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carmen_b
06-12-2020, 03:18 PM
^ Yes, I'm going to start calling on Monday. Everything they send is like " do NOT call us . DO NOT call . DO NOT . "
But ...... like you ........ 12 weeks is a horrendous time to go without an income. It will be TWELVE weeks on Monday.

That deferment I got on the mortgage is going to save my ass. I can *almost* live on 1k a month ( the amount my renters pay me ). So not needing to give a majority of that to the mortgage company at least gives me something to live on.

I have this fear that I won't get any unemployment ( which should be $211 + $600 weekly ....... so $811 a week times 12 weeks ). It just seems like sometimes I really won't get it ( even though I have a paper saying I am getting something ).

carmen_b
06-12-2020, 03:24 PM
Business wise ..... I feel like my small business is very slowly coming back. There are some signs. More inquiries in last 14 days than the last 6 weeks before. So far only one new customer has signed up .

Overall ..... I fight feelings of overwhelm and exhaustion on most days.
It has just kind of *become* life for so many self employed folks.
It is SO stressful to not have an income. Plus I hide my stress from my partner which adds extra stress ( his income hasn't been affected and I feel weird bringing up my issues ).

Despite all this stress though one thing that has saved me is the dedication to keeping my overall bills and expenses very low.
I have been able to have some happy times in all this too with the extra time I have .

carmen_b
06-12-2020, 03:31 PM
Button, check with the renter laws in your state too .
I don't know if it's legal to raise rent during a time like this ( I am sure many states have laws against it ) though I don't know 100%.

I do know it's a good thing to be a decent human and not a fucking dick though so my renters are able to pay week by week if they need to and other family members have implemented the same on their rentals . It's the right thing to do in a time like this.

carmen_b
06-14-2020, 03:39 PM
I'm fighting a lot of panicky type thoughts today.

I really didn't expect a restricted income for three months.
My mind gets going and I try hard to prevent a " sink hole " mentally. It's a hard day of fighting with thoughts and feeling down .

buttonpop
06-14-2020, 11:44 PM
^^^ You've been waiting 12 weeks too? It's criminal what theyve done to us.

My state doesn't have a cap on rent raises which is insane because the rental prices here have doubled in the last 4 years. ill be paying more now for a tiny 300 square foot place in this small town than I used to pay for a prime location apartment in Houston 2.5x as big. My city is one of the most moved to cities in the US right now even tho we have no jobs ugh. And the food sucks. I can't wait to move out of this town. I'm paying LA/Houston/Seattle prices for a city that with none of the jobs, food, or amenities of those cities.

We also had no state ban on evictions either and no bans on raising rent during this time. And we had a very long and very strict lockdown in a state with zero fatalities under the age of 60 and extremely low numbers because it's a rural state.

My girlfriends unemployment finally came through. I'm still waiting on mine but at least we aren't a month away from homelessness anymore. So there's that.

SnuffleUffleGrass
06-16-2020, 09:12 AM
I'm holding steady. Some things to share that might help others here-

* I've switched my diet to mostly vegetarian for health reasons. I'm actually enjoying it a lot.

* Been exercising more, now that the gyms are re-opened. I didn't realize how much lack of workouts was affecting me mentally.

* I've been watching less TV and Netflix. Zoning out in front of a screen is so much less appealing after months of it during Quarantine.

carmen_b
06-17-2020, 02:21 PM
I have $446 to last until July 1. All my June bills are paid.
I don't expect anything to " creep up " ( knock on wood ! ) .

It isn't much but I also didn't have to borrow this month from anyone or onto cards.

I invite the Universe to hand me a larger scale vanilla client .
I am set up and ready to do a great job for them.

chanzep
06-18-2020, 06:01 PM
We have been opened up since memorial weekend and now the virus is crazy here again ugh!.

