First off don’t bully me too bad over this because I already feel weird. Also this is probably long for no reason.
Just some quick background info I’m a pretty new club goer like I went for the first time ever 2 months ago and now I have been back to the same one so many times since, I enjoy it and like all the girls are awesome. I also feel it’s important to say I’m a female definitely bi but am jus now started to be comfortable truly being me which is another reason I like going to the strip club because it’s one of the first places I’ve been where I feel accepted as I am.
Anyway last night I go in and end up talking to a dancer I had talked to once before and got like 1 dance from but we didn’t have that long of a convo the first time but this time was different she remembered me from the time before and we talked about a lot of things it was awesome. I found out she actually preferred women over men which made me even more comfortable with her and I ended up buying like 8 dances from her throughout the night when normally I like variety. At one point before she had to go on stage I told her I would try to wait and she said she would rather just go with me now and not go on stage so she did that and even talked a lot during the dance which normally I’m not into . Long story short by the time we had our last dance I was kind of drunk and asked her to kiss me which embarrassing after the fact. Even though I’m attracted to women I haven’t had the opportunity to experience that because I have always been with guys and currently am with one and I told her I just wanted to get my first woman on woman kiss out the way with someone that I was at least attracted to. I don’t feel like I was being creepy pushy but kind of persistent like saying things like she would definitely cure my depression if she did and other dumb things that had her laughing but in a cute way not awkward. Anyway it ends up happening like twice during our last dance and all was cool until I woke up I guess. The moment I had been waiting for since forever basically happened because I paid for it.. even though she said I was just paying for a dance and she was choosing to do what she wanted during it so that made me feel better about that part. I know it’s just a kiss and this will probably seem dumb to most reading but maybe someone will feel me. Also even though she did it I just feel weird that I asked in the first place and put her in a weird position, I wonder if she’s going to be like oh no next time I come in and avoid me. She said she’s not attracted to a lot of the guys that come in and she has anxiety so I don’t see her just randomly kissing customers all night. I know I need to forget it happened but do I assume she will too even though I only ever see her drink water so she was definitely sober or should I apologize for even asking her to do that. Possibly gets worse that I also asked her to lunch at the end and she said she didn’t want to lead me on and said she was in a relationship and it was monogamous. I think that was more embarrassing than the kiss thing but also didn’t someone say you miss 100% of shots you don’t take so I’m surprised at myself for even doing any of that because I never put myself out there even though it was probably not the best environment to do so. So yeah should I say sorry about that next time I see her or just act like it never happened.

