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Lunarobverse
03-09-2008, 10:01 PM
I have to go tomorrow for my biopsy. I'm freaking the fuck out and hubby doesnt understand because he has a feeling its all ok. Well..fucking A I dont have that feeling and I have to go tomorrow to have them shove a camera up inside me and chop out a chunk of tissue to see if I have CANCER. I'm glad you fell its all going to be ok..but can you not see how god dammed scared I am??? Is just acknowledging it too much to ask???
I don't know if it's all going to be OK or not.
But I do know that it's a scary thought to have. I understand if you're scared; I think almost anyone would be if they were in your situation. I know I would.
One thing is sure, though - after tomorrow you will know more than you do now, and in my opinion, that's a good thing.
Please let us know how it turns out, OK?
Callyish
03-09-2008, 10:04 PM
Oh Cam *hugs*
I can understand why you would be freaking out. Its a nerve wrecking thing to go through. Men are just annoyingly insensitive when it comes to stuff like that.
Good luck and im sending healthy vibes your way *hugs*
Yekhefah
03-09-2008, 10:06 PM
Y'all know that Seals and Crofts song "Summer Breeze"? I don't know why, but it's going through my head, and instead of "summer breeze" I'm hearing "butterbeans."
:sing: "Butterbeans... make me feel fine..."
LuckyOne
03-09-2008, 10:18 PM
I love shaving my legs in the bathtub. I have a seperate shower and tub so when you shave your legs in the shower you have to turn the water off so the shaving cream doesn't wash off. In the tub I just put my toes up on the edge and I don't even have to get out and freeze. I was not a bath-taker until I got this oval chaped ergonomic tub with grooves for your arms and it is so comfy. :cloud9:
hannah83
03-09-2008, 10:19 PM
:hug: My thoughts and prayers are with you Cam! I hope everything goes well, and it's completely normal to be freaking out. Hell, I'd be a wreck right now too.
*sends tons of good vibes*
RoseLeigh
03-09-2008, 10:25 PM
I have to go tomorrow for my biopsy. I'm freaking the fuck out and hubby doesnt understand because he has a feeling its all ok. Well..fucking A I dont have that feeling and I have to go tomorrow to have them shove a camera up inside me and chop out a chunk of tissue to see if I have CANCER. I'm glad you fell its all going to be ok..but can you not see how god dammed scared I am??? Is just acknowledging it too much to ask???
*grumbles at Cam's hubby* They don't understand until some doc has to check their prostate every year.
*hugs Cam* :pray: You are in my prayers.
cameron_keys
03-09-2008, 10:39 PM
Thanks guys. He grew up in a typical Italian household where support means "ah...you'll be fine ..no sense getting all upset about it"
BUt I need to be upset right now and get it all out so I"m calm tomorrow when I actually have it done. Now I'm freaking that my insurance might not allow it..I have to call tomorrow too see igf they do or I cant even afford to get it done.
Sometimes I just need to feel what I feel y'know? I KNOW that we arent doing great financially lately and we've fallen behind on the mtg AGAIN because I'm making shit for money right now...but I CANT webcam tonight while I'm shaking and crying uncontrollably.
FUCK. I can feel myself start to spiral back down and it seems like nothing helps.
Its just too much right now. The shit with my brother, the fact that just when we were getting in the black again everything falls apart and we haev no money AGAIN, and now I'm told I may have cancer. ANd the treatment for stage ONE cervical cancer is FUCKING HYSTERECTOMY. If they DO find this...my only real choice is to have all my female organs ripped out and THEN get chemo. How much money will I make then??? Will I even still BE a real woman with no female organs???
fuck...I"m crying again.
CAnt he just say that whether this works out or not we'll get through it together and hold me???Why isnt that a fucking option??
sorry for the spelling I cant even see straight through the tears right now
Yekhefah
03-09-2008, 11:09 PM
Oh G-d, Cam. I'm so sorry. Have you told him this is what you need? I'm sorry he's being such a dude about it, that's awful. :hug:
A uterus is not what makes you a woman and you know it. Remember you said it was very unlikely that this is actually cancer. Cone biopsy is a very common procedure, it doesn't always mean cancer, it's just a precaution. Don't worry about the money or insurance right now, it has to be done so just do it and deal with the insurance later. Money is not what you need to be thinking about right now.
