...man, do I feel terrible. :(
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...man, do I feel terrible. :(
Okay here is what I sent in an email to ALL the agents I work for/with ---
Is it clear enough now that I'm trying to do best by everyone? *sigh*Quote:
It has come to my attention that alot of agents and/or agencies seem to have the wrong impression about me.
I asked for everyone's feedback about my website ( www.goldcoastgirl.info ) quite awhile ago now so that it was generic enough so as to be accepted by all agents and agencies (and it was as I have kept all emails that say so)....... and thus I am able to promote it at any and all bookings I attend with your blessings (ie write the web address on your business cards).
The part that I have overhead (stripper grape-vine isn't it wonderful? lol) that all agents and agencies seem to have gotten wrong is in regards to my business cards. If you have forgotten what they look like please click on http://i62.photobucket.com/albums/h1...C/85536e5f.jpg to preview an image of the cards that I hand out.
As you can see, they are very generic. It has my name, what I do, my website and email address (so I can invite them to be a myspace "friend" and thus stay up2date as to my availability and where as only my "friends" can access certain things on that profile) ...............and some white space above the "what I do" bit where I write YOUR phone number. I never use my phone number on these business cards unless it is a booking that I have organised myself outside of the Gold Coast (a good example: anyone in Darwin that wants to book me for their private party/function since no one really represents me in re: private parties in Darwin).
I will be more than happy to send you the image attached to an email if you cannot access the image that I linked to within this email @ http://i62.photobucket.com/albums/h1...C/85536e5f.jpg
Oh by the way, I only ever hand out my business cards when I have run out of YOUR particular agencie's business cards. That's the truth of the matter. If you want to make sure I don't use my business cards (even tho' I put the phone number of the respective agent/agency who booked me the show on my business cards) then please feel free to send me as many as you can to
PO Box 3014
Southport Business Centre
QLD 4215
I will always use an agent's business card over my own (it saves me having to invest in purchasing more of my own cards!). I only ever purchased my own as there were alot of agents who I worked for/with who havn't provided me with any of their business cards after I had been asking multiple times for some.....
The only time I will promote one agency over another is if it comes to a point where 70% or more of my bookings and thus income comes from one particular agent when I am home. Since no one can give me consistent work each week I am home and/or promote me as one of their top girls.... everything stays generic.
Thank you for reading. Please feel free to reply if you so desire.
Don't feel awful... you are just opening my eyes to the fact that whilst I try to do right by everyone because no one has said to me that they can guarantee me work each and every week I am home and therefore for me to put them at the top of my list (top priority) for bookings... it seems I am not... it seems the politics aka "the game" is being played ON me as such. I'm feeling shitty because I have ONLY EVER tried to do right by everyone.
Ah well. I have sent the email off and hopefully that will help show them that I am endeavouring to do right by them. As for my reliability, I am reliable.
Yet they can't expect me to not have a life outside of Thur-Sat so I am not necessarily available on those nights as much as I am Thur-Sat for last minute bookings.... it isn't like the deal Indulgence Entertainment has set up for their girls. Indulgence contracts you to work exclusivelly for them and pay you a base wage/fee each week so as you are available 24/7 when you are home. Since no one does this for me... since no one has said to me "Hey Vanessa. I really value you and want to get as much work as possible for you so could you please allow yourself to be available 24/7 when you are home for any work I send your way" ...... they have to expect that outside Thru-Fri-Sat that I may make other plans... I may not be as available.
Plus midnight is my cut off for last minute calls. Just through my own personal experience that anything offered to me last minute around mid-night is a waste of energy.
My hours are 2pm until mid-night as I found from my experience most of my bookings was between those hours.
Ah well. I do the best I can. Yet it isn't good enough for them. *sigh*
I think you can do it... besides, I only heard from one source... I don't know about the others. I'm sure you do well with other agencies... you try your best, I know you do. :/
Thanks M ;D I really do try to do best by everyone as no one has said to me that they want me to be one of their top girls and thus I can't really prioritise any one agent or agencies above anyone else.
(just a side note: i kinda gave everyone a chance when I was hunting around for a sponsor for my month in the exotic angels calendar... if someone had sponsored me they can be more than assurred I would put them up there as the one agent/agency I work for above all others .. yet no one did... I sponsored myself... my website is on my month in the calendar)
Plus the running late thing is due to traffic and getting lost. They can't tell me they havn't gotten lost or had traffic hassles between bookings esp. fri/sat nights..... getting in/out of surfers paradise is stressful!
