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~Carmen~
03-28-2022, 01:58 AM
I have never slept better since I discovered this channel last week.
I used to wake up at least 3 times a night and now it's only once. I put the videos on loop.
https://www.youtube.com/c/SleepTube/videos
bigbum
03-28-2022, 11:22 PM
I though I’d share my story here, although it’s not going to be the positive “I quit sex work and did something else and made tons of money” that you was hoping to hear lol.
After being a online SW for too many years than I care to remember. I needed a change and spent the best part of a year debating on doing something outside of SW.
In January I finally took the plunge into opening an Etsy store. Luckily for me prior to SW I was a web & graphic designer. So I started designing things for businesses & it was passive income. So I’m now almost 3 months later.
Ive been working pretty much 7 days a week every week. 6-10 hours a day. Because the more items you have on your store the higher you get on Etsy search rankings. (I’m taking 300-600 listings for decent $$). I now have 200 items on my store and my sales are about 15-20 sales a week at $3-$4 profit per item after fees. So that’s $80 A WEEK
So on Etsy because everything is absolutely saturated. Nobody can find your listings unless you use Etsy ads. This absolutely eats through your daily budget within an hour too and doesn’t even bring in enough sales to cover the costs.
So after working 3 months solid and making no more than $960 in 3 months. I’m done.
I have my own website too & Instagram & Pinterest. And I’m good at marketing but everything is just saturated.
and yeah so is sex work. But guys are willing to pay and the amount you make in SW for less time, is a far cry difference.
Of course any other business outside of sex work can be more profitable, but you really do have to work ten times higher.
I guess I’ve just been spoiled by earning decent money for very little effort.
yep. i 100% agree with this. i made more than my college degree or any other business can offer! this business is a fucking gold mine.
i was making my husband slave away on upwork for actual coins. i told him fuck that. you should sign up for a sexting site. pretend to be me. and make some bank. LOL!!
nothing pays like sex work.
Ive had my online boutique for 10 years now and im lucky if i make $1000 a month. i rarely invest time in it anymore. sometimes i end up with $500 a month or so . same idea as with you. it doesnt really make sense to focus on it when we can make that in just a few hours on cam.
but i will say day trading and trading stocks has been really helpful, but again i need the sex work money to fund those projects
everything comes back to this gold mine.
i find camming to be the biggest blessing.
bigbum
03-28-2022, 11:25 PM
has anyone had botox ? mine wore off in 1 month. how long does your botox last?
Genoveve
03-29-2022, 12:11 AM
^^^I had my underarms done for sweating, they were back to sweating by the one month mark. My body eats filler really fast too.
bigbum
03-29-2022, 02:04 AM
^^^I had my underarms done for sweating, they were back to sweating by the one month mark. My body eats filler really fast too.
i am suspicious because my husband's botox also wears off. you are right in that some people digest it quicker the body fights it faster. but.. how is it that both my husband and mine wear off so fast . i mean both of us.. seems unlikely.
i just think its wrong of the doctor not to fix it, considering i spent $1000 dollars with him for this treatment.
when i had it done in paris it lasted so much longer.
camgirl91
03-29-2022, 04:21 AM
i am suspicious because my husband's botox also wears off. you are right in that some people digest it quicker the body fights it faster. but.. how is it that both my husband and mine wear off so fast . i mean both of us.. seems unlikely.
i just think its wrong of the doctor not to fix it, considering i spent $1000 dollars with him for this treatment.
when i had it done in paris it lasted so much longer.
I had the same. My Botox costs £300 and it lasts a month latley, I’m pretty certain the doctor is over diluting the Botox, so I come back monthly instead of every 3 months, if you think about it it’s better for him to earn 900 than 300. This is the 3rd time it’s happened now and I’m pretty sure I’m
Not just turning immune to it - there’s women in their 50s who have had it a lot
More regularly than I have who it still works for. I also remember him saying he lost a lot of business over covid so maybe he’s trying to claw some money back by deliberately over diluting.
