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I'm back! And I still love camming even if other people think it's "wrong"
Hello my fellow lovely webcam models! I just wanted to say hello after I took an unexpected month and a half long break from camming.
So I wanted to and tried to quit camming due to some stupid outside pressure I've been feeling. See, I recently got baptized into a church and they are VERY anti-pornography so they pressured me to quit. I thought I'd be okay with it. However, I miss camming too much. I honestly don't see anything wrong with this occupation and this is certainly the fastest way for me to achieve my financial goals (that I would be comfortable with, anyway) so why not? So I have to cam in secret, but that's cool. My family, friends, and guy know I cam and they're all okay with it; I'm not going to let religious fanatics prevent me from doing something profitable that I enjoy doing. I love the church, but I also love my job, and I'm not going to choose one over the other.
This morning I cammed on SM for the first time since April and I made a whopping $6.14 in the hour I was on before I finally gave up. Ouch! Lol, but I know it will be slow to get back to what I was earning before I left, and that's okay. I hadn't been reading SW while I was gone but from browsing around today I see I may not be the only one in the same boat. I look forward to camming on the other two sites I'm on and getting back into the swing of things slowly but surely.
So I guess the moral of this thread is, I am really, really happy to be back. Even if it means I am a "harlot" or a "ho," I don't care. No one is going to take care of you but YOU, and if you enjoy camming as much as I do, don't let anyone or anything stand in the way of you achieving your goals. And that's my moral of the day! Now go out there and make that money ;)
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Re: I'm back! And I still love camming even if other people think it's "wrong"
Good for you girly! God and Jesus still love you I promise =)
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Originally Posted by
CourtneyRaine
No one is going to take care of you but YOU
100% truth
If the church is so concerned that camming is "immoral" *eyeroll* they should give you money instead.lol But honestly who cares if you're not doing anything illegal and taking care of yourself.
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Originally Posted by
FloraBell
Your church family can be a very important, fulfilling part of your life, but they ARE NOT entitled to be privy to EVERY part of your life. You can be a good Christian and still be a sex worker. You can be a good Christian without disclosing everything about your private life. You can be a good Christian without agreeing with everything your church preaches.
This is the ONE thing that bothers me about my church (LDS). If you want to be allowed to go to the temple, you have to sit down with the bishop and answer *very* invasive questions about your private life in order to ensure that you are "worthy" for a temple recommend. Bishop will ask even teenagers point blank: "Are you masturbating?" It's... a little off. I was told I would not be allowed to be baptized if I did not stop camming because I would be breaking the law of chastity. I agreed, but I think I secretly knew deep down I'd be back.
The funny thing is, this same church expects a tithe of 10% GROSS income, which clearly I can't provide if I'm making 0 income. So if they want their money I'm just gonna have to be a ho :)
But in all seriousness, I absolutely agree that you can have very strong morals and ethics and still be a sex worker. Why do people get so hung up about porn and cams anyway? If I was in a relationship and my guy was feeling unfulfilled I would MUCH rather him watch a cam show than go have an affair. Hell, I am in a long distance relationship and I know he watches cams and porn, and it makes me feel good in a way because if he's getting his nut online he's not tempted to cheat with some skank out there in his town. In that regard, I think camming is a good thing! Also, when I do taboo roleplays like incest, pedo, rape, etc. I actually feel like I am doing a public service. I think to myself, I would MUCH rather this guy get satisfaction from me in a safe environment than God forbid actually go out and act on his urges with someone who doesn't give their consent. Maybe I am just making excuses but from the time I started doing phone sex almost 7 years ago to now camming full time for a living, I have heard SO many sick and twisted fantasies and it makes me feel good that men (and women too, I suppose) can come to me for acceptance and satisfaction and not feel like a complete freak show. Why should I feel bad about that?
That's just my $0.02 but if someone wants to call me immoral for camming, I will wave my slut flag proudly!
[Side note: I may cam, but I haven't kissed a guy or even held a guy's hand in 10 months, yet I know for a fact there are unmarried couples in my church dry humping every chance they can get. And yet I'm the one they want to call out? Smdh.]
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GOOD FOR YOU! I still have not told anyone besides my husband and a other website. I have No dea how my family will react....
