he hasn’t violated any boundaries I have set. He knows I won’t bend my contact limits and he is reliable with his spending. Personality of the client is the biggest factor, he is definitely different then the guys previously mentioned. Long story short, the second they start whining and decreasing their spending it is gonna end how dragged out is your call. Blocking felt a lot healthier but it’s hard when a big chunk of long term big spenders are pains in the ass from the get go.
I have one guy who has always been pretty nice and never pressed my boundaries. He has always done decent length shows and tipped well, and even bought me stuff from my wish list.
The last 2 shows he has done have been very short, with no tips. I wrote him a message and told him that he needs to treat me better or I won't do shows with him anymore. I will not be used for a couple of minutes and tossed. I know that if I let it go on like this, it will continue so I decided to nip it in the bud.
minibagel
04-12-2021, 11:47 PM
I can relate. Keep in mind I keep my contact solely to SM so I evade a lot of their ways to reach me. I am bad with my messages there even and make that pretty clear.
One guy I had for 3 years and then he got weird about a 1 dollar price increase. I blocked him via our messages and never thought about him again until now, he would do hours long shows every week though, just talking. I probably came to know a lot about him and by the end I really hated him.
same thing is happening with a guy who has been with me since I started. He just isn’t spending, he has done this before. He pops in to brag about his spending on himself or other models then leaves. His spending was down before this last spell, and I am trying to follow my own advice but haven’t pulled the trigger. I’m pretty much doing what you are doing, acting indifferent but so badly wanting to block him in chat.
Then I have one guy that I actually am pretty grateful for. Fours years and he hasn’t violated any boundaries I have set. He knows I won’t bend my contact limits and he is reliable with his spending. Personality of the client is the biggest factor, he is definitely different then the guys previously mentioned. Long story short, the second they start whining and decreasing their spending it is gonna end how dragged out is your call. Blocking felt a lot healthier but it’s hard when a big chunk of long term big spenders are pains in the ass from the get go.
That is funny that you said you hated the first guy you mentioned, because I honestly don’t like my guy either. He seemed okay in the beginning, but over the years he has shared things with me that are pretty disturbing and questionable. He is respectful at least and puts on a polite facade, but still gives me bad vibes. Especially when he sends beyond creepy photos of himself: dimly lit pics with him just staring expressionlessly into the camera or with a little smirk, close ups of just his eyes, or one single eyeball. So ya.. I aim to keep it transactional and try to keep our texting convos as short & superficial as possible now since I don’t want to learn anything more about him.
You’re lucky to be in a position where you can just block the guys from SM and be done with them. I’d be so mad if he had the nerve to come into my live chat room wanting free attention after giving me bread crumbs for months. I communicate with this guy via texting through Kik, but sadly we met on MFC so I’d have to block his kik, ban him from mfc, block his twitter, email & google hangouts app. I’m kind of scared to think how he might handle total rejection from me.
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
04-13-2021, 02:39 PM
Have any of you ever used something like this?
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B000QRKVNI/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_glt_fabc_4AYKQXCBQC6W8X03M4GX
It's a detox foot bath machine.
Miss_ShaSha
04-13-2021, 02:59 PM
Have any of you ever used something like this?
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B000QRKVNI/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_glt_fabc_4AYKQXCBQC6W8X03M4GX
It's a detox foot bath machine.
No but I'd love it!
Esixxx
04-13-2021, 03:00 PM
Have any of you ever used something like this?
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B000QRKVNI/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_glt_fabc_4AYKQXCBQC6W8X03M4GX
It's a detox foot bath machine.
I have wanted to try one of those things. There is an herb shop that has them and you pay per use. I haven't tried it- but on their FB page people had posted they had good results pulling toxins out and getting a boost of energy
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
04-13-2021, 03:57 PM
No but I'd love it!
I have wanted to try one of those things. There is an herb shop that has them and you pay per use. I haven't tried it- but on their FB page people had posted they had good results pulling toxins out and getting a boost of energy
I've only just heard of it. But what's confusing me is what makes this so much better than a regular foot bath massager? These things are expensive and I need that price to be justified, ya know? I wonder if I can detox with a regular one. I guess I need to do more research.
Esixxx
04-14-2021, 05:30 AM
I've only just heard of it. But what's confusing me is what makes this so much better than a regular foot bath massager? These things are expensive and I need that price to be justified, ya know? I wonder if I can detox with a regular one. I guess I need to do more research.
I think how they sell it is that it has to do something with the electrical currents and activating the ions to detox. You could do detox foot baths with epsom salt as well. I am not sure if you would get the same results. I have family members that do the footbaths on a somewhat regular basis.
