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blondi553
05-01-2007, 10:10 PM
i just started crying when i watched that....you should have warned me about the last two pictures.....i feel for you! bibs looks almost exactly like my xena (aka nina) i feel like i need to go to my parents house and visit her now....my xena is almost 13.........hugs to you! i hope u r doing ok

Kaiyla
05-01-2007, 10:23 PM
This whole story has broken my heart. Man, there is nothing more horrible than losing a loved one, espescially a pet. I am glad you were able to see the positivity in this. Bibs is at peace now, you are so right. No more struggling, no more pain. I wish you strength and speed in your grieving process. You are both in my thoughts.

UtahMike
05-01-2007, 10:56 PM
I hope that on the Other Side, she will meet up with Cuddly, Sammy, Old Tom, and Scooter Boots. Now you can start about your own recovery. My sympathy to you in your sorrow.

GoldCoastGirl
05-01-2007, 11:25 PM
i just started crying when i watched that....you should have warned me about the last two pictures.....i feel for you! bibs looks almost exactly like my xena (aka nina) i feel like i need to go to my parents house and visit her now....my xena is almost 13.........hugs to you! i hope u r doing ok

oops...

WARNING: The last two pictures in the slideshow on the webpage I made in memory of Bibs are not of her "living" so you may want to skip them. I took them because I want to remember how at peace she was and how much of a release I gave her in the end.

http://www.geocities.com/ms_vee/BIBS/index.htm

AlexxaHex
05-01-2007, 11:48 PM
OMG that was so freakin' sad.:'(

I should not have watched that. But it was beautiful nonetheless.

danijamesxxx
05-02-2007, 12:13 AM
I am crying so hard....animals are so special and magical. Bibs will come around you still I know, and help you heal from the wonderful place she is now. I am so sorry for your loss, GCG....and I am so glad that there are people like you out there, who treat animals like the little wonderful creatures that they are.

Rest in Peace Bibs :'(

DylanAngel
05-02-2007, 12:16 AM
It's 3 in the morning here and I was tossing and turning thinking about you. I didn't look at the pics because my recent experience with Backgammon is still too fresh.

But I wanted to tell you that this is the strength we were speaking of...that you are writing and creating memorials to help you deal with your grief. Along with crying, it's an extremely healthy outlet.

It's not fair that those who love us unonditionally only get to be with us for so brief a time.

Bibs is at peace and I hope that you have peace in your heart knowing that you gave her the best in life and the best in her transition; if not now then sometime soon.

My heart and many hugs go out to you at this time.

Lysondra
05-02-2007, 02:14 AM
Ah fuck, I cried. :(

GoldCoastGirl
05-02-2007, 06:00 AM
I never ever doubted my decision ... at the time and now afterward. I will never ever doubt it.

I just miss her terribly. I had a vanilla smirnoff vodka chocolate milkshake. I'm not usually one who drinks so this is highly unusual for me however I just needed to numb the pain.. or at least feel a different pain (i even had the thought of someone smacking me til I hurt cross my mind at one point (only very briefly so don't fear) because I just don't want to feel THIS pain).. i've been watching television trying to distract my mind as it is the quiet times that are killing me.

She has been taken to be cremated. The pet crematorium I organised to come collect her body did around 2pm today. The lady who collected her body was awesome. I thank her for being so wonderful about it all. It helped.

She even made me think for a while (in my 'clear' moments as such) that ... hey... I could totally do what she is doing... wonder how I could do it too?

I get her cremated remains tomorrow. Will perform the pet funeral ritual for her friday as I'm working tomorrow (I have to unfortunately as I took Tuesday off and need to earn some money so i can pay rent etc since Monday night was so crap-tastic at work).

At the moment, this is where my independant streak is killing me (not literally of course).

I have no one to hold me. To hug me. I need someone to not say "you can talk to me" as the last thing I want to do is talk (I find it more theraputic for whatever reason to "talk" via typing just like when I was younger I found it theraputic to "talk" to my diary via hand-writing into it ... anyway) ... I just want someone with no ulterior motives to hug me.