Get off the computer, go climb into your husband's lap and tell him you just need to be held. If he's any kind of man at all (and it sounds like he is), he will put his arms around you and I guarantee you'll feel better. This will work out, okay?
BalletBaby
03-09-2008, 11:28 PM
I have to go tomorrow for my biopsy. I'm freaking the fuck out and hubby doesnt understand because he has a feeling its all ok. Well..fucking A I dont have that feeling and I have to go tomorrow to have them shove a camera up inside me and chop out a chunk of tissue to see if I have CANCER. I'm glad you fell its all going to be ok..but can you not see how god dammed scared I am??? Is just acknowledging it too much to ask???
:hug::hug::hug:
You're in my prayers sweetie.
TheTempest
03-10-2008, 12:22 AM
Chat is easy-peasy:
1. Go to everywherechat.com (http://everywherechat.com/chatnow.php)
2. Type in your SW chat handle (which may or may not be the same as your SW handle)
3. Leave password blank and click "Enter"
4. Don't click "Cancel" as the chat room loads.
5. Click "Close" on the warning message that comes up.
6. Once you're in the "Lobby" type: /join StripperWeb (I think it's case-sensitive)
...OK, reading that, it's not so easy-peasy, but still quite do-able. I'm on a Mac and that's how I get into chat.
It's not case sensitive on P.C. Would it be different on Mac?
I have to go tomorrow for my biopsy. I'm freaking the fuck out and hubby doesnt understand because he has a feeling its all ok. Well..fucking A I dont have that feeling and I have to go tomorrow to have them shove a camera up inside me and chop out a chunk of tissue to see if I have CANCER. I'm glad you fell its all going to be ok..but can you not see how god dammed scared I am??? Is just acknowledging it too much to ask???
I'm here for you, always. Just keep remembering that it's nothing certain yet. -cuddles-
Message me as soon as you get back.
Lysondra
03-10-2008, 12:24 AM
Judaism is hard.
Jewish men are kinda cute.
Once I stop hiding in my car, I can say hi. *shifty*
TigersMilk
03-10-2008, 12:33 AM
*waits impatiently for the 17th to come*
RoseLeigh
03-10-2008, 12:33 AM
There is no reason for long division of polynomials. None. I get the idea of real world application of math. But not this.
TigersMilk
03-10-2008, 12:34 AM
^^There is somewhat if you can't do one with synthetic division. I never liked the long division way either.
Yekhefah
03-10-2008, 12:36 AM
K needs to come home like RIGHT NOW. I can't sleep anymore, I feel tense all over and I'm getting depressed. I need some cuddles, some kisses, and a deep hard sexing, and then I need to snuggle up spooning him and sleep like little snuggly babies for two days. I can't go to bed by myself anymore. Half of me keeps saying it's only another week, and the other half is screaming, "What the fuck, a whole WEEK?!"
RoseLeigh
03-10-2008, 12:38 AM
^^There is somewhat if you can't do one with synthetic division. I never liked the long division way either.
I never learned synthetic division. :(
TigersMilk
03-10-2008, 12:42 AM
WHAT!? OMG synthetic makes dividing polynomials like 100 times easier. I swear.
http://www.wtamu.edu/academic/anns/mps/math/mathlab/col_algebra/col_alg_tut37_syndiv.htm
RoseLeigh
03-10-2008, 12:46 AM
WHAT!? OMG synthetic makes dividing polynomials like 100 times easier. I swear.
Ooh, cool. I will read it when I am less tired! I think this is what the prof was saying we aren't supposed to do, but I'm a little fuzzy in the brain. I WILL pass this damn algebra course.
TigersMilk
03-10-2008, 12:49 AM
Ooh, cool. I will read it when I am less tired! I think this is what the prof was saying we aren't supposed to do, but I'm a little fuzzy in the brain. I WILL pass this damn algebra course.
Yes, I know you will pass! I had troubles with algebra too so you're not alone. When you read the link later and can't get it then I'm here to help.
BalletBaby
03-10-2008, 12:52 AM
Therapist appointment tomorrow. Must. Not. Forget.
