Log in

View Full Version : Cammodels: Managing Stress & Self Care



Pages : 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 [8] 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48

Miss_ShaSha
10-04-2019, 12:20 PM
Looked over all earnings and hrs for every month this year and feel much better about the rest of this year. I have a new plan of action. I'm going to stream my 5 hrs a day 5 days a week and just stay in a high vibration the whole time. I'm not worried about daily goals or weekly goals until the last week of the month where, if I have to, I'll stream 40 hrs a week to catch up on anything at all.

I'm done stressing out over income and hrs. According to my hrs and pay behavior I can still have enough money to pay all bills, rent, and save as long as I stream 80-88hrs a month. Usually it can be accomplished in 80 hrs.

No more. I'm done.

New focus is only on self care and keeping a high vibe. I'll be working on LOA, positive affirmations, and abundance meditation...but I will not stress anymore.

Miss_ShaSha
10-04-2019, 01:52 PM
It is not the job causing your stress ladies, it is you. Yes, you. Yes jobs can influence our stress levels, emotions, and mind set, but at the end of the day we are all responsible for our own emotional/physical states of being. That being said I was a hot mess years ago because I allowed stress from this industry to consume me...but at the end of the day you are in control of your thoughts and emotions....so I speak from experience here. I allowed it. I have been in the industry for over a decade, about 15 years now. A majority of that time I was in a negative state of being, and blamed the industry, etc. That set me back years in my own personal development.

What helped me break out of my dark time:

Meditation

Yoga

Eating a proper diet

Set hours: I know it is very easy to cam from the time we wake up to the time we go to bed...it is difficult to manage time and we all procrastinate and or stay on sites far too long. I did this for years and it wore on me. Give yourself set hours to work on a live site, and let it be that...even if you did not make your goal. Fuck staying up too late to make $20. We all have a good day one day and a bad day the next. Accept this, it is the reality, the ups and downs will never end! It is how you manage yourself that makes the difference. The feast/famine game will never change but you can change the way you work and how you react to it. A tip is to work on a live site and sell skypes/indy cam. When you are on off hours you can still make money on skype without being live all of the time. Nothing better than taking a few hours to yourself in the am/pm and making $50-100 in a skype show to start off your day! And it makes the live cam hustle that much easier cause you are already ahead of the game! Unless you are late on rent or have unexpected circumstances, there is no reason to stay on a site 8+ hours a day..it does not increase your money. Giving yourself time off will, because you are well rested and have your head in the game, not some exhausted camgirl zombie.

Law of Attraction: We all get super stressed if we dont make our goals and it is very self destructive. Cam with intention. Affirm you are going to make tons of money/make your goal/overcome financial challenges. Change your mind set about money, and your money will change. Say your affirmations and intentions out loud before you get on cam, and let that shit go. Watch as the money flows to you from many different sources. The key with affirmations is to stop obsessing over them and let the universe work its magic. Have faith in yourself and faith in the universe. If you are constantly in a negative mindset about money, or think it is hard to make, it will be hard to make. That is the reality you are creating for yourself when you think this way. Your thoughts become your reality. Get rid of the scarcity mind set, and take on a mind set of abundance.

Same goes with the way we think of ourselves for being in the industry/cammers. I resented myself for being in the business for so long for quite some time. Camming was always something I "had to get out of one day" and when that day never came, I had a difficult time accepting myself. Camming is the ultimate blessing and job and I now look at it that way. We have so much opportunity, so much freedom, and so many ways of making money. It isn't some god awful dead end unless you make it that way for yourself. We can all cam into retirement and that is NOT a bad thing. Cammers are the first gen of sex workers who do not have to "retire" at 30. We can cam until we are all grannies, and nowadays I do not think that is all that bad. If you have a disparaging outlook of this industry, it will not work in your favor.

Opportunities: Yes there are so many ways we can make money. Tipping sites, members sites, snapchat/fans only clubs, clips stores. Stick with one or two means of making money and focus on those. A lot of us spread ourselves way too thin, and that means you are not reaching your full potential. Fuck appearing everywhere online, because "everyone else does." Be a big fish in a little pond, not a little fish in a big pond. Stop trying to keep up with the herd on social media, stop being that "pick me camgirl" always seeking attention in some way shape or form (even if it is business related) It is exhausting, inauthentic and a waste of time. We all know that social media doesnt convert as much as we would like it to, so use it as a means to keep in contact with your existing fans and not attract new ones. Once new fans see how popular you are with your regulars, they will be interested. What they aren't interested in is yet another camgirl spamming all her links all the time. I'd rather have a lot of followers on one social media outlet, than trying to juggle 5 different social media outlets each with less followers. Work smarter, not harder. And blogs rule..what message are you trying to get across in 40 characters or less? Yawn!! Blogs really allow clients to get a feel for you as a person and have a much better opportunity of converting.

