Getting back up on my grind
I've had a period of bad health and been through a very LTR breakdown at the end of last year, I think I last cammed in October, My life has changed completely, I had a mental breakdown and got very depressed, I'm thinking of starting to cam again this month, but I've got that awful dread many get with periods of cam inactivity. I honestly don't know if I'm ready yet. I stopped because I felt that with everything going on I was in a too vulnerable position to be subjecting myself to the stresses of camming. I don't really know why I'm doing this thread, maybe to feel a bit of solidarity with people who know what it's like, I've tried talking to my counsellor about it, but she doesn't really get it. She doesn't see how guys trying to scam you and are predictable in calling you a whore can be hilarious at times. I feel motivated and as I'm living with my parents again will have to cam from a friends, but that's totally cool, the only thing that's really bothering me is 'is it too soon?' One only knows once they try. This is difficult, there is a lot of 'what if's' :\
Re: Getting back up on my grind
I was not able to cam for 6 months due to health issues.
I am still not feeling 100% and was very nervous about getting on cam. The hardest part for me was the anticipation, once I forced myself to get ready and actually started my show it wasn't nearly as bad as I expected and I wasn't nervous at all.
Just get ready and tell yourself you will give it 30 minutes and if it's to hard you can log out.
Good luck
Re: Getting back up on my grind
I just returned to camming after almost a year of not doing so. Its really rough to get back to it but my advice is just get on! I was so nervous coming back into it but once I got over the initial fear I'm glad I did. I understand not being in the mindset too. I recently just went through a rough breakup again from my on again off again ex, but honestly camming again has made me feel less depressed over it if that makes sense. I guess maybe the attention and all the 'your so beautiful s' combined with the fact that I feel in position of power over men 'Yeah give me your money jerks' has made me feel pretty good. Maybe not the most rational feelings lol but its helped me from sliding too far into depressed land.
Try a little at a time, no need to jump right on and do a 4 hour shift. Try it out for a bit and see how you feel. Your mental health is the most important thing. But I think once you get over the initial anxiety you'll be okay. Good luck and welcome back!
Re: Getting back up on my grind
Re: Getting back up on my grind
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ShortyGetLo
I've had a period of bad health and been through a very LTR breakdown at the end of last year, I think I last cammed in October, My life has changed completely, I had a mental breakdown and got very depressed, I'm thinking of starting to cam again this month, but I've got that awful dread many get with periods of cam inactivity. I honestly don't know if I'm ready yet. I stopped because I felt that with everything going on I was in a too vulnerable position to be subjecting myself to the stresses of camming. I don't really know why I'm doing this thread, maybe to feel a bit of solidarity with people who know what it's like, I've tried talking to my counsellor about it, but she doesn't really get it. She doesn't see how guys trying to scam you and are predictable in calling you a whore can be hilarious at times. I feel motivated and as I'm living with my parents again will have to cam from a friends, but that's totally cool, the only thing that's really bothering me is 'is it too soon?' One only knows once they try. This is difficult, there is a lot of 'what if's' :\
I totally get you..this past year, especially the past 6 mo. were a living hell, I went thru a lot, & have some resulting trauma from it I agree w/trying short shifts. Get as much rest as you can, take care of yourself. If you're not ready, you're not ready. Give yourself as much time/leeway as you can.
Re: Getting back up on my grind
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Yeah, the only way I'm going to know is by doing it. The whole of last year was rough, I'm kinda still recovering, I might work some next week, depends though because my friends flat I was going to cam from might be unavailable because he's getting laid. I'm kinda wanting to give him a smack and go BITCH I NEED TO EARN MONEY! I can't cam from my parents. This whole thing is so irritating because I actually love camming and want to do it, I just have to man up!