I'm trying to avoid looking at picture of her or anything that reminds me of her.

I made that memorial and havn't looked at it since.

I'm still in some shock and denial about it all.

http://www.petloss.com/muns.htm

I don't see myself going thru the 'bargaining' stage as I don't doubt my decision. Tho' I am going thru the "shock and denial", "anger" and "depression" stages all at the same time it feels like it.

Its intense. That's why I drank. Now I feel like I need to throw up because of feeling all these overwhelming emotions and the stress and everything.

GoldCoastGirl
05-02-2007, 06:37 PM
I'm doing alright today. Her ashes (remains) are going to be coming home within an hour or so time. I didn't do alright last night... as soon as I shut off the tv to go to bed and finally stop trying to distract myself and thus feeling what I needed to feel and do what I needed to do........ I did it...

I cried. I cried and cried and cried. I stopped here and there to breath so then I wouldn't cause myself to throw up or faint or something then resumed crying.

It was that loud whaling moaning crying too... just felt right to be noisy like that whilst crying.

I'm definately doing better today. I'm not completely healed.. goodness it was only yesterday! Just that I can now re-look at her pictures and video footage I have of her on my mobile phone etc without tearing up and/or crying each and every time.

I cry because I miss her. Puddy (the other cat - my flatmate's cat) is just not MY cat nor do I want him to be... plus Puddy is Puddy. He isn't Bibs. It's different with him.

I'm not posting this because I'm looking for attention. This is my way of healing my grief. Of being able to eventually move on.

As I said in one of my twitter-ings:
Got to work tonight unless someone has a spare $500 they can GIFT me ? That's all I need so I can concentrate on grieving instead of bills.

It's going to be interesting to see how I can deal with work tonight. I'm far from being perky, happy and having to cater to THEIR egos... having to prop them up.... having to make them feel like they are great and kings etc... well.. my BS tolerance is very very low at least.

Anyway, yeah. Got to work. Bills to pay.

Work will be a good distraction hopefully.

Roulette
05-02-2007, 06:40 PM
If I had the mone I'd give it to you :( I hate doing things when I feel like shit. I'm glad you cried tho!! I cant cry and when dealing with loss it really sucks to not be able to cry!!:hug:

PookaShell
05-02-2007, 06:49 PM
That made me cry. :( It's really hard to lose such a close friend. But she's watching right now, feeling grateful her mom was willing to feel this pain for her so she could finally move freely and without pain.

GoldCoastGirl
05-02-2007, 08:03 PM
Just thought everyone might want to know: I received her ashes back around 12.30pm today. I will take a photo of them and the memorial candle the cremation service gave to me (for free) and add it to the slideshow eventually.

Same with the funeral I plan to perform Friday or Saturday this week. I will take photos of it as well... all this will help me remember her and heal.

I miss her. I want to be able to pat her and hear her purr. :(

I don't care that I know in my soul that I did the right thing (I don't doubt it - not one bit) just that it hurts. I dislike missing her. I dislike being this miserable.

I want to be happy again. Yet now there is a gap in my life. My rock is no longer.

jaizaine
05-02-2007, 09:12 PM
shit this sounds very familiar. when i got home from the vets when Zaine passed away I was crying and screaming "I want my dog back". The fact that we did the right thing doesn't help us (being the ones left behind) feel much better.

Zaine passed on 18th December and I still dream about him all the time (sometimes awful nightmares) and think about him several times a day.
I too wish I could hold him one more time.
You will start feeling better but as time goes on u just miss them more.

Im glad u got the ashes back so quickly. I have Zaine's and my other dog Zoe's in my room still. Im not ready to scatter them, I dont know if I ever will be. I might get buried with them, or if I get cremated, get them mixed, haven't decided.

Take time to rest but try to do some things to distract yourself, even if it's work or exercise coz sitting around thinking about it for long periods can really start to get to u.

mina loy
05-02-2007, 10:14 PM
i cried.

