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Yekhefah
03-12-2008, 08:55 AM
I'm so sorry, Cally. :hug:
I did not wake up in time for the gym this morning. I set my alarm for seven but I must have shut it off without waking up. Damn. Guess I'll have to go after work (ha ha ha, I know I won't) and dance extra-hard at work today.
Callyish
03-12-2008, 09:06 AM
Thanks guys....
Oddly enough im not really upset about it. I mean in my mind its been done for awhile so im not upset about us being truly done.
Im just upset hes taking it so hard. He said that hes decided hes just the loveable loser who doesn't deserve love. Then he said im the third person hes lost to alcohol now ::)
I feel bad for him.... hes a great guy with piss poor luck.
I think what makes me feel even worse is i've been fooling around with the manager of a club here in Winnipeg for a few months now... i've known him for like two years. Anyway he told me the other night he wants more then to be just fuck buddies.... im totally into the guy, we have amazing sexual chemistry and a lot of people see us as a couple anyway and we share the same group of friends lol. Plus what I love is the fact I can just be myself around him. I don't feel like I have to be the stripper for him to dig me. Im just kinda taking things as they come anyway. Im not jumping into anything as im totally loving the way my life is right now.
God im a bad person :(
Have I mentioned i've been on a month long drinking and partying bender? LoL
:hug: I'm so sorry my precious Cally. I know it sounds sssooo cliche', but if it is meant to be, then it will all work out. Being on the road constantly can be so lonely, I know.
hockeybobby
03-12-2008, 09:19 AM
God im a bad person :(
You're not a bad person Cally. You're just doing the best you can like all of us. Not bad. A little naughty some times though ;D
Callyish
03-12-2008, 09:24 AM
Heh thanks :P
I think one of the things that was just getting to me with him is I felt guilty for going out and partying. I shouldn't have to feel guilty for drinking with friends.
Then he got pissy because I was never online much and I wasn't texting him every 5min.
I can understand that it was weird for him but he threw such a childish tantrum and tried to make me feel bad about it.
Im young and enjoying life for the first time in a long time. Things are perfect for me now. Yea im damn happy for once 8)
hannah83
03-12-2008, 09:27 AM
Yep...I'm freakin hating myself. That hasn't changed...
Talked to him late last night, he called. Told me that he wants me to die, and that he wants me to end up with someone who will treat me like shit every single day for the rest of my life. :(
Can't say I blame him though...hell I did break his heart. Is it dumb of me to have this part of me that hopes one day we can work through this? That maybe. Just maybe, I can somehow be with him again?
:-\
I agree with him, nothing lovable about a loser.
Losing women to alcohol is a shitty reason to lose somebody. If you are going to lose somebody, at least do it through cheating, which is far more manly than giving in to an addiction.
Glad to hear you are happy homie.
He sensed he snagged something WAAAAY out of his league and was just trying to hold on.
Oh well! Then continue to do what makes YOU happy, Cally. That's the way I've always seen things. If someone in a relationship continues to bring me down and I am not happy... I will NOT hesitate to move on.
SundayMorning
03-12-2008, 09:33 AM
Wah, lunch date postponed. However, it's for the good; I have 3 rush DVDs on their way over here and I can meet the Hubby for Thai after I'm done with them. All will be well, and all will be well, and all manner of things will be well.
*tummy growls*
Lunar, I already answered your question but for general knowledge in case it ever features on the Trivial Pursuit thread five years from now, "the jar" is our private code for if the Hubby wants me to be monogamous or not. When he "puts me in the jar," it's understood that I'm not to flirt with or kiss or fuck anybody else. When he "takes me out of the jar," I'm free to roam. ;D
And DVDs arrived. Time to work, and then to reward myself with pineapple fried rice!
Callyish
03-12-2008, 09:36 AM
LoL sh0t.
The thing is he didn't lose me to alcohol.
I don't have an addiction.
I mean yea okay I drink alot. But my life isn't revolved around drinking. I just felt guilty every time I had a drink because I knew he didn't like it.
I am happy for once.
My life is going PERFECT. I have a great group of friends. Im getting my place here in Winnipeg, I just got a raise in my show price, im getting more bookings, I have a great man who wants to stand by me through all of this and im hoping we can build a great relationship in the future. I just feel like everything is finally working my way.