RoseLeigh
03-10-2008, 12:56 AM
Yes, I know you will pass! I had troubles with algebra too so you're not alone. When you read the link later and can't get it then I'm here to help.
Thanks! I'm at a low B average so far, but this jerk prof keeps telling us we suck because it's considered a remedial class and that everyone does worse on exam 2 etc. I don't want to give him any leeway to give me a C! This intermediate alg :dunce: class is harder than the regular college math classes. So annoying. Okay, bedtime-brain addled with polynomials.
Yekhefah
03-10-2008, 12:58 AM
My cat understands certain English words, including "ouch." Is that weird? If he digs in his claws or steps on a tender spot (like he just stepped on my breast), I can just say "ouch" in a normal voice and he immediately backs off. I'm not yelling it and he's definitely not picking up on my inflection. He understands that the word "ouch" means "that hurts, stop it." He also looks up every time he hears the word "cat," because he knows it means him. Oddly, he will not answer to Kitty but he does answer to Cat.
Is that as bizarre as it seems to me?
Lysondra
03-10-2008, 01:13 AM
I have a cat who will scream and barrel out to say hello if you even say the word dinner. It makes sense. :P
britt244
03-10-2008, 03:57 AM
:hug: for cameron.
im about to flip out on my "friend" who thinks its ok to talk about people behind their backs. i have no patience for that. why the fuck is she friends with us if she thinks we talk about her? and why is she OK with that?! it's infuriating.
oh wait, i know why she's our friend. she's a snob and her boyfriend is. so she thinks she "should" be.
can someone help me get the balls to quit my day job? :-[
sun child
03-10-2008, 04:20 AM
zxcire said she would make out with me in August.
BmiWMT14
03-10-2008, 04:25 AM
I start my New job in 1 hour, and I am shitting my pants I am so ner/:O vous
MsQwerty
03-10-2008, 04:57 AM
I am nervous too, I think have a date tomorrow! I am so not ready for this, I wish Id suggested Sunday!
Good luck BMI! (-:
StrawberrySwitchblade
03-10-2008, 05:07 AM
Fuck Nikki Sixx is sexy. I really want nothing more than to throw him down and have my way with him. God, I would so jump his fucking bones, even at fifty. I'm all bothered and shit. *swoon*
MsQwerty
03-10-2008, 05:17 AM
I have developed a HUGE crush on Nikki Sixx too since reading his book >swoon<!
Fuck Nikki Sixx is sexy. I really want nothing more than to throw him down and have my way with him. God, I would so jump his fucking bones, even at fifty. I'm all bothered and shit. *swoon*
MsQwerty
03-10-2008, 05:22 AM
I was just thinking how funny it is that Im text flirting with this guy but if we lived a couple of hundred years ago hed have to court me by sending secret love letters and watching me from a distance and the content of the letters would be so much different...
Lysondra
03-10-2008, 05:35 AM
My tattoo is on Thursday! *masturbates*
It's the most awesome awesome ever.
hockeybobby
03-10-2008, 05:44 AM
I am nervous too, I think have a date tomorrow! I am so not ready for this, I wish Id suggested Sunday!
MsQ has a new guy!! that's exciting. How'd you meet?
My tattoo is on Thursday! *masturbates*
It's the most awesome awesome ever.
What are you getting Lys?
Lysondra
03-10-2008, 05:51 AM
I'm getting circuit boards in the shape of wings with microchips placed randomly on them and binary from my hips going to below my power button and back up (making the top boning of the wings) that says 'angel'. On my lower back.
MsQwerty
03-10-2008, 06:02 AM
MsQ has a new guy!! that's exciting. How'd you meet?
:) Weve hung out in the same circle for a good 10 years or so but I think were both a little on the shy side so we never really knew each other that well. 5 years ago we sort of hooked up, but then two weeks later when my best friend arranged for us to both be at the same party he seemed busy and didnt speak to me. So then 18 months ago he finally told me he liked me and I havent seen him since, lol. He found me on facebook though and finally it looks like there might be some progress. It feels very funy thoug, yikes!
