Aw no way! All of our problems are important, no matter how different! I just hope SM picks back up soon before we all lose our minds lol. Thank you for reaching, I really needed that <3
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CB was actually okay for me. Everyone was really nice and understanding (when they weren't perving) and I actually got my first tip within like 5 mins. That's a record haha.
I want to get back on MFC too, but I'm trying to do it one step at a time... I want my anxiety to settle down a little just trying to get on CB for 20 minutes a day.
My camscore sucks everytime i get on too, don't worry LOL.
I'm actually better with token sites (well, I feel like I am), because I really love being the center of attention, entertaining people, and making them feel good about themselves. Like a best buddy that lets you see their tits, basically haha.
I am joining the sick girls camming club. I have a terrible rash from doing an oil show last week. The worst part of the rash is now under my left boob and on my left inner thigh. I want to get back on cam Monday, but fear I guys will find me repulsive like this. I don't know what to do or when this stupid rash is gonna go away. Its very aggrivating and it itches and its downright fucking ugly. I wonder if I could find make up to cover it.....I don't know that I can cam like this...should I just be patient and wait for it to go away or jump back on cam and try to hide it and do non nude stuff....which I've never done.....
I hate to be off cam for more than a week because I fear losing my regulars and placement. Not to mention the loss of income that I so desperately need. So that just gives me more anxiety besides wondering if my skin will ever return to normal.
Do not use any cosmetics on your rash!It will only get worse.I know it sucks,I've been worse dealing with hives for over a month but there is nothing to do about it but wait and try to calm down.Avoid hot water,shower gel,body lotions and take care of your diet.Keep on pills and wait.Also I hope you bought hydrocortisone cream for itch like I advised you in your thread because itching makes you more stressed and that would help you.
Yes your skin will return to normal ,you said only boobs and thighs are affected,well I had hives ALL OVER MY BODY and that is worse than a rash and my skin returned to normal.You won't lose your regs nor placement in a week,the more stressed you are the worse it will get.Calm down.
Thanks for your support ladies. This has never happend to me before. I'm trying to calm down. I got some lye soap and I'm going to try the baking soda tonight. I was prescribed a topical cortosoid cream too.
I feel you.I KNOW it's not easy but hang in there.Everything will be fine.The rash from oil was my first time too,I thought it was awful ,but one year later got damn hives.That was hell.
Last week i had swollen eyelids for a few days ,allergies suck no matter what form and it's worse when they stop us from doing our job.Hugs.
Empathy and encouragement? I've only been able to cam like, five days since June because of very strange emerging health problems. This whole summer I've had a constellation of symptoms; back pain, neck pain, difficulty breathing, muscle spasms in my neck and throat, headache, awful fatigue, depression, confusion and mental fuzziness. Some days symptoms worse than other days and they seem to come and go without warning or cause. It's super frustrating because I can feel fine, even really good, and think "cool, I'll cam/do chores/finish projects after [whatever task I'm working on]" and then BAM, flattened by some symptom out of the blue. Scarier, they're slowly getting worse. Doctors have run ALL KINDS of tests on me (my arms are black and blue from so many blood tests. I half think the custies think I'm shooting up) and none of the tests have yielded anything substantial.
By the end of the day after school and my internship I'm totally exhausted. The last two weeks I've not had a single day where I wasn't in pain. This week I've started forcing myself to cam anyway because between not working and the constant doctor visits and medical tests I'm broke as shit. Between not having been on all summer and the guys being able to tell I'm tired (God. They're like sharks with blood in the water, aren't they?) I'm not making good money. I'm frustrated, angry, worried and above all else, tired. "Defeated" keeps echoing through my head. I feel defeated by, well, everything.
And it's taking up my whole mental capacity, but I can't really talk to anyone about it. People in my "real life" generally don't want to hear about someone else's weird, intricate and depressing health problems. The guys on cam CERTAINLY don't want to know, sure way to kill my business even more than it is now.
