Originally Posted by
audrey_k
I'm getting a little out of control with my drinking at work :-[ it's not good. I drank so much tonight that I was SO nauseous at the end of the night, luckily I ended up making a lot of money before our rush-hour because I spent most of it lying down on a couch trying not to vomit. One of the DJs, who's known me for years, has told me the last couple times that I seem weird and asked me if I was drunk... not good. I was drunk, of course. And I worked last Monday and fell down in my heels twice and everyone noticed....
I just feel like I can't dance sober sober, I just can't do it. I'm tired and I'm so fucking annoyed dealing with these assholes, my club is just so DIRTY and it's not that I'm getting drunk so I can do extras or something, but I feel like I have to be drunk not to get totally frustrated with being propositioned and grabbed and man-handled all night. I just feel like it puts me in a better, fun mood, I'm more of the party-girl that these guys want when I've had a few drinks. I have more confidence and I'm more flirty, my club is full-contact so I do have to grind and stick my boobs in their face and when I'm drunk I can imagine I'm somewhere else and get more into it. I make a LOT more money when I'm drinking... I don't know if it's that I can't dance sober or I can't dance at my club sober?
But I work SO much these last few weeks that it's gotten to the point where I am drinking 5/6 nights a week and I worry about the effect that that's having on my physical and mental health :-\