AChildOfBoredom
06-19-2020, 01:16 PM
Umm… so as I was coming home from work yesterday, there was a car stopped on the side of the road, so I stopped to ask if they were okay. They had a flat tire and didn’t have any tools to change it, and I had all of that with me, so we got his tire changed. He handed me a business card and told me to call him if I ever needed a favor. The business card stated he was a chapter president of Hell’s Angels MC.

edit: thought I was in Random Thoughts thread

SnuffleUffleGrass
06-19-2020, 01:30 PM
Umm… so as I was coming home from work yesterday, there was a car stopped on the side of the road, so I stopped to ask if they were okay. They had a flat tire and didn’t have any tools to change it, and I had all of that with me, so we got his tire changed. He handed me a business card and told me to call him if I ever needed a favor. The business card stated he was a chapter president of Hell’s Angels MC.

edit: thought I was in Random Thoughts thread

This totally doesn't surprise me. My friend's stepdad did custom work for the Hell's Angels in Oakland many years ago. They were perfectly nice to him and his family.

carmen_b
06-19-2020, 02:34 PM
I got the stimulus check today and first couple PUA checks !
Had to come report and here ASAP !
I was seething with frustration last few weeks....

:)

AChildOfBoredom
06-19-2020, 02:42 PM
This totally doesn't surprise me. My friend's stepdad did custom work for the Hell's Angels in Oakland many years ago. They were perfectly nice to him and his family.

I’m wondering though if ‘favor’ means, “I have some stuff to carry that’s too heavy and need help” or if it means, “There’s some creepy ass guy in his late 30s trying to prowl on my 17 year-old sister, and I need a motherfucker clapped”.

carmen_b
06-19-2020, 06:37 PM
^ I think it's just puffing.

You always hear those biker types like " my boys and I would do anything for each other " .
Then all they do is drink and waste strippers time lol ( or at least previously when the world was open ).

SnuffleUffleGrass
06-20-2020, 04:04 AM
^ I think it's just puffing.

You always hear those biker types like " my boys and I would do anything for each other " .
Then all they do is drink and waste strippers time lol ( or at least previously when the world was open ).

LOL I know.


There are so many urban legends about the HA....But they have mellowed out over the years.

carmen_b
06-20-2020, 09:04 AM
^ It's just a drinking club lol !
Bikes are expensive too. These are often people who have some cash lol not " hard " only folks.

carmen_b
06-20-2020, 09:07 AM
I'm doing a million times better here after getting the stimulus check and first couple PUA checks.
I was just having a very hard time living in such a constricted way ( and my bills are really low ) .

This is off setting some panic ( I changed things on the vanilla website to offer a steep deal in July and Aug because I was at a loss on how else to raise income ). Now I'll let just one person get that deal and then take that down. I was worried putting a deal up would cause overall brand devaluation but I didn't know how else to raise money.

I feel so much better but I also feel stressed like at any moment my PUA checks could just have a problem or something.
I'll be going to the mail every day hoping for the best.

Also ..... I'm seeing that maybe I'm really DONE for real this time with stripping.
I just don't want to have to work evenings or have strangers pestering me / pulling at me unless I absolutely have to. I just FEEL done for real this time lol. I have said that like 6 times before though so we will see.

JGB2009
06-20-2020, 12:34 PM
I'm doing a million times better here after getting the stimulus check and first couple PUA checks.
I was just having a very hard time living in such a constricted way ( and my bills are really low ) .

This is off setting some panic ( I changed things on the vanilla website to offer a steep deal in July and Aug because I was at a loss on how else to raise income ). Now I'll let just one person get that deal and then take that down. I was worried putting a deal up would cause overall brand devaluation but I didn't know how else to raise capitol at all.

I feel so much better but I also feel stressed like at any moment my PUA checks could just have a problem or something.
I'll be going to the mail every day hoping for the best.

Also ..... I'm seeing that maybe I'm really DONE for real this time with stripping. Like ....... I just don't want to have to work evenings or have strangers pestering me / pulling at me unless I absolutely have to. I just FEEL done for real this time lol. I have said that like 6 times before though so we will see.


LOL I say that with camming and do the same.

moneybags
06-21-2020, 10:37 PM
I'm doing a million times better here after getting the stimulus check and first couple PUA checks.
I was just having a very hard time living in such a constricted way ( and my bills are really low ) .

This is off setting some panic ( I changed things on the vanilla website to offer a steep deal in July and Aug because I was at a loss on how else to raise income ). Now I'll let just one person get that deal and then take that down. I was worried putting a deal up would cause overall brand devaluation but I didn't know how else to raise capitol at all.

