I Did a Bad Bad Thing-and got punished!
I am grossed out and dissapointed in myself beyond belief. This post is somewhat of a vent for me but also a warning for others, if you do what I was dumb enough to do last night. Last night at work there was this couple; a girl and a guy. The female was young, blonde and beautiful. She had eyes like Jenna Jameson and she was a sweetheart. The guy she was with though looked a bit older and he wasnt so attractive. Anyhow, the guy asked me if I would do a private dance for his girlfriend, so I did. Our club is strict no-contact but females sometimes get a bit more than w'd give guys; brushes of contact here and there, that's all. Well, this girl was so sexy and turning her on was turning me on. We had a few drinks together, flirted and got a buzz on. Then they asked me if I would meet them after closing. I have a boyfriend and I was not into taking matters that far anway so I said no. But then 15 min later I was onstage...and she asked me for a kiss. There were about 10 other customers on the stage and stupid me, went for it! I looked around for management and everyone was doing their own thing -(so I thought) I had never done that before -I am so anti contact and there I was kissing this girl onstage! Ughhhhh. Well after I got offstage, our dj (who is such a great, undertanding guy) pulled me into the backroom and said that he saw me kissing the girl while I was onstage. He was laughing and shaking his head at the same time. He was like "Ok first off, that looked HOT. Who is that girl?? Ok seriously though, you could get fired for doing that, kid! If you're going to kiss her, do it in the pivate dance area if you absolutely have to, DON'T do it onstage." He gave me a hug because I was so flustered and embarassed. So I did my business throughout the night, trying to avoid girlfriend who had left the club for awhile but came back and was was standing by the bar with her guy and some other guy as well. She looked so hot and I knew she was waiting for me to give her another private dance. Finally, I gave in. But instead of the guy she was with sitting next to her while I was dancing, she brought the other guy she was talking with earlier to sit down with her while I danced. Her man was standing from afar looking on while she snuggled with this other guy. I was thinking "wow, her boyfriend must be really secure because this kid's got his arm around her as he watches me dance for her." We were all talking and laughing back there and there was no one else back there and of course it led to another kiss. She was just so hot. I uh... had to excuse myself and go into the dressing room to be alone. Suddenly 10 min later another dancer (who I had confessed the kissing to) privately told me that the girl had just got kicked out of the club. I was really confused, but then my friend told me that she had been kicked out because....<I'm going to gag again> ..they caught her leaving the club with customers to have sex with them outside the club in the parking lot!!!!!!!!! She was an ESCORT! And I was kissing this girl! And who knows how many penises had been in her mouth in between her kissing me and giving ME nasty multiple cock germs. It makes me so mad -it's so fucking GROSS. I feel NASTY all over again. How could I have kissed anyone???? In between gargling resevoirs of Listerine, all I could do was rip myself apart for actually doing contact with someone. I got punished. How could I not realize that this girl was an escort? Then again, I have never ever dealt wit this before. But suddenly everything began to make sense; the guy she was with, how she kept dissapearing for half hours at a time, her groping other guys in front ofer "boyfriend." 16 hours later I feel nasty and dirty and infected and so dissapointed with my behavior last night. But why when I slip do I get imediately punished? This would only happen to me >:( UGH!! All the way home I am trying to think of diseases that can be transmitted by kissing. I feel so guilty. I have let myself down so much and feel like a total slut for kissing this girl and having my co-workers know about it, and why she got kicked out. I am afraid to ask everyone, what diseases can be transmitted through mouth-to-mouth contact? I've let myself down so much. For anyone who might do something as stupid as I did last night; it's not worth it. You just never know when someone might be turning tricks in the parking lot and bringing the nastiness right back to you. Help, I feel like such a dirty girl :(
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Kaiyla, you were 'suckered' by this girl to help in advertising HER services !
As far as communicable diseases go, if you swapped spit with this girl you're looking at a long list of possibilities from the common cold to hepatitis. I would hope and pray that this girl did not have bleeding gums, because that would open up the possibility that 'blood borne pathogens' might have been transferred as well - and you definitely do NOT want to deal with the diseases on THAT list.
I'd say keep up the listerine. If you have any leftover antibiotics start taking them. If not, pick up some herbal supplement containing Echinacea and start taking it. Odds are you really don't have to worry, but better safe than sorry.
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I agree with Melonie, but i would go a step farther. See a family doctor, tell him you had kissed another person whom you did not know too well, and later found out that person has unhealthy sexual "habits."
Some antibiotics work better than others for certain sexual diseases.
Plus she did not make you do this, you chose too. You know that. And it sounds like you learned. Hell, who has never gotten weak ?
Don't worry, but please get your mouth checked out. If you had recent dental work etc.
I think you will be fine, but any good doc. will prescribe a round of antibiotics as insurance against certain bacterial infections that can appear. Antibiotics won't touch a virus, so just keep a check on your mouth for sores, and a feeling of being tired in the future.
I may sound paranoid, but this is how diseases happen after all. It's not your fault, hell i have done the same with men in the past. (not at work ).
Take care hun, we are all human! And our weak at times.
Lotsa hugz,
Pamela
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Don't sweat it too much, every girl has done something they feel stupid about the next day, no matter how tight they've got their head screwed on.
I did a dance for a female once who bled through, I had some on my hip and damn near fell out. I washed it for about an hour in the dressing room, went home early to wash it some more with anti-bacterial soap, and spent the next few months in my doctors office getting any and every test I could. He gave me a shot to prevent something; but I don't remember what. I turned into one of those germ phobics, wasn't cool at all.
You simply got caught up in the moment; but look at the bright side, I doubt you'll let something like that happen again.
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Sounds like you are really beating yourself up over this.
I truly believe in positive thinking, dont get caught up in constantly dwelling on all the bad things that can happen, sometimes you can cause your own body to become ill by doing this.
Go to your doctor, as the other ladies have suggested, it wont hurt to take some antibiotics, and if you dont already, catch up on your vitamins.
Forgive yourself, and learn from it.
I'm sure you will be just fine! :-*
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If I beat myself up for every stupid, impulsive thing I've done, I'd be suicidal by now.
Good advice from all. Go to the doctor, get told that you're fine, and get rid of your worries. Learn from your mistake. Don't let it sour you on life or your attitudes; just don't make the same mistake.
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Don't beat yourself up, we all have regrets.
The girls give really good advice and would follow it or see a doc and see what he says or do both.
I know that the saliva is a powerful thing and can kill call a great many virus'es. I suspect of just kissing was involved that you would be fine, but get the blood work to.
I hope nothing serious came out of this.