Re: i feel lost and lonely
Well, depending on where you are, you could travel to other countries and explore so you don't feel so uninspired (if you're in Europe), or you can wait it out and come home for a bit and think things through on your own turf here in the States. Whatever you do, make sure you do it for YOU and not because it will look a certain way to your man. It's still YOUR life and you need to do what will make you feel happy and fulfilled, even if that means missing your boyfriend for a while.
Re: i feel lost and lonely
I would have place to stay if i went back to the US. But if i did that i would feel like i am betraying my boyfriend because he has done so much. And i don't have any money to travel. I know i should do what makes me feel happy, i have somebody who is going to be my life partner, and he equals into the equation.
Re: i feel lost and lonely
I'm sorry honey, I don't know what to say.
Re: i feel lost and lonely
I think your feelings are very normal considering your circumstance. I left home when I was 22 and moved to Hilton Head with my now ex-husband. I had never been away from home for any lengthy period of time nor had I traveled any at that point in my life. Then it took me about a month to find a job (that's before I start dancing).
I can't imagine being in a place and not even being able to communicate with the people there. Maybe spend your time learning to speak the language so you can get out and meet others.