Darcy Foxx
03-10-2008, 06:10 AM
aaaand we're right back to where we started. he's away on tour, i'm at home pining for him and sending him flirty texts and semi pornographic photos of myself to amuse him while he's bored in his hotel. the only difference is this time he has a girlfriend, and it's not me.
some people never learn. i am one of those people.
Darcy Foxx
03-10-2008, 06:10 AM
Fuck Nikki Sixx is sexy. I really want nothing more than to throw him down and have my way with him. God, I would so jump his fucking bones, even at fifty.
+1
}:D
hockeybobby
03-10-2008, 06:11 AM
I'm getting circuit boards in the shape of wings with microchips placed randomly on them and binary from my hips going to below my power button and back up (making the top boning of the wings) that says 'angel'. On my lower back.
That sounds way cool. What's "power button"?
hockeybobby
03-10-2008, 06:19 AM
aaaand we're right back to where we started. he's away on tour, i'm at home pining for him and sending him flirty texts and semi pornographic photos of myself to amuse him while he's bored in his hotel. the only difference is this time he has a girlfriend, and it's not me.
some people never learn. i am one of those people.
You're a beautiful, fun, sexy girl Darcy...many dudes admire and lust after you. Some awesome guy is gonna make you forget all about the other one. It's hard though...I know. :hug:
Lysondra
03-10-2008, 06:19 AM
^ I already have a tattoo of a power button on my lower back.
Darcy Foxx
03-10-2008, 06:20 AM
You're a beautiful, fun, sexy girl Darcy...many dudes admire and lust after you.
yep.
but he's the only one i want :(
hockeybobby
03-10-2008, 06:21 AM
It seems like fate/destiny MsQ :D
MsQwerty
03-10-2008, 06:41 AM
It seems like fate/destiny MsQ :D
Maybe, well see - I feel it s a good match though but I am a bit of a free spirit 8)
I have a boyfriend in Sydney btw, but I almost never see him anymore (twice last year!) Were polyamorous though so that takes the pressure off a bit :)
hockeybobby
03-10-2008, 06:58 AM
Maybe, well see - I feel it s a good match though but I am a bit of a free spirit 8)
I have a boyfriend in Sydney btw, but I almost never see him anymore (twice last year!) Were polyamorous though so that takes the pressure off a bit :)
polyamorous: is that hard to do? I've never tried...I'm like a serial monogamist.
hockeybobby
03-10-2008, 07:01 AM
^ I already have a tattoo of a power button on my lower back.
Is that like your on/off switch...like push my button, and stand back!!! :D
Darcy Foxx
03-10-2008, 07:03 AM
oh, and he wants me to find another chick to have a threesome with us. i'm totally keen for the idea... i just have NO idea where to find a girl. craigslist is useless in australia, all the girls on adultmatchmaker are fat gothic chicks or really skanky looking, there's no one at work suitable, i won't fuck any of my girl friends.... i have no idea where to look.
Lysondra
03-10-2008, 07:05 AM
oh, and he wants me to find another chick to have a threesome with us. i'm totally keen for the idea... i just have NO idea where to find a girl. craigslist is useless in australia, all the girls on adultmatchmaker are fat gothic chicks or really skanky looking, there's no one at work suitable, i won't fuck any of my girl friends.... i have no idea where to look.
:wave:
Lunarobverse
03-10-2008, 07:06 AM
Good morning, SW!
Mmmmmm... coffee and a cinnamon roll. Breakfast of champions.
Lysondra your tattoo sounds seriously hot.
Darcy Foxx
03-10-2008, 07:06 AM
:wave:
there's a few thousand kilometres in the way
MsQwerty
03-10-2008, 07:07 AM
polyamorous: is that hard to do? I've never tried...I'm like a serial monogamist.
I though it was going to be hard and I wasnt entirely comfortable with it at first but Im so glad I stuck with it! Its been a great learning experience, Im no longer the jealous insecure person I used to be. My SO is such a wonderful person though, he made it easier for me with reassurance and patience. There have been times that Ive found difficult but ive surprised mysef by finding that I can get over it without too much bother also.
I could quite easilly and happily go back to monogamy at some stage though.
Lysondra
03-10-2008, 07:14 AM
there's a few thousand kilometres in the way
http://www.4imprint.com/imageserver/productimages/4imprint/thumbnails/1120.jpg