I am never drinking again.......ever.
So I am feeling very shameful today and like a horrible mother. Last night at work, me and a couple of other girls decided we were going to get drunk. We certainly achieved that. Like usual, I stopped drinking a few hours before I was going to go home. Well, I wasn't planning on a call from my husband around that same time saying that I needed to come home 'cause the baby had a fever. The poor little guy had a 103 fever and a very drunk and stupid mother who couldn't come home and take care of him. That was the worst feeling in the world and I cry when I think about it. So, this is my pledge right now. Since I obviously can't be an adult and limit my drinking, I am going to stop drinking and doing anything else that will put me in that situation again. It sucks to be up until 5am with a crying baby while you are trying to sober up. Nice. I am so tired and worn out today, but I feel like I deserve it. Why am I making this statement here? Because this is my place where I will come personally and tell if I've fallen from my pledge. I need a nap.
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Don't be so hard on yourself you didn't know your baby was gonna get sick. It would be bad if you knew he was sick or feeling sick or almost gonna be sick and gotten drunk anyway.
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Don't beat yourself up. You had a very capable parent with him, so it wasn't like the baby was neglected. Hopefully your husband didn't give you a hard time about it.
If you feel you have a drinking problem, then yes, you probably should eliminate alcohol. However, if you only occassionally drink and get drunk, and are responsible enough to have a ride home, then just chalk yesterday up to bad timing.
Don't be too hard on yourself. It's hard work being a mom. Sometimes you need to take care of yourself first, even if it means letting off a little steam and having a few drinks. I feel very lucky that my husband encourages me to go out several times a month with my friends while he watches the kids. I really look forward to that time away from the kids to recharge. And I always have a few drinks too.
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I do kind of feel like I have a drinking problem sometimes. When we go out, I don't usually get drunk. It's just when I'm at work. It's not like I need to drink to do my job. I have don't completely sober and still make money. It's just so easy to wrapped up in the party atmosphere you know?
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Wow, I obviously need a nap because I can't spell.
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Girl, I wouldn't worry about it. You sound like a very loving and capable parent.
I get guilty every once in a while if I have a had a few to drink. It's part of loving your kids.
Kitana