I’m going I text him telling him it’s wore off again and that I’m going to try another clinic to see if they can maybe use a different brand or something. I want to make sure he knows he’s lost a customer lol
Miss_ShaSha
03-29-2022, 12:02 PM
I have never slept better since I discovered this channel last week.
I used to wake up at least 3 times a night and now it's only once. I put the videos on loop.
https://www.youtube.com/c/SleepTube/videos
Hey, I just found a sleep hypnosis guy on Amazon Music who helps me sleep better. I'll look into yours too! Really glad you found help & it's working :)
bigbum
03-30-2022, 12:23 AM
i wanted to update our conversation with regards to "free or cheap things to do"
if anyone loves mario kart 64 from back in the day...
its been upgraded with new tracks and its free to play its super fun to revisit an old classic but with a twist
here is the link for anyone
fun to play with family and friends or during a slow cam time.
here is the link
https://www.arcadehole.com/games/mario-kart-64-amped-up-game/
euro_princess
03-30-2022, 08:28 AM
i am suspicious because my husband's botox also wears off. you are right in that some people digest it quicker the body fights it faster. but.. how is it that both my husband and mine wear off so fast . i mean both of us.. seems unlikely.
i just think its wrong of the doctor not to fix it, considering i spent $1000 dollars with him for this treatment.
when i had it done in paris it lasted so much longer.
Do you know which brand of Botox they used? I’ve had Vistabel done and that wore off faster than Dysport, which is the strongest one. Also, your doc isn’t wrong about refusing to inject you so fast, that could lead to resistance and worse lasting results. It’s advised to wait at least 3 months between injections. If you’re not pleased with the immediate froze, get it redone in max 2 weeks, before your body starts metabolizing it.
Truth is, your results will last longer over time, so have patience. I first had it done 6 years ago, I’m def seeing longer wear time now, cause my muscles have been frozen for so long (I get it twice a year).
euro_princess
03-30-2022, 08:43 AM
Today I went for cryolipolysis and VelaShape sessions. Next week I have a spa day with massage and more body remodeling therapies. I’m determined to exercise every other day at least, yoga or stretching. And in May I’m starting pole dancing, think it would fit nicely for both SFW and NSFW content. Truth is, 30 is close and I’m not going to have this body forever.
bigbum
03-30-2022, 05:18 PM
Do you know which brand of Botox they used? I’ve had Vistabel done and that wore off faster than Dysport, which is the strongest one. Also, your doc isn’t wrong about refusing to inject you so fast, that could lead to resistance and worse lasting results. It’s advised to wait at least 3 months between injections. If you’re not pleased with the immediate froze, get it redone in max 2 weeks, before your body starts metabolizing it.
Truth is, your results will last longer over time, so have patience. I first had it done 6 years ago, I’m def seeing longer wear time now, cause my muscles have been frozen for so long (I get it twice a year).
uggg ive been having it done for aprox 4 years.
first i had it done in paris and i think he used a european brand and it lasted long! and looked amazing!!
then i went to a derm in mexico and it only lasted 2.5 months because she was only doing 25 units or 30 units at most . she wasnt very helpful.
finally i went to this plastic surgen and the first time it lasted 3 months.
he used 80 units.
then the second time it lasted only like 4 weeks. and i couldnt go back because i was on vacation.
and now.. he changed the toxin type so my body wouldnt metabolize it.
he didnt show me the bottle so theres that. he just comes into the room with the needles already filled.
i trusted him because i had good results last time
this time he charged me more because he had to special order the product. i paid $1000 us dollars for my husband and i
aprox 80 units each.
and here i am with it worn off
i feel tempted to make a charge back on my credit card because i wrote him, showed him a video and told him it wore off and that i was not happy
last time i didnt even complain because i was on vacation.
i just feel that for $1000 bucks and being a repeat customer and paying for another product that i should be getting results.
