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What does your burnout look like?
I just got off a much needed break, and noticed that all my burnout cycles have the same progression. I'm curious how burnout goes for everyone else.
(And if you don't ever get burnout, what your routine to prevent it is :) )
*ahem* In timeline format:
- 2 weeks before: Have multiple bad $$$ shifts in a row. Contemplate switching clubs. Decide to ride it out. Bad $$ shifts are almost always my "trigger".
- 1 week before: Literally every customer in the building makes me physically nauseous. Drastically lower my goals to newbie levels and hope for more stage time so I can make $$ without actually approaching any of the fuckwads on the floor. Even if the club has picked back up, spend LOTS of time in the dressing room. Probably succumb to dressing room bitchfests with other dancers. Start going in every single day in attempt to make up lost $$ (0/10, do not recommend).
- That day: Moment of "I can't fucking do this anymore"; walk off the floor without paying house fee (usually in an effort to prevent myself from wanting to go back to that club out of familiarity). "Wooo the world is my oyster, cya later -insert club name-", jam out on drive home. Super happy, fun, relieved all night.
- Days 1-3: Despise men of any sort. Contemplate what straight jobs I should apply for. Sleep, take my sweet ass time doing anything... But mostly enjoy not feeling guilty for not being at work, cause hey! I don't have a place of work anymore!
- Day 4: Panic. "What if I don't get a straight job? What if I need to go dance again and nobody will hire me and I walked out of my home club?"
- Days 5-6: Actually apply for straight jobs. Be optimistic. "This salary works out to... $1700/month? Sure I can be comfortable on that, done it before."
- Day 7: Get offered straight job. Run numbers. Realize that no, I cannot live on $1700/month and not be a grouchy bitch.. especially when that is 160 hours of work. Open stripper earnings log; remember that a bad, pulling-teeth sort of dancing shift is 3x the hourly the straight job pays... and no schedule... and no boss... and *remembers all positives*
- Day 8: Get bored of being in the house all day. Do hair and makeup, go outside, practice stripper-mode on unsuspecting civilian men; remember how fun (and profitable) they can be to mess with.
- Days 9-10: Read Hustle Hut, sales books, buy new outfits, research what clubs to audition at. Stripper is back!
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Mine goes similar to yours...always triggered by poor earnings..exasperated by shitty customers..I end up announcing I'm done and go home just to be broke in a few days and needing to go back. Buying outfits always gets me back in the mood to work, fighting with my husband usually makes me want to work too.
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Mine's the same, but I take two weeks to myself and never consider getting a vanilla job, I know I'd be much more miserable. I actually consider camming more and more these days, I love sex work. I just pamper the shit out of myself and read about LOA and get myself back into a positive mental attitude until I know I'm gonna be top ho again.
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I'm actually in a burnout cycle myself. It's either triggered by club drama or getting into a pain cycle. I'll try to work through the pain and ignore it, which makes it worse and harder to ignore, until I'm either insanely grouchy due to sleep deprivation or just can't ignore it anymore. This one is due to both.
My remedy is either to figure out how to work around the club drama and have some extended playtime with my ferrets or to actually take my pain medication, at it's correct dose, spend a day or two resting and have some heavy ferret time.
For some reason, watching ferrets play, having them crawling onto my shoulders and hopping around just make me happy. Being able to afford to take care of them (and the cats. Can't forget the cats!) and having the time to play with them is one of the reasons why I dance.
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kirakonstantin
I'm actually in a burnout cycle myself. It's either triggered by club drama or getting into a pain cycle. I'll try to work through the pain and ignore it, which makes it worse and harder to ignore, until I'm either insanely grouchy due to sleep deprivation or just can't ignore it anymore. This one is due to both.
My remedy is either to figure out how to work around the club drama and have some extended playtime with my ferrets or to actually take my pain medication, at it's correct dose, spend a day or two resting and have some heavy ferret time.
For some reason, watching ferrets play, having them crawling onto my shoulders and hopping around just make me happy. Being able to afford to take care of them (and the cats. Can't forget the cats!) and having the time to play with them is one of the reasons why I dance.
Lol I dance to take care of my ferrets too.
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skripper
Lol I dance to take care of my ferrets too.
Yay! Another ferrent! I do as much rescue as I can and most of my animals are special needs. One ferret is deaf, so he needs more training and involved play. Two were abused and are fear biters, so they need a lot of handling and positive reinforcement. Another ferret has adrenal disease. The medication was $300, plus a vet visit every month. We're hoping he can have surgery this summer, which isn't cheap.
I have a 15 year old cat with severe arthritis due to abuse suffered as a kitten. My 9 month old kitten has digestive issues and needs special food. My 8 year old cat was abused, neglected and eventually abandoned, so she has separation issues and needs a lot of attention.
I have one ferret that doesn't have major health or behavioral issues. He was just too stinking cute and we fell in love with eachother in 2 seconds.