I feel so much better but I also feel stressed like at any moment my PUA checks could just have a problem or something.
I'll be going to the mail every day hoping for the best.

Also ..... I'm seeing that maybe I'm really DONE for real this time with stripping. Like ....... I just don't want to have to work evenings or have strangers pestering me / pulling at me unless I absolutely have to. I just FEEL done for real this time lol. I have said that like 6 times before though so we will see.

I’m glad you have some income coming in. I’m praying my student loans come in this week.

I said bye to the girls at the club. I worked one night since COVID and I’m like fuck this.

Yeah, I think I’m lifer. I know that has been used in a bad way, but in any other profession the longer you do it says a lot about how good you are at your job. Whatever. The best thing about getting older is not giving a fuck. You just realize people opinions are bullshit. I heard at 40 I really won’t give a fuck. Can’t fucking wait. Everyday I get older, I care less and less what people think. We spend half our lives as women brainwashed and the rest of our lives undoing the brainwashing. I hope to stay untamed.

xxxGothBarbie
06-28-2020, 07:01 PM
Out of curiosity do you have to pay taxes on any pua we get? Im thinking of filing but i dont want to have to pay more taxes on money coming in .

lynn2009
06-28-2020, 07:35 PM
Out of curiosity do you have to pay taxes on any pua we get? Im thinking of filing but i dont want to have to pay more taxes on money coming in .

I Googled "is PUA taxable?" and the answer is yes.

BambiCutie
07-01-2020, 08:54 AM
Holding up good for the most part.
Recently found out that a couple I know got Covid-19, pretty crazy..
Job has dried up and been waiting for them to get the ball rolling with new work.
Hopefully this doesn't become an issue.. :(

carmen_b
07-10-2020, 04:00 PM
I paid 6k off off credit cards this month ! Granted .... there is more to go ..... but this feels amazing.

carmen_b
07-10-2020, 04:01 PM
goth, yes you pay takes on it

Set aside about 20% of it for this.

carmen_b
07-14-2020, 01:14 PM
I am bothered lately by a few random things.

1. Even with the unemployment approved ..... I am making much less than my business would be yielding in June - Aug. ( high tourist season ) IF the tourists were here . I am not sure there is any solution to this. I just recently put a deal up for July and Aug. because we don't have even ONE customer lol. I would like at least one customer these months. If I don't get one .... at least I tried.

2. A huge part of my self care is a monthly spa visit where they have all the amenities ( a place with jacuzzi, steam , pool ect. ) to really make a full day of it ! These places are still closed down and I guess I never thought of them before as germ factories but I guess they are aren't they ? All these wet surfaces ect. ? I miss spa-ing deeply.

tempest666
07-14-2020, 02:40 PM
Fanfuckingtastic. I make more money now that I'm not fat and don't have to charge per pound for lap dances.

AChildOfBoredom
07-15-2020, 12:26 PM
Everyone in the house is healthy and employed. The Amish girl survived furlough, found additional work to somewhat make up for it, and she jumped up a bit in seniority when a bunch of others quit I response to the furlough, so hers was cut short and she’s back at work.

S followed through with going for the tow truck driving job, and she’s going through orientation. They’re starting her off as a battery tech rather than as a tow truck driver, but I think she’ll do well with that. I’m curious to see if she ends up getting the same style uniforms as the men get or if she ended up with the same style that I ended up with. She is 5’8” compared to me at 4’10”, but she also had a slender build, so I’m waiting to see how that turns out.

So far, so good.

moneybags
07-15-2020, 11:28 PM
^^^Did you use to drive a tow truck? I saw a pink tow truck and thought of you today. I thought it was badass.

AChildOfBoredom
07-15-2020, 11:52 PM
^^^Did you use to drive a tow truck? I saw a pink tow truck and thought of you today. I thought it was badass.

