I had a bad day. I'm visiting my sister, and she's got this cloud of negativity around her, and she was kind of a bitch to me today while we were stoned -- critical and short tempered -- and it just really got to me and now I feel like I have this cloak of ick surrounding me.
I'm already feeling lonely.
Earlier this week I went to visit a close guy friend and we ended up fucking each other's brains out and being crazy romantic about each other...but then he said he doesn't want a relationship. He also said he felt deep down that the feelings between us, at least on his end, were going to be transient. So I was like, OK, we'll just be good friends again. Next night, a hot ass guy hit on me in front of my friend, and he got jealous, and we went back into bf/gf mode. He lives 14 hours away from me though. We both plan to move to the West Coast this summer, but in reality, I guess that's kind of it. I miss him already.
I dunno man, I just need a good fucking hug. It felt so good to have a boy holding me, someone who was a good friend.
Oh, and I ate too much today and I'm bloated and have a tummy ache. :(

