Hi everyone, I need some help as I'm faced with a dilemma. About a month ago I told my mother that I dance, because she was just asking too many questions, and I was getting very tangled in my web of lies. Also, I felt that having to lie about it cheapened my job. I’m not ashamed in the least, but having to lie about it to someone close, like my mother, made it feel slightly shameful. So I told her, and she flipped and asked me to quit. Well, begged and pleaded, along with a long list of health problems it had caused her, like insomnia and stress stomach aches. So I quit. My mother has done so much for me, and I couldn't willfully cause her pain.
So now I’ve been unemployed for 3 weeks, and today I had to pick up change off my floor to feed my cat! I'm completely flat broke, with no job anywhere near the horizon. Add to that how much I loved my job and the fact that I was just starting to see a marked money increase when I quit. So I want to go back, obviously. Going back will mean starting the lies all over again, in a slightly worse way, because now I’m doing exactly what she told me not to, instead of just doing something I knew she would disapprove of but we'd never discussed.
She is supporting me; she's still paying my rent and tuition and sending me 100 dollars a month. But I live in a big city, and 100 dollars just doesn't last a month!And I'm so so so sick of nothing but peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for every meal! I don't know what to do! I'm also a little afraid that if I go back, everyone at the club will just think it was a clever way to get a month off. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!
Thanks so much
-C