......no wonder i am thinking of moving to the sunshine coast... traffic isn't as bad up there supposedly and the competition for private parties is also not as competative as it is here in s.e.qld !! *sigh*
Anyone got any bookings for NYE ??
I don't... I was told there was no work for it... but I'm always suspicious.
i was asked to work new years eve, apparently there's quite a few shows on. surprising, because in past years it's been dead. but yeah, retired, so i declined. working at the club instead.
I ended up getting two shows on NYE and one show on NYD (you know about that one Morr! hehehe) .... one show Thursday past which was a for a group of guys still celebrating New Years (lol) and one pre-booked for tomorrow... otherwise... SLOOOOW !!!
That's my rant. This is the reason I travel and the reason I'm taking up working at Players Showgirls (amongst other reasons) .... I need more than two shows per week to sustain me! ARGH! I don't have an expensive lifestyle just that I am planning to move out of home in February.... that will be expensive! Plus the fact that I really want to get some of my costumes repaired and new costumes made... and all this costs money! ARGH!
*blush* I get waxed on Monday so you can guess that I'm a little furry right now. I am not going to shave when I set up this appointment for monday ages ago. I can't ring the waxer and change it as she re-opens for business on monday... she's been on holiday over xmas and new years as she does every year. Oh man.. next year.. remind me to NOT work until my beautician (waxer) is open ! :laughing:
Why is this a problem? Well it hasn't been so much of a problem this week for the few shows that I have had.. okay.. one other show that I have had.. however... tonight.. my 6pm show... my agent will be there.. he'll most likely stick around to watch... I really hope he doesn't.. I really hope he has to give a lift to one of the waitresses at this party... I don't want him to see that I'm a little hairy ATM... I'm already embarressed by my hairy-ness (I'm not talking full on bush here.. just enough hair to be noticeable in daylight when one is naked).... ah well... see if my fretting is over nothing. Oh btw... the hairy-ness is not limited to just down there... my legs need doing and so does my underarms however thanks to the many many many years of waxing the growth is light yet still there....... ARGH!
GCG- A heavy comcealer applied liberally and loose powder will cover the growth up somewhat, pretty well, I think.
(I can't shave daily, so I do this)!
bleaching the hair could work too.
I pluck my hairs... hahaha... then when the wax comes, some is already gone!
Either way, super slow on this end, too. I rejected two NYE shows... I had the one with V... and I only have one shift today but am on the top for new calls in... I really need the work bad as I've paid for my wedding dress deposit and ran out of cash-on-hand because of it...
..I hate agency drama and politics... they've made me face a hard decision I don't want to talk about here... :(
is that by chance going 'exclusive'?
No not at all, actually... lol... you're not the first to ask that!!
It's about other things... :/
My rant: I'm f-ing lucky that I worked two nights in a strip club locally and made some decent money there this week otherwise I would be starving! If I was rely-ing purely upon shows, I would be making $200 this week as I have one show pre-booked for tonight................and that has been it for the week.
I am hoping, at the very least, to have one more show tonight or at least on Sunday. Damn! I'm going to actually have to work at the strip club now!!! Did I mention that I dispise the politics ? Who knows what people are saying about me and if it is right or is it because I am Gold Coast based that I miss out on alot (as it is all in Brisbane or Sunshine Coast which is a fair drive for me).
Whatever. I'm home. I'm available Fri, Sat and Sunday. Is it really that slow ???
It -is- slow... but probably not that slow. I have been picking up waitressing, but because I do - I always get shows. I picked up four hours yesterday and got a couple... but they were pretty last minute. I have some for tonight, as well.. again, last minute... and duo - because Dee's partner has been 'sick' a lot and now she wants a new reliable girl to be her partner... so Alicia recommended me.
I wish there was something I could do, Vee, they kinda just said, "You're doing a duo... with Dee." :/
You can say that you don't feel comfortable doing duo shows with someone you are unfamiliar with ... and that you prefer to do shows with me if at all possible. Remember the last time you did a duo show without me... ??? You felt totally out of place and didn't like the other girl in the end. Are you familiar with Dee and her "style" of show?
Why are they ignoring me ? I am here! HELLO!!!!! I have a car. I travel.