Practicing Mindfulness/Self awareness/Present moment awareness: Cam models are very easily triggered and very reactive. It turns men off to see you bitching complaining and snapping at your customers due to that one rude guy triggering you. If they wanted to see that shit, they would be with their wives/gf's. Keep your personal life drama to yourself as well. I was once upon a time reactive, too. Don't let that one customer ruin your night or the vibe of your room. If you get triggered, take a minute to yourself and pull yourself back into the present moment. Triggers are not the enemy...after you gather yourself, your trigger can help you find the underlying issue and the reason why you are triggered...usually stemming from childhood..and then you can truly work on that. If you get set off any time someone says something that bothers you, you will never survive. It is very important to become non reactive when you are in any line of adult work. It makes your life a hell of a lot easier too. Use camming as a catalyst to be more mindful, and make you more aware of your triggers so you can work on them. People are our mirrors even on cam. If you see something in someone that is bothering you, it is showing you what you must work on as well. As far as present moment awareness, the NOW is the only time we really have and is the only time that is important, but many of us are trapped in past and future. These are all mind stories. Why ruminate on the past, it no longer exists. Why worry about a future that is not here yet. The now is the only thing that matters, and we are missing out on it by living in past/future. This is much easier said than done and I still have a lot of work to do in this department. But once it clicks, you will not believe what a difference this makes. I know they do not have the brain power we do, but animals as an example...do they worry about the future? DO they ruminate on a thing that happened a year ago? NO. Nor should we. Our minds are a blessing and a curse, but most importantly a tool. Like a tool we should put our minds to use when necessary, and when we are done we should put the tool down and live in the moment. Sadly, I see more and more that people allow their minds and emotions to run them and not the other way around. We are all in control of our own thoughts and feelings..this can actually be quite upsetting for some people to hear but it is the reality. If you are stressed, depressed, anxious..you have created that issue and keep indulging yourself in it. On top of that the media exists to put and keep us all in a state of fear and worry, playing on the reality of people with no control over their own minds constantly.

Negative energy: Do an energy clearing anytime it is needed. Men can throw negative energy our way even on cam. You can protect yourself from this by clearing your energy field before and after camming, and before you get on cam (along with your affirmations) stating that only energy of the greatest good is allowed into your own energy field and home. If you want to go this far, you can ask for divine protection from the universe ask for safety and protection from negative energy. I know this is a lil out there but many cam models are empathetic and can easily take on sour attitudes projected at us from others.

Breathing: A large majority of society doesn't even breathe right. We are shallow breathers and this increases stress and anxiety. We should all belly breathe, a practice known as diaphragmatic breathing. It is a difficult habit to break but it is possible and will change you and your outlook for the better. To help, I started doing a diaphragmatic breathing guided meditation every morning. This made me more conscious of my pattern of breath throughout the day. The current way we breathe is keeping us in "prey/fear mode" Shallow breathing is part of the fight or flight response and camming is by no means a threat in this way, nor are our day to day very comfortable lives as opposed to our ancestors.

Stance: Work on your posture and power stances...standing and sitting a certain way will make you appear and feel more powerful and in control.

Maintain a life/Get out: Go outside on a walk at least once a day and maintain a social life. Many of us become hermits and I am guilty of this to this day. I have never had a large social circle, but that isnt necessary. Just get out of the house once a day. Even if you just walk to get the mail. Stop ordering things online (i know it is hard not to) and go shop for things in person.

Savings: We all have emergencies and financial challenges. Savings give you a cushion if you need to take time off or have had a shitty month. When you have a good month continue to be frugal as if you are broke. Especially important to put that money aside that is due at tax time and this will save you from owing the IRS a bunch of money.

Comparisons: Stop worrying about what other camgirls are doing, how popular they appear, how much money they seem to be making. Stop comparing your day to another persons day. The only person you need to worry about is you. The only person you are competing with is yourself. We are all unique individuals with our own talents to offer. If you lose a client to another girl, another new client will come.

And last but not least, be honest with yourself. If you can't do this, don't. Don't think it will get any easier "once you build a fanbase/work more, etc" It will not. Be true to yourself and your own values, and do not cross your own boundaries for any type of money. The median camgirl makes 30-50k a year before taxes. This is easily obtainable in other jobs. Camming is not easy or fast money and never was. Many of us stay because of the freedom, but it is so easy to start other businesses and remain self employed in this day and age. If you have other goals/dreams...take the freedom and time you have camming and invest it in those dreams. You have nothing to lose. If you fail, you learn. Always another chance, another opportunity. You are never stuck in camming tho at times it can feel that way. If you want out, get out. Only you are holding your back from accomplishing what you really want.