Yes. I used to run a B (medium/heavy) duty wrecker/wheel lift, I did parking enforcement tows in a light duty 'stealth rig', and I did skip tracing for repossessions when the need for it came. Now, I work on the commercial side of a company which is owned by one of the auto clubs affiliated with AAA, though the commercial operation has been slow, so we've been doing AAA calls lately. Which is nice, because people are actually happy to see you show up, though when I get out of that tow truck, you can tell I'm not what they were expecting at all. I'm just a hair under 4'11" and there's nothing in any way butch about me, so I show up and they're probably thinking, "Is this for fucking real?". What doesn't help is that my uniforms, rather than giving me the same style shirts the guys get, are the "female" shirts which are more form fitting and make me look even less the part, especially since I'm very slender and not lacking topside. And it's happened more than once where I've gotten commentary that it "seems wrong" that "someone like me" would "have to do that kind of work". You know, kinda like how the "white knights" in club act like it's a big travesty that we end up stripping, and we must be somehow broken? Yeah, I catch that on the vanilla side, as well.

So I'm mostly running a B rollback now with a stinger which allows me to double stack cars (one on the bed, one wheel lifted with the stinger), but I'm also the one who gets put into the B wheel lift/winch truck when we have extrication calls, we have to tow large RVs, etc. because that's what my background in this is. I used to upright box trucks and tractor-trailers (the latter, we'd have two wreckers on scene). Made me feel like a badass when I did that kind of work. This job, not so much, but the company treats me really well, and now my "refugee" is starting off as a battery technician on the roadside assistance side of the company. Which I'm in two minds about... on the one hand, I'm happy that she figured out how to find something better paying than, say, fast food. On the other, I worry sometimes she might've been influenced by me in that, and the last thing anyone should ever aspire to be is anything like me.

The wreckers I run aren't pink, but I like the color. I have two Snap-On toolboxes at my regular job... one is pink and the big one is bright yellow. They need the splash of color in that place anyhow.

whirlerz
07-17-2020, 09:19 AM
You know you're at a new low in life, when your card gets declined, buying roach traps:yikes:

After getting yelled @ by the 1 POS upstairs (that I kindly fed many times) for simply relaying the landlord's message to move his 2 heaps of sh**( that don't run)
I find out we have roaches, no surprises as at least 2 people leave dishes in the sink (for days)

I let maintenance know, already put traps down that I'd gotten the guy, the other POS said, "Oh, I don't have anything like THAT in my room.. ::)

Sure, pal::)

xxxGothBarbie
07-17-2020, 07:29 PM
Had a whale last night that LOVED my chubbiness paid me to enjoy cake & pizza :)
I love not worrying about my weight anymore & still be able to pull what I used to make stripping :)

carmen_b
07-18-2020, 08:49 AM
Omg dream gig ! ^^
I’m rocking a little extra after no stage dancing in 5 months haha.
I would LOVE this ! Lol

ava$
07-18-2020, 09:41 AM
^^me too for sure oh and the fact that gyms r closed and even if they were open how gross r they now lbs

tempest666
07-18-2020, 11:36 AM
^^me too for sure oh and the fact that gyms r closed and even if they were open how gross r they now lbs
I lost 20 pounds without the gym. Running outside does not require a gym.

xxxGothBarbie
07-18-2020, 04:30 PM
^^me too for sure oh and the fact that gyms r closed and even if they were open how gross r they now lbs

Couldnt pay me to go to a gym even if they werent closed lol

wish
07-20-2020, 02:31 AM
I'm not good tonight ��

SnuffleUffleGrass
07-20-2020, 08:00 AM
I'm not good tonight ��

Feel free to vent here...hugs....

As for me, I'm sad to say our newest Covid death in my area was a 30 year old man. Which is shocking but then at this point why am I surprised. My old neighbor that died was super sick before he got Covid so I kept thinking most people would have the same going on.

I'm OK though, no complaints. I even feel good about wearing a mask out in public.

moneybags
07-20-2020, 10:36 PM
Couldnt pay me to go to a gym even if they werent closed lol

I still go with a mask and socially distancing. I’m going to small gym, so it doesn’t a high volume of people. I also go when it’s DEAD.

moneybags
07-20-2020, 10:38 PM
Feel free to vent here...hugs....

As for me, I'm sad to say our newest Covid death in my area was a 30 year old man. Which is shocking but then at this point why am I surprised. My old neighbor that died was super sick before he got Covid so I kept thinking most people would have the same going on.

