I saw a thread about abortion... so i felt the need to share my story... I got pregnant last year... (January 2003)... I had been with my boyfriend for like 4 or 5 months, I had just quit my job and started a new one (I was working at The Gap actually), I was 20, I didn't have health insurance, and I was pretty poor (I guess your average 20 year old though). I went to catholic school... so i guess i was against abortion b/c i was taught to be against it... I'm not sure.
Well anyway... my life was going A OK until I found out i was pregnant (By the way I was on the pill... not using condoms which was so stupid, but I was on the pill... I was also taking antibiotics for a virus i had, which is supposed to cancel out the pill or something...)...
I was treated like a piece of crap when i was pregnant. My b/f dumped me... (we got back together later on...), my parents threatened to through me out of the house, b/c they said the only way i could have a baby is if i went on welfare, my boyfriends mom was a pain in the ass too (while i was making my decision, his mom insisted on telling his whole family (stepdad, sister, brother, etc) about my business, even after i asked her not to), most of my friends didn't really give me any advice (I was the first to get pregnant!...) and the ones who did give me advice were the ones who were against abortion (the ones who don't talk to me now)... Well anyway to make a long story short I had the abortion (3/5/03).... Outside the clinic there were 3 men protesting with signs and shit... I was awake during the procedure...It hurt a little...
I thought it would make me feel relieved... but it didn't...
I am glad im not a mom right now... I would have a 5 month old baby... but i wish i never had to go through that... it sucked... i lost trust in a lot of people, i lost friends, i lost my faith, i lost a lot of self-esteem...
I know alot of people are against abortion, and all... so was I until it personally affected me...
Emotionally i went through ALOT!!!! I cry about it all the time (I was pregnant for 2-3 months... I had to wait a month and a half after i made my apt!, so i got attached to that baby a bit, I thought it was a girl for some reason.... I would have named her Madison)...
I went for therapy (The psychologist told me i should go to confession!!!!), no one really understood what i went through......
But anyway thats my story....