DylanAngel
05-03-2007, 05:13 AM
I'm not posting this because I'm looking for attention. This is my way of healing my grief. Of being able to eventually move on.


I think I can safely say that nobody thinks you're looking for attention V.

That's what this community is for. Yes, we're all affiliated with the stripping industry, but we're all human beings first.

You are right to come here and work through your grief and we're here to listen, as you have been when we've all posted about our troubles.

Snowles
05-03-2007, 05:33 AM
I cried as well.

May you heal from your grief, and celebrate her life. She loved you as much as you loved her, now she's free from the pain. I give my deepest condolences, GCG.

-Tom

Kaylinn
05-03-2007, 05:55 AM
I'm away fromn home right now..I was unale to openthoes pictures.....but I cried anyway...this tije has been comming for awhile...I would have done sooner. Anyway..I was waiting for this day...dreading it asw muc as you......

Im sooooo sorry. Im nearly in tears as i right this....im so sorry... will post more when i return home...but i wanted to offer my condolences now....

that's allm i have tom say..nothing i say can help anyway...im thinking of yiu...


( im drunk, and on a laPTOP im not used to.. soprry for typos.) will repost sober and at home, just wanted to show mu supprt now...)

GoldCoastGirl
05-03-2007, 06:49 AM
Well, I went into work tonight. I thought I would be okay and it would offer a good distraction.................... oh how wrong I was! The grief needs to be healed a little more than it is right now before I even think about stepping foot inside the club.

If I was purely just a stage dancer doing shows and not have to interact too much with the audience/crowd/patrons I would be fine. I would have survived working.

Unfortunately, I have to talk with the patrons and I just couldn't do it. I couldn't WANT to be sexy and dance for them when all I wanted to do was be cared for and wanted in a NON SEXUAL way myself.

The grief was there and I couldn't deny it so I asked to go home and thankfully I was allowed as I cried on the way home (I walk back home from the club - quite safe for me to do so).

Just receiving her ashes today has made it all seem rather final.... just... I don't know... really brought it home to me that I'll never ever "see" her again... I miss her so so much.

I'll do my burlesque lesson this week yet I'm not going to work in the club or private parties. This grief needs to be dealt with and not put to the side... I need to 'consume' myself in it so I can worth thru it and heal.

Thank you everyone thank you so so much for all your words. They do help.

I feel so dead inside... can you love too much? If so, I loved and adored her so so much that is why it hurts. That is why I miss her so much. I don't regret my decision as her quality of life was diminished ... just that I miss her. I miss HER.

:'(

Roulette
05-03-2007, 11:33 AM
:hug: I'm sorry work was so terrible. I know acting and putting up a front outside when you feel so dead inside isn't easy. I think that it is a sound decision to not go into work until you've dealt with this loss a little more. My thoughts are with you.

mina loy
05-03-2007, 02:49 PM
there is nothing wrong with missing a loved one, dead or alive.

GoldCoastGirl
05-03-2007, 07:38 PM
Is it weird for me to want to put the ashes inside a teddy bear or something similiar so I can hug the teddy bear and have her forever near me and by my side like she was in life ?? I'm having thoughts of not buying the cactus plant and instead having a teddy bear (or something similiar) made where I can place her ashes within (leaving the ashes in the zip lock plastic bag she is in)... ???

This way I can then take her everywhere with me or is that seem a little too .. I dunno.. like I am refusing to let go ??

(never mind me.. just typing out my thoughts)

jaizaine
05-03-2007, 07:39 PM
I dont think it's weird. You dont have to let go. It's only been a vcouple of days. I have taken the box of ashes into bed before and cuddled them as I cried myself to sleep.

I dont give two shits what anyone else thinks of this.

GoldCoastGirl
05-03-2007, 08:26 PM
Phew.. I'm not the only one! Thank you! ;D

Makes me feel better about that... I just thought I was being a little bit over-done in my grief to want to cuddle with the ashes (well the box the ashes are in anyway).

