First I want to say you are all awesome- and I really appreciate all the advice I've received, it helped me out SO much! Thanks! :)
Well I auditioned Monday night- it went well! I got hired! I worked a full 8.5 hour shift lastnight- I did enjoy it alot BUT I have a problem. Well it's a nude club so therefor I understand I gotta get nekkid! But the girls at my club (seriously ALL of them) when they're naked they get their spread open junk (junk= vagina, labia and all) in their faces- seriously close enough where all the guys like to blow on their junk. They do this on stage for a buck. Now when I get on stage, I'm a more conservative dancer than that but all the guys expect to see me totally spread open showing my entrance of pleasure for a buck. Obviously alot of girls out there are comfortable doing this- I just am not. I am very shy about my junk- I think I'm built larger than most and I have had 3 kids (which doesn't make a HUGE difference, but slight). But what they hey- I'll show my junk during an LD I suppose- it's dim and hopefully the guy dont mind womanly developed junk. Problem is, girls dont reserve that for an LD- they do it during their set and then when I'm up there I'm expected to do it- and sorry i just can't. So I called in today and quit. I guess I shouldn't have quit w/out really talking w/ the owners and seeing if I can work something out- but I'm just freaked out about it. There are like no topless clubs in MA from what I can tell. So I dunno, I would love to find one though nearby cause I LOVE dancing, it's so much fun and I dont mind getting naked- I just dont want to be spread open in front of someone for a couple bucks you know? Or do I sound like a prude?
