I feel like I am going no where
Have you ever thought you would be doing camming for more then 2 years. full time striaght or even part-time striaght.
I got in camming at 18 years old I never thought now at 25 I would be still camming. I almost feel like I am having a midlife crisis over it. how do you keep yourself motivated I am pushing on 7 years of doing this. and becuse of financial circumstances I am not able to go to school to attempt another career.
I know out there , there is a great percentage of people who hate thier job and just do it for the bills but I never thought I would end up as one of those people.
Anyone else feeling the same way feeling that camming is a really bump and grind job.
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Hmmm I can relate on some level, but not really about camming. I felt that way after stripping for almost 10 years and camming/NF/Keen have been my saving grace because they got me the fuck out of the strip club. I could imagine though after 7 years of camming you'd feel the same way about that. I noticed you posted a thread about going back to dancing, and I'll admit that I haven't read it lately so idk if you've done it, but perhaps making a switch would be refreshing to you at this time?
I know I got a little burnt out on camming so I went back to the club and I only lasted 1.5 shifts before walking out without paying my fees or anything... personally going back to the club made me appreciate the ease and comfort of working from home and I automatically had a renewed interest in working online. Have you tried Keen yet? It's pretty decent.
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AngelEyezXYZ
Hmmm I can relate on some level, but not really about camming. I felt that way after stripping for almost 10 years and camming/NF/Keen have been my saving grace because they got me the fuck out of the strip club. I could imagine though after 7 years of camming you'd feel the same way about that. I noticed you posted a thread about going back to dancing, and I'll admit that I haven't read it lately so idk if you've done it, but perhaps making a switch would be refreshing to you at this time?
I know I got a little burnt out on camming so I went back to the club and I only lasted 1.5 shifts before walking out without paying my fees or anything... personally going back to the club made me appreciate the ease and comfort of working from home and I automatically had a renewed interest in working online. Have you tried Keen yet? It's pretty decent.
The only reason I haven't gone back to strip clubs is the cost of the liscence, dj fees, driver fee, getting outfits and heels . No I am not a heel person so I don't have them. I have done niteflirt when I was new online for me to make $1000 a month I was online 20 hours or more the phone would be on while I slept and kept the computer on and did phone with cam, the phone only does not work for me.
I did accept an offer for some call centre job I also been doing the straight job in call centres for like 7 years and I absoultely hate call centre work. so I am not even sure how long I will last in that job. and I have been out of the straight job world for about 1 year half so the whole business casual clothes is not in my wardrobe.
I am beyond burnt out I am full depression, which means back on meds and in treatment at the mental health centre. I dropped off my resume to 2 clubs for waitress job because I doubt the strip clubs are making much money when I hear girls saying they aren't making anything in the clubs.
So I am stuck back doing work I hate. and if escorting wasn't so slow this month I might have a differnet view on things but I haven't had one call for the month of february does not help with the depression you start to think there is something wrong wtih you.
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I'm so sorry ur feeling this way and money has gotten bad for me too. However I think its great that you know so much about camming. Ur posts and camgirl handbook have inspired me to go for it. Maybe a break just to figure things out is the best thing. I hope everything works out and I wish u the best:)
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I'm so sorry ur feeling this way and money has gotten bad for me too. However I think its great that you know so much about camming. Ur posts and camgirl handbook have inspired me to go for it. Maybe a break just to figure things out is the best thing. I hope everything works out and I wish u the best:)
I cna't afford a break, I can't even afford to take my depression treatment full time.
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Im sorry I can totally understand where you are coming from! you know Ive been on tour for three day and I have only had one Client! So I started camming.. I do NOT want to do this forever!! I dont mind escorting.. but I do have a bf and I do feel guilty sometimes, even tho he knows and is OK with it.. I would really love to maybe marry him one day ( ya he is that great!) and I dont know if Ive fucked it up.. I mean he is soo good to me, he helps me with my kids, everything! I love the money when its flowing but I do not like the idea of not making money! My mom and dad dont have college degrees and I REALLY REALLY want to get one.. soo bad, but things keep setting me back, I KNOW Im smart enough, If someone told me to go to school they would pay all my bills I would be a doctor... I know everyones like. thats at least 15 years of school, yea and I would love it! fuck I would be a dc and make at least 100k a year!
Im going to PM about some work my mom did that Im going to try
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I go to online college and it is great for people who don't have a lot of free time. You can log into class when you have time and log out when you want. Some great schools are Kaplan and Northcentral University. :)
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I go to online college and it is great for people who don't have a lot of free time. You can log into class when you have time and log out when you want. Some great schools are Kaplan and Northcentral University. :)
Have you gone to these schools? I've thought alot about online college but its expensive! you would defentley have to get a loan to pay for tuition..
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I think these are typical feelings for someone your age, Minnie. In the mid twenties, we start losing our youthful idealism and the reality check is often very difficult. I was working as a grocery clerk when I was hit by the reality of the world, and it had me depressed for over a year. There was really nothing wrong with my grocery clerk job, I just somehow figured that I'd be onto something different and more glamorous at that stage of my life and not asking people if they have any coupons and "paper or plastic?" Then I realized I worked with people that have been at my exact job for over 20 years, and that really got me depressed.
I know you feel trapped right now, but there usually is a way out if you look hard enough. Since you already do camming work, you could easily move into a career in video production after only 2 years of schooling. Maybe look into learning beauty culture and working for a day spa would be more to your liking. You could even go into fashion design, theater set design, lighting consulting for retail establishments or a variety of other careers based on the things you've learned as a cam artist.
Just start with baby steps to get to your goal. Maybe take a class about going back to school to get you motivated. Or try a career exploration class. Just start moving in the direction you want to go.
Remember, even a journey of 1,000 miles must begin with a single step.
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Thanks everyone,
I decided not to go with the call centre job I got offers, I didn't email them back I changed my mind I figure they would get the hint on monday. I am going back to camming on monday morning instead. I had a treatment session today which was productive, we figured out alot in an assesment, which part of threapy is for me and now and sampling a new SSRI.
Thank god for free health care. I don't have to worry about that I can just focus on goal setting. I thought about getting in couselling trainning, and psychothreapy probably presure sex threapy or midwifery I havent yet decided cause my main goal now isfinancial stability and debt freedom.
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Right now I go to University of Phoenix online which sucks and is way too expensive so I don't recommend it. I am transferring to Northcentral in a few months for my bachelors and they are very affordable. :)
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Have you gone to these schools? I've thought alot about online college but its expensive! you would defentley have to get a loan to pay for tuition..
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thanks.. I know Phx is verrryyy expensive, but I think they were like the first to do online classes.. anyways.. good luck with the new school!
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:-*:-* HUUUGGGSSSS!!! Im sorry ur feeling this way Minnie. Hang in there girl. Also you may feel stuck right now, but don't worry. We ALL feel like this sometimes. I just had to fix my alternator for my car, I am not dancing or camming(which i didn't have the patience for).And because of this car issue I have been sitting in my rented room restless and broke. I need to make my 450 rent, my 180 phone bill and to top it off i have to buy my plane ticket(250 roundtrip) and hotel(65-125 a night for 2 nights) to go to Tampa to see Nakita. I wanted a change in my life. Tired of the clubs in my area and blah blah blah. I realized if I wanted change I had to do something different. So its an investment that i cant really afford right now. But I think its a valuable step for my lifes' direction. We all want to be financially secure and happy with what we are doing for our money. Even if we are scared, if its worth a new direction in life that you feel you should be going, then we gotta take that unknown plunge.
*Also* i smoke green everyday for my anxiety issues. Especially at this time! It helps me think clearer if Im having issues. Being calm and carving out ur correct path...
I wish you peace Minnie.