Just to ensure my message is coming across the way I am hoping it will, I say this all with love and care. When I use the terms we/you I am speaking generally. I have been bitched at in the past for this because people took it as a personal attack and as if I am speaking for everyone. I am not lol. All of the above helped me in my personal journey and camming career, not saying it will help everyone and not attempting to shove the above down everyone's throat. Namaste, bitches.


Reread this and I'm going to make all of this my reality for the rest of this year on cam.

Thank you CyberStripper. I appreciate this.

Miss_ShaSha
10-04-2019, 02:14 PM
This morning when I woke up my resting heart rate was 43 bpm. It's good if it's 40-44 bpm. If it's any higher I'm really stressed out. So it was good this AM.

Plans are to relax and keep HR low every morning. Going to bed at 9pm tonight so I can get 9 hrs and wake at about 7am.

52046

Charlotteslut
10-04-2019, 04:49 PM
One thing that helps if you spend a lot of time indoors is to get out first thing in the morning with a cup of coffee and go for a morning walk. It helps to feel active and like the day is beginning. This is a tip I learned from my mom...it does help psychologically to have this new beginning ritual in your life.

Miss_ShaSha
10-05-2019, 07:47 AM
My new schedule is 5 hrs a day 5 days a week with a total of streaming 30 hrs. According to pay behavior and streaming behavior, I only have to stream 82 hrs a month to live stress free and comfortably. So I have a new set schedule. I feel better already.

Since I've already streamed my 30 hrs and met weekly income goal, I'm going to take today off. I'll be socializing this afternoon. Gonna play ping pong with a new fella, have a couple glasses of wine, and nibble on nachos.

I just reconnected with an old friend and we have plans to do happy hour next week. I'm going to make sure I attend happy hour once a week so that I don't isolate. I usually isolate during the winter and tend to get depressed. This year will be different.

Super happy today. Looking forward to some fun.

Miss_ShaSha
10-05-2019, 08:57 AM
I just did a Ho'oponopono negative energy clearing session. I didn't meditate this time. I just let the track I usually listen to play for 20 min. I plan to clear negative energy daily whether I'm on cam or not.

52053

I had a third Reiki session done to open up blocked Chakras, remove negative energy, and cleanse all Chakras. I have to keep clearing negative energy daily. My light/energy worker suggested the Ho'oponopono as a good way to do this. She said I had really bad energy attached to me during our last session. I was worried at first, but as long as I clear negative energy daily...I think I'll be fine. Plus, doing the Ho'oponopono daily is a sure fire way to manifest money...so I'll be doing it daily all of Oct.

Miss_ShaSha
10-06-2019, 07:02 AM
Starting the day off right: 9.5 hrs rest, yummy coffee, 16 oz water, and cleared negative energy for 12 min.

This is my daily Ho'oponopono session to start the cam shift off. HR is high as I just had coffee, but I feel calm and sure.

52070

Intentions today are to eat clean, drink 80 oz of water, keep my vibe up, and meditate.

Will update with meditation sessions to stay on track.

andreaxchanel
10-06-2019, 12:08 PM
Idk what self care looks like in this moment. Dealing with Bipolar Disorder and Panic Disorder with Agoraphobia, I feel like sleep and prayer is the best I've got. Also it may sound weird, but every time I get in my rut I think of my little curly haired son and how much he loves me and it whips me into shape. I've decided also, that I've literally had my belly-full (sorry, I'm a country girl lol) of somewhat succumbing to my disorders. I want to push myself to give camming, etc my all. Not that I have a choice, being a single mother I need to work in order to provide for my son and I don't want him to have a mediocre life whether it be monetary or parental. Between mental health and family who just doesn't get this is a real job...I've decided to really push the bullshit aside and get these 30 hours a week done. For the sake of progress, plus being broke or behind on bills make me absolutely suicidal. I will no longer let the bad nights move me into depression, like CyberStripper said, we all know how this goes. Now is the time for me to stay unbothered and work my ass off. The one thing I know is that as long as I keep my faith and believe this is gonna work out without worrying, it shall be!!! Sooooooo lets get it ladies.

Miss_ShaSha
10-06-2019, 02:32 PM
I hear you loud and clear. I deal with depression myself and I have terrible anxiety. Self care is may savior. I know that if I don't eat right, drink enough water, exercise, sleep well, and socialize I'll drown.