I'll have to check into the foot baths here in town to see if they are offering them. I want to check it out for science!!!!
Miss_ShaSha
04-14-2021, 08:00 AM
Skipped gym yesterday, but today I worked hard. 42 min on the indoor bike with 25 min in zone 4 (high intensity). I feel powerful.
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Then I did 20 min legs. Can't stop. Won't stop.
bigbum
04-14-2021, 04:22 PM
Stashed another $1k into the 401k yesterday. Grateful for that, but this cam week has been so lazy and half-assed despite my maybe impossible contribution goals and this fast approaching deadline. Like wtf am I doing not camming. I just barely hit weekly cam goal but only cuz I got lucky with some MFC pvts, SM traffic has been trash and I barely had any motivation to be online in a dead room.
I randomly broke down the other day thinking about my #1 indie finsub, who is gone now. My #1 indie vanilla guy has been giving me literal breadcrumbs for the past 5 months now, since before Thanksgiving. No explanation. He used to send on average 2-3k/month, sometimes 5k+. Last month he gave me 475 lol and hasn't sent anything in April. He has been wanting free attention lately and it gets my hopes up every time. He actually bothered me once to inform me that he had just completed the goddamn dishes (!!?!?) Last weekend he acted like he was going to send money and never did... but made sure to wish me a happy Easter with multiple bunny emojis. And as of April 5th I think, Google Pay now officially requires a phone number to send $ instead of just an email and he hasn't even mentioned it, it's like he doesn't even care. Maybe I should ghost him, block his ass everywhere. /endvent
ghost that cocksucker until he comes crawling back lol. they always do. men love a challenge.
bigbum
04-14-2021, 04:32 PM
treated myself and my husband to a microderm and a 1.5 hour body massage.
so relaxing. my skin was so filthy and had pimples from all of the makeup i put on for camming everyday.
but.... go outside to my car, realize i got a flat tire with a nail in it... oh joy lol. spent 3 hours in the hot humid sun while it was repaired.
and ended up costing me $80. lol
i swear the few times i leave the house end up costing me $$.
better just to stay at home and cam and make money.
but atleast my skin is clean and i am somewhat relaxed. need to hit my 1k goal by saturday.
Miss_ShaSha
04-15-2021, 10:04 AM
^^Such a nice treat with well earned money. It's so nice, isn't it?!
Miss_ShaSha
04-15-2021, 10:07 AM
Made it to the gym for some serious power training on the indoor bike. My God, zone 5 is sooooooo hard! I had to recover to zone 2 a lot! But I knocked out 40 min on the bike and then did 20 min core and back.
I feel fantastic!!!
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gbjenna
04-15-2021, 01:51 PM
I've bought a 10 day course of Nytol today to help with sleep. I switched back to working nights this month but I can't sleep afterwards for longer than 5 hours. I manage like that for 3 days then crash and spend the next 24-48hrs sleeping.
When I originally started working nights I made myself ill constantly. I really don't want to make myself like that again. I'm starting with Nytol and I'm going to sleep with some sort of white noise too. If anyone has any suggestions to help me stay asleep then I'd be extremely grateful! Getting off to sleep is easy, it's just getting enough.
On a more positive note, the gyms opened up back here in the UK this week. It's such a good feeling to finally be able to work out properly again! Home workouts and working out in a cold field just weren't cutting it anymore.
Miss_ShaSha
04-16-2021, 01:17 PM
Took a break to head to the gym and bang out a 40 min indoor cycling heart rate training session. I was in zone 4 for 25 min which is really good. Then I did 30 min legs and arms. I feel very well and ready to kill this next 3 hrs on cam.
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I meditated this AM after breakfast. I have completed level 4 on Synctuition and just did the first journey of level 5. It was pleasant.
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Miss_ShaSha
04-18-2021, 12:48 PM
[vent]
After only a short time of posting my cam models link in my twitter bio (so SM guys could find me), I already have a new thread on an anonymous board revealing my whereabouts. I stumbled on the thread randomly last night… haven’t been to that cesspool for years and promised myself I'd never look again but curiosity got the best of me. :paperbag: Just A++ PERFECT timing to discover this when I thought now would be a good time to go back to mfc while SM is having a contest. At least it’s a teeny tiny thread so far and thankfully no one is really talking shit yet so I hope it will get buried, but I know it will get bumped & only grow when I go back to MFC. And honestly I know there have been threads about me over the years, but I never let myself look and only had my finsub look sometimes to report the highlights. I've only seen stuff on Reddit and I am such a snow leopard now that it's not inspired any new threads.
