View Full Version : Help with eating disorder recovery
Lola Rose
02-03-2007, 02:57 PM
then work. Honestly, it's hard to get back on your own two feet, but once you do you'll be so much happier.
sophiemarie
02-03-2007, 03:06 PM
that's the main goal here---to get my freedom back--to get myself back.
Lola Rose
02-03-2007, 03:07 PM
:hug:
Sirona
02-03-2007, 03:16 PM
I haven't gotten lipo since April last year. I know I need to dance. The longer you stay away the harder it is to dance.
I didn't make that rule up I just feel it.
I always feel fat. Even when I loose weight I still feel fat. It's a mental thing. But when I look in the mirror I feel sooooooooooooo big and no one can tell me any different.
There is too much pressure in society to be thin.
You don't NEED to dance. You could get a regular job, one that provides health insurance.
Go get evaluated by someone who deals in eating disorders and i'm sure they could tell you which would be better for you as far as inpatient vs outpatient treatment.
Just a thought, most emergency rooms have a mental health section which could get you evaluated asap. Take into account you aren't (apparently, don't mean to assume) working and i'm sure they could at the very least refer you to someone who works on a sliding scale or something along those lines.
sophiemarie
02-03-2007, 03:19 PM
Wow---- But I do need to dance. Hospitalization is a waste of time. Money and the lack of it is my issue. Bottom Line.
Thank you for the input.
Sirona
02-03-2007, 04:49 PM
Bottom line is I honestly don't believe you want help. Anytime someone offers you options to get the help you need you have an excuse why you can't. I think you enjoy the attention your eating disorder provides.
Just my 2 cents.
sophiemarie
02-03-2007, 05:02 PM
I just want to work and I feel like this dude is holding me back, that is my point. I know my eating disorder is pretty full -blown.
I feel like money is the answer.
Sirona
02-03-2007, 05:07 PM
I just want to work and I feel like this dude is holding me back, that is my point. I know my eating disorder is pretty full -blown.
I feel like money is the answer.
It's the guy, it's that you can't dance, it's that you need to dance, it's the money...
It's you. Take responsibility for yourself and your actions. If you want to get better you'll go do it. If not, you'll keep making excuses 'til you die.
*shrug*
sophiemarie
02-03-2007, 05:24 PM
I know---tough love tough love---but the reality of the situation is lack of money. Feeling dependent on somone is not my style. Depression has lots to do with it to.
Let me work this week and see how I feel.
The question is where????
Lola Rose
02-03-2007, 05:31 PM
I agree siriona. I've really tried to give her options, but no matter how good they are, more excuses. Some people would rather wallow and die then fight to get better.
I really feel sorry for you sophie.There's the attention you want. My pity. You have it. Do you feel better now?
Sirona
02-03-2007, 05:41 PM
I know---tough love tough love---but the reality of the situation is lack of money. Feeling dependent on somone is not my style. Depression has lots to do with it to.
Let me work this week and see how I feel.
The question is where????
Tough love? Sorry, no love here from me, just telling it like I see it.
Once again just more excuses. Have a blast binge/purge/starving yourself to death. It's always good to clean some of the mud out of the proverbial gene pool as far as i'm concerned.
Waxwing
02-03-2007, 05:43 PM
I'm going to butt in as a newbie who knows almost nothing about you. What I do know is that I have been anorexic and bulimic for 15 years and I know what you're going through. IP may not be the best path for you, since what you learn in a controlled environment doesn't always translate to everyday life. But.
If recovery is always something that's going to happen "when" (when you get money, when you leave your boyfriend, etc), then it will NEVER happen.
I have no health insurance either, nor any money for therapy, but I've made the decision to get well. You say it's about control, and that is absolutely the case. Well, getting better IS a form of control. If you can control the urge to eat, you can learn to control the urge to starve.
I'm sorry if I'm out of line. You guys all know each other well and I don't...I just wanted to toss myself into the mix.
Lola Rose
02-04-2007, 03:59 AM
waxwing, you are a real role model. If only sophie would listen.
Good luck on your recovery. stay strong, and sw is great for support.
jaizaine
02-04-2007, 06:34 AM
The thing that made me stop purging for good was needing to get my two front teeth capped. I don't know if you ever completely get over an eating disorder- I still have disordered thoughts and feelings- but for the most part my eating is basically okay now (though I still watch my weight). It is possible. You just need to make the decision to change and get some help if you need to. Above all, be patient with yourself. It takes time to let go of something that has been a part of your life for so long.
And kudos to you for having the courage to reach out to us. Good luck- I know you'll make it. (If I can, anyone can- I've had an ED since I was 13).
thanks hun, talking (or writing) about it seems to help me think it out as well. can't believe ive wasted 5 years of my life going thru this.
but i have to look to the future.
jaizaine
02-04-2007, 06:40 AM
Sophie Marie I can understand your fear of getting help with the disorder. Getting better and being healthy is scary to a person with an eating disorder. It's taken me 5 years to decide that I want to get better.
During these 5 years I have gone through a range of not wanting to get better and thinking my ED was a good thing, thinking maybe I could do with some help, thinking I could control it on my own, thinking I had it under control, wanting help but being scared of getting better (is how Im currently feeling).