Sister...I'm here with you. I decided to just stick to my hours and not push (except today I have great energy) so that I don't fuck myself up.

I'm trying to live by CyberStripper. She smart as fuck. We can learn so much from her.

I'm sending you good energy Xs 2.

andreaxchanel
10-06-2019, 03:32 PM
Had to check in before I got ready and thank you!!! Best of luck tonight to every single one of you boss ass ladies! (didn't wanna say bitches cuz I don't want to offend, but it doesn't have the same flare haha)

Miss_ShaSha
10-06-2019, 04:05 PM
^^Fuck, call me a bitch or a hoe...I do it and do it well LOL. I appreciate the good vibes. I'm doing well over here which is such a difference. I hope your shift goes well. Sending lots of love your way xoxo

Miss_ShaSha
10-06-2019, 06:06 PM
Fucked up my Keto diet. I had 2 bananas.

I did drink almost 100 oz of water tho.

Erika_Xstacy
10-06-2019, 08:48 PM
Fucked up my Keto diet. I had 2 bananas.

I did drink almost 100 oz of water tho.



I can take a perfectly healthy food and clog arteries

be proud of your banana :)

Miss_ShaSha
10-06-2019, 11:52 PM
I can take a perfectly healthy food and clog arteries

be proud of your banana :)

Haha, thanks! I don't give myself enough credit. I was good.

laurielegs
10-07-2019, 12:37 AM
Reread this and I'm going to make all of this my reality for the rest of this year on cam.

Thank you CyberStripper. I appreciate this.

Woah - thanks for quoting that MissShaSha and Thanks CyberStripper for taking the time to put that post together and sharing it here.

I've had a huge drop in money this year and things are definitely not the same. It's harder now to make money on all the sites I'm on and I've changed nothing, in fact have upgraded lighting and equipment since last year so should be doing better moneywise.

With that said though, complaining about it won't pay my bills. I've been a bit spoiled, got great equipment, 2 computers hooked up to 2 big wide screen TVs, 2 webcams and more than enough bandwidth. It just takes longer now and it sucks but that's the reality of it. I know I can do better at being more consistent. It's tough to make myself get online when its slow but way easier than other jobs out there which I do not want to have to do. Corporate life does not agree with me or my health issues. I know some love that life but for me it was hell.

Time for me to take a good look at what sites are bringing in the most money for me and focus more on being consistent, doing better self care.

Miss_ShaSha
10-07-2019, 12:55 AM
^^LaurieLegs, it's really interesting. I've experienced a decrease in earnings for a few weeks now, and it wasn't until I took a long hard look at my life and what I was doing that something really positive happened. My focus for the last few weeks has been to generate more income. It's natural, right? We need money to survive and be happy, but I was so stressed doing it.

Then I found and reread what CyberStripper posted and realized that I'm not going to manifest anything good if I'm so fuckin stressed out.

I kid you not...after deciding to feel better and do things to be better: I manifested more income.

It's interesting the way things work. You can have to best body, the prettiest face, the best clothing, and the best equipment, but if you're in a shitty mood or your vibe is total shit it's really not going to work.

Please, you don't have to thank me. I just reposted some really great advice.

Girl, I'm sending you good vibes. I'm sending them Xs 2.

nattyfetish
10-07-2019, 02:11 AM
It is funny cause sleep does help me a lot but I can manage 8 h online after only 5 h of sleep. What I did notice is that what gives me a positive vibe and makes me get tons of privates is GETTING PRIVATES haha. So money makes me hapy and gives me a shit ton of energy LOL.
On a more serious note tough, I did notice that beeing happy and cheerfull on cam brings me more money ALL THE TIME. I guess afterall members look for this in us: pleasure and good moments. And a bitter ass bitch or sad one (don't get me wrong, I have been the bitter ass bitch and the sad one more times than I wish haha) does not attract them.
Whenever I am super happy I get comments like: oh I love that you are so full of energy and cheerfull. Oh yes, I work in fetish, I get the same remark from my slaves TOO.

Miss_ShaSha
10-07-2019, 03:13 AM
^^This is the ticket Natty. I have to agree that a positive attitude usually helps me get sales. I'm rarely a bitch to members...I can bitch and moan in Camming Sucks, but I'm almost always in a good mood in front of the camera (or at least appear that way).

I've noticed that a lot of the top girls on SM have a pretty good attitude on cam. I don't think I've seen a girl yet rip a guy a new one on cam. I don't go into a lot of girl's rooms on SM, but I have peeked in on a few and the theme is they are positive.