and i told him this and he said that i waited too long to tell him and that it was normal it wore off by now.. lol after just a few weeks.
idk. do you think its unethical to make a charge back?
next time i might just go back to paris. the prices were very the product was different
i might write the doctor in paris to see the price and product he uses.
i have enough points for free airline tickets and the savings for the service difference in price would pay my mini vacation.
there are fake replica botox from china. and this is mexico after all and sometimes it is imported and who knows at the end of the day where they imported from.
its a reputable plastic surgery and honestly how he injects is very very good. so i am really surprised.
ive exhausted all options where i live. so .
ill have to go international.
and ill have to think about the charge back if its ethical or what is the right thing to do since he doesnt want to remedy it.
bigbum
03-30-2022, 05:18 PM
Today I went for cryolipolysis and VelaShape sessions. Next week I have a spa day with massage and more body remodeling therapies. I’m determined to exercise every other day at least, yoga or stretching. And in May I’m starting pole dancing, think it would fit nicely for both SFW and NSFW content. Truth is, 30 is close and I’m not going to have this body forever.
you go girl! taking care of yourself now will for sure save you money later!
Genoveve
03-31-2022, 01:19 PM
^^^Idk about "unethical" because I think it's unethical to make you pay extra for something that's supposed to work extra good that ended up barely working period....and then refusing to at least partially refund you or offer you a different injectable for free or at a good discount. I just don't know if your credit card company will do it because you technically did get the goods that you paid for
bananaqueen
04-01-2022, 10:00 AM
I've been enjoying reiki lately, so thought I'd share with you lovely ladies
There's an amazing youtube channel of reiki for everything
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC5BSHl4F-lwAobMeYwhWoLw
She has abundance, energy clearing/cleansing and so much more
bigbum
04-02-2022, 08:28 PM
I had the same. My Botox costs £300 and it lasts a month latley, I’m pretty certain the doctor is over diluting the Botox, so I come back monthly instead of every 3 months, if you think about it it’s better for him to earn 900 than 300. This is the 3rd time it’s happened now and I’m pretty sure I’m
Not just turning immune to it - there’s women in their 50s who have had it a lot
More regularly than I have who it still works for. I also remember him saying he lost a lot of business over covid so maybe he’s trying to claw some money back by deliberately over diluting.
I’m going I text him telling him it’s wore off again and that I’m going to try another clinic to see if they can maybe use a different brand or something. I want to make sure he knows he’s lost a customer lol
thank you for this VERY helpful post i am in the exact situation . i showed this post to my husband. i wont be going to back to that prick. he lost 2 customers.
really great advice . thank you camgirl!
camgirl91
04-03-2022, 08:38 AM
thank you for this VERY helpful post i am in the exact situation . i showed this post to my husband. i wont be going to back to that prick. he lost 2 customers.
really great advice . thank you camgirl!
BTW i did google it, about over diluting botox etc, and found this site;
Less expensive options could also mean that the Botox is excessively watered down. While the Botox product must be diluted before injection, some providers over-dilute the solution to get more mileage out of their inventory. This watering down of the solution renders the injection much less effective, meaning it will only last a few weeks rather than the full three to four months expected of the high-quality product.
so yeah, it is definitely a thing that they can do.... sneaky!!
i will try another clinic and let you know how i get on! hopefully it should go back to lasting 3-4 month as opposed to 1 month lol
DigiLuv
04-03-2022, 08:41 AM
Change isn’t easy or comfortable, I’ll say that. It all started during fall, when I decided to make an Onlyfans, after they lifted the ban on porn. I wanted to do it, so I can say I finally had it. My Twitter was a snooze fest, not even 1.5K followers. My Instagram had under 500 people. I wasn’t active on social media prior this, cause I grew up on Streamate and they offered the traffic, didn’t have to use my energy for promoting.
