During this pandemic fuckboys are still out and about trolling for pussy...
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During this pandemic fuckboys are still out and about trolling for pussy...
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Ok so this is worrying! My broadband provider is assuring us they will *try* to keep things as normal. To be honest i hadn't considered the internet would NOT be normal at any point! Is anyone else worried? Have you formed a back up plan like dongles etc?
Not worried but I have a dongle, do not want to use it at all lol. The infrastructure where I'm at is outdated so even during non busy times I'm not getting the mbps I'm paying for.
We had snow fairly recently, I think more people will be going out as it gets nicer. It's finally starting to feel like spring the past couple days. Put away the winter parka, looking forward to doing without the boots too. Hope that happens soon.
The country I'm currently in started forced quarantines for all. That's fine when they alert everyone of the changes but bo, they think it's a great idea to contain a city of 1 million people to just 4h of freedom and 20h curfew. Oh, and Sunday you're not allowed outside period so I have 1 chicken breast and chlorine filled tap water to last me until Monday because they change the curfew hours 495845858 times a day. I would've planned ahead except even my money is hard to get (wester union closing early,.etc). They have patrol cars and the ARMY outside fining people $10 for being outside
I hope everyone is okay as okay can be right now. There’s tragedy at my doorstep. It’s really helped me to clarify what’s important in this life. Most the things I thought were important just aren’t. The things I complained about weren’t really a big deal. I guess that’s just part of the human condition and I need to nudge the judge. I’m focusing on surrendering and thinking of the outcome I want to manifest (surviving this crisis) and letting go of the outcome-fuck that’s hard! I praying for my friends and family. You all are so near and dear to my heart. I’m sending out love and light to all of you. Prayers to be able to survive this crisis and come out on the other side more in alignment with love and light. Easier said than done. For my friends that’s hit the hardest I know this might be easy for me to say now.
I think I'm going to stop reading/watching coronavirus news for a bit. I'll definitely still help people however I can, but the news and conspiracies are way too much. I need to focus on what I can control.
I'm so thankful for Starbucks, Publix and business places that are still open. They help me feel a sense of normalcy that I so needed.
I need to leave the house once a day or not I'm well.
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I've stopped reading parts of this forum for the same reason. Way too much fear mongering and misinformation being spread around.
In other news I've set my food truck up in my yard and so far it's been poppin. I'm running low on supplies but the distribution company I use will be open at 7am on Monday. After that I'm gonna set up shop until this all blows over. And I'm still working in the closet/bathroom over night. I don't know how long I can keep this up but I really do enjoy keeping busy. Plus the people in my neighborhood seem to really appreciate the convenience and that feels inspiring.
^^ That's my problem to. It only flares my anxiety issues & I need to stop looking at it constantly but I can't seem to stop.
I can actually go hours/ days without knowing anything about the current situation. I am not reading facebook, i long ago stopped watching or listening to any kind of news shows. Now the only time i might be exposed to it unless i actively go looking, is when i am logging out of hotmail/outlook and stupid MSN news feed comes up - i scream and close the page quick!!!!
Having said that I did just see on twitter that although the towns here in UK are deserted this weekend, people are going in record numbers to places like the brecon beacons (wales) and other national parks.... FFS stay at home you pratts!!!!!
I've been thinking about how I've been treading along staying low key doing online sex work, it's tricky & dicey like any other form, which is why I've still haven't dove deep into a "brand/Persona" for the last 4 years. From payments, to ToS, I've seen a fair share of sites/apps come & go. End of March will mark me being in the game for 5 years. I'm not concerned with what others think I've always been an outlier, an outcast, black sheep that never fit into a mold whether mainstream or in SW. I've also battled with assimilation vs. authenticity when it comes to building who I truly am as am entertainer. My concern is - I've been thinking the past months since the last time I cammed if I even want to fuck with box site pimps who take 70% of my earnings, I've been so flippant with my emotion towards them, thinking of the pros & cons.
Always thinking about if I solidified my brand/persona into someone else's site(s) how much MORE money I could have if I was just indie ONLY in the first place is something I do not want to feel EVER. All the energy of trying to maintain both... Hence I've stayed low key (a.k.a haven't made a mark/print in the market), stopped streaming, stuck with phone sex, & moving onto clips.... And apparently a major cam site has decided to update ToS with some questionable statements that models are to agree with... The fact of the matter is when you use a site & it's a take it or leave it approach. I'd hate to have some hypothetically foul shit happen & they come up with "welp it's a part of your agreement" And thats the end of it.
Granted it can happen on any site but an incident where you're assed out & they've been taking MAJORITY of your money too? If that isn't a confirmation then I don't know what it is. So during this time with all the "Corona Virus Panic" I'll be transmuting my energy into furthering & solidifying ways to go forward with indie pursuits - especially with camming. I have a low tolerance for subtle coercion/pimping. I'm just so blessed to live in an era with a plethora of choices & resources. I know future me will thank me later.
Thats really a great idea, I always want the ability to take clients wherever I want in case something gets crazy. I think once I make my goal for the day each day I'm going to stream a little on token sites. Getting followers on social media where I can present whatever site I want to them would help a lot and token sites allow social media.
I also decided to take a class from Yale on being happier in daily life. I saw it was free so I figured why not.
https://www.coursera.org/learn/the-s...-of-well-being
Guess I should have kept the wig on and never tried to be "me" and let my short hair show. Ugh!
Went to Starbucks then Publix this morning right when they opened and thank God they have lots of toilet papers but they were gone in mins. I feel very blessed I was able to get some. Didn't realize they were 24 rolls til I got home. That's a lot of toilet papers. There were lots of old people in the store and it warms my heart they were able to buy stuff.
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I've never felt so busy AND unproductive in all my life.
I am very scared for my parents as they still have to work :( . My mom uses the bus to go to work everyday and it makes my heart go right down to my throat. These damn fuckers which don't wanna stay home in order to protect the ones that cannot do it evan if they wanted to ahdfhsfhjsofiujgsoughfhb
Going to cam again after 5 weeks of healing after surgery. Very excited and full of energy! Taking time off made me eager to improve my branding and personal image/campersonality, and thinking up new things instead of staying stuck in routine
Good Lord.. Woke up this morning and decided I was going to go about my day as normal to keep my sanity.
Now I feel a little overwhelmed in a good way :)
My daughter's grandmother messaged me this morning asking me if I still build websites. She has a friend that has a kennel and wants a website built.
Before I could have myself my second cup of coffee- I had an hour long conversation with a 70 year old man that wanted a website.
Wasn't prepared for this- but now I need to be :)
It's alot to think about
This morning was perfect for cuddlebug movie watching. It's gray out and a little rainy. I gathered up my nieces with blankets and pillows, then started Big Trouble In Little China. That movie gave me life when I was a kid. Twenty minutes into the movie my niece says "This is racist!". She's seven years old and she was absolutely correct. I was like "Yup, u right! So y'all wanna go play with the turtles?".