I have to say that if someone I meet is cheerful and gives off good energy I want to spend time with them. Conversely if someone is just so sad or upset I tend to want to keep my distance.

Miss_ShaSha
10-07-2019, 03:20 AM
Sleep has evaded me tonight. I'm not sure why I can't sleep; sales were good yesterday. In an attempt to chill, I've done a Zen Healing self-hypnosis which is a hr long. The audio I use for these sessions is by a hypnotherapist named Anna Thompson. She's been my go to for almost 2 years.

I use her self-hypnosis albums to cope with issues such as healing my inner child, panic and anxiety, anger management, break ups, and self-esteem. I owe a lot of my healing to her. I've spent many nights alone listening to her talk me down from the edge.

Sleep is major self care for me, and I'm missing out on it right now. I have a shift later today from 3pm-8pm and I hope I can at least get a nap in before I have to stream.

52076

NitaBaby
10-07-2019, 03:29 AM
I can't sleep either. I'm trying to create a bill plan for this month to ease my mind.

The planning part relaxes me.

Miss_ShaSha
10-07-2019, 03:36 AM
^^Girl, after I did that spreadsheet for my expenses, my heart was at peace. Yes, organizing or planning really helps calm my nerves. Seeing things on paper eases my mind. I've always had an idea of what I need to pay and make, but I never put it all down neatly. Seeing those numbers laid out like they are just gave me this sense of calm. Like, it's gonna be ok Sha.

Yeah, you're gonna feel much better once it's all laid out.

seicento
10-07-2019, 09:45 AM
It is funny cause sleep does help me a lot but I can manage 8 h online after only 5 h of sleep. What I did notice is that what gives me a positive vibe and makes me get tons of privates is GETTING PRIVATES haha. So money makes me hapy and gives me a shit ton of energy LOL.
On a more serious note tough, I did notice that beeing happy and cheerfull on cam brings me more money ALL THE TIME. I guess afterall members look for this in us: pleasure and good moments. And a bitter ass bitch or sad one (don't get me wrong, I have been the bitter ass bitch and the sad one more times than I wish haha) does not attract them.
Whenever I am super happy I get comments like: oh I love that you are so full of energy and cheerfull. Oh yes, I work in fetish, I get the same remark from my slaves TOO.

I can totally relate. Good mood from having privates is what brings me more privates, always. Is like my good mood makes me more desirable. If they'd paid me everyday like I want, I'd be the happiest bitch on cam and they'd never see my moody side. And for sure I can do long hours if I get shows.

Hazelcam
10-07-2019, 11:06 AM
Gonna start meditating and see if that helps - inspired by you Miss_ShaSha so thank you :D

Miss_ShaSha
10-07-2019, 11:32 AM
^^Hey girl! I'm glad I could spark that. I owe a lot to meditating. It can help me relieve stress and defuse anger. I've been meditating for 1.5+ years and the first 4 weeks were tough.

I'm a big fan of Deepak Chopra and his Soul of Healing series is a go to for me. If this is your first go with it, I'd suggest this to start out with:


https://youtu.be/SbvqHffaq0w

Hazelcam
10-07-2019, 11:34 AM
Thank you so much!

Miss_ShaSha
10-08-2019, 09:06 AM
Today is my day off. I'm starting the day off great with 9 hrs rest. For self care I have already done the Ho'oponopono negative energy clearing session for 40 min. My plans are to get super healthy groceries then play some ping pong with a real good buddy of mine.

I need to socialize. It gets lonely on cam. This will be the perfect opportunity to have fun, also vent a little (he knows that I cam), and share in my success so far.

I'm really looking forward to it.

andreaxchanel
10-08-2019, 10:31 AM
I wanted to cry last night. I was having a great night! Regs and new friends, I never have bad Mondays, then it started to storm...I live in the country so my wifi went to non existent. I have a car payment I'm already late on coming up in a day and I literally was on track to make it ALL last night. Everything was perfect. I kept trying, then it got worse because I had to rattle my son by showing my face to check on the wifi and he was NOT happy that I had to leave again. I got showered with rain (I cam between two houses) and tried again...nothing. Mostly, I'm frustrated because I know it's supposed to storm through Wednesday. Also I was out of weed LOL, so one of the only things besides prayer that could calm me down was gone. Anyway, that was me venting because I couldn't fall asleep last night I was so upset it took constantly kissing my son while we cuddled to calm down lol! That face could melt Medusa's heart. I'm gonna try again tonight, I fair pretty well on Tuesdays. Just gonna get a little extra cute to offset my icky feelings about last night.