Then again, prior to the crematorium picking her up from home when I had her laid out upon a towel I was patting her, kissing her head and even laid my head onto her body (just to re-inforce it to me that she was no longer here as I couldn't hear her heart beat)... I kinda wish I had more time with her body (as lifeless as it was at the time)... I dunno.

Anyway, so yes, i'm prone to cuddle her ashes or at least keep them very near-by me at the moment... I don't even know if I will be okay enough to do the funeral on saturday.

It's either this Saturday or I wait until the next full moon.

jaizaine
05-03-2007, 08:34 PM
when it comes to grief i dont think anything is weird. my bf got a bit of a shock when he found my cuddling them but i needed to feel close to zaine and thats all i have left of his earthy body. i have my pics etc and my memories but at that moment i needed something physical.

what u r feeliing is very normal and dont worry what anyone else thinks coz everyone grieves in their own way.
when zaine died you suggested that petloss website (thanks) and i actually wrote a tribute to him on there. it really helped me express what i was thinking and feeling.

GoldCoastGirl
05-03-2007, 10:50 PM
I wrote my tribute to Bibs on her memorial page.

I will add to it more later on down the track tho' I am happy with the page as it stands now.

The pet loss website is great for me in re the grief information. It was the single web page that helped me out immensely when Smokey transitioned and it is helping me out now to understand my mind and emotions.

I hear you about the cuddling. As much as I have photos and video on my mobile phone as well as on the computer and photo prints (from before digital cameras were affordable)... I just wanted (want) to be near her. So that is why I cuddled it and keep it near.

mina loy
05-04-2007, 03:34 AM
anyone who makes fun of you or thinks less of you for cuddling with your beloved's ashes has no idea what it is to go through the loss of someone you loved dearly, pets included. i think it's healthy to express grief if it's there. fuck the society that tells you it's not okay to grieve, especially for pets.

exotisch23
05-04-2007, 04:00 AM
IN MEMORY
BIBS




:'( :'(

GoldCoastGirl
05-04-2007, 09:43 AM
I'm going to do my best to try to have a funeral for her on Saturday night. It is best for me to have that closure instead of putting it off until the next full moon (in my beliefs it's okay to do a full moon ritual 3 nights prior, the night of and 3 nights after the actual full moon as the "energy" of the full moon lasts for that long).

The full moon fell on Wed 2nd. It was "meant to be" as I chose that date as her date before I knew it was going to be a full moon that night. I couldn't have chosen a better date for the actual 'event'.

I came home from BurlyQ tonight. Man my home is just not a home anymore.

I was even thinking driving back home... there is no rush anymore... I don't need to be home sooner than later as there isn't anyone there anymore. Puddy doesn't count as he's my flatmate's cat and I just don't feel "that" connection with him.

I'm catching myself out having moments where I have to remind myself that she is not around anymore.... she will never be around anymore. For instance, tonight I had a moment where I was about to go check for poo like I had always done for the past few months.... as she tended to "poop" in a certain part of the house.

Then there are the moments when my mind will for a second here and there expect her to come hobbling towards the kitchen or be on my bed or what-have-you.

Not to mention the fact that for the first time ever in all of this yesterday I had a moment... a very brief moment yet a moment none-the-less... where I actually doubted my decision! :O I felt bad for killing her.. for not letting her be etc then I reminded myself that she showed me more than enough in her last hours why I needed to do what I did and that it was the ultimate respect for her. I didn't usurp nature, I didn't "kill" her, I gave her what I would love to have given to me if I ever just "existed".... release.



:thanx: for "listening" everyone ;D

jaizaine
05-04-2007, 06:31 PM
I'm catching myself out having moments where I have to remind myself that she is not around anymore.... she will never be around anymore. For instance, tonight I had a moment where I was about to go check for poo like I had always done for the past few months.... as she tended to "poop" in a certain part of the house.


