Things are starting to not add up for me here. I'm not trying to offend you, perhaps your story simply isn't coming across well over the internet. I'm just seeing what appear to be big truthy red flags.
You're in school for a degree in the medical field. As Sarah mentioned, studying for that degree will keep one away from home nearly all day. My roommate in college was studying to be a respiratory therapist as well, and she was gone 8 am to 6 pm 4 days a week, just for classes. When she got home she did homework until 9 pm. Yet you stay home all day every day with your babies?
You're in an above high school level education path, but your posts here don't have the kind of grammar and punctuation skills I'd expect from someone going through college.
Your husband has a good job that pays for all the bills. He is, however, insisting that y'all not pay an 800 dollar medical bill you got. So you have a high deductible or no medical insurance or he's not good with money or something. This "good" job he has could disappear at any time?
Your husband is controlling and won't let you have any money but you found $700 somewhere to pay for camming supplies*. You say that you have investments, but you're only 24. Where did you come up with the money to invest? How were you able to get at it? I'm only a dabbler in investing, but I can't really think of much that someone who isn't a trust fund baby would have access to at 24.
Giving you the benefit of the doubt and leaving information for future readers of this thread as well, I'll re-state what has been said in earlier posts. You should not cam.
First, the financial goals you have are realistic, but in your situation, just enough at the borderline so as to potentially not be met.
- As mentioned earlier in the thread, camming isn't the same game it was in 2009 so I'm not sure what you're expecting you'll have to do to get by. I started camming somewhere around there, 2008, 2009. My FIRST DAY, using wi-fi and a shitty built-in mac webcam I made $200 an hour and I was flying high. Even then I did penetration and dildos. The market is getting saturated with girls and content. I don't have the personality for MFC or the patience to build my cam score there so I keep to pvt-based sites. Admittedly, this caps my earnings. These days I consider myself lucky when I make half of what I did in 2009 and it feels like a grind to get it. Don't get me started on how hard gold shows have become even over the year they've been introduced.
- With school, a husband, small children and real life, you've got a lot of time constraints. I've just got a man creature, grad school, two pets and real life and I have a VERY hard time carving out enough time to cam (and do marketing for said camming).
- I don't even have to worry about keeping my activity to certain hours so that babies don't walk in on mommy and get "scarred for life."
- You know what sucks about having little time to cam? Sometimes it just doesn't seem worth it to spend a half hour on your makeup to cam for an hour. Then you think of how shitty it's been lately and how you'd really rather be watching Project Runway or snuggling with someone you love and....wow it's really hard to get on cam then.
- The motivation can be really hard to find during the best of times, and when you're trying to decide on using that one remaining hour and a half to cam or to sweep the floor that hasn't been swept in 3 ....oh shit no um...4, 4? can't be 5, surely.. and when was the last time I did laundry...I think I've run out of panties...weeks, camming might not win.
- Even when you have the time and the motivation, you might not be able. I couldn't cam for a whole week when I got a UTI. Some girls work through it but...guh, ouch.
- Income in camming these days is really inconsistent. Everyone and their mother is camming these days. It takes time to build your name, brand, and regulars. During this time it can be really frustrating. There are seasonal peaks and dips, of course, but there are also weekly peaks and dips. The last four days I've made an average of: 47/hr, 78/hr, 126/hr, 32/hr <-legit want-to-cry time there.
- Taxes. You're not really making 100/hr net. It's 100/hr gross. I've been modeling long enough to know better, but at the end of the year I still owe money. Always. No matter how much I think I'm putting away, the money I end up with seems like just enough to pay the bills and not enough to save "extra" for taxes.
Second.
Every pink word following is a link to a thread where someone is talking about being outed or having been outed or asking if being outed is a possibility.
You're going into the medical field!
You're going into the medical field! I'll say it again, because it bears repeating.
You're going into the medical field!
"Will I be outed?" Maybe. Probably. Eventually. Be prepared for it.
"Will being outed negatively impact my career?" Depends on what you do. If you do anything where you have to sign a morality clause, have ethical standards of activity, or work with children don't even think about it.
And here's
one thread that says you can do whatever, even after being outed.
Lastly, have you thought about going to marriage counseling? It seems like you and your husband are just not on the same page about anything and are seriously not communicating. Return the stuff to Amazon and use that 700 bucks to
find a good relationship counselor and work on your marriage. If not for you, and not for him, for your babies.
I'm pretty much doing a 180 on what I said in your previous thread, but with these new details come to light, I must change my mind.
*I was going to take issue with the idea that Amazon sells dildos, but apparently they do. Huh. Ain't that some shit.