Miss_ShaSha
10-08-2019, 11:21 AM
^^It's really smart that you cuddled and kissed him. That releases a lot of oxytocin. Oxytocin is great to reduce stress. I'm happy to hear you have him. Plus, with having Bipolar, you need to self care as much as possible.

How much sleep do you get a night? I know people with Bipolar have to sleep well. I'm sure Indica (if you smoke that) can help induce sleep. Do you smoke Sativa to have energy on cam?

I think marijuana is great. I just can't smoke it anymore as some strains make me really paranoid and I'll dissociate.

I suffer from a Dissociative Disorder. I experience derealization when I'm extremely stressed out. It's not like I lose time or become another personality, actually everything feels very unreal.

seicento
10-08-2019, 12:11 PM
^ I used to smoke a bit for anxiety before going into therapy. I felt it was helping, unless it was placebo, i'm not sure. But I smoked more one time, for fun, and I hallucinated. I'd like to try again but beside not knowing where to buy from, I fear I'll hallucinate again. It wasn't nice :)))

On the self care topic: I've been out with my friend, ate and did a shopping therapy session. Shopping makes me happy, I'd buy everything in sight lol. It was nice as long as it lasted. Now back in my cave, will watch some netflix and sleep. I might work in the morning, will see how I feel when I wake up.

Miss_ShaSha
10-08-2019, 12:59 PM
^^Whoa haha. That had to have been scary. I used to love Sativa. I'd smoke with my friends and we'd legit play ping pong for like 4 hrs LOL. I've never hallucinated, but if I did...my mind has some dark corners & I'd prolly fuck myself up.

Hey, yeah, good self care. Socializing & shopping is good fun. I splurged on groceries: bought an $8 jar of vegan kimchi, $7 in avocado's, $7 in vegan sauerkraut, & $6 on rice among other groceries. Yeah, spending does feel good.

I'm with you sis, killing 2 hrs watching Reign of Fire. Good movie so far. Then I'll play ping pong.

Whatcha gonna watch?

seicento
10-08-2019, 01:57 PM
Enjoy!

TheBlacklist. Season 7 is out and I'm a bit behind, gotta catch up.

andreaxchanel
10-08-2019, 07:50 PM
Yeahhh, before him I was a complete lost cause, I was disassociating daily before I got diagnosed with Bipolar and Panic Disorder I remember explaining it like...watching myself move but not really in control of the movements/actions. Like that Tina Turner scene where she's just drawing on her face zoned out is how I was basically. They think PTSD as well. But, I live in Florida and I don't have a med card yet, so not really able to choose the strains. I do know I've only had Indica once and it was not by choice, I ended up sleeping the week away and my grandma thought I was pregnant again HA. It honestly just helps where I feel the meds just can't get it right, and I don't want to keep upping my pill intake. I'm already on two different meds so weed just gives me that last "mental correction" if you will.

As far as sleep goes, I get 4/5 before daycare drop off and try to get another 2 after. Doesn't always work.

Miss_ShaSha
10-09-2019, 07:15 AM
Today is starting off so well. I got 9 hrs sleep, had yummy coffee, drank 20 oz water, then did the Ho'oponopono negative energy clearing for 20 min.

Since I haven't done yoga in a couple months, I decided to do a Kundalini session to open up my heart:

52087

52088

Kundalini almost always brings my HR up a little and gives me this vibrational energy that feels so good throughout my body. I feel ready for this 5 hr shift I have to stream today.

Intentions today are to eat clean, drink a total of 80 oz water, and keep vibe up. Will meditate and clear negative energy in the afternoon.

Miss_ShaSha
10-09-2019, 08:51 AM
I have plans to socialize with a friend for dinner and drinks this eve at 6:45pm and that means I have to be on earlier. Well, this early shift isn't looking very profitable. I've been on for an hr and had a triple private, but they all didn't stay very long. Took a break to eat real quick:

2 cups power greens lightly fried in a tablespoon of extra virgin olive oil, 5 oz salmon, half medium avocado, 2 tablespoons vegan kimchi, and a tablespoon avocado ranch dressing. Washed it down with 20 oz water.

This mini meal is full of protein and should give me all the energy I need to do 5 hrs. I feel good. Vibe is up. Will meditate in an hr.

Miss_ShaSha
10-09-2019, 09:38 AM
Took some time out to meditate. I usually just listen to the Ho'oponopono when it's quiet, but this time I meditated on it.

