Escorting career ruined...? FML
Hi there!
So I just want to start by saying that I've been a long time member on here, however, I've got a delicate situation on my hands that I need privacy w/ & scares me. I'm so embarrassed & I just can't handle any judgement or backlash -plus I don't want my friends to know that I even took this career path awhile back.
I started out doing bodyrubs about a year & couple months ago & then transitioned into escorting. I liked it -it was a much healthier environment for me than dancing was in the end. I prob would have been doing even further along & had alittle something extra but between backpage crashing, not having enough steady regulars due to being such a new in the inustry while the backpage debacle & a shitty booker I'm not in a stable enough financial position just really yet. The "agency" put me w/ a new booker -he's wonderful. Raised my rates, started getting really good stable regulars & keeping me busier. Then this fucking money wrench got thrown into my life & new career.
I went & had a accidental one night stand one night last week, my heart got trounced by a guy I had been trying to see where things go with -some one I thought was a friend first. This friend even knew what I do, no biggie. Still didn't work -he's a loser dick, in genera, I realize now.
Long story, short, me & one night stand wind up w/ severe fucking flu symptoms & then he starts showing sores on his package Monday -I start showing sores & yeast like symptoms a day or two later. We both have same exact symptoms showing within about 3/4 days from our interaction. We used condoms -I know now that this doesn't always cover everything. I get tested pretty regularly anywhere between 3 mos- 1 year (depending on whats been going on in my life). My last personal partner I had not used condoms w/ (stupid decision, i know) -but I always use condoms w/ clients. Now I don't have my test results back yet -however, the gyno pretty much told me that this looks like it could be my initial outbreak considering the symptoms. At first she though that this new partner could have given it to me until I told her that he has the same exact symptoms -so it would be more than likely both of our first initial outbreaks. So she said theres no telling then for either of us. Either way, it's not really gonna serve a purpose pointing fingers or trying to figure out where the fuck it got picked up. It's too late & the bitch is here & itchy. I pray to god that there is some bizarre chance that this is just somehow a really fucking nasty yeast infection, no matter how fucking unlikely. There could even be a small chance that some asshole client gave this to me & just didn't think anything of it or didn't realize since from what I'm reading theres still a 30% rate & other shit. FML
My question is how many actual escorts here have herpes or know a fellow escort w/ herpes? Has this ended your career completely or just stalled it out for awhile until you got in tune w/ your disease & new body situation? How do you handle this? What about your regulars? What about your personal life? I'm so fucking scared..
I've told the booker, obviously, right away. I ordered L lysine complex supplement, I manic googling & trying to research as much shit as I can (this is just a treasure trove of contradictory & even scarier info) & suppressive therapy. My booker & I are going to revert back to bodyrubs (less fucking money -so heartbreaking). However, does giving up escorting have to be permanent can it only be a temporary thing until I get into tune w/ my body & this new situation? I'm not the type of girl to dawdle w/ important shit or be thoughtless/actionless. I'm kinda sorta hoping that if I am able to get on suppressive therapy w/ valtrex, L-lysine, CBD oil & start a herpes diet that maybe escorting in time can be a possibility again? As long as I'm only offering covered everything & start using female condoms (they cover more area) & never work during a possible outbreak or if I feel one coming on. Theres studies showing that transmission rates while on suppressive therapy & condom usage go down to 2% & 4% - & those prob aren't even done using female condoms!
I understand that anybody that is actually infected & working would prob not feel comfortable posting their experiences, answers or thoughts in this thread -for that my inbox is def not full. Am I just being too pathetic in trying to be optimistic or is their an actual chance? And don't think that I'm just being selfish or irresponsible w/ clients health or anything -thats why I'm reverting back to bodyrubs for now & asking for help on here. I'm really heartbroken over this in the fact that my life/career is ruined & the fact that more that likely I could have ruined this other poor guy's life. I feel like its my fault even though neither of us obviously know who gave it to who. I feel like there is a strong chance a client gave this to me considering how the symptoms & outbreak came on immediately for me & non client partner.
