Re: Starting Over. And Over.
Honestly I think if you are feeling suicidal you should put your life and your health first and get hospitalized. Take a break from work and focus on yourself and getting better.
Re: Starting Over. And Over.
1. Making friends as you get older is not hard if you are confident. Which I'm guessing will come from ur therapy. I have more friends now then I ever have had at 29. I am not friends with anyone from the town I grew up in. So it's not a lifelong build up.. I literally met all the friends I have now in the last 5 years. Thing about making friendships is people always wait for someone to invite them somewhere or call them. If I like someone I make dates for us to hang put or invite people to events.
2. Ruined? Probably not. Even if the person let's you back in they will probably never trust you again. But if u do make changes you may find these are not the types of people you will want in your new life anyway.
3. I would go to the hospital. If there's any question in ur mind then you probably would benefit from it.
Re: Starting Over. And Over.
I know this sounds fucktarded but another thing that sounds scary about the hospital is the group setting. I don't want everyone to know about my escorting past/present and I know I will probably have to talk about it in treatment. Is that a silly concern?
Re: Starting Over. And Over.
^ I don't think you should let what other people think hold you back. This is about making you get better. Right now you need to focus on making yourself a happy and healthy person and relationships will be easier after that. Besides I wouldn't be surprised to find out that other people there have worse demons than that.
Re: Starting Over. And Over.
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Vivianna
I know this sounds fucktarded but another thing that sounds scary about the hospital is the group setting. I don't want everyone to know about my escorting past/present and I know I will probably have to talk about it in treatment. Is that a silly concern?
Trust me, it's not that far out. It's very typical for sufferers of BPD, Bi-polar and other disorders to act out sexually. You are on an emotional rollercoaster ride and sometimes you lose control of yourself. You can benefit immensely from therapy and recover. There's www.bpdfamily.com and http://www.outofthefog.net/index.html these sites provide insight and support for people grappling with personality disorders in their relationships.