I don't want to be with someone who is going to make me feel guilty for having all this.
cameron_keys
03-12-2008, 09:39 AM
hannah...I know he is angry,and I know that you understand he has every right to be...but the he wants to die thing, coupled with the fact that he's been depressed lately isnt good. Is there a way you can call someone and tell them he is suicidal so they can watch him and make sure he is ok?? I know he wont want you there...but SOMEONE needs to be with him 24/7 on suicide watch to be sure.
Oh..and yes you were in the wrong..you already know that...but I'd KILL his cousins for forcing you to tell him while he's in such a delicate state of mind. FUCK THEM. Because they are bitter assholes HE has to suffer? He'd have been better off if you could have waited to tell him until he was in a more healthy place mentally. If he tries to kill himself I hope they are fucking happy they pushed this right now. Fucktards.
There is a possibility you could get back together...you know him better then we do. You screwed up big time...but there WERE extenuating circumstances...you were drunk and your relationship want great at that moment because of his depression. We all make mistakes...esp when we are under that kind of stress. You gain major points by owning up to it and taking whatever steps you need to take to make sure it doesnt happen again. ONE fuck up I could forgive..IF my partner was honestly sorry and it didnt happen again. TWO I dont think anyone could get past.
Is there ANY possibility you could drag him into counseling? Both for his own depression and cpls counseling to try and put you two back together?? Sounds like you both would benefit from it.
Bottom line is try to make sure he is ok....and do what you need to do to build his trust back up. It wont happen overnight...but if you both really love each other and you are truly repentant theres a chance. Good luck sweetie!
Nah not your addiction.
We all know what your REAL addiction is, and it's not alcohol, kupo.
I eagerly await the next thread you create
cameron_keys
03-12-2008, 09:45 AM
Ha..ok this is pretty funny..
Lunarobverse
03-12-2008, 09:49 AM
There's a lot of sadness and heavy hearts out there in StripperWebLand (tm) today.
But there's some happiness and contentment, too.
Just wanted to say that I love all y'all in a totally non-gay way. I don't judge ya, I just marvel at the stories and the human condition and I'm glad I'm part of it.
Today a friend challenged me to keep track of everyone I see wearing black, and everyone I see wearing red (they get marked twice if they're wearing both) for three hours. How random is that? I haven't started yet. We do crazy things like that for each other. Tomorrow I'm going to make him write an essay based on the question, "What does a coffee table say?" Yeah. Fun times, fun times.
hannah83
03-12-2008, 09:49 AM
Cam, he wants ME to die. Not himself. Right now, he's in the Anger stage. He is only thinking about revenge, and making sure we hurt as much as he is.
gingerlee
03-12-2008, 10:01 AM
I love somebody who is *very* far away, and I get super depressed every time I have to leave him to go back to work. If I could take a bunch of time off and just hang out with him I would be more than content, and I wouldn't even miss the money.
*Sigh*
stellaforstars
03-12-2008, 10:11 AM
I'm extremely depressed today. I've actually thought about dying again and that scares me.
I'm glad I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow.
No one pay any attention to me right now. I won't hurt myself or anything--I promise.
hannah83
03-12-2008, 10:15 AM
*hugs stella and ginger*
Hang in there ladies...
Scotty Pogo
03-12-2008, 10:16 AM
Wow. Great. And I get to be the bad guy by being hurt by this.
I'm not going to defend myself. I know your all her friends and all, and I'd be the rooster in the wolves den if I tried.
And I don't hate you Cally.
But, I'd appreciate it if you stopped making me out to be such a dick for caring about you.
I wish you happiness. Always have, always will, and I told you that a million times on the phone.
All I wanted was the truth.
cameron_keys
03-12-2008, 10:17 AM
Cam, he wants ME to die. Not himself. Right now, he's in the Anger stage. He is only thinking about revenge, and making sure we hurt as much as he is.
Ok..sorry I mis-read that. Just stay away for awhile then and let him calm down. Maybe when the initial fury dies down you can talk calmly.