I thought my life was already pretty hard trying to get out of debt & get my life in order being a whore & struggling w/ alcoholism, but it was starting to get there & improve along w/ my mood -now its gonna be really gonna be hard. I'm a diseased whore -I feel like financial security & any hope for a personal romance have gone right out the window. Who's gonna want that & how the fuck am I gonna pay the bills?!?!
I've posted this in this section, but I'm also gonna post it in Ladies only if thats ok w/ the moderators? Also, ladies, if you could please not rip my head off or tear into me -this is why I came to you, I'm trying to be responsible & I actually really need helpful advice or real life, sage experience with this from someone in this field? Thank you so much & sorry for posting a fucking novel on here -my bad!
Surely, I can't be the only whore out there
Re: Escorting career ruined...? FML
girl i cannot help you with specific medical advice but don't beat yourself up, who knows he might have given it to you. and we all know that this doesn't mean you were a nasty hoe or whatever. I hope for you that you can find a way to manage the symptoms, i believe i read you can do that diet. look into ways and stay positive and meanwhile just hustle your ass off doing body rubs.
Re: Escorting career ruined...? FML
HSV-1 (oral herpes) is so common that STD clinics don’t even test for it. Furthermore, HSV-2 (Gential Herpes) is on the rise as folks just aren’t using protection for oral sex. Somewhere down the line, folks got the impression that low risk = no risk.
Personally, I think you’re stressing yourself out. The biggest side-effect of having Herpes is the social stigma/mind fuck that comes with it. Since the damage has been done, you can only take better care of your physical and mental health. Good news: Herpes is not a death wish.
As far as escorting goes, you shouldn’t be offering any kind of uncovered services anyway. There are clients out there who prefer NOT to kiss, eat raw pussy and get their dicks sucked raw. However, those clients are few and far in between (and some won’t even see you if they know that you’ve offered BBBJ and such in the past).
Re: Escorting career ruined...? FML
Girl fuck that bodyrub shit!!! You are just cheating yourself by doing only bodyrubs because you spend the same amount of time with the client 30min session, hour session, etc and get half the money!!! Fuck that! I know an escort who has genital herpes and she still works and she even got married. Lmao. Just dont work when you have an outbreak and use female condoms if you feel more protected with those. I know how you feel, I’m kinda going through something similar... :( but just don’t let the stigma get to you and keep moving forward!
Re: Escorting career ruined...? FML
Girl fuck that bodyrub shit!!! You are just cheating yourself by doing only bodyrubs because you spend the same amount of time with the client 30min session, hour session, etc and get half the money!!! Fuck that! I know an escort who has genital herpes and she still works and she even got married. Lmao. Just dont work when you have an outbreak and use female condoms if you feel more protected with those. I know how you feel, I’m kinda going through something similar... :( but just don’t let the stigma get to you and keep moving forward!
Re: Escorting career ruined...? FML
^^
Thank you!
Ok, so my swab test came back somehow inconclusive -she said she wasn't able to get enough antibodies or whatever in the sample to confirm a positive -it is however, very obvious at this point that I have herpes ( there's too many tell tale symptoms other than my junk just falling off). I asked about getting a blood test & she said that they are typically not reliable, but she also said that suppressive therapy is only for people that have frequent outbreaks.
2 weeks later & I have another very small single sore that has not come to a head but I have consistent prodrome symptoms & what not. So I've made another appointment except this time w/ a doctor that I saw a few times last year that I like alot better. I'm gonna ask her if she can give me a prescription for Valtrex for suppression therapy (hopefully, she'll oblige). I've also started taking L-lysine everyday & I ordered the 24 pack of female condoms. Once I get all that squared away -I'm thinking of seeing a dietician to work out a meal plan or diet plan of somesort to try maybe a keto diet that is tailored to herpes sensitivities.