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Originally Posted by
CourtneyRaine
The funny thing is, this same church expects a tithe of 10% GROSS income, which clearly I can't provide if I'm making 0 income. So if they want their money I'm just gonna have to be a ho :)
But in all seriousness, I absolutely agree that you can have very strong morals and ethics and still be a sex worker.
That's just my $0.02 but if someone wants to call me immoral for camming, I will wave my slut flag proudly!
Love your post! I may quote part of the last one on my twitter!
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gypsyroseBBW
GOOD FOR YOU! I still have not told anyone besides my husband and a other website. I have No dea how my family will react....
Girl, don't be afraid to reveal what you're doing. The only reason I am hiding this from my church is because if they find out they won't allow me to go to temple or receive the sacrament every week, and those are things that make me feel good spiritually and I don't want to give them up. So, I guess I have something to lose by being honest with them. As far as your family and friends, if you've got nothing to lose, what harm can come of it? If they love you they won't judge you, and I promise you will feel Great not having to lie all the time :)
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thank you! I think I will start telling the when I start making more. I am not making much at all right now. I am new to it all and a BBW to top it off.
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Originally Posted by
CourtneyRaine
Girl, don't be afraid to reveal what you're doing. The only reason I am hiding this from my church is because if they find out they won't allow me to go to temple or receive the sacrament every week, and those are things that make me feel good spiritually and I don't want to give them up. So, I guess I have something to lose by being honest with them. As far as your family and friends, if you've got nothing to lose, what harm can come of it? If they love you they won't judge you, and I promise you will feel Great not having to lie all the time :)
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Welcome back!!
I don't think that doing porn or camming means that you can't be moral, ethical, or a good christian. In the same way that you can be a bad christian, or an immoral person in any job, you can also be a good person in any job.
And as you have pointed out, having disposable income allows you to give to charity, and give to the church. In fact, having a job that you are happy doing generally means that you will be a happier, more productive member of society - calmer, kinder, more willing to help others. If leaving camming meant that you were stuck in a job that you hated, you would be more likely to be miserable, and take it out on others.....which isn't exactly what the church wants!
Keep doing what you love, and following your religion however you choose....as one of my favorite quotes points out:
God will understand. If he does not, then he is not God, and we need not worry.
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This makes me want to start my own church, The Church of Whores, or something along the lines. Mary Magdalene was whore, and Jesus loved her! So we are sinners, don't we too deserve to be forgiven? How about this, pray everyday after camming... repent for your sins, and then get on with your day. I love the church and everything it represents, but it is a hypocritical breeding grounds for injustice.
Don't sweat it! Create your own temple in your place and give praise to whomever or whatever you worship. Prayer and faith doesn't need to be confined to the walls of the church.
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AF camgirl
This makes me want to start my own church, The Church of Whores, or something along the lines. Mary Magdalene was whore, and Jesus loved her! So we are sinners, don't we too deserve to be forgiven? How about this, pray everyday after camming... repent for your sins, and then get on with your day. I love the church and everything it represents, but it is a hypocritical breeding grounds for injustice.
Don't sweat it! Create your own temple in your place and give praise to whomever or whatever you worship. Prayer and faith doesn't need to be confined to the walls of the church.
LMAOOOO that was funny....The church of whores
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I will say this. I personaly would find another church. A church should make NO ONE feel unwanted. I have been to MANY churches to check them out (I am wiccan but had friends and family there) Some of the pastors told the congrigation after I left they were NOT ALLOWED to talk to me. Others dont get pushy at all and are filled with the sweetest people in the world. There is one I donate to often even though I am not part of it because I like the people.
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have you ever looked into ether methodist churches or Unitarian universilists?
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"To no form of religion is woman indebted for one impulse of freedom."
-Susan B.Anthony
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The best thing I ever did was leave the LDS church when I was 16. Most of them in my experience were judgmental and just pure hateful. Especially towards gays and black people. Oh, and they think their "holier" than everyone else, and they like to try to "save" people. I really don't know why you'd want to be a part of a church that makes you feel like shit. Well, I kind of understand ... they're very manipulative.
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Welcome back I always enjoyed your posts
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FloraBell
Welcome back to camming! Keep spreading the legs, the love and the joy!!!! :-)
This is awesome!!!