I love somebody who is *very* far away, and I get super depressed every time I have to leave him to go back to work. If I could take a bunch of time off and just hang out with him I would be more than content, and I wouldn't even miss the money.
*Sigh*
Then do it. You have had a crap time lately and you DESERVE a break. Take a cpl weeks off, go home, be with your love and re-charge. Screw it...your mental health is FAR more important then work...cite health issues and cancel a cpl weeks of appearances. Go to Taco bell and get burgers! Be happy!
hannah83
03-12-2008, 10:19 AM
Mmmm now I want Taco Bell.
Wow. Great. And I get to be the bad guy by being hurt by this.
I'm not going to defend myself. I know your all her friends and all, and I'd be the rooster in the wolves den if I tried.
And I don't hate you Cally.
But, I'd appreciate it if you stopped making me out to be such a dick for caring about you.
I wish you happiness. Always have, always will, and I told you that a million times on the phone.
All I wanted was the truth.
I was counting down until you posted in here :)
But honestly, this is what you get for caring about a woman dude. I know you've read my posts before.
You thought you were going to be the exception, didn't you?
southstbabe
03-12-2008, 10:21 AM
Today a friend challenged me to keep track of everyone I see wearing black, and everyone I see wearing red (they get marked twice if they're wearing both) for three hours. How random is that? I haven't started yet. We do crazy things like that for each other. Tomorrow I'm going to make him write an essay based on the question, "What does a coffee table say?" Yeah. Fun times, fun times.
Very creative entertainment
It reminds me of the book I'm currently reading where the main character son's bakes an apple in the oven for a scince project and through the oven window tracks it's disintergration reporting the results in a paper written from the perspective of the apple.
stellaforstars
03-12-2008, 10:23 AM
:hug: Hugs to Scotty and Cally because they're going through such a difficult time right now. And they BOTH deserve happiness.
:hug: Hugs to Hannah because I'm sure she's feeling very alone right now.
:hug: Hugs for everyone, depressed, happy, or otherwise.
gingerlee
03-12-2008, 10:24 AM
:hug: for Stella, Cally, and Hannah. It will get better, it always does.
And I'm going to try to take a weekend off sometime in April, Cam. It's just the 30 something days until then really suck. I'm stuck listening to voice mails and reading notes over and over until then.
gingerlee
03-12-2008, 10:25 AM
Shit, we're some hug happy motherfuckers in this thread today aren't we?
stellaforstars
03-12-2008, 10:26 AM
Ginger, you deserve a break at this point, moreso than anyone I know. I can't even fathom working as hard as you do constantly.
Lunarobverse
03-12-2008, 10:29 AM
I'm extremely depressed today. I've actually thought about dying again and that scares me.
I'm glad I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow.
No one pay any attention to me right now. I won't hurt myself or anything--I promise.
Can I ignore you after I hug you? :hug:
OK, I lied. I'm not going to ignore you.
Cally -> :hug:
hannah -> :hug:
gingerlee -> :hug:
Sh0t -> :hug: (I just threw that one in there to see if you're paying attention)
stellaforstars
03-12-2008, 10:30 AM
Hugs for EVERYONE!
Hey, where's my hug? I'm going through shit times, too... I'm just not always verbal about it. The military taught me to suck it up. :P
hockeybobby
03-12-2008, 10:31 AM
:hug: Hugs to Scotty and Cally because they're going through such a difficult time right now. And they BOTH deserve happiness.
:hug: Hugs to Hannah because I'm sure she's feeling very alone right now.
:hug: Hugs for everyone, depressed, happy, or otherwise.
Yay I love hugs...hugs for Stella and gingerlee too :hug: :hug:
Go look at the latest pic of me in the Pic Post II thread.
That's the only hugging I do.
I leave the sensitivity to you guys. Get money
The military taught me to suck it up.
They told me I smiled too much
hockeybobby
03-12-2008, 10:32 AM
Hey, where's my hug? I'm going through shit times, too... I'm just not always verbal about it. The military taught me to suck it up. :P
:hug: Just for you Mily
stellaforstars
03-12-2008, 10:32 AM
Hey, where's my hug? I'm going through shit times, too... I'm just not always verbal about it. The military taught me to suck it up. :P
:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:
gingerlee
03-12-2008, 10:35 AM
Now I have the 'warm fuzzies', and that dried up my tears a little bit. Thanks ya'll.