It’s one of my biggest anxieties/stressors about camming on MFC and I wish I didn’t care what the dregs of society think about me on degenerate image boards. During my best ranked month I had a 250+ post thread about me where probably the same guys talked shit on the daily, obsessing &criticizing my every stream, and I tortured myself by reading all their stupid opinions and even assumptions about my real life. Basically guys just getting pissed I didn’t get naked. Of course there were some "white knights" who defended me and it was entertaining to watch them argue over the most ridiculous things. Mostly it just made me very uncomfortable knowing people were talking about me like this.
If I had never found that first thread, I’d still be camming on MFC to this day, carefree and blissfully ignorant to all the hate. Not hiding in true privates. I view it as being similar to a Youtuber having gossip threads, but obviously on a much smaller scale. But even small Youtubers get gossip threads, so it’s really just pathetic. I guess it’s what you get for putting yourself on the internet.
Does anyone else deal with this kind of garbage? I hope I'm not the only one. I feel like with the smaller traffic & private-style model of Streamate it’s a lot easier to “hide” and therefore be seen by less freeloading losers. Do any SM models deal with this or is it exclusive to token site girls due to the large audiences? I need to get over this and just deal with the fact that haters are a big part of token sites. Tune them out. I've lost out on a lot of potential $ just because I care too much what these losers think :/
OMFG that has got to suck. I used to have a PornHub account but all my footjob
vids had nothing but good shit to say. I don't think I could stream without stress knowing shitheads are talking so much shit.
FUCK...sorry to hear about that. What a bunch of BS!!!
Miss_ShaSha
04-18-2021, 12:50 PM
Meditated and fell asleep again. This time I had another lucid dream. I've been lucid dreaming during 1 hr long naps using Synctuition. I just state that I am aware I am dreaming while deep breathing then fall asleep and bam it's lucid. So fuckin rad especially on a day on cam that just sucks so much ass lololllll.
moneybags
04-18-2021, 12:57 PM
[vent]
After only a short time of posting my cam models link in my twitter bio (so SM guys could find me), I already have a new thread on an anonymous board revealing my whereabouts. I stumbled on the thread randomly last night… haven’t been to that cesspool for years and promised myself I'd never look again but curiosity got the best of me. :paperbag: Just A++ PERFECT timing to discover this when I thought now would be a good time to go back to mfc while SM is having a contest. At least it’s a teeny tiny thread so far and thankfully no one is really talking shit yet so I hope it will get buried, but I know it will get bumped & only grow when I go back to MFC. And honestly I know there have been threads about me over the years, but I never let myself look and only had my finsub look sometimes to report the highlights. I've only seen stuff on Reddit and I am such a snow leopard now that it's not inspired any new threads.
It’s one of my biggest anxieties/stressors about camming on MFC and I wish I didn’t care what the dregs of society think about me on degenerate image boards. During my best ranked month I had a 250+ post thread about me where probably the same guys talked shit on the daily, obsessing &criticizing my every stream, and I tortured myself by reading all their stupid opinions and even assumptions about my real life. Basically guys just getting pissed I didn’t get naked. Of course there were some "white knights" who defended me and it was entertaining to watch them argue over the most ridiculous things. Mostly it just made me very uncomfortable knowing people were talking about me like this.
If I had never found that first thread, I’d still be camming on MFC to this day, carefree and blissfully ignorant to all the hate. Not hiding in true privates. I view it as being similar to a Youtuber having gossip threads, but obviously on a much smaller scale. But even small Youtubers get gossip threads, so it’s really just pathetic. I guess it’s what you get for putting yourself on the internet.
Does anyone else deal with this kind of garbage? I hope I'm not the only one. I feel like with the smaller traffic & private-style model of Streamate it’s a lot easier to “hide” and therefore be seen by less freeloading losers. Do any SM models deal with this or is it exclusive to token site girls due to the large audiences? I need to get over this and just deal with the fact that haters are a big part of token sites. Tune them out. I've lost out on a lot of potential $ just because I care too much what these losers think :/
Those who hate on you are beneath you. People hate on people for no good reason. People hate on you because they are so insecure they have to put others down to feel better about themselves. It’s easy to hide behind a keyboard and hate. They obviously don’t have a life if they are hating on someone they don’t even know. Only God can judge you. You just have to ignore the negativity. As soon as you stick your neck out people will judge and criticize you. You really just have to have thick skin because people are constantly projecting their BS on you. The best thing to do is do some self care. Ignore the negative thoughts and stay positive. Don’t let other people bring you down.
If you aren’t feeding me or fucking me your opinion don’t matter.
