hello everyone... i am in a really big hole in life right now. before i ask my questions, i'll tell you a bit about my past experience with dancing. this is my first post.
first i worked in a club as a cook during the day, and i waitressed at night, usually for the male dancers, (that club had both sides). then i met my best friend who was getting out of an abusive relationship and doing internet porn to get by, but it wasn't a lot, so i introduced her to people at my club and she started dancing. i watched her rolling in cash and i have always been curious about being on stage. she moved far away so she can't really help me right now unfortunately.
so, i've been in tuff spots finacially before... i got on stage for a contest once and won, (found it very empowering) and i tried the message thing for 2 hours total, (not my thing at all). and i've been waitressing at a popular country bar now for 2 years on weekends where i've been the top seller, but it's still not enough. i often think about how many dances i would be able to get that night if that bar was nude. sales is sales right guys? ::)
i don't worry about what other people think, or what my kids will think when they're older. (i'm 26 and have 2) i'm very open minded. the only problem is that i would HAVE to go out of town because i have also been a children's entertainer for 12 years. what if i was doing a gig as princess barbie and a dad reconized me!? haha! :-\
ok, that's not the only problem... my boyfriend of 8 years has finacially screwed me over this past week... i've been out of work this month because i just had surgery, (on my jaw) i just finished healing... i'm talking overdrawn account, how do i pay my rent and avoid the food bank? i know i could do well dancing if i finally "take the plunge" and right now i need it. :'(
so... the main reason i haven't yet is... lap dances... where do i start? i've also never even touched a pole before. and do you tell customers the truth that you are a newbie? and how the heck can i get an out fit with no money? i'll also let you know that i live in ontario canada where all bars are completely nude.
i guess what i'm really asking for is a little push. i would love to hear about your first plunges and first lap dances. i'm not scared, i just don't know what to do when i get there, ya know? in canada you can freelance... pay the bar to be able to sell lap dances, hell, i could go tonight, and i'm really close to doing it if they'll wave the fee for me for my first time.
everyone here is so honest and brave, and i would really love any advice you have to give. thank you in advance. ;)