Not to mention the fact that for the first time ever in all of this yesterday I had a moment... a very brief moment yet a moment none-the-less... where I actually doubted my decision! :O I felt bad for killing her.. for not letting her be etc then I reminded myself that she showed me more than enough in her last hours why I needed to do what I did and that it was the ultimate respect for her. I didn't usurp nature, I didn't "kill" her, I gave her what I would love to have given to me if I ever just "existed".... release.


Both very normal experiences.

For about a month after Zaine passed I would have those moments.
I would be at the supermarket or something and see a dog treat and think "oh Zaine would like that" and then reality would hit that he wasn't alive anymore.

As for doubting your decision, there is no doubt that you and I both made the right decisions for our pets. Unfortunately I have to say that its 4 months since Zaine passed and I am still (although less often thesedays) having those thoughts. I have even had nightmares about doing the wrong thing.
I keep thinking was it wrong to end his suffering? I know in my rational mind that it was right but its hard to be rational with these sort of emotional events.

You know u did the right thing. You will have thoughts that maybe u did the wrong thing but thats normal and your rational mind will soon take over to tell u thats not true.

I think the funeral idea is great. I didnt do that, I prob should have come to think of it.

GoldCoastGirl
05-04-2007, 08:40 PM
I'm thinking I might wait until the next full moon for the funeral even tho' I did the same thing for another cat (Smokey) pretty much within days of her transition. I don't know. I just can't let her go just yet. I'm not ready.

(or that is how I feel right now)

I will do something tonight just not the full ritual.

I'm even seriously considering not doing the plant in the end. I'm now tossing up between wanting to have her put in an urn and that urn sewn into a teddy bear (in the shape of a cat of course) OR burying her here in the garden.

All my previous cats had been buried wherever they last lived. Smokey was buried in the backyard of 34 Harran St Ashmore.

I feel like I should be in a rush to make a decision when I know I am allowed to take my time with it. I need to take my time with it. I'm still missing her.

Just miss her presence.

I will get another "pet" yet I'm going to go the "non traditional" route. I'm going to spread out into something like Hermit Crabs or some such... no fish as they are high maintenance. Even a rat maybe.

I realised the other day how much I do love having an animal in my home. Just that because I have made the decision to keep renting and instead save up deposit so I can use it to INVEST in property then eventually buy my own home thanks to my property investments... I need a "pet" that is easy to keep and transport and won't be too much of a problem.

So I'm inclined to go with something like Hermit Crabs or a Rat (a single one - I won't buy more than one). I like the rat idea as then I can also "pat" it as such.. let it crawl over me.. and I'm such a sensual tactile person that this would be a good fit in a way.

I would love to get another cat (read: cat not kitten) just that I'm not in the right situation for it.

I don't know. I'm still mourning Bibs that I feel like this... I'm all over the place.

Roulette
05-04-2007, 08:52 PM
Hun, you really dont need to rush. If you need her around the way you seem to right now I would say wait for the next full moon. And I like the idea of having her urn put into a stuffed animal rather than a plant. I personally hate burrying my pets at my houses... I have pets in different states now and it kills me to know that their remains aren't with me. Perhaps thats just me, but my dog and my cat are separated from me or anyone they ever knew now and though they aren't with their bodies anymore they are still... separated, if that makes sense. I'm sure you'll make the right decision.

As for getting another pet rats are great!!! Also and this might sound weird but have you ever considered a skunk? They are seriously sweet animals and you can have their... stink sack? removed. The two non traditional animals I've fallen madly in love with are rats and skunks. I dont know how much you have to put into having a skunk tho.... Hermit crabs are pretty cool too!! I've had a few over my life time. just a thought.

mina loy
05-05-2007, 12:00 AM
As for getting another pet rats are great!!! Also and this might sound weird but have you ever considered a skunk? They are seriously sweet animals and you can have their... stink sack? removed. The two non traditional animals I've fallen madly in love with are rats and skunks. I dont know how much you have to put into having a skunk tho.... Hermit crabs are pretty cool too!! I've had a few over my life time. just a thought.

i love skunks!!! one of my best friends who lives in florida owns a pet skunk and she's the greatest! there are domestic skunk associations and shows and yes, the spray gland is removed.