I'm OK though, no complaints. I even feel good about wearing a mask out in public.

Wow...you’re area is low comparatively speaking. All it takes is one person to spread it though. Definitely keep wearing a mask. People look at me like a have two heads cause I have my mask on from the time I leave home til I get back. Whatever. They can call my chicken little- this chick ain’t gettin sick.

carmen_b
07-23-2020, 09:56 AM
^ I don't get NOT wearing one. It takes SECONDS and could save someones life !! What is with people who don't wear one ?

carmen_b
07-23-2020, 09:58 AM
Ok .... does anyone else have a sales job as their vanilla line of work ?

I have to admit .... mine is done .... um .... differently now.

I used to get a lead and then follow up 5-6 times ( spaced out every 2-3 days ) to try to get them to book and now I follow up ..... like 1-2 times.
Haha.

I guess that is a bit of a confession. I am sort of handicapped and not working as hard. Sometimes I feel guilty. Like today which is why I'm mentioning this. I have to admit that even if these checks drop to just $400-$500 a week in August I might still do this. ;/

I justify this by telling myself that every reservation does cause exposure to people . Technically I AM safer by operating this way ( only booking the very easiest clients and going on site minimally ).

miss.a.p1600
07-23-2020, 10:02 AM
^me.....

Carmen Elixer
07-23-2020, 08:09 PM
I could do without this feeling of not knowing what's coming next. It feels like you can't make a move, or a plan, bc you've got to wait & see what happens.

I am really bored, and lacking in social connections now. There are people in my life, but no people of the quality I would want to get close to.

I keep having this compulsion to get in the car and drive to someplace warm with a beach. However, there are all kinds of travel restrictions In different places coming on now. For instance, a lot of states (SC included I'm pretty sure, which is one place I had thought of going to ((Myrtle Beach)), you have to self-quarantine for 2 weeks before going there, and it 's "recommended you get a COVID test before going". If you end up infecting anyone while you are there, there are punishments & fines. That's just what the covid site said.

So I" guess I'll stick around here for now. While remaining bored off my godforsaken ass. Also I wish my place was more comfortable. It's not physically comfortable here at all, never has been, but now, I have to be here all the fkn time. Also Ive walked around at the mall a couple times but now I'm getting sick of walking around in 90 degree weather in a damn mask.

moneybags
07-23-2020, 09:59 PM
I could do without this feeling of not knowing what's coming next. It feels like you can't make a move, or a plan, bc you've got to wait & see what happens.

I am really bored, and lacking in social connections now. There are people in my life, but no people of the quality I would want to get close to.

I keep having this compulsion to get in the car and drive to someplace warm with a beach. However, there are all kinds of travel restrictions In different places coming on now. For instance, a lot of states (SC included I'm pretty sure, which is one place I had thought of going to ((Myrtle Beach)), you have to self-quarantine for 2 weeks before going there, and it 's "recommended you get a COVID test before going". If you end up infecting anyone while you are there, there are punishments & fines. That's just what the covid site said.

So I" guess I'll stick around here for now. While remaining bored off my godforsaken ass. Also I wish my place was more comfortable. It's not physically comfortable here at all, never has been, but now, I have to be here all the fkn time. Also Ive walked around at the mall a couple times but now I'm getting sick of walking around in 90 degree weather in a damn mask.

It does feel like the floor will fall out from underneath me everyday. I can’t wait to get another stimulus check. Plus I think camming will be good after another round of stimulus checks.

I recommend googling pineapple support to get low cost sex worker friendly therapy if you need more support during the pandemic.

I’m doing better. I started picking three things to do everyday. I’m gonna try to wait to get on social media and watch the news at the end of the day once I’ve been productive. Watching the news first thing in the morning just leads to doom scrolling. I‘m rewarding myself with free time for getting everything on my to do list done today. So proud of myself I’ve been battling COVID-19 depression and anxiety-no bueno. I’m gonna work this weekend on cam. I need to make some money. After finals, I’m gonna reward myself with a hike if the weather is good.

AChildOfBoredom
07-24-2020, 06:30 AM
I could do without this feeling of not knowing what's coming next. It feels like you can't make a move, or a plan, bc you've got to wait & see what happens.

