I have 'issues' for me camming is awesome because........
I'll start.
I'm antisocial, it helps me to be able to earn a living. With severe depression constantly biting at my ass I can log on anytime and potentially earn whenever I feel better.
ETA: I know we have a camming rocks thread but wanted to make a thread for gals who deal with other issues. I suffer from PTSD, etc..... Not trying to take from an already great thread.
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I also have severe PTSD. I don't take any meds for it, so staying home and camming seems to be the best choice for me now. When I can afford to move out of the city, I'm going to, so I won't have to leave my place to do private party dancing anymore. I'm really getting burnt out on doing both, just to survive the high cost of crowded city living.
My ears feel like they are bleeding from all of the constant noise, which doesn't help.
With camming, I can be quiet.
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I have a myarrid of physical health problems and I am also legally insane. These two things have limited my job opportunities to the point that camming is pretty much the only job I've ever been able to keep.
It never ceases to amuses me when I admit to being legally insane in threads on the forum. Someone will always PM me in utter confusion saying 'You are legally insane? How is that even possible? You are so intelligent!'
As if my intelligence was somehow the cure to madness instead of a cause of it. ;)
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It makes perfect sense to shut down. I have a mixed bag of feelings when It comes to my family. I have done so much for the ones who are alive, yet I never get even a Thank You because I am always seen as the outcast because I dance.
The only time I feel safe, is when I am asleep.
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I have borderline personality disorder and severe anxiety. It makes life and relationships difficult and jobs nearly impossible - but not camming.
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I have BDD. It's an avenue for me to have a reason to get "prettied up" for the day, and I can feel better if I am feeling down (although, sometimes I feel worse if my makeup isn't right or I just don't like how I look that day).
I am anti-social, and shy most of the time. I don't talk to people out in public on my own, i'd rather just keep to myself. I suppose this is a way for me to be more social...although, sometimes I don't see the point if I am talking to fucking douchebag cam customers all day.
I'd rather be a hermit and stay in doors, and avoid people most of the time. Going outside means being harassed by men MOST of the time. I'd rather they harass me online while I take their money. Lol.
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For me camming was and is a life saver, i dont get along easily with people, i consider i am too intelligent for many of my ex colleagues in my ex vanilla jobs, i have high expectations from people and too high financial expectations from jobs that will never pay as much as i expect/ need, i hate to deal with douches and i dont like ignorant people (my country is full of them lol, ex communist system, people stuck in the past with old ideas and habits, u name it).
I think i am a bit lazy too, dont like to sweat working, i wish i could live like a princess and never work haha!!
I am too straight forward type of a person and i mostly tell what i think and feel, this can get un-comfy for others. I just dont know to manipulate people and i still dont know to manipulate men online, maybe if i had this talent i could bank actually.
My intelligence is above my social status (family included) and i find myself in a place i dont belong to. Unfortunately i dont have the studies to be able to change things here.
I am adopted and dont know who i really am, maybe i have blue blood hahaa (i wish). Joking!
Edited to add: i have issues with taking orders, i hate my dad therefore i hate authority especially from male bosses, i have PTS from my fucked up childhood and some other events in my life, i have trust issues and issues with my looks and all kind of feelings and health problems that makes normal jobs difficult for me.
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I have bad anxiety and issues with male bosses/coworkers. I have depression and most likely Ptsd-yet to be determined lol Camming works for me cuz I dont have to commit or clock in. If I get worked up over anything I can just turn it off and still be at home safe and comfy. I dont like dealing with customers and forced to stay for a set amount of hours. Regular jobs were ok for about a year but by then I would have write ups built up and if I didnt leave then I was fired either way they dont last mostly due to arrogant male workers. I like feeling in control of my life even while dealing with my "issues". My family isnt there for me and they dont even know what I do yet. Im the black sheep and so camming fits me : )
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every job i had....I got sexually harassed, then I would go bat shit crazy. So I quit...and i found dancing... then i got sexually harassed doing that. Camming as saved my girly bits... and I can make as much as I want. I CAN work when i want. I can take a week off. I am powerful... while those other bitches (past coworkers) make way less than I do. Suck it bitches because you pay me. Muahahahahah. oh?
and im not afraid to be a ruthless bitch anymore. :D
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On camera, I'm super nice and energetic and happy. It DOES put me in a better mood even though I dread going on somethings ^-^
After my mom died, I lost myself on ways to make me happy. I could sit and stare at the wall for hours upon hours. I became addicted to gambling drugs as a way to forget about the crappy things that have happened.
Now, I use camming as my addiction. It's a way for me to forget about the worst situations I've been in. I don't use anymore (other then coffee, teehee), and haven't gambled in over 7 months. Plus, I'm much more financially stable even though I'm still broke.
Thank you camming!!!!