Lysondra
05-05-2007, 12:49 AM
Umm.. skunks in Australia?

mina loy
05-05-2007, 01:04 AM
Umm.. skunks in Australia?

oh yeah, you're right.
well...if europeans brought cats over, maybe skunks can be too...as long as they don't destroy the environment.

wishful thinking? skunks make great pets.

Lysondra
05-05-2007, 01:06 AM
oh yeah, you're right.
well...if europeans brought cats over, maybe skunks can be too...as long as they don't destroy the environment.

wishful thinking? skunks make great pets.

That's a bad bad bad idea. Not to mention, since I've already thought about a skunk for myself, you need an expensive yearly license that needs to be tested for, you need to get them all neutered, you need to have about 10 grand EACH to get them... and even then, they can be taken away any day someone in Aus. decides to say you can't have them. Rabbits have nearly destroyed the Australian ecosystem. Actually google 'cane toads'... oh yeah. :/

mina loy
05-05-2007, 01:13 AM
That's a bad bad bad idea. Not to mention, since I've already thought about a skunk for myself, you need an expensive yearly license that needs to be tested for, you need to get them all neutered, you need to have about 10 grand EACH to get them... and even then, they can be taken away any day someone in Aus. decides to say you can't have them. Rabbits have nearly destroyed the Australian ecosystem. Actually google 'cane toads'... oh yeah. :/

yes, yes, i understand and know that. like i said, wishful thinking. here in california we're not allowed to keep ferrets or skunks as pets. does that stop me from wanting one? no.

Lysondra
05-05-2007, 01:18 AM
Yeah but at least you can still GET them :P

mina loy
05-05-2007, 01:22 AM
Yeah but at least you can still GET them :P

lol. very true. i knew a girl here who owned two ferrets and didn't give a fuck about the anti-ferret legislation on the books in this state.

mild2wild
05-05-2007, 04:44 AM
get a rabbit!

I heard that the laws have changed and they are now legal in QLD!

aussiepunkshocker
05-05-2007, 06:27 AM
^^ Really, shit?!
Ive seen enough excaped pet rabbits around without them being legal.

GCG how are you doing? (-:

Roulette
05-05-2007, 02:17 PM
I didnt think about that LM, about skunks not really being posible. What about a roo? I had a friend in Aussie who had a kangaroo... but yeah hmm maybe that's not the best idea either. Hermit crabs are awesome. ok, I'm done, sorry.

How're you doing GCG?

Lysondra
05-05-2007, 05:28 PM
I didnt think about that LM, about skunks not really being posible. What about a roo? I had a friend in Aussie who had a kangaroo... but yeah hmm maybe that's not the best idea either. Hermit crabs are awesome. ok, I'm done, sorry.

How're you doing GCG?

You can get them but you need a native wildlife permit, which is actually easy to get. I'm getting one so I can take care of injured birds myself. But Vee has an apartment and a kanga would be a baaaad idea! :D Maybe a wallaby? Heehee. But then she'd have to ride it to work.

Roulette
05-05-2007, 05:47 PM
Maybe a wallaby? Heehee. But then she'd have to ride it to work.

Holy shit I just got the greatest 2 images in my head...

1) She robs a bank and later confides in someone
"sho who drive the gettaway car?"
"no one, I used a gettaway wallaby!"
"you what? really? a wallaby? Snazzzy!"

2) In the club and a lame-o trying to pick her up
"gurl I got my very own car, I can give you a lift anywhere"
"uhm thanks but no... I have a wallaby, it's out front"
"uhm... really? how many kilometers per gallon does it get?" (I dont know how you measure things down there - I did my best.

GCG, I hope this at least makes you chuckle a little, made me chuckle thinking about it.

