Undies and monies. That sums it up pretty nicely. :)
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Recently, the amount of people who are meant to love me and their attitudes about it are keeping me going.
Because fuck them, that's why. It really shows who loves and respects you no matter what, and who's love and respect is conditional.
It keeps me going because you have to be strong to keep doing it, and because it really filters out the bullshit people in your life.
Because i've never had a better job in my life and i love the financial freedom, i haven't seriously worried about money in a long time and my whole life ive always felt like an independent person even though in the past ppl in my life have held me back but now i can really say im I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T!!! :D
What Keeps me camming, especially during this brutal summer slump, is when I look out my window to the street below, and see all the homeless men and women living out in the harsh elements, begging for a crumb.:scared: I'm realizing that I'm always one paycheck away from being homeless, and It gives me incentive to jump back on cam, and know that things will turn around.:smiley_ki
I was homeless for a few months a few years ago while I was in college. I was also raised in an upper middle class family and when I moved out with one parent, and with the next for a solid 6 months, we were homeless. My parent was told it wasn't necessary by my family members to put me in that situation but we stuck it out anyway, they got an awesome job, and life was great again.
When I was in college a few years ago I was in a new state, no friends, etc. The school didn't have a program to help students who were trying to survive in between school pay checks and being the prideful person that I am, I chose to live in a few shelters for 2 months instead of ask for help. I remember taking a sociology class and the books were saying that children raised in poverty have a very likely chance of being impoverished in adulthood. I didn't like the sound of that and I made a promise to myself that from here on out I would do whatever it took (legally) to keep myself from that statistic. I've always been extremely driven with my ideas and I finally decided to bank on them.
Also, I just went through an extremely rough time with my husband who was abusing legal substances. We've made it past that (Thank God!) but in the process he lost his career and also my security. In a few short weeks I no longer will have health insurance and free medical, free housing, discounts, and things like that.
Now, I have a small adult business, I have a very lucrative (but new) vanilla business, and I cam occasionally on the side when necessary. Adult work, as stigmatic as it is, has helped me financially and I know that as long as there are horny men out there, I can make money off of their sexual curiosities and fantasies.
When times get rough, I simply remember that I can only go up from here. If there's a way to make money, you better believe I'm going to milk it until it's dry. It's pure survival. I don't want to be left without a sense of security ever again. When you lose everything, especially more than once, you tend to be cautious, but fearless at the same time. You become a go-getter because you know at this point you can't depend on anyone but yourself. Even though my husband is clean now, things can change in the future and I like knowing that I can just pick up and go if I need to.
Well Said KK! I buy food gift cards at least once a week, and give them to a homeless person. I feel it gives them dignity to just be able to walk into the grocery store, and use the card, rather than ....
I wish I could do it everyday. There are still lots of people misplaced because of Super Storm Sandi. They have jobs, but not enough money to get another place to live, mostly because they have children.