I think I'm gonna eat some of the yogurt I ordered from room service....
Lunarobverse
03-12-2008, 10:36 AM
Hey, where's my hug? I'm going through shit times, too... I'm just not always verbal about it. The military taught me to suck it up. :P
Suck it up, soldier!
OK, I wasn't in the military. Here ya go -> :hug: with some gropage.
Hahahaha! Thanks guys! I seriously love all of ya'll. ;D Oh no... I've actually showed some feelings! :O Hugs for all!
:grouphug:
hannah83
03-12-2008, 10:38 AM
awww i got all happy feeling too. Thanks everyone. (and :hug: to you too Mily! I hope everything is going alright..)
I hear a roomie up and moving about, I might go see if i can get a "real" hug. Kinda needing one
stellaforstars
03-12-2008, 10:54 AM
I'm on the phone with my mom right now and she seriously makes me want to cry. Not because she's mean, but because she's so very comforting to me.
TheTempest
03-12-2008, 10:57 AM
Sooo I went to the doctor today.
He referred me to a neurologist and says it's likely I have A.D.D. and have for a good part of my life.
It sort of makes sense.
I feel like everyone thought I was crazy (they said things like "I don't think you have it", "it can't happen to adults") with a few minor exceptions. I guess I should feel relieved but I'm just still nervous. And it's been so frustrating for me lately.
stellaforstars
03-12-2008, 11:00 AM
:hug:
Hugs for Tempest too. If they can get this pinned down for you, your quality of life will drastically improve. I hope everything resolves itself for you.
Lunarobverse
03-12-2008, 11:01 AM
Tempest:
If I hug you, are you gonna bite me?
...please? ;D
Lunarobverse
03-12-2008, 11:02 AM
Two of my friends/co-workers are out today.
I really hope that my boss doesn't expect me to actually get anything done. Just sayin'.
It's lunch time. Me hungry.
hockeybobby
03-12-2008, 11:04 AM
It just occurred to me that I've never read a post of PanDah's that was uninteresting or stupid or a waste of time...batting a thousand as far as I can tell.
hannah83
03-12-2008, 11:06 AM
I'm hungry too. Doesn't help that I've been watching Top Chef all morning on Bravo. I'm hungry but too effen lazy to get up outta bed. I'm comfy and my bed is soooo damn great. I just don't wanna leave it today.
Anyone wanna bring me food?
gingerlee
03-12-2008, 11:07 AM
I would kill for a hot dog from Dairy Queen right now. They're so bad, but they're so damn good. Oooh, and a Heath Blizzard too. That would be sooooo yummy.
TheTempest
03-12-2008, 11:13 AM
Thanks Stella. I never noticed anything TOO bad before, except that it'd take me a LONG time to do my homework and my teachers always complained I talked too much. But now it's become FRUSTRATING. I hope I can get this taken care of quickly.
BTW, I hope you feel better soon and your Mommy is taking good care of you.
Lunar: Yes. Yes I will. Probably on a bony and painful spot. }:D
To everyone else: Feel better! Cally - be happy! Hannah - stay strong! you did the right thing telling the truth and accepting the repercussions of your mistake!
I lovers you all.
Lady Jade
03-12-2008, 11:14 AM
I have not been able to get comfortable in my chair at work today. WTF? I've sat at this exact desk with this exact chair with every set exactly the same way for almost 2 years with no problems. Why today when I have so much shit to get done?
On a brighter note, I went and got sushi for lunch today since I've been craving it for almost 2 weeks!
TheTempest
03-12-2008, 11:15 AM
I would kill for a hot dog from Dairy Queen right now. They're so bad, but they're so damn good. Oooh, and a Heath Blizzard too. That would be sooooo yummy.
Mmm...blizzard's are soooo good.
Thank goodness I'm full of sushies. :)
TheTempest
03-12-2008, 11:16 AM
On a brighter note, I went and got sushi for lunch today since I've been craving it for almost 2 weeks!
HAHAH! Stop reading my mind - er... stomach?