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There are a few reasons. Anxiety is definitely one of them. It's caused a lot of problems for me in the past. When un-medicated, (like I am now, we are still waiting for my husband to get insurance), I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't mind working as long as I don't have to deal with other people, which is impossible because I only have experience in customer service. It's much easier to handle difficult people on cam. If they are rude or made me feel anxious, BAN! When I worked at a call center, it's not like I could hang up on rude or difficult customers. I'd have to sit there and be talked down to and called names, sometimes for an hour or more... and even be pleasant back to them! I'd also have to try and make small talk or co-workers would obsess about me being a quiet person that never talks (which would just make me MORE anxious). I don't know why people always harass me and make a big deal about me being quiet, but it seriously doesn't help. It's not like I don't answer when people talk to me, I just don't like starting conversations until I feel more comfortable and settled in (which can take me 6 months or so). You girls are pretty much my co-workers, and you're much easier to get along with. And those that are not, there is an ignore button. :)
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I have depression (possibly bipolar II?) and anxiety and the meds I take make me tired right now because I just had them upped due to severe breakthrough depression. I've always had issues trying to work with anxiety and mood disorders. I go through periods of being extremely high functioning but also periods of being asleep 18-20 hours a day. The flexibility of this job is amazing. I do have a vanilla job as well, which I also do from home over the Internet. I do have appointments with clients for that job, but I only work with people for 2 hours max at a time and I'm in a teaching role in which I have control over what happens.
I also think I am instant gratification oriented (probably related to my mood issues) so being able to see how much money I'm making as I'm making it really keeps me motivated. I start to feel very frustrated and existentially troubled at most jobs.
I'm in academia and there are so few tenure track positions in my field that it's a fucking joke. I've been working on doctorate apps for months and am starting to feel like jumping ship and taking the LSAT. I will probably keep camming until I (fucking hopefully) can get a tenured position either now (I do have a terminal degree) or after doing a doctorate or other position in which I'm respected and valued enough to have a flexible schedule and make enough money.
I tried working in marketing in an office environment and on top of the difficult I had showing up every day for 8-10+ hours I felt consistently disrespected by men. I was the only woman in my office (and made the least money!) and these guys were sexist assholes. I also dealt constantly with misogyny in interactions with clients. If someone is sexist in my room on MFC they are banned instantly. If someone is going to objectify me while I'm working I WILL be paid for it. It's appropriate in the context of camming to objectify the model so it can play out in a way that feels emotionally safe and ethically fine.
Hope this makes sense, super tired and overworked!!!!!'
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I have PTSD. It makes functioning like a normal adult ... difficult sometimes. Add in a pretty fucked up sleep schedule, an addictive personality, chronic anxiety, and possibly ADHD (the official verdict is that there's no way of knowing what's intrinsically wrong with me with my PTSD affecting everything I do/feel) and working a normal job can feel impossible. Oh, and I used to be eating disordered, if anyone ever really stops being eating disordered.
Camming is amazing. I can log on whenever I want and make money. If I feel like working at 8 AM like a normal person, I can. If I feel like working for 2 hours at 3 AM like a fucking freak, I can. I don't have to be physically exposed to other people so it makes saying no to drugs or drama a no-brainer. I can basically just chill in my room until someone takes me private, it's kind of like having a talk show haha. My eating disorder stopped being a major issue a few months before I started camming but camming really helps keep it in check... having all these guys constantly talking up how perfect my body is, and especially seeing it on cam... Not to toot my own horn (lol) but I look like a fucking movie star on cam. Which doesn't solve the emotional/control issues involved in my ED but I've already got those in check.
It's not the perfect job, it has some major drawbacks re: my mental health as well (mostly how it doesn't force me to act like a normal person haha, tbh I was happiest with coworkers to interact with and a boss to ride my ass), but nothing's perfect. And nothing provides as much flexibility and earning potential as camming does. :)
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Between my thyroid problems, depression and being a misanthrope, I fucking love camming. It lets me be a bit social with those who's personalities I can handle while being paid for it. At the same time, when my meds are not at the right dosage or my thyroid has kicked back into overdrive and I'm exhausted after only being awake two or three hours, I don't have to hop online if I really don't need to.
It lets me earn money at my own pace, rather than minimum wage(which sucks when you have student loans out the wazoo) where I would be stuck with bitchy, rude and ignorant people. I couldn't handle an office environment before now, but I think I'd jump off a bridge if I had to deal with them now on a regular basis. However. camming I think has made me hate men so more. Complements mean nothing to me because men are just trying to see me naked or get something from me. Of course, when I won't give it to them for free, I magically become a bitch or a cunt. Pfft. When I get hit on at the post office or at the store, I want to beat them because I don't want to hear it. I'm shopping or getting the mail, go fuck yourself because I want to take care of my errands and go back to being a bitch hermit. I think if I ever got divorced, I'd avoid men all together, as he is the only man aside from my brothers that doesn't make me crazier.
Nevertheless, the positives definitely outweigh the negatives. I'm so much less passive now and will stand up for myself. I know that no matter what happens, I will forever be happy that I did this for a living because it has made me a better person in various ways and I appreciate the awesome people around me for being great and less stupid than the general populace.
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foxxyredd33
I wish I could thank this a thousand times! It hurts terribly, I empathize. My close family died and I reacted terribly. I shut down. Shut down completely. I still cry and it's horrible! I never ever had a great family, but they were mine. If that makes any sense. With camming I can be me.
ETA: I know I'm not the only one who has lost people but it certainly helps knowing I'm not alone.
You"are not alone doll,Hugg!
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I so feel you. I was laid off in April from my 9-5 and just started back camming again regularly. Its so sad that I fantasize of a life where I never have to leave my apartment just cam, work out, get groceries and videogames delivered. With streammate and amazon I would be the worlds sexiest shut in lol.
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^^That's funny! "The World's Sexiest Shut-in!" So true! I look more put-together getting the mail, or emptying trash, than any shut-in I've ever seen!
Has anyone seen the movie-'MENTAL' ? It's with Toni Collette, shot in Australia. Made me think of all of us in this thread. (in a good way),supporting each other.:seesaw: