Nervous about returning to dancing
Hi girls, I haven't been in here for a while. I love coming here and I hope everyone has been doing well.
I'm nervous and I've stalled about auditioning at a club, mostly because a part of me feels like I'm fat and I suck.
1. Not sure if I'm going to be that good at it. If I do this I want to be a performance artist like Annie Sprinkle and also a feminist writer. I will have to work my ass off to consider myself an artist. I only know two simple pole tricks for example and I'm out of shape. I'm also black and black women aren't as marketable.
2. I went to Duke and there is a lot of pressure from family, friends, and also from myself to do something that would use my brainpower more. I think that my family and friends are a bunch of nerds and that some people are jealous of me and are deliberately trying to prevent me from having fun. But some part of me feels like I wouldn't make that much money as a stripper and a writer and that therefore maybe I should try to get a PhD.
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Hey!
I'm in a similar position - finishing up a master's degree and applying to doctoral programs. I danced during my undergrad and I really miss it. I'm nervous and excited about returning. Why not try dancing and writing for a while? You can always continue dancing while in a doctoral program, also :)
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Thanks Tampadancer!
This is really great advice!
I'm excited to get started.:)
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Wait, so have you stripped in the past or not? I'm confused.
edit: oh ok, looks like you have, sorry!
Bottom line: do what you want to do and what feels right to you.
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You've done it before, so just try and get that feeling back form when you used to strip. Everyone is their own harshest critic, so I bet you're still pretty hot. Walk into that club like you own it and you'd be doing the club a favour by working there. Good luck!
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I was nervous too. Once you get up there and remember that you really do know what you're doing, you'll be fine. Promise.
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I left the club for almost a year, and when I came back I was more nervous than I was when I first started. You'll be fine...it's kinda like riding a bike...
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Originally Posted by
LilSweetVixen
Hi girls, I haven't been in here for a while. I love coming here and I hope everyone has been doing well.
I'm nervous and I've stalled about auditioning at a club, mostly because a part of me feels like I'm fat and I suck.
1. Not sure if I'm going to be that good at it. If I do this I want to be a performance artist like Annie Sprinkle and also a feminist writer. I will have to work my ass off to consider myself an artist. I only know two simple pole tricks for example and I'm out of shape. I'm also black and black women aren't as marketable.
2. I went to Duke and there is a lot of pressure from family, friends, and also from myself to do something that would use my brainpower more. I think that my family and friends are a bunch of nerds and that some people are jealous of me and are deliberately trying to prevent me from having fun. But some part of me feels like I wouldn't make that much money as a stripper and a writer and that therefore maybe I should try to get a PhD.
Similar story and I say do what YOU want. My family and their social circle would give up the ghost if they knew I was dancing. But I really like it and the flexibility it brings, among other things.
As a black woman, things are harder BUT(!), I have learned to appreciate it. Because it made me and continues to make me a better dancer than if things were as easier. Be that black dancer that the clubs WANT so you can bank in that niche.
If you feel out of shape, then what better way than dancing to tone you back up? ;)
And if you don't end up liking going back, then you don't have to. That's what's so lovely about dancing, you aren't bound to the club. They won't chase you down and sue you if you don't show up, lol imagine :P
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I am in the same boat as the OP. I haven't danced for about a year and a half. I am a excited/nervous about getting on stage, but besides that, I feel ready to go back.
Oh, wait, the hours are crazy. 11- 6am!
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I'm thinking about dancing too but I don't want to end up spending long hours in the club if it's not going to be worth my time. I was also wondering if anyone who's decided to go back if you've noticed the economy affecting your income??
I'd rather spend time more productively i.e. camming, when I can just log off whenever I please.
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i just started back this week, and it's harder than i was expecting. there's a good money potential at this club, and everyone is soooo nice. but the two shifts i've worked so far, i just totally sucked. my stage sucked (i was never great, but i was better than this). i'm scared to talk to custies, even though they seem to get pretty nice ones there. i really need to loosen up. oh, and my shoes totally killed me. got blisters on my big toes. ouch. wasn't expecting that.
i was only gone for 6 months, but i had also spent my last year or so at my old club really apathetic and miserable. so i guess it's more like a year and a half away. i wish i'd looked to find a new club instead of sticking to that whorehouse. that was so stupid. the custies there were mostly such jerks, it really knocked me off my game, and now i've actually got to work to get my confidence back.
going in tonight again, and i'm so nervous. right now, i'm just trying to get enough together to pay bills. then, i'm getting new shoes and outfits, maybe a tanning package. i've been tanning at the beach, but it's too time consuming.
i do suck, and i think i'm fat, even though i lost weight since last year when it was the highest. i'm far from in shape. but i've gotten a lot of compliments, and they seem pretty happy to have me working there, so i guess i can't look too bad, huh?
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she sells... clean out your PM box! I have been trying to message u! :)
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JayATee
I was nervous too. Once you get up there and remember that you really do know what you're doing, you'll be fine. Promise.
agreed.
I know that I haven't danced in at least three months and I miss it. :'( Although, I won't lie & say that I'm not nervous. I am. I don't know why though. I know a bit about what I'd be doing and what goes on. Retardation & pussy-ness runs in the family I guess....haha! I want to go back and use it as a second job. It'd be a good thing to supplement my income with. I don't know...I feel overweight even though I've lost weight. I am still thick and curvy. Not a heffer, but I am no size 6 hottie. I think the only things that save me are personality, face, tits, legs, and ass. my midsection is thick..curvy & hourglass-ish..but..thick...so..ugh. haha! :-X
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