So the saga comes to an end...
As i have stated before, I am currently living with my ex, because we HAD a lease and I didnt want to fuck him over. Well that lease is up, and have since made plans to move in with 2 girlfriends of mine, one who works me with me at the club and the other who used to. We arent all *tight* or whatnot but I have known both of them for over 5 years and they are good people. One of them I am somewhat close with and the other not at all, so its just kinda odd. Why am I having such a hard time saying goodbye to this place that has caused me nothing but misery for like the last 6 months? Now let me set the record straight here, ITS NOT ABOUT THE EX!!! It about moving out of the house I have lived in for 2 years now, leaving the town i was born in-where all my family lives, moving in with other people where its not MY shit its OUR shit and mostly will be THEIR SHIT since they already have the place all furnished and stuff. Its hard. I dont want to do it. I dont want to be miserable but I dont really want to move either...see staying in this town right now isnt really an option because my license is suspended and god knows how long til I get it back. I live 45-60 minutes from where I work, but once I move in with them I dont have to drive at all! I will just carpool with my friend who works at the same place, and even if I did have to drive its ALL highway and way CLOSER! I am just so nervous about moving and all this fucking change...The douchebag ex doesnt make it any better, telling me to "get the fuck out" everyday and "hurry up and leave"...I told him Oct. 2 that i would be moving within the month....ok so its been a month a couple days....not to mention I had to BUY a effin' car as well...I think i am doing pretty well with my goal date. I was supposed to be actually moving this weekend (as in now) but I worked so much this week that i was FUCKING TIRED! I have been packing but I really just didnt have the energy to MOVE ALL my shit this weekend. Its easy for him to throw stones, he doesnt have to do shit but sit there and watch me leave. I have to actually MOVE all my damn shit which just so everyone knows, is ALOT. Almost everything in this damn place is mine! At least everything BIG! (Of course)
I am just annoyed and kinda sad that I am ending a chapter in my life and am not quite ready to jump into this new one yet....eh well....
C'est la vie!
Re: So the saga comes to an end...
Sounds like he is being a douch. Maybe you can get some friends to come help you move? Or tell him it will go faster if he pitches in? If worse comes to worse you could hire a mover to help. I think you should take a day to relax and rejuvenate then kick your ass into gear and get out of that unhealthy environment. Plan on doing something nice for yourself in your new room in your new place. I always like buying new luxurious linens and decorating my new room. Have faith that you will adjust and be in a better place soon!
Good luck
Re: So the saga comes to an end...
Look at it as a new chapter in your life.
Welcome to your new beginning!!