I announced my OF. Had a few of my regulars join and then promoted on Reddit, got verified on some big subreddits and my subscriber count went above my expectations. After my first month, I made 50% of a normal month on SM (working full time) and I never looked back. Excuse me, half of that and I just had to use my brain and be on my phone? Just 1h every few days for content?! Sign me up! After a few months I got tired of Reddit (I felt I reached a plateau) and went on TikTok. I cried many days cause of it, TikTok sucks my soul out, but I don’t have to show any skin (compared to Reddit). So now, 6 months after, I broke 6 figures on OF. I sleep perfectly, I am at peace and I know I made the right call. Currently, my following across all my platforms is 325K people and I’m not stopping here. I want to build multiple TikTok accounts and to finally learn the hustle on IG.
MidwestEmma was my inspiration, she has a podcast called “The Spicy Accountant”. I listened to all her episodes, before I transitioned to TikTok.
Was it easy? No, I cried and cried and then the next day I got back to posting. I scrolled more, I learned more, I failed a lot, but I didn’t give up. Showing up on the platforms helps you build good habits and that was my mantra for some good months.
I think the most rewarding part of all those months wasn’t the success or money, but knowing I could grab myself from a toxic environment and start from scratch. Me? The never ending comfy person, that’s scared of starting anything new, due to fear of failing.
Thank you for this post. This is so inspiring. I too want to leave cam it's so draining It's not worth it anymore. I don't want to do anything in the adult industry. I have had my certification in Transformational coaching for 2 years but I haven't had the courage to go all in to promote myself like I should. This has just motivated me to get to work and step outside of my comfort zone.
bigbum
04-03-2022, 10:19 PM
BTW i did google it, about over diluting botox etc, and found this site;
Less expensive options could also mean that the Botox is excessively watered down. While the Botox product must be diluted before injection, some providers over-dilute the solution to get more mileage out of their inventory. This watering down of the solution renders the injection much less effective, meaning it will only last a few weeks rather than the full three to four months expected of the high-quality product.
so yeah, it is definitely a thing that they can do.... sneaky!!
i will try another clinic and let you know how i get on! hopefully it should go back to lasting 3-4 month as opposed to 1 month lol
i am going to have to wait till i go to paris next. when i had it done in paris it lasted longer than 4 months.
ive literally exhausted all options near where i live that were even remotely trust worthy. so frusterating.
yes let me know how you get on. be sure to keep us updated on your journey to not getting scammed.
how dumb these doctors are , they lost us both as clients.
Miss_ShaSha
05-01-2022, 05:49 AM
Took time off to study & relax. Continued training kickboxing at home. Meditation practice strong. Derealization up. Unsure why.
I've decided to try online counseling as the Derealization is very bad. Every 4-5 days. I'm on a CBT Anxiety/Panic app to brush up on CBT skills. I'm still using DP/DR affirmations when an episode hits. Still taking Ashwagandha.
Perhaps the transition I'm making from camming full time to Digital Marketing full time is the trigger.
Anyhow, I'm well despite it & have a plan.
~Carmen~
05-01-2022, 02:59 PM
Took time off to study & relax. Continued training kickboxing at home. Meditation practice strong. Derealization up. Unsure why.
I've decided to try online counseling as the Derealization is very bad. Every 4-5 days. I'm on a CBT Anxiety/Panic app to brush up on CBT skills. I'm still using DP/DR affirmations when an episode hits. Still taking Ashwagandha.
Perhaps the transition I'm making from camming full time to Digital Marketing full time is the trigger.
Anyhow, I'm well despite it & have a plan.
Change can trigger mental health problems. Any big change like moving, taking time off, changing jobs, etc are super hard if you are having mental issues.
I believe you will feel much better once you settle into your new job. There is always camming as a backup or side job.
Be gentle with yourself.
I hope you feel better:hug::heartbeat
Miss_ShaSha
05-03-2022, 03:15 AM
Change can trigger mental health problems. Any big change like moving, taking time off, changing jobs, etc are super hard if you are having mental issues.
I believe you will feel much better once you settle into your new job. There is always camming as a backup or side job.