The way this year’s going, I’m expecting a giant asteroid heading towards Earth at this point. In which case, maybe it’s better to be oblivious about it.

carmen_b
07-27-2020, 12:23 PM
Among other stress factors over the weekend is anyone really feeling anxiety not knowing that pandemic amount / assistance amount you'll get in Aug. ? I am definitely feeling the stress of that.

moneybags
07-27-2020, 04:38 PM
https://youtu.be/O4LqBQRPsjc
Among other stress factors over the weekend is anyone really feeling anxiety not knowing that pandemic amount / assistance amount you'll get in Aug. ? I am definitely feeling the stress of that.

Looks like they’ll get something passed soon.

This is all so insane. I’m trying to stay positive and practice self-care. Just breathe. Take it one day at a time. Be present. Let go and let “God.” I have to focus on what I can control and surrender. Also, just do the best I can with the information what I have-I can’t constantly worry. All I can do is hope for the best and prepare for the worst. No one knows what they are doing right now. We’re all figuring this out one day at a time. Most importantly, this will come to end eventually. Eventually there will be a vaccine or better treatments that make this disease not as bad. We just have to stay above water and not drown until this storm passes. Stay in the vibration of love and not fear.

WendiStarr
07-27-2020, 06:10 PM
I'm getting frustrated at the unstable income. Some weeks I can do good with camming and regulars while the next I don't make shit. I made a whole $40 within the past few days. It almost makes me regret the vanilla job ending, just because at least then I had steady regular income. I've been working on turning my backyard in to a fun place for the kids. I have the pool, the chiminea for having fires and making s'mores, cornhole game, sidewalk chalk, bikes, etc. I keep looking for those darn flamingo yard stakes so I can make a ring toss game. I'm dipping in to my savings but I'm trying to make my older daughter happy.

moneybags
07-27-2020, 09:05 PM
I'm getting frustrated at the unstable income. Some weeks I can do good with camming and regulars while the next I don't make shit. I made a whole $40 within the past few days. It almost makes me regret the vanilla job ending, just because at least then I had steady regular income. I've been working on turning my backyard in to a fun place for the kids. I have the pool, the chiminea for having fires and making s'mores, cornhole game, sidewalk chalk, bikes, etc. I keep looking for those darn flamingo yard stakes so I can make a ring toss game. I'm dipping in to my savings but I'm trying to make my older daughter happy.

Girl. I cammed for hours and made like a hundred bucks yesterday! Honestly, I felt bad for the guys, but I have to eat. But the day before it was closer to $400 thank goodness. I feel ya. I plan on catering to the Canadians. Maybe wear a hockey jersey? I watched an Australia TV show the other day so I can relate to the Australians.

WendiStarr
07-31-2020, 05:44 AM
I never feel bad for taking guys money while camming. If they can sit there all day jacking off to us, they need to pay! No free previews or free anything. There's plenty of free porn tube sites out there for them to get their rocks off to for free. I'm wondering if I'm crazy for starting full-time school now, 9am-5pm. The program is going to be 12 weeks long and today baby has been fussing up a storm(teething). I'm wondering how the heck I'm going to be able to concentrate with her wanting to be held 24/7 or else crying but I need to stick with the program and make it work. They're expecting us to be on cam with Zoom.

moneybags
07-31-2020, 12:32 PM
^^^ lol good point. Good luck is all I can say. I understand. I don’t know how I’m gonna make it I just know I have to try.

Well I could be starting my nursing program Spring. I honestly have to because it’s the only way my financial aid will pay for it. I’ve done it full time for 10 years! In my opinion, survival sex work sucks. It’s fun to do it part time or for extra money, but I hate HAVING to in order to survive.

Also, found a place to fix my car for half price. My exhaust system got stolen. If you don’t have full coverage might want to consider it now. I have an AB car, so I didn’t have it full coverage.

People are desperate with the economy being so bad. There’s a lot stuff I need to do. I’m gonna get better insurance for my belongings. Upgrade my self defense gear. I don’t mean to be negative, but I also want to be smart. Unfortunately, people can do unthinkable things. I wouldn’t put anything past anyone. I usually believe the best in people, but too many people are weak in the character department.