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The hardest thing about having a chronic illness when you haven't been sick like that before is learning 'extreme self-care' which is something that is usually a foreign idea to pretty much everyone (and something I still struggle with). Extreme self-care means you need to devote time to make your health a priority on your to-do list. Things like allowing yourself to completely rest and do nothing if only for 10 minutes, learning how to pace, making sure that you are eating nutritionally enough, basically giving yourself enough R&R that you body has time to de-stress and heal.
You are probably thinking to yourself, "My life is too busy, I don't have time for rest and relaxation' but thus comes the trick to it all. If you don't schedule yourself R&R time then your body will force you to take that time anyway....so it is much better to do it on your terms.
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For the cronic pain the best is low doses naltrexone. Is magic!
Does anyone know a home remedy for swollen eyelids?Except cucumber and ice...
To mention ,I had a reaction to eyelashes glue ,taking antihistamines but will last a few days ...It`s not super swollen but visible and annoying to me ,I feel like I have the eyes of a frog when my eyelids get swollen damn it.
I told you all before how I was sick and had anxiety for years. I knew it wasn't just all in my head like so many doctors claimed. I went to see an Endocrinologist and after many tests I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's disease in July. It explains so much like the anxiety and random weight gain. So happy to finally know what the hell is wrong with me. I'm posting this because I know some of you were in the same boat, not knowing what you really suffer from. If you can afford an Endocrinologist I highly recommend it.
Now I have to change my diet and lose 12 pounds but I can do it.
Is good that you found out.I have anxiety and some of the symptoms could be caused by thyroid ,I saw an endocrinologist back in may and my thyroid is fine.I didnt know if to be happy or sad ,I was kind of hoping my symptoms to be caused by some physical thing and not be only anxiety because a physical illness (usually)can be treated faster while anxiety...oh well,we all know it's a long way.
I just read a few pages of this and I'm sorry for all you're struggling with :(. I have health problems and one part of the reason it's getting to me at the moment is stress about money and also trying to appear fine to customers. I was made redundant from my full time job because of the health problems (I don't want to list them on here). But ppl on cam will say... oh your life must be great, so much fun, all this stuff - I try to bite my tongue (is this the best thing to do) but I slip sometimes with them. Before this I was doing 12 hours shifts trying to make ends meet... then they say things like I shoudl buy some new underwear...I have one pair of jeans, I have an empty flat there are other priorities right now, my bills, everything is expensive... now worry about money on top of that...
All of my physical injuries were from one bad accident many years ago, I wish it had never happened, that's life...
I portray this person always giggling and smiling and having fun... truth being my life has been horrible 2015... has been awful
I sometimes just want to tell them the truth, try to live on what I have been living on you watch every single tiny bit of money ... I hope camming brings me out of this hole. I have already reduced my overdraft limit so I'm happy about that.
You want to tell the truth to whom pink? To ur members? If so, just DONT, they dont care sweetie, all they want is a hot woman to wank over, they come to us to relax and feel good not to get to really know us, when they claim they want, is just not true, they want our sexy side, nothing else.
I am sorry for u struggling with life issues & health issues, just know u not alone, many of us are in situations that make our lives and work harder including myself. None of my members know i am in pain most of the time & i barely can perform sometimes (back issues), when i get on cam i enter 'work mode', i put a large smile on my face, is not fake by the way, is natural but induced, i try to ignore the pain & do my thing, when i cant stand it anymore i log off & get rest, it's all i can do if i want to continue functioning.
Yes, the stress about making the needed money is real, when u have health issues & u know u the only bread winner in the house it's just hard cause u wanna know u have enough for basic needs, bills & all expenses NOT KNOWING if tomorrow u'll be able to make money again.
Dont listen to what people tell u about buying new underwear, believe me i have tons of underwear & they dont appreciate what i have, they wanna see me modelling my body in my hot stuff all for free haha, yeah right. Not buying new stuff anymore here.