Be gentle with yourself.
I hope you feel better:hug::heartbeat
Thank you so much Mama Bear :hug: :heartbeat
bigbum
05-08-2022, 01:23 AM
Took time off to study & relax. Continued training kickboxing at home. Meditation practice strong. Derealization up. Unsure why.
I've decided to try online counseling as the Derealization is very bad. Every 4-5 days. I'm on a CBT Anxiety/Panic app to brush up on CBT skills. I'm still using DP/DR affirmations when an episode hits. Still taking Ashwagandha.
Perhaps the transition I'm making from camming full time to Digital Marketing full time is the trigger.
Anyhow, I'm well despite it & have a plan.
even if you transition away from camming, hope to see you post on here . we miss you when you arent around. you are our selfcare inspo.
hang in there, as miss carmen said, change can really trigger a lot!
happy to hear you are using natural remedy methods. good for you!
~Carmen~
05-08-2022, 03:03 AM
I wanted so bad to work tomorrow but I'm so tired my eyes are half closed.
Pushing yourself too hard is not good for you. I will resist. haha
~Carmen~
05-08-2022, 03:05 AM
even if you transition away from camming, hope to see you post on here . we miss you when you arent around. you are our selfcare inspo.
hang in there, as miss carmen said, change can really trigger a lot!
happy to hear you are using natural remedy methods. good for you!
Yes, please don't be a stranger. We would miss you. We will be thrilled to see you, even if occasionally.
euro_princess
05-12-2022, 02:30 PM
Every time I hear how shitty SM has turned, I thank myself for leaving. It leaves such a bad taste in my mouth the awful way the treat girls for 30-35%…
Miss_ShaSha
05-12-2022, 03:02 PM
Every time I hear how shitty SM has turned, I thank myself for leaving. It leaves such a bad taste in my mouth the awful way the treat girls for 30-35%…
I'm on the way out sister...real close to closing and nailing that coffin down lolollll.
euro_princess
05-13-2022, 02:56 AM
I'm on the way out sister...real close to closing and nailing that coffin down lolollll.
They are def giving a lot of reasons for girls to give up on the platform. It was good while it lasted. But 30% with so many issues and a semi-naked free chat?! At least token websites pay more. I can’t even explain how thankful I am that I’m not in this situation. I told my hubby last night about all the horror stories I saw and he said: “they are going downhill fast”.
~Carmen~
05-15-2022, 04:41 AM
I'm so thankful for my psychiatrist. Most only give you meds. Mine actually listens and cares.
I think that most of us in this business need some kind of mental health help.
I am very thankful for all of you on this forum. It has helped me to realize I'm not alone with the ups and downs of this industry.
Miss_ShaSha
05-15-2022, 07:27 AM
I'm so thankful for my psychiatrist. Most only give you meds. Mine actually listens and cares.
I think that most of us in this business need some kind of mental health help.
I am very thankful for all of you on this forum. It has helped me to realize I'm not alone with the ups and downs of this industry.
Now that's a great psych! So glad to hear.
~Carmen~
05-24-2022, 02:22 AM
I took myself to a nice Italian restaurant today. It feels strange because you don't see many women eating out alone. This is my third time and I'm really enjoying it. It didn't hurt that my waiter was cute and flirtatious.
PhatGirlDynomite!!!
06-01-2022, 11:45 AM
One of my favorite YouTuber has a message about the light after pain. It resonated so strongly because I always remind myself that everything is always so beautiful once you come out on the other side. The little things, big moments, tiny moments...all of it! Just have faith.
https://youtu.be/-aQ580mwSnk
seashell
06-01-2022, 06:09 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dGrybv3Bv0E
Posted this in the Amouranth thread, but it's also super relevant here!
She talks about how she makes millions on Twitch, but is such a workaholic that she's beyond burned out. In later interviews, she says she made some changes and worked on self care.