Cutie101
04-18-2021, 10:13 PM
Yup and that’s why I’ve been MIA from public chat for so long lol. :(
Thanks. You’re right, I need to get thicker skin and I wish I had your zero fucks given mindset. I know the old saying haters gonna hate. It just really freaked me out to know guys would scrutinize and obsess over me to that extent. I have let my anxiety over this literally stop me from logging in and making $ on mfc for way too long. I’ve gotten very comfy on SM hiding in privates and my little chat room with iffy traffic.. but making way less money LOL.
I remember one guy in that first big thread saying “you know she never thinks about you guys right, she doesn’t know you exist” and HA HA oohhh how badly I wish that were true. God. Someone else replied to him and accused him of being a white knight who probably pays for true privates and reminded him they would never be able to date me…??! It’s like uhh, if they were even an actual customer then they were using a cam site the correct way. By paying and not trying to ask guys to leak stuff. Just a very dumb, toxic place for anyone to spend their time. And very unhealthy for me to keep reading, I was addicted to checking it. I actually tried to block that website from all my internet browsers and devices lol to stop myself from reading. So toxic
These anons are the types of guys who trade content with each other, thirsty for “wins” leaked from groups or privates. Sometimes after I’d sign offline, ppl would already would be in the thread asking “any wins from group?” I must have really hurt one guy somehow because he posted to the thread saying how I was being a bitch and how he hopes more stuff gets leaked and that I never get paid again lol. Like there were really guys out there with actual revenge fantasies of me failing as a cam girl. So it's hard to go in public knowing some angry incels can hate you *that* much. wtf. Years later now I understand that leaked stuff is free advertising and "revenge porn" has probably never stopped any cam girl from making $, only brought them more business.
Anyway sorry this is so long winded and if this is way beyond oversharing but just wondered if other girls have experience with this and how you deal. I’ll try MFC soon and try to focus only on guys who pay me, but it’s just so much easier said than done.
I agree with Sha_Sha said. Theese losers live on their moms basement, they clearly don't have a life, if they make time to discuss about a random chick around the internet. I've seen it around my bf coworkers. The laziest, shittiest men, were those who were talking trash about another co- worker's gf (she was more brave than me and came out as a camgirl). They would make fun behind that guy's back, being nasty. My bf found this disgusting and also, other more hardworking men or richer men in that company. When one of theese rich guys said it's not funny, the "bullies" were like "pfff, what? are you paying for those like this?". His answer was brilliant:
"No, I don't pay for camgirls, but I pay to have nice women in my life, while you stroking to porn, only, because you can't afford luxury "sluts" and you probably forget that everytime you talk about winning the lottery, you say you'd spend on women and booze, sooooo...".
:)))))
Point is this: if men or people would care about what other think, we would be STARVING. The industry would be dead. Nowadays it's a common thing to also make fun of customers, that's where the "Simp" term comes from. Do you think they care? No, they still come here and jerk for us.
Care about your sexy bubble, make those money, buy those villas. Once you're off the internet, they will move onto the next target.
Or think about Cardi B. She used to be a stripper, she SINGS about it, she sings about escorting and not giving pussy to broke men. I ain't saying to do like her, but at least... follow your hustle and ignore the rest.
Kardashians got big after that sex tape was released.
And ultimately, the biggest winning whore of all time: King Juan Carlos's mistress. She dated him for 4 years, she made him gift her a $60 million amount. Theese days, he had to leave the country because he was a fraud but she... she kept the money, cuz it was a gift, so it was legal. You think she cares what people say? She's fucking rich, from being a side bitch. Couldn't give a fuck :))) https://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-8873119/Mistress-Spains-ex-king-Juan-Carlos-insists-65MILLION-gifted-not-unreasonable.html Read the comments, they are delicious :)))) Most people agree she is expensive, but she has the right to keep the money, hahaha :))))
In the end, rich men are there, looking for us to spoil us, while broke asses look for us to hate on us. Now, I let you decide which is gonna buy you a luxurious and carefree life and a sexy retirement and also, who's treating you better: the broke us, or the rich guy.
Men are not trash, just the broke ones. Rich people don't have time to hate, they are busy living a deprived life, lol.
Miss_ShaSha
04-19-2021, 03:37 AM
I'm back on cam after just 3 hrs sleep. Oh God, these contests fuck me up. I'm going to go one more hour, meditate, nap, then go to gym and then do my reg schedule.
I cannot treat my body this way for ca$h.
Will self care here soon.
UPDATE:
Went to gym & freaked. Did 20 min bike & 20 min legs, but my anxiety is so bad.
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I don't think I can cam.
Meditation saved me:
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Miss_ShaSha
04-20-2021, 08:45 AM
Demolished an hour+ training session at the gym!
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