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The only person that you really need to talk about this to is God. Not the church or other people. Be honest with God about everything, who you are what you want. God does love you no matter what. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. He will guide you. One thing I learned is that I need to remove the plank out of my own eye so I can see clearly to help take the sliver out of another persons eye. Not to focus on what other people are doing wrong. We all do wrong, and the key is to be honest with God instead of hiding.
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AF camgirl
This makes me want to start my own church, The Church of Whores, or something along the lines...
How about this, pray everyday after camming... repent for your sins, and then get on with your day.
LMFAO @The Church of Whores. Hah, I needed that lol today :D
The thing is, I do not feel like camming is "sinning" at all, even though my religion says it is. I'm sure a lot of people who don't know anything about it have some crazy notions of what we do and who we are but the bottom line is, I actually think that porn/camming can be very healthy if not abused, both for the consumer as well as the performer.
@Sammii, it's crazy to meet a (former) LDS girl on here! If your family/friends are still in the Church I'd be curious to hear what they think of your job if they know about it.
Yes, I do feel like some members in my ward are VERY condescending and judgemental. I also feel like some of them are the most amazingly beautiful people I've ever met. For me it's the same with the principles. There is some doctrine that I absolutely agree with, and some things I honestly think are complete bull. I just kind of take what resonates and let go of the rest. Probably makes me a "bad" person, but I'm happy and I'm not hurting anyone so that's the main thing.
Ladies, thank you So much for being so supportive of me! I've never had to hide my camming from anyone before; it is great that I can come on here to get advice, unwind, and be part of such a great community.
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Glad I could lift your spirits! Just make sure your have a grand relationship with your God. He loves you no matter what you do!
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Originally Posted by
CourtneyRaine
Hello my fellow lovely webcam models! I just wanted to say hello after I took an unexpected month and a half long break from camming.
So I wanted to and tried to quit camming due to some stupid outside pressure I've been feeling. See, I recently got baptized into a church and they are VERY anti-pornography so they pressured me to quit. I thought I'd be okay with it. However, I miss camming too much. I honestly don't see anything wrong with this occupation and this is certainly the fastest way for me to achieve my financial goals (that I would be comfortable with, anyway) so why not? So I have to cam in secret, but that's cool. My family, friends, and guy know I cam and they're all okay with it; I'm not going to let religious fanatics prevent me from doing something profitable that I enjoy doing. I love the church, but I also love my job, and I'm not going to choose one over the other.
This morning I cammed on SM for the first time since April and I made a whopping $6.14 in the hour I was on before I finally gave up. Ouch! Lol, but I know it will be slow to get back to what I was earning before I left, and that's okay. I hadn't been reading SW while I was gone but from browsing around today I see I may not be the only one in the same boat. I look forward to camming on the other two sites I'm on and getting back into the swing of things slowly but surely.
So I guess the moral of this thread is, I am really, really happy to be back. Even if it means I am a "harlot" or a "ho," I don't care. No one is going to take care of you but YOU, and if you enjoy camming as much as I do, don't let anyone or anything stand in the way of you achieving your goals. And that's my moral of the day! Now go out there and make that money ;)
Congrats on getting back to webcaming. I was considering not webcaming anymore until today.
Just to let you know you are not alone. Today I force to go back to my aunt's house since my family discover I was webcamming on my graduation day. Today again, my family force me to show them my MFC accounts even though I didn't want to. I was degraded for 2hours called slut, whore, disgusting, I was force to pay $300 for the air conditioner in the house my mom paid for. My family put me down for webcamming but they have no problem taking my money just like they did to my mom when she was committing medicare fraud and they took hundreds of thousands. I know a lot of people would have left but in my situation it is alittle complicated although I am planning to leave in exactly 1 week. Luckily I have a new payneer card and my aunt is predictable when she goes to bed, get up so I plan to use her computer to earn some more money before payday since they took my laptop. But I won't allow anyone to stop me doing what I want to do. At first it may seem easier to let others people dictate but at the end you become unhappy and unfulfilled. Welcome back!