Is it because I don't do waitressing? *sigh* They shouldn't discriminate against me because I won't do something I know I'm not good at (i really don't have the patience or personality ot whatever is needed to do waitressing for longer than two hours at a time)... and instead prefer to stick with something that I am good at... gosh!! :'(>:(
Due to all your waitressing being last minute... it IS because I'm on the Gold Coast huh? Have you got any last minute work on the Gold Coast? It looks as if I may need to move "up the coast" or at least closer to Brisbane later this year if I want to get more work huh ? *sigh*
Yes, yes it is, actually. Sorry to be harsh... but it's really not helping you. Even Fox, even Dee, even Tori, even... well, everyone else.. they all HATE waitressing and they still do it. I waitressed WITH Alicia one day! They all hate it.. they all don't like it.. they are all decent and not good at it because they hate it so much... but they do it. It's the thing you have to do, no matter how far you are... even if I become exclusive number 1 with Red Hot, I'll still be waitressing.. just less often. Honestly? You're really honestly truly just going to have to suck it up and do it... and it's worthwhile! I did it in Sunny one day and made $750 in four hours.. waitressing topless + nude extension + show extension + tips. It's just something you -have- to do.
I have gotten Gold Coast work. Again, probably not what you want to hear. I was there last night. I also went to Sunnie right afterwards and did Sunshine work. I travel too, but yes, I don't have a car (buying it Tuesday)... but they're willing to compromise with me... I get a driver I have to pay... and they give me more work so that it's more 'worthwhile' for me to have that driver... however I still lose on shows without a car.
Not much more I can say really.. I don't know what else to say... :/
i had to literally work my ass off as a damn good waitress for risque before i ever got any show work. i was a waitress for aaaaages, and i hated it, absolutely fucking HATED it. but i still put in the absolute best effort i possibly could, and covered last minute shifts for girls who cancelled, and worked overtime when girls didn't show, and worked at pubs and venues where i did not feel comfortable. but i had to do it to prove myself as a worker. gradually i started picking up the occasional show at waitressing gigs (since i was already stripping in a club, i knew how to dance), and my agent started getting good feedback about my reliability and my show performance, and when one of their showgirls quit, i suddenly graduated from waitress to showgirl.
some of the most lucrative jobs i've done have been waitressing gigs. i did a sunday afternoon show once, and they upgraded my 4 hours topless to 1 hour gstring 3 hours nude, and got me to do two shows, and bought lapdances. i made almost $1000.
I didn't get into this industry to do work that I dispise (hate is too strong a word tho' it does come close) doing. I got into this industry to get out of an industry I dispised already (hospitality - actual waitressing). I continued on in this industry after my first indy back in 2001 because i enjoyed it so much. I also continued on because I enjoyed BEING MY OWN BOSS and the FREEDOM that it also afforded me to be able to work where I wanted, when I wanted to a certain degree.
Why is it I am feeling so much like an employee instead of an independant contractor right now? Why must I do something that is soul-destroying (and it was for me I am NOT being dramatic)?
When I was doing alot of waitressing shifts and basically booked out each weekend (fri-sat).... it got so bad for me that I started to drink for fucks sake. I do not drink unless I am despressed or trying to escape a problem. I don't want to do something that will most likely kill me because I am my own driver.... and therefore driving drunk.
I did that once. I drove home intoxicated from a waitress booking (or at least with enough to have a breathaliser get a reading) up in Brisbane. It was a HUGE wake up call. This happened in September last year if I recall correctly. I am not in this life to stress the fuck out and be depressed and frustrated! Life is too fucking short for that...
Darcy and Jessica (mermaidnz) ...... I can see why now you quit. It is alot of bullshit. I am so damn close to semi-quitting even trying to work the "private party scene" locally and just stick with whatever I can get alongside the two nights per week club-work I am currently doing.
Why can't someone enter the private party scene as a showgirl and showgirl only ..........and be accepted as that?
There is also the main difference between you and me morr (even you Darcy) too.... my age.
I don't have time to fuck around having to "prove myself" so in a year's time I will be considered a showgirl. I will be one more year closer (and one year off) 30 years of age this year. I don't have the convienance of time...
I'm not just saying this because it is slow either. I bet you this same problem has been plague-ing me throught my whole time.. I bet if you go back near the start of this thread... you'll see that I have the same frustrations.
*sigh*
ignore me. i'm just ranting, raving, and venting. the frustration of all this is starting to get to me .... why can't i be accepted for what I feel I am good at instead of having to be something I am not ???
edit to add: wow... now I have a strange feeling of peace/calm thanks to this rant/rave/vent. i really did need to get this off my chest.
AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THAT is all I am saying :(