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I don't know where to post this but I think I need serious help
Really :-[ I feel embarrassed to talk about this but I have to let it out. I think I am going insane, seriously. I feel everyone watches me and doesn't like me. I asked my roommate earlier if he had cameras around his house cause I am paranoid of being watched. I go places and feel like people look at me and don't like me, even when I am driving. I am losing it. I don't know what to do. Is there anyone here that can understand what I mean or have I just gone completely crazy? :-\:-[
I just don't have anywhere else to post and don't know what I should do.
I have thought I have turned into a paranoid schizo, my grand dad was a schizo, I don't want to be though :( damn.
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Re: I don't know where to post this but I think I need serious help
How old are you? Any other strange things going on? Hearing things or voices that aren't there?
Any of sound like you?
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I am 24. No voices or anything like that. I do have OCD, panic disorder and severe depression. I don't know. I am scared :(
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Re: I don't know where to post this but I think I need serious help
I don't have advice but I do have {{HUGS}} for you. It will be alright. Whether you are making yourself paranoid from the fear of being schizo or you actually are going schizo, get thee to a doc. That way you can get peace of mind and treatment.
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Are you taking the proper dosage and meds for those disorders?
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Re: I don't know where to post this but I think I need serious help
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Originally Posted by
Peanut_Butter
How old are you? Any other strange things going on? Hearing things or voices that aren't there?
Any of sound like you?
Uh oh, yes that is a lot of the symptoms I a getting :-\
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Originally Posted by
BohemianSiren
There are other mental disorders aside from paranoid schizophrenia that involve delusional thoughts.
Such as anxiety being very severe and stress at maximum levels?
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^yes and yes( to BoSi). DON'T freak yourself out, that will only make it worse. Just take a deep breathe, calm down, and make an appt. with the doctor.
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Originally Posted by
Peanut_Butter
^yes and yes( to BoSi). DON'T freak yourself out, that will only make it worse. Just take a deep breathe, calm down, and make an appt. with the doctor.
Ok, thanks hun. I will do that as soon as possible. :)
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:hug: I'm sorry you're struggling with this. It sucks. I have a lot of the same paranoias actually. I would suggest going to a doctor as well, and keep us updated with how you're feeling. :hug:
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It could be a temporary delusional disorder triggered by the stress you're under right now. Call up a psych., and make an appointment. :hug: I'm sure the prognosis will be fine! :D
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Yeah, go to the doc and have a talk. Don't assume the worst, it really may just be due to severe stress at the moment, etc. Either way....:hug:
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All the advice above is great. Don't assume the worst. Do talk to a doctor. It happens. And it is treatable!
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:grouphug: You are making the first steps to recovery by reaching out and by seeing a doctor. Go you :)
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See a doc - and believe me....you're not alone in this, which is part of what freaks you out - you clearly think you're the only one in the world. Well, you're not. Talk to your doc. They'll put you on something to help even out the chemicals that are making you feel the anxiety. If that doesn't work.....let me know....and i'll throw monkey poo at you. I hear that helps.
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Well you know what they say hun , if your wondering around wondering if your crazy then your are not , crazy people dont think they are crazy babe ......oxox sounds like stress and anxiety to me
When I first saw the movie the Truman show I was like "omg thats how I felt as a kid" .......
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Sweetie you are not crazy. I went through the same traumatizing experience during my early teens.
I became extremely paranoid to the point where I also believed that cameras were hidden in my house. I would even go as far as to look for them. When I walked the street I would notice EVERYBODY looking at me and I believed that they were talking and about me and making fun of me. I became extremely self conscious and very depressed.. to the point where I didn't want to leave the house at times. I also had suicidal tendencies.
I didn't seek any medical attention... but It took five excruciating years of self-healing and finally, nearly loosing my life before I eventually over came my delusional thoughts and depression.
I know now that I was not crazy; I was extremely depressed and suffering from severe anxiety... I just wish that I had realized this back then so that I didn't have to suffer alone.
You have been given great advice and I agree that you should speak to a doctor or therapist as soon as you can... you will be fine :)
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You should keep in mind that even if it IS the worst that you fear, there are treatments available. And people who seek treatment and continue with it can still lead very nice lives. In your grandfather's time they didn't have as many treatment options as they do now.
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123. THese days, they arn't going to give you a lobotomy or electroshock and it's pretty unlikely that they'll give you thorazine, so you're in a much better situation than your grandad.
I know how you feel though, insanity tends to run thick as molasses down my family tree. My great grandmother was flat out insane, my grandmother is about as generally mental as they come, my mom has battled depression and is a certified fish, and I myself have a track record five miles long...I totally know how you feel on the genetic side.
Overall, I suggest you make an appointment with a psych. I'm generally against them, hate their guts, etc. but there's a fair chance you may have a chemical issue in your brain (I find insanity is easier to handle if you think of it biologicly without all the social stigma. You certainly can't help it if there's a chemical imbalance, that's totally not your fault.) that they can help you with. In the mean time, try to think of this as an issue of your "brain," not your "mind," it will take the pressure off a bit.
And remember, if one part of your brain is saying "Oh my god there's a tiger in the corner!" and the other side is saying, "Don't be stupid, it's a chair!" but brain half 1 starts convincing brain half 2 a little too much, you KNOW you have a problem and need help stat.
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I have no advice other than to say what the others have said and that is to try and stay calm and see doctor. :hug:
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I too have a panic disorder and depression, and at my worst point i could not read magazines as i felt the people in them were staring at me and judging me.
Going outside was impossible, i didn't leave the house for 6 months.
DON'T PANIC! I think its quite common in people who have severe anxiety. I went to an anxiety management group and found most of them had experienced a similair thing.
I assume you are seeing a psychologist - if so you should bring it up when you next see them.
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sounds like you have social phobia with your panic disorder, i had the same thing....
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Update to everyone. Thank you so much for your kind and understanding responses. It really makes me feel so much better that I am not the only one that has/feels this way. I haven't been to a doctor yet. I know I need to go. I am just afraid they are going to put me in a mental hospital and I don't feel I need to be in one of those. I just need to calm myself and try in anyway to relieve some of this stress.
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^^^
*hugs*
I have severe anxiety, and I can relate to random delusional thoughts. That is EXTREMELY common in people with bad anxiety. Some of the most common things I experience (and they are common in general amongst the anxiety ridden trust me) is fear that I'm having a heart attack, fear that I've eaten something poisoned, etc. It's not just you. I know these thoughts are stupid but they are still upsetting and sometimes uncontrollable. I know.
I really reccomend the book From Panic To Power by Lucinda Basset. It helped me a lot, and she talks about experiencing those delusional fears.
Trust me I have them too, and thats where your fear of being put in a mental hospital comes from. You will NOT get put in the hospital unless you are going to harm yourself or someone else, which you obviously aren't.
Don't worry and feel free to PM me anytime.
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michele_b
I haven't been to a doctor yet. I know I need to go. I am just afraid they are going to put me in a mental hospital and I don't feel I need to be in one of those. I just need to calm myself and try in anyway to relieve some of this stress.
It took me years to work up the courage to visit the doctor about my depression and anxiety. Nobody there acted like it was any big deal, and the doc even gave me a few samples of medication.
Learning about your options may, by itself, make you feel better.
You are definitely not alone!