~Carmen~
06-19-2022, 03:00 PM
I hope Sha is doing well. I miss seeing her around here and also Esixxx.
Luci Fer
06-20-2022, 07:01 PM
I took myself to a nice Italian restaurant today. It feels strange because you don't see many women eating out alone. This is my third time and I'm really enjoying it. It didn't hurt that my waiter was cute and flirtatious.
oooh that's the level I am yet to reach!;D
I did it a couple of times, but always felt a bit unsatisfied because I couldn't discuss the food or talk to anyone while waiting for my order. And unfortunately, I can't eat and enjoy it enough when I am alone in restaurant ;/ When at home it's different story though:)
~Carmen~
06-20-2022, 09:09 PM
oooh that's the level I am yet to reach!;D
I did it a couple of times, but always felt a bit unsatisfied because I couldn't discuss the food or talk to anyone while waiting for my order. And unfortunately, I can't eat and enjoy it enough when I am alone in restaurant ;/ When at home it's different story though:)
It didn't help my anxiety that I was seated in the middle of the restaurant.;D I felt like everyone was looking at me thinking "She must not be able to get a date." or "Apparently nobody want to eat with her."
The cute waiter did spend extra time talking to me, probably out of pity. LOLLLLL;D;D;D;D;D
It was fun though. I love breaking social constraints.
kamiliam
06-21-2022, 12:48 PM
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It didn't help my anxiety that I was seated in the middle of the restaurant.;D I felt like everyone was looking at me thinking "She must not be able to get a date." or "Apparently nobody want to eat with her."
The cute waiter did spend extra time talking to me, probably out of pity. LOLLLLL;D;D;D;D;D
It was fun though. I love breaking social constraints.
or they thought you were a very important/busy/traveling and most of all self assured woman who wanted to enjoy a nice meal. I’m glad you are doing that for yourself you deserve it
Cutie101
06-21-2022, 01:12 PM
I am going for 3 days at the seaside and I'm leaving the work phone at home. I will completely disconnect from work, not gonna read anything related. I will stuff with seafood, lay on the beach, eat ice cream and call it a day.
~Carmen~
06-21-2022, 04:37 PM
or they thought you were a very important/busy/traveling and most of all self assured woman who wanted to enjoy a nice meal. I’m glad you are doing that for yourself you deserve it
That is very nice of you to say. That was exactly the image I was trying to project.
I hope your week is amazing. You are always so nice and gracious.
Luci Fer
06-21-2022, 07:16 PM
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I felt like everyone was looking at me thinking "She must not be able to get a date." or "Apparently nobody want to eat with her."
The cute waiter did spend extra time talking to me, probably out of pity. LOLLLLL;D;D;D;D;D
.
No way, Carmen! It's not about you!
When I see women dining alone , I always feel they are in their own universe, so content, very confident and mysterious.
So the waiter spent extra time talking to you because you were like a queen. I know, I know:)
bigbum
06-22-2022, 12:51 AM
I am going for 3 days at the seaside and I'm leaving the work phone at home. I will completely disconnect from work, not gonna read anything related. I will stuff with seafood, lay on the beach, eat ice cream and call it a day.
sounds amazing! you deserve this soooo much!
Get that sun cutie
bigbum
06-22-2022, 12:54 AM
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It didn't help my anxiety that I was seated in the middle of the restaurant.;D I felt like everyone was looking at me thinking "She must not be able to get a date." or "Apparently nobody want to eat with her."
The cute waiter did spend extra time talking to me, probably out of pity. LOLLLLL;D;D;D;D;D
It was fun though. I love breaking social constraints.
omg that reminds me of 1 episode of sex in the city where she is finally at peace with not bringing a book with her to dinner to "look busy"
and feeling totally good about eating alone in peace.
i cant remember the episode !
i bet you were getting in your mind about it more than everyone else was. dont worry!
~Carmen~
06-22-2022, 02:08 AM
No way, Carmen! It's not about you!
When I see women dining alone , I always feel they are in their own universe, so content, very confident and mysterious.