GoldCoastGirl
05-05-2007, 08:07 PM
I didn't like how the thread was de-railed here... it's all about me damnit :P

Me Me Me!!!

Okay, I'm only joshing around.

I would never ever take on a native animal as 'pet' as that is just not right in my books. I would take them on in a carer capacity yet not as pets. As for rabbits, no thank you. I might as well take on a cane toad as a pet then :laughing:

Remember, I will be renting for the next few years (as I plan to put a deposit together so I can purchase a few investment properties) and most likely units that aren't that big at best... therefore... I need to take THAT into consideration. I also need to take into consideration the fact that I travel for work away from home for 2-3 weeks at a time.... thus need a 'pet' that doesn't require alot of care/attention whilst I am away (won't put anyone 'out' in re the care of it).

Thus the reason I was thinking Hermit Crabs and Rats. I could even go as small as a mouse yet I just never drawn to mice as a pet. Both don't require a huge intial investment and on-going investments. Plus in the case of rats they don't live for that long .... and to be honest... after Bibs... I'm not ready to devote myself for more than a few years to an animal.

This has killed me enough (as such) that I would rather be in a more stable position with my life before I take on another cat and/or dog who possibly will live for as long if not longer....


I'm actually doing pretty good now. I havn't buried her ashes nor done a funeral service for her as yet.... I'm going to do the funeral for her a month from now around 1 June. I'm also not so sad about her anymore as I have been reminding myself that she is now with Smokey and that brings a huge smile to my face.

Smokey and her were very close in real life and Bibs did grieve for three days when Smokey transitioned so now she has been reunited with Smokey... and they can once again enjoy each other's company.

Instead of being here and not enjoying the company of Puddy. She really didn't like him and only tolerated him so she is definately much much better off.

Her ashes are with me on the bed. I just can't totally let her go as yet. I want her to be around still in some form if you get me? It makes me happy. I dunno, I'm mind fucking myself big time .... in denial yet acceptance about the whole thing at the same time.

Generally I'm better now... I have my sad moments yet they are becoming less and less now.

I just wish I could change my mood from DEAD as I have been feeling okay/blah instead of DEAD for the last two days.

Still feel like my home isn't a home anymore. Puddy isn't my cat. As much as I love him... I don't love him like I loved Bibs. There is a 'gap' as such... there isn't the same bond between him and me. It's nice to have him around ... just not the same tho'... just not the same.

Roulette
05-05-2007, 08:21 PM
I'm glad things are getting better/easier for you, and sorry for the derailment!!

(also I'm glad its not just me who cant change their mood)

GoldCoastGirl
05-05-2007, 08:27 PM
http://i62.photobucket.com/albums/h101/GoldCoastGirl/BIBS/bibs-smokey-taddlesSML.jpg
Bibs, Smokey and Taddles

Taddles was given away to a new home at her grand old age (i'm guessing around 13???) in 1993. So this photo is of Bibs before she is even one year old. Smokey is the cat in the middle.

The pink mat on the floor was the 'play area' of the cats. Smokey and Bibs were playing at the time of this photo (back in the day before digital photos).

Yes Taddles was over-weight. She had the nickname "Fat cat and no friends" as she liked to keep to herself mainly being the oldest cat and having to endure the many cats I went thru in my life.

mina loy
05-05-2007, 10:22 PM
what beautiful cats!!!

you could try a snake as a pet. i think you only have to feed them once or twice a month or something. i'm glad that you're feeling a little better.

Minette
05-06-2007, 12:08 AM
http://i62.photobucket.com/albums/h101/GoldCoastGirl/BIBS/bibs-smokey-taddlesSML.jpg
Bibs, Smokey and Taddles



My god, the cuteness of this picture. Hope you continue to feel better!

Lysondra
05-06-2007, 03:48 AM
I didn't like how the thread was de-railed here... it's all about me damnit :P

Me Me Me!!!



But... we were talking about you..