Do what i do sweetie, if ur life is hard, make a fake one for the camera, just pretend, make them believe ur life is fabulous & u healthy, happy & u have all u need, THEY DONT NEED TO KNOW more than u willing to tell. Good luck there xxx
Thank you so much for your post - you're right. It's also easier for me if I don't mention it to them I think.
I'm sorry to hear about your back :(. It sounds difficult xxx
You mention rest... I've realised I went crazy and worked I think all days but one this past month. So maybe why I feel a bit tired. Maybe I take today off :)
It still could be an illness, just not a thyroid problem. I know someone with terrible anxiety and it turned out she had Celiac disease. You can also have anxiety from stomach or intestinal issues. So many illnesses have anxiety as a symptom and its a pain to have to suffer while you search for the real root of the problem.
I do have some stomach issues but no doc put my anxiety into that.Other than that,a bronchitis and nothing else found.I don't know...after a lot of investigations I came to the conclusion that it's all from my head,although I dont understand how this hit me or why.I have terrible anxiety and panic but I know it could be worse than that.I changed my therapist recently and I do CBT ,hoping it will help.I never been on medication except some natural stuff and I really don't want to go on medication.But if CBT won't "fix" me,I might consider...Some days is hard to get thru all of this especially when you have no idea what caused it and why you feel the way you do ,that's why I said is good for you that you have more info now about what was causing your anxiety .I wish I found what's causing mine.
I understand. My anxiety started one day and never went away. I started having massive panic attacks and honestly thought I was going insane. I had to go on meds because after four months I was getting a bit agoraphobic. I do CBT and it really is a help, much better than meds in my opinion. I really hope it helps you and you do find out the source. Even if it is just straight up anxiety it still has a root cause.
I don't wanna post in Camming Sucks so I'm here. I am just so tired, drained. I can't muster motivation or energy to do anything productive at the moment. And my sites are all dead dead dead. Which isn't helping my attitude. I know I need to take responsibility and change things to make more money. My back is aching. Maybe it's my period and that's why I'm so blaaaaaaaah. IDK. I'm supposed to go out tomorrow (nothing to wear) and I'm going away next weekend (broke as shit) but I tell myself I NEED to go out tomorrow and go away next weekend because I need to get out of my head/my room and socialize. So I can come back to camming refreshed, because sitting here staring at computer screens isn't helping. idkkkkkkkkkk. thanks for listening.
Damn fatigue.It's so late and I didn't do shit today.I just can't move.Why am I so exhausted when I did NOTHING?Anxiety most probably.Making a coffee and see if I can drag my ass on cam .If coffee doesn't work,then I don't know what's left to try.Shit,I feel so tired :(
I'm starting to think I have fibromyalgia or something.
I noticed yesterday that I'm in a lot of pain and I get instantly tired when my anxiety is really consuming, but in a dull, mentally numbing way.
Physically, doing anything, even lying down hurts. I don't want to be touched or anything.
I have a temp solution for part of my anxiety: FUCK STREAMATE.
My anxiety flares up the worst when I worry about the technical status of SM, and looking up the SM thread here just encourages it.
I'm going to talk to my doctor about medication that can help me with anxiety, pain, sleep, or a combination of something because I've literally just turned into an irritable potato.
Tired of it.
Also, my night terrors have come back. I only get them when I try napping during the day, since I only sleep 3-4 hours at night... And since I'm afraid of having night terrors, I refuse to sleep until it's late enough.
I'm so sleep deprived, people have been asking me if I'm even speaking English when I talk.
I just slew out words and curse a lot if I can even think of a curse word.
Is anyone taking meds for anxiety?
I was on klonopin. It was okay, but I need something that's more fast acting.. I think. The onset of pain or whatever during my peak of anxiety is really unbearable.
Setting a doctor's appointment asap this morning and hopefully I can figure out something today.
For now, I'm just going to face my fears and get on friggin' token sites; my worst enemy, but probably will bloom on them if I can get over insecurity and overall anxiety.