52091

I feel calm and serene. Ready to stream the rest of this shift.

andreaxchanel
10-09-2019, 10:52 AM
Not really sure if the fact that our internet is fucking up so bad I can't work is the issue, but I've been in bed all day just feeling at a loss. Slept in late with my angel which was so nice to actually spend some more time with him... After drop off I was supposed to nap and get up at 11:30am. I went and dog-napped my little cousins pup while she's in school and we slept until 1pm...got up called Spectrum to see if they could fix the issue...and now I'm back in bed we just have to wait until tonight to see if the issue is fixed and Im so sad because I was soooooo cute last night. Like I felt more hot than usual?. I did record a clip and some pics last night in effort to be somewhat productive. But I'm still in bed and still sleepy...maybe a 30 minute nap wont hurt...right? lol.

Ladybuggie
10-09-2019, 11:16 AM
I'm having a hard time.
After having a very successful week 2 weeks ago, my schedule got disrupted by real life problems and I've not been online since last Thursday. The longer it passes, the harder it gets to get back on, and it makes me feel really bad about myself even though I know, rationally, that I'm justified to feel this way: I now know for sure that my father has got terminal cancer and he's been given 5 months to live. I'm in a foreign country so I can't be there with my family, and yesterday it was the first time I had the chance to talk to him, since he's been in hospital. I've just been reconnecting with my friends, talking things through, grieving, distracting myself... I feel very lost and frustrated, and like nothing else really matters compared to it, so I've felt zero motivation to get on cam.

Also, I've got ADHD and I'm the only support of my household: my bf has been ill and unemployed for nearly 2 years, so the pressure that was already big is becoming pretty unbearable. Thankfully, now he's getting treatment and he's determined to start earning with a new business he can set up from home, but it's been very, very hard, but it's make or break at this point. I just can't do it on my own. I have lovely friends and people who support me, plus help from my counsellor, but this is really becoming difficult, at least today it feels that way.

However, I don't really have the option to stop and not work, because it's all on me and I need money to go and be with my family, so after a long fight with my brain, I'm getting online. Even if it's just a couple of hours, that's better than nothing. I got this. You girls got this. Thanks for letting me get it off my chest.

Much love <3

Miss_ShaSha
10-09-2019, 11:27 AM
Not really sure if the fact that our internet is fucking up so bad I can't work is the issue, but I've been in bed all day just feeling at a loss. Slept in late with my angel which was so nice to actually spend some more time with him... After drop off I was supposed to nap and get up at 11:30am. I went and dog-napped my little cousins pup while she's in school and we slept until 1pm...got up called Spectrum to see if they could fix the issue...and now I'm back in bed we just have to wait until tonight to see if the issue is fixed and Im so sad because I was soooooo cute last night. Like I felt more hot than usual?. I did record a clip and some pics last night in effort to be somewhat productive. But I'm still in bed and still sleepy...maybe a 30 minute nap wont hurt...right? lol.

Sister, with Bipolar you have to be vigilant. You can get depressed fast and lack of self care or too much sleeping can deepen one. You did good by shooting some content. I'm gonna be tough here:

Get up and shoot more content until the internet is fixed. You can do this. Your lil boy is counting on you. I'm holding you accountable. Get up, get showered, get CUTE...then shoot more content. Keep me updated.


I'm having a hard time.
After having a very successful week 2 weeks ago, my schedule got disrupted by real life problems and I've not been online since last Thursday. The longer it passes, the harder it gets to get back on, and it makes me feel really bad about myself even though I know, rationally, that I'm justified to feel this way: I now know for sure that my father has got terminal cancer and he's been given 5 months to live. I'm in a foreign country so I can't be there with my family, and yesterday it was the first time I had the chance to talk to him, since he's been in hospital. I've just been reconnecting with my friends, talking things through, grieving, distracting myself... I feel very lost and frustrated, and like nothing else really matters compared to it, so I've felt zero motivation to get on cam.

Also, I've got ADHD and I'm the only support of my household: my bf has been ill and unemployed for nearly 2 years, so the pressure that was already big is becoming pretty unbearable. Thankfully, now he's getting treatment and he's determined to start earning with a new business he can set up from home, but it's been very, very hard, but it's make or break at this point. I just can't do it on my own. I have lovely friends and people who support me, plus help from my counsellor, but this is really becoming difficult, at least today it feels that way.

However, I don't really have the option to stop and not work, because it's all on me and I need money to go and be with my family, so after a long fight with my brain, I'm getting online. Even if it's just a couple of hours, that's better than nothing. I got this. You girls got this. Thanks for letting me get it off my chest.

Much love <3

Sister, this is so tough. I'm sorry. You have every right to take it easy. Your father's condition is grave and I'm sure you love him. All the financial stress makes things worse.