So the waiter spent extra time talking to you because you were like a queen. I know, I know:)
I know, I was just being silly. I am THE:queen:. Dude was falling all over himself flirting.
I'm starting to feel the content, very confident and mysterious vibe. I will go back and report how it goes:).
Thank you Luci. I love your posts;D.
~Carmen~
06-22-2022, 02:21 AM
omg that reminds me of 1 episode of sex in the city where she is finally at peace with not bringing a book with her to dinner to "look busy"
and feeling totally good about eating alone in peace.
i cant remember the episode !
i bet you were getting in your mind about it more than everyone else was. dont worry!
I bet so too! Once you start getting used to it, it starts to be a very freeing experience that more women should try.
I haven't watched much sex in the city but would love to see that episode!
nattyfetish
07-31-2022, 01:55 AM
I had a very rough time in the last 2 months mentally. I still have but I am taking action. I've got a plan,I pray i don't procrastinate. I just blocked facebook from my browser. I am in some amazing and full of information groups but while anxious they cause me to spiral by browsing into them. I did nto realise how often i opened facebook while online. I tried 3 times already and only been online of 10 minutes LOL. Wish me luck girls !
~Carmen~
08-03-2022, 03:45 AM
I had a very rough time in the last 2 months mentally. I still have but I am taking action. I've got a plan,I pray i don't procrastinate. I just blocked facebook from my browser. I am in some amazing and full of information groups but while anxious they cause me to spiral by browsing into them. I did nto realise how often i opened facebook while online. I tried 3 times already and only been online of 10 minutes LOL. Wish me luck girls !
Good luck Natty! You have taken a really good first step by blocking Facebook. This will free up time for your self care. You can do it!!
minibagel
08-04-2022, 09:22 AM
self-care today involves having my phone turned ~*OFF*~ all day. reading a book and enjoying blissful uninterrupted solitude. cannot believe i spent literally ALL DAY yesterday listening to the guy i am seeing vent to me about his parents. i counted 34 freaking text novels. that really happened and i really counted. today i will be totally unreachable mwahahah :angel:
Miss_ShaSha
10-20-2022, 07:18 AM
It's been a while since I've been to this thread. Truly happy to see posts, ladies, where you're treating yourself well or admitting some care is necessary then engaging it.
I've had a very tough last 30 days where some serious healing was necessary. Desperate to heal...I stumbled across an hour long guided self-hypnosis that truly rocked my world. After using the free recording on YouTube about a week, I found all his content on Amazon Music Unlimited and have used the fuck out of a few. No exaggeration: these tracks are incredible and I feel like a brand new woman!!!
Here are just the most recent stats for an AM hour long session I do each morning and then the afternoon hour long session which is a totally different hypnosis track.
57722
57723
His material can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/c/MeditationStation
Esixxx
10-21-2022, 02:47 AM
It's been a while since I've been to this thread. Truly happy to see posts, ladies, where you're treating yourself well or admitting some care is necessary then engaging it.
I've had a very tough last 30 days where some serious healing was necessary. Desperate to heal...I stumbled across an hour long guided self-hypnosis that truly rocked my world. After using the free recording on YouTube about a week, I found all his content on Amazon Music Unlimited and have used the fuck out of a few. No exaggeration: these tracks are incredible and I feel like a brand new woman!!!
Here are just the most recent stats for an AM hour long session I do each morning and then the afternoon hour long session which is a totally different hypnosis track.
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His material can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/c/MeditationStation
Thank you Sha, for posting as it was confirmation for me to get up off my ass and do something :) I saw your post yesterday morning when my mind was feeling like a chicken running around with it's head cut off.
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I haven't posted here in a while-so here is an update.
I've been off of my self care game for a few months- sometimes I do okay with it exercise, meditation, taking time out for me and making time for social connection.
