I'm just crazy. There's no way around it.
When I look in the mirror I usually feel like a crazy person. One day I will look at my body and say to myself, "Wow, you look great! You've got great curves, great skin, great boobs, a great ass..." etc., and then the next day I look in the mirror and I just cry because I look so horrible. I don't actually look any different, but I go through these horrible mood swings because I can't seem to make up my mind about what I think about my body.
Ugh. I'm very hesitant to say that I really have any disorder that's causing me to not see my body objectively... But lately it's been so bad that half the time I look in the mirror I start crying. What's wrong with me?!?!
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Nothing is wrong with you. It is society that puts emphasis on a womans outer beauty. Variety is the spice of life!!!!
I have the same problem, I am very self consious about my posture. I work out a lot but sometimes I feel sooooooooo unsexy when I look in the mirror or when Im around another female who has a bangin body because I feel like I have to compare.
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Lola, you don't have to answer this publicly or even to me, although I will take a look at it with you if you want. When did you first decide, "I am ugly,"?
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I feel the same way. I wanna say it is normal but, i feel like a crazy person too, and it's hard to believe anyone else feels this way. There are nights when I am just not in demand, and those are far outweighed by the nights I keep busy,however I sometimes feel like I must be delusional to think I even belong in a club full of beautiful girls. I can feel sooo pretty one day and the next day when men tell me how hot I am I feel like they are just saying that b/c they know I am not and I can't take them seriously (although I dont show that to them) but it feels like I am the fattest grossest girl in my club. I am on the verge of crying now, so you are certainly not alone.
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I used to do this really badly. It's gotten better with age, but still happens. It's so illogical, but very real.
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Lola, you don't have to answer this publicly or even to me, although I will take a look at it with you if you want. When did you first decide, "I am ugly,"?
I'll answer. 13.
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I do this sometimes. I don't ever think I'm ugly, but sometimes, I'll look in the mirror and pick apart myself. "I'd be prettier if i was blonde again, if my hair was longer, if i was thinner, if my skin was better, if my lashes were longer, if ......"
othertimes, I'll look in the mirror and say, "wow, I look so beautiful today, my hair looks so healthy, my skin looks great, I am really pretty"
I think it has everything to do with my depression level. When I'm feeling happy and excited about life, like i feel most of the time, I feel beautiful. But on the occassional day when feel depressed/sad or sick, I find it harder to love myself and look at my beauty.
I've gone through serious depression, and I felt like the op. I wanted to cry when I looked at myself.I think it could be a symptom of a much bigger issue.
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Hun maybe you're a tad depressed and see your body as not being beautiful right now.
I hate mirrors. I suggest you stop looking in the mirror so much. Mirrors are evil! ;) They make us feel bad when we should feel good. You're not alone believe me! Yell at that damn mirror and say "Fuck you" I'm HOT! Works everytime! Then walk away from it while you swing that hair :)
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Happens to me too.... day to day. Friday night feelin all sexy lookin great. Next day I feel fat and ugly and nothings working tho I look the exact same!
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heh, i do that all the time. and i'm totally crazy, i'm well aware of that. i just assumed that i've always done it cos of my BDD.
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We're women, don't we all feel this way?? I know I do! We all see things wrong with us that honestly, no one else sees. I guess I'm crazy too!
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I'll answer. 13.
Sent you a PM about this. You're very brave, Dottie.
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Hun maybe you're a tad depressed and see your body as not being beautiful right now.
I hate mirrors. I suggest you stop looking in the mirror so much. Mirrors are evil! ;) They make us feel bad when we should feel good. You're not alone believe me! Yell at that damn mirror and say "Fuck you" I'm HOT! Works everytime! Then walk away from it while you swing that hair :)
Hahaha! This totally made me think of
I get down on myself sometimes too. I feel like 'if I just get this surgery, or if I get braces or lose some weight' I'll be pretty. I think what really helps me though is getting out of the SC mentality as often as I can and do things that make me feel good about myself - things that have nothing to do with my appearance.
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I feel the same way. I wanna say it is normal but, i feel like a crazy person too, and it's hard to believe anyone else feels this way. There are nights when I am just not in demand, and those are far outweighed by the nights I keep busy,however I sometimes feel like I must be delusional to think I even belong in a club full of beautiful girls. I can feel sooo pretty one day and the next day when men tell me how hot I am I feel like they are just saying that b/c they know I am not and I can't take them seriously (although I dont show that to them) but it feels like I am the fattest grossest girl in my club. I am on the verge of crying now, so you are certainly not alone.
I feel the same way. I feel like the ugly girl in my club.
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Hahaha! This totally made me think of
this video.
I get down on myself sometimes too. I feel like 'if I just get this surgery, or if I get braces or lose some weight' I'll be pretty. I think what really helps me though is getting out of the SC mentality as often as I can and do things that make me feel good about myself - things that have nothing to do with my appearance.
But there are literally HUNDREDS of strippers with perfect teeth, thin bodies, etc.
Why strive to be one in a crowd?
IMO, what makes a GREAT stripper from a good stripper is the same thing that makes a great anything: PROVIDING VALUE. Provide what only you can as only you can do it.
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AlexxaHex
Hahaha! This totally made me think of
I get down on myself sometimes too. I feel like 'if I just get this surgery, or if I get braces or lose some weight' I'll be pretty. I think what really helps me though is getting out of the SC mentality as often as I can and do things that make me feel good about myself - things that have nothing to do with my appearance.
yep!!!! for me, it's cooking, making cards or scrapbooking, going out to a movie, having a friend over, doing anything creative.... taking walks.
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If you are crazy, I am too. I do this ALL the time(though i have more picking myself apart and wanting to cry days then happy hot ones)
For me ...I suppose it started around 12 or 13 too....when the other girls started to develop and I didnt and was stuck with the nickname "nibs" til college when I escaped(because all I had was nipples until my BA)
I got made fun of a LOT in school...constantly told I was ugly, etc....so it has spiraled from there.
sadly..I feel best about myself when my ED is in full swing and I'm not eating.
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I wish I could say something truly helpful.
I understand how you feel and I know how much it sucks.
For what its worth, I think the girls on SW are some of the most beautiful women I've ever seen. Including the ones who feel inadequate in this thread. And what's so shocking about it is that everyone is as beautiful on the inside as they are externally.
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Not crazy, unless we all are. I do this too. Exactly the same!
I can go to work one night feeling pretty good, wake up the next day to look in the mirror and even though NOTHING has changed I feel huge, gross, fat, squishy, pale and yucky! All over!
It doesn't make sense to me either, but I do know it is way worse when I am getting closer to my period. I have no sympathy for my body around that time apparently.
No, I don't think you're crazy. It feels crazy though. Because I can even tell myself "There's no way you changed from last night to his morning, no way!" but I still feel terrible.
Usually when I start getting like this I try to not look in the mirror too much. It's one of those things that if I let it, I know it could start making me do things I wouldn't want to do.