I wish I could help, like really help. All I can do is send you good vibes. I've been doing the Ho'oponopono and when I do it again, I'll have you in mind. Stay strong sister. Getting on for just a few hours is great. I'm sending you good vibes Xs 2!!!

seicento
10-09-2019, 11:47 AM
^^ I am sorry for your father Ladybuggie. You will surely go through all kind of phases but you will make it, believe that you will. Hugs.

andreaxchanel
10-09-2019, 01:31 PM
So, I didn't go back to sleep. I actually did something that I constantly forget to do...eat. I also went grocery shopping and cleaned up my room, washed some clothes. Not exactly content related, but def something to keep me going, the one thing that goes down quick when I'm depressed is my organization skills and cleanliness as far as my surroundings. But in a way I actually was thinking about my son even doing these things, I don't want him to see a mess daily and think mommy is just gross or grow up with those "habits". And I actually feel better. Snacking and then I'm gonna shower and go pick up my baby! In a turn of my Bipolar mind, I'm excited about getting online tonight. anddddd I just realized the only water I've had in a week or so is one tiny bottle SO I'm fixing that too. Normally I'm on it, but when my mood swings hit I forget my water intake too.




Ladybuggie, I just want you to know you are not alone in this. We are all with you in spirit and a message away if you need some good vibes!

Miss_ShaSha
10-09-2019, 01:35 PM
^^Even better girl. Way to go!

Miss_ShaSha
10-09-2019, 01:43 PM
Getting frustrated on cam. Taking a break to clear negative energy & watch funny things to lift my vibe.

Found this & I laughed so hard:


https://youtu.be/kKlL6QJbpxw

Ladybuggie
10-09-2019, 01:50 PM
Thank you everybody, it really means a lot. My friends and my partner are supportive, but I think nobody that doesn't do this job knows how hard it can get when other things aren't going well. I really, truly appreciate having this community of fantastic women <3

NitaBaby
10-09-2019, 02:00 PM
I have this thing where I only realize I'm hungry when I'm forced to log off (feed kids, wait for school bus, expecting visitors, etc.). Only then do the hunger pains hit so hard that I get a headache. I need to do way better with designating a specific time in the day as being "lunch" or "snack" time.

Miss_ShaSha
10-09-2019, 02:50 PM
^^When my anxiety is REAL bad, I forget to eat and have to force myself to. I make it a point to eat every 4 hrs for energy. I don't always eat on time tho. But I know if I don't...I suffer. I feel you girl. It's a process, but thinking of food as energy helps me best.

Miss_ShaSha
10-10-2019, 11:18 AM
My anxiety is really bad right now. I did the Ho'oponopono negative energy clearing meditation, but I still feel terrible. I'm on cam and trying to make this work. UGH!

52096

Miss_ShaSha
10-10-2019, 04:03 PM
I'm on the last 2 hrs of my shift. With the help of ladies here I made it through 4 hrs. I just meditated on the Ho'oponopono and I'm just gonna do my last 2 hrs in a good mood. I got this.

Miss_ShaSha
10-11-2019, 08:29 AM
After the disaster of yesterday, I slept good and I'm on early to try to make up for it. I've already streamed 24 hrs this week. According to my spreadsheet I just have to stream 1 more hr this week to be ok. That feels totally doable.

Starting the day off right with 9 hrs rest, yummy coffee, 16 oz water, and 20 min of the Ho'oponopono.

Intentions today are to eat clean, drink a total of 80 oz water, keep my vibe up, and meditate.

DahliaSimone
10-11-2019, 09:05 AM
Anyone feel like giving me a quick rundown on Ho'popopopopopopopopopopopopno and its benefits? I could use any extra edge at this point to calm my rampant anxiety.

Miss_ShaSha
10-11-2019, 09:22 AM
Sure. It's a negative energy clearing meditation that you can use to heal yourself, other people, and manifest what you'd like in your life. I'm currently using it to clear negative energy and also manifest more income.

It's very simple, but it's very powerful if engaged in consistently. It consists of 4 phrases: I love you; I'm sorry; Please forgive me; Thank you.

What you're doing is addressing the Divine. Petitioning for change. It's about taking responsibility for what has happened in your life. This removes inner blocks within you to change your reality.

"I'm sorry" is apologizing for being unaware. "Please forgive me" is asking for forgiveness in regard to being unconscious. "Thank you" is to show gratitude for taking care of the removal of what's inside and around you. "I love you" is the language of the Divine.

It does help reduce stress for me and relieve some anxiety. Let me get a link to a YouTube.