Originally Posted by
RavenWaters
thank you for responding.
she has a negative view of it.
but i do know she loves me & wants whats best for me.
its not an emotional knee jerk, its something ive been thinking of for years.
i feel like she has this idea of who she wants my brother & i to be.
& she wants to blab our entire life to her friends proudly. ( i dont understand why she just cant blab but leave the stripping tid bit out lol)
& that causes me not to talk her in depth about my life...because i dont want her friends in on my life , idk them.
but her having this idea of who we should be as her children....anything we do that doesn't fall in line is wrong, unacceptable etc.
as if her idea on how we should live is the only way.
as if we should want what she wants for our lives.
dont get me wrong i am going to school & getting a good education as she wishes.
thats something i want for myself too.
but once i handle that, let me live the rest of my life!!! im already pleasing your wishes!! stop controlling me!!!!!!!!
ive waited my whole life since i was little to be a young adult... to make my own money & be responsible....she just wants me to live my life according to her.
in a straight jacket. ~_~ & be 30 still living at home, answering to her & having her in allll aspects of my life.
she's gonna be home in less than an hr....part two of our convo hopefully comes.
Plopplop i feel you totally hit the nail on the head & youre right i will work to keep a good relationship with her...
i just want her to let me be myself....