In the last three months I had to practice hanging the sign "Not my circus, not my monkeys" with people. I'm all about being supportive to my family and friends but there comes a point in time where if they aren't doing anything to improve the situation and they keep coming back with the same problems -it's a drain. I let it eat up a great deal of my time and energy- and that threw me off track. Learning to say no or waiting to respond has been helpful.
I had experienced really bad fatigue due to horomones- earlier this year. Fortunately that has been resolved with a supplement.
Along with the fatigue- was aches and pains-lower back and shoulder pain- I found ways to fix that by setting up a more ergonomic workspace- pillows for the computer chair, and an arm for my monitor to raise it at the right height.
I backed off up my self care practices - exercise and meditation to get caught up on admin work of the business and to get that part organized. That's caught up and now it's time to get back into practicing self care.
The only part that I have stuck with has been morning journaling. I know I need to engage in those other parts as the help me manage stress better.
I also backed off monthly reiki sessions as life happens. I have a session booked next week with a new practitioner so I am really looking forward to having some clearing done- my head feels like a wreck.
Miss_ShaSha
10-21-2022, 05:25 AM
Thank you Sha, for posting as it was confirmation for me to get up off my ass and do something :) I saw your post yesterday morning when my mind was feeling like a chicken running around with it's head cut off.
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I haven't posted here in a while-so here is an update.
I've been off of my self care game for a few months- sometimes I do okay with it exercise, meditation, taking time out for me and making time for social connection.
In the last three months I had to practice hanging the sign "Not my circus, not my monkeys" with people. I'm all about being supportive to my family and friends but there comes a point in time where if they aren't doing anything to improve the situation and they keep coming back with the same problems -it's a drain. I let it eat up a great deal of my time and energy- and that threw me off track. Learning to say no or waiting to respond has been helpful.
I had experienced really bad fatigue due to horomones- earlier this year. Fortunately that has been resolved with a supplement.
Along with the fatigue- was aches and pains-lower back and shoulder pain- I found ways to fix that by setting up a more ergonomic workspace- pillows for the computer chair, and an arm for my monitor to raise it at the right height.
I backed off up my self care practices - exercise and meditation to get caught up on admin work of the business and to get that part organized. That's caught up and now it's time to get back into practicing self care.
The only part that I have stuck with has been morning journaling. I know I need to engage in those other parts as the help me manage stress better.
I also backed off monthly reiki sessions as life happens. I have a session booked next week with a new practitioner so I am really looking forward to having some clearing done- my head feels like a wreck.
Sister, we heal, live, run into snags, then just have to refocus and return to what's worked in the past. Super, I mean, SUPER glad you are enforcing boundaries. They are the key to a happy and healthy life.
I had to say no to a man with 6 figures, but he had healing to do, and I'm not a fixer...anymore. Saying no is a saving grace. WELL DONE YOU!!!
MelanieJ
10-26-2022, 04:53 PM
I can't believe I'm just now finding this thread, but it came at the right time.
Recently I deleted all social media apps off my phone, especially TWITTER. Comparing myself to others is not something I ever do usually, but with my depression in high gear, sleeping on the couch since Thursday night, and not working, I began to feel myself getting angry and envious of the curated lives I was seeing in my feed.
Here I am, a beautiful go getter with written down plans, content ideas abound, and I have all of 9 videos published on my clip sites and nothing else to show for it. I separated from my Husband in November of last year and began camming again to care for myself on my own. It's nearly a year later and I'm NOWHERE NEAR where I thought I'd be. Laziness and depression is a BITCH, now I'm feeling like a complete loser. This isn't me.
I've begun therapy and started new meds a few days ago, but I'm still struggling to get off the couch. Barely showering (if at all) and eating cereal for the past few mornings is just...not me. This isn't who I am. I'm supposed to be this no nonsense boss DOMME, and here I am, not even confident enough to get on cam. I'm just not feeling it...
Okay. Rant over. Now I gotta find ways to get out of this slump. Rent is due on Tuesday and I'm sitting here fucking off...I hate this.