So, being able to work part time and make serious money is mandatory for me. An extended period of burnout could mean going without a doctor visit to monitor some health concerns that I have. It could mean blowing off my yearly cancer checkup. It could mean eating Banquet tv dinners, as opposed to healthy, natural food. I have to be extremely careful to take time away if I'm starting to wear out. My fur kids will never go without. Ever. But, I have to make sure there's something left over for me too.
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Ferrent? Lol! That shit is funny...girl I was being sarcastic about the ferrets..but it's super cute that you're a ferrent. They should be your avatar
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Every word that comes out of a customer's mouth irritates me.
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skripper
Ferrent? Lol! That shit is funny...girl I was being sarcastic about the ferrets..but it's super cute that you're a ferrent. They should be your avatar
So, making fun of a burned out stripper serves what purpose for you? We're all here for support, not to be ridiculed.
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kirakonstantin
Yay! Another ferrent! I do as much rescue as I can and most of my animals are special needs. One ferret is deaf, so he needs more training and involved play. Two were abused and are fear biters, so they need a lot of handling and positive reinforcement. Another ferret has adrenal disease. The medication was $300, plus a vet visit every month. We're hoping he can have surgery this summer, which isn't cheap.
I have a 15 year old cat with severe arthritis due to abuse suffered as a kitten. My 9 month old kitten has digestive issues and needs special food. My 8 year old cat was abused, neglected and eventually abandoned, so she has separation issues and needs a lot of attention.
I have one ferret that doesn't have major health or behavioral issues. He was just too stinking cute and we fell in love with eachother in 2 seconds.
So, being able to work part time and make serious money is mandatory for me. An extended period of burnout could mean going without a doctor visit to monitor some health concerns that I have. It could mean blowing off my yearly cancer checkup. It could mean eating Banquet tv dinners, as opposed to healthy, natural food. I have to be extremely careful to take time away if I'm starting to wear out. My fur kids will never go without. Ever. But, I have to make sure there's something left over for me too.
I have so much respect for people who make their pets a top priority. I wish every pet owner were as responsible as you. You're awesome! :highfive:
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My burnout is triggered by being top earner and then having a bad night. It's a performance anxiety thing, I guess. I start worrying that I've reached the "end of my career" (whatever that means) and that I'll never sell another VIP and that I'll have to start relying on my boyfriend for money f o r e v e r and that I'll spend all my time reliving the glory days like some Grey Gardens-style weirdo.
Then I put tons of pressure on myself to be the best at everything, and I'll freak out over little things, like only selling one dance instead of 5. By then I'm fully burnt out and I'm so stressed that I'm earning a fraction of what I normally do, even if the club is packed with prime customers.
It sucks how burnout can be 95% psychological. I'd be very interested to learn how pro athletes deal with this type of stress.
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-My burnout cycle runs in 6-9 month time periods. I feel happy/excited when I start at a new club. Because I'm happy, the $$ flows pretty freely.
-Then I start recognizing the dancers whom I don't like working with due to their negative vibes/ drinking/ drama starting bullshit.
-I start to avoid the neg-dancers and just do my thing. Income levels out to an acceptable level, but not as good as when the cycle began.
-I begin cutting my hours around the 5-6 month mark. I show up late, ask to go home early and skip shifts.
-I begin taking the first couple of weeks of the month off because I just can't be bothered.
-Bills are due, so I drag my ass into the club with the rest of dancers trying to make rent.
-Then I just quit and sit around at home for a while trying to figure out what to do for income.
-Customers start sending messages, wondering what happened to me. I make a schedule of 4 days, show up for 1.
-Eventually I just stop going in. Take several months off, live off my credit cards, sell my belongings on eBay, do anything but dance.
My longest break from the industry was 3 years. I eventually get over my burnout and go back. Sometimes it takes longer than others. Generally, working a vanilla job for several months is enough to get me back on the pole.
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Just feeling over it and only showing up to work to scowl and be angry with people. Yep aka the parts of dancing I don't miss
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kaninchen
I have so much respect for people who make their pets a top priority. I wish every pet owner were as responsible as you. You're awesome! :highfive:
Despite desperately wanting them, for some unknown reason, I can't have children. So, I rescue animals instead. They're the only family I'm ever going to have.
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Does anyone else play weird little games when they come back? Like, my brain is doing stuff like this: "Ok I'll just go in and make $100", leave with an easy goal met, so then I'm ready to go back the next day and do "Ok I'll just go in and make $130". I'll leave after 2 hours at the club at this rate, and it continues on in $20-$30 increments until I'm back up to optimal levels.
Probably a subconscious confidence thing, especially since I always take breaks because I was making shit money. I think it's like I don't want to go in expecting a good night and then be upset all over again if it's not.
