:'( I just feel sad today . I was watching my daughter read "pat the bunny" and on one page they have a daddy with stubble that you can feel on his face and my daughter was rubbing her cheek against the daddy's cheek . It just made me feel bad about her not having a Daddy in her life . She really likes men but I don't have any in my life right now so ......I am not even sure if thats what is making me so sad today . Sometimes I just want to go to school , get a "regular" job and get married because I think thats what would be best for my daughter BUT then I start thinking about how stressful relationships can be and how dancing right now and getting into featuring I can really provide a good solid life for us . I am so torn between two lifestyles and all I really want is for my baby to grow up happy and healthy . I want her respect too . I just don't know what to do about anything anymore . I know that the last thing I want is to have another bad relationship with some dumb guy who could even do harm to her BUT the idea of a nice house somewhere (anywhere) with a nice husband and MORE babies just seems so far away but nice.......:-\ I guess everyone worries about what the right thing to do is ........I am sorry if I am bringing anyone and I am not even sure what my point is , I just needed to get this out . Hi , I am sad today :(