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Originally Posted by
CourtneyRaine
LMFAO @The Church of Whores. Hah, I needed that lol today :D
The thing is, I do not feel like camming is "sinning" at all, even though my religion says it is. I'm sure a lot of people who don't know anything about it have some crazy notions of what we do and who we are but the bottom line is, I actually think that porn/camming can be very healthy if not abused, both for the consumer as well as the performer.
@Sammii, it's crazy to meet a (former) LDS girl on here! If your family/friends are still in the Church I'd be curious to hear what they think of your job if they know about it.
Yes, I do feel like some members in my ward are VERY condescending and judgemental. I also feel like some of them are the most amazingly beautiful people I've ever met. For me it's the same with the principles. There is some doctrine that I absolutely agree with, and some things I honestly think are complete bull. I just kind of take what resonates and let go of the rest. Probably makes me a "bad" person, but I'm happy and I'm not hurting anyone so that's the main thing.
Ladies, thank you So much for being so supportive of me! I've never had to hide my camming from anyone before; it is great that I can come on here to get advice, unwind, and be part of such a great community.
Only my boyfriend knows and he isn't LDS. I'm really surprised you told the church. When I went, I wouldn't even admit to the bishop that I drank coffee, LOL.
I'm just kind of bitter by how I've been treated by some of them and how some of them act. You're right that there are some amazing members ... I remember when my little brother had a possibly fatal disease, members of the church were bringing my family dinner every night and babysitting my little sister and taking care of my dog when we had to be at the hospital. They had church fasts multiple times for my brother. Even my dad who doesn't usually like LDS people said to my mom "I've never seen a group of people band together and help someone like the LDS church helped (my brothers name)." The one thing I respect about them is they're always willing to go out of their way and help someone. They really helped my family (and still are) and I can't thank them enough.
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@Sammii Yeah, I told the missionaries because they'd come over for lessons at all hours of the day/evening and I'd always be home, so they wondered how I was supporting myself out of curiosity. I have no problem with disclosing that I am a webcam model, but had I known at the time it would have been such a HUGE deal I may have been more vague about what I do.
@AvaLove that is some messed up ish! What in the hell right do they have to talk to you like that? Oh, they don't want you going on cam because it is "degrading," but it's perfectly acceptable for them to degrade you for hours over it? #twistedlogic
When my guy used to try to pull that "it's so wrong that you're a webcam model, I feel so inferior because I can't land a job, don't work babe just spend all your free time with me" crap my momma is the one who had to set him straight. She says, and I agree, that as long as you are not out there doing anything illegal and you're not hurting anyone then you do what you gotta do to pay the bills and can't nobody make you feel bad about it. Oh, is it more acceptable to let someone else pay your way, like family and/or public assistance? They would rather you NOT work for what you want and need even though you are more than capable of providing for yourself on your own terms? Once again, #twistedlogic
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I'm normally pretty accepting and tolerant of all religions but due to some of my fundamentalist in-laws, I have to admit I've grown angry and I have to hold my tongue a lot. My in-laws are nice people but the way they live their lives just seems so miserable. My mother-in-law doesn't act like a wife, she acts like a servant, and her husband pretty much makes ALL the decisions regardless of how she feels, because he's the head of the household. They told my 4-year-old son that no, there is absolutely no life on other planets because the Bible says so (this REALLY pissed me off). I went to one of their Bible studies a while ago and had to stomach a discussion about how AWFUL women's lib and feminism is. They played a sermon while they were staying at my house a few weeks ago and the message was basically "You are a miserable, horrible piece of shit scum of the earth and God hates you. You will never stop sinning and you better hope God takes mercy on you because you deserve to burn in hell forever." (I'm not joking.)
Now my in-laws are extreme and they're kind of like Calvinists, and I would hope the group you're affiliated with isn't so harsh Courtney. I really hope you don't listen to ANYONE who tries to guilt-trip you into thinking you're a terrible person because of camming or anything else you do. My husband has unfortunately fallen prey to horrible guilt-tripping from his family and from the Bible. AND they don't even know we cam! They'd probably disown us if they found out, lol. I've noticed my in-laws and a lot of other Christians LOVE to ignore Christ's overall message of love and tolerance, and instead choose to focus on the fire-and-brimstone, judge-everyone-who-is-different stuff.