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When I was done dancing, I had finally just HAD it. I mostly hated the hours ( I never found a successful day shift for me ). There just wasn't an option to go back. I knew I needed to do something else. I hoped a plane to a tropical destination and never went back. Dancing earnings helped fund my start here plus a ton of other goals . It was 100% worth it .
EDIT : I thought this was about being done so edit to add that my burn out was like everyone said. I'd disappear for a few weeks , want money, come back , repeat! I finally left for real after " quitting " many times.
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Excusing myself from coming in for days or weeks, with some self-loathing in between. Eventually I get tired of living like a broke ass bitch, and push myself back into work.
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Knowing you hate the job and it's not working out but yet you can't seem to move on.
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Oh gosh living in an area with crazy scheduling requirements makes me burn out super easily. And it's hard to not show up for a couple of days and expect not to be fined for missing work.
I know I'm burned out when I start quitting clubs for little bullshit. Like the last club. I quit because of a small fine they tried to charge me for missing out the day before with a fever. After leaving in the negative the next shift because I had to pay that fine, I'd just had enough and never went back. So far I've burned bridges at like 3 clubs but I feel so much better and happier until...
trying to buy organic food on my bfs income. You feel crappy when you eat crappy food. There was a time when we were so poor because I wasn't working that we were surviving on eggs, bread, and peanut butter and jelly every day.
watching my school savings go down the toilet to pay rent
not having any extra money to do anything fun
so then I go back to work. This time I joined a promotor for urban clubs which is something I thought I'd never do because of their absurd house fees, but I understand now why girls in ny do it. The house fees are high, but promotor nights are generally good and they offer fantastic flexibility. If I wanna work one night a week I can. If I wanna work all 5 promotor nights I can. Its not a big deal. Sad that something as standard in other clubs as scheduling flexibility you have to pay a premium for if you want to work in NY. This week im only working Friday and Saturday. I don't think I've ever been able to work just a Friday and Saturday without having to work at least one slow day in the whole time I've been dancing in ny. Its amazing really.
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My burnout right now looks like this:
Wake up, have instant anxiety about being broke & thinking well i'll just work tonight & all will be ok then....
I do work & hustle my ass off ,make crap $$, come back to hotel, want to kill myself or just sleep all day everyday & avoid everyone.
I'm quitting my club after this week's over. I'm beyond burned out right now plus I've got insane pmdd right now so I wanna snap & be a bitch to everyone. blah. :/
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My burnout right now looks like this:
Wake up, have instant anxiety about being broke & thinking well i'll just work tonight & all will be ok then....
I do work & hustle my ass off ,make crap $$, come back to hotel, want to kill myself or just sleep all day everyday & avoid everyone.
I'm quitting my club after this week's over. I'm beyond burned out right now plus I've got insane pmdd right now so I wanna snap & be a bitch to everyone. blah. :/
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When burn-out gets REALLY bad, I start imagining myself to be homeless. lol... NOT good!
I start thinking "Would living on the streets really be that bad? Eating out of trash cans and begging for money on the streets? Hmmmm......" Eventually I come to my senses and realize thinking that way is completely INSANE, and that hustling for money to maintain a roof over your head and some good, clean food is a MUCH better alternative. Oh, and showers. Showers are important.
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Selina M
Does anyone else play weird little games when they come back? Like, my brain is doing stuff like this: "Ok I'll just go in and make $100", leave with an easy goal met, so then I'm ready to go back the next day and do "Ok I'll just go in and make $130". I'll leave after 2 hours at the club at this rate, and it continues on in $20-$30 increments until I'm back up to optimal levels. Probably a subconscious confidence thing, especially since I always take breaks because I was making shit money. I think it's like I don't want to go in expecting a good night and then be upset all over again if it's not.
That's actually a really good way to get yourself back in the game. Set low goals for yourself and go easy after taking time off. Easily attainable goals don't create as much stress. High stress trying to make $400+ a night EVERY night is what causes burnout. Just too much stress. And, like you said, when you don't make that goal, it is crushing and causes self-doubt, self-hatred, etc etc. So yeah, low money goals can be a good thing! xoxo
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^ I agree, I just wish I lived somewhere that $400 was a lower relative goal... that'd be like pushing to make $800 in a club with $20 floor dances.
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^^After burning out at my club and witnessing my club's business earnings drop as the months went by, $400 is considered a high goal for me. And I danced at a $20 lapdance club.
If I were ever to return to dancing anytime soon, I would set a low $150 for myself. Anything made after that would be a bonus. I realize that this is no longer 1996 and this business is just not the same anymore. It's better for me to have low expectations and be pleasantly surprised to make $300-$400, instead of expecting to make that much every night. Hell, I'd be happy as shit to just make $150 and not have guys trying to finger-rape me or lick my nipples, etc. Come to think of it, it's putting up with that disgusting behavior from men that made me crash and burn really quick.