i totally freaked out at work tonight
i came home just now i don't know what happened to me. i think i had a panic attack, hot and then freezing cold, couldn't breathe properly and a horrible dry mouth.
i am home now but i am still feeling really fucking weird i am such a fucking idiot. i feel so stupid for messing up. especially on a saturday night. i wanted to make money but instead freaked the hell out. i don't know what's wrong with me i can't stop crying i feel totally out of sorts and i don't want this to happen again.
i don't know what triggered it either. i only spoke to one guy and that's it. i am still feeling really panicked and short of breath. i just wanted to know if anyone had similar things happen to them.
it's so weird though i'm usually the happy laid back one. i am so upset with myself.
Re: i totally freaked out at work tonight
Hey, something like that (but not as bad) happened to me recently...lemme find the thread
here: http://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?t=75326
Re: i totally freaked out at work tonight
I've gotten panic attacks at work before. Horrifying (I mentioned it in Scarlett's thread too). See a doctor. I got meds for 'anxiety', and it's helped me tons. Have you had panic attacks before (in other situations)?
Best of luck. Do something comforting and stay in. Don't blame yourself.
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Sounds like one to me. Way not fun. May sound funny,but I found that trident cool rush gum helped me out a little in that it opened up my sinuses and gave me something to do(chew). Haven't had them @ work ,but yeah-have had them.
Also there was a water that had lavendar in it in the regular store. Haven't seen it in awhile,but lavendar is supposed to have a calming affect. Johnsons baby lotion makes a lavendar lotion and there are probably better ones @ uh I can't think of the name. Bed and bath?
I don't like the anti anxiety meds as that took away my ability to orgasm. But exercise is good to relieve stress and calm your body down. So even if you don't like to exercise walking or sex is always good.
Hope you feel better soon.
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I have a friend who's a bit evangelical about CBT (cognative behavioural therapy, not cock & ball torture this time), which helped her get over her panic attacks and general anxiety. If if becomes a recurring problem you can learn techniques to bring you down before you're into the full-blown panic.
Here's a resource. I'm just passing on the link from somewhere else though, I don't know how good it is.
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What I do if anxiety swells up is I start multiplication tables in my head (yes, while dancing even, hehehe). It distracts me immediately.
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I am pretty sure you had a panic attack. Don't be upset with yourself. I know a lot of dancers with anxiety and each manage it differently. I have a few questions. Was this your first Saturday night working? Is your club small/med/ large? Was it really busy (both on the floor and in the dressing room)? Did you drink? These are all factors in why you panicked.
I had the worst panic attack at my old club on a Sat night and there was nothing I could do to get me out of panic mode. i realized that it was too small of a club for me for me to work really busy shifts due to not having room to move. There was no where I could go to have a breather and get myself together. I switched to a larger club and it has helped.
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thanks to everypne who had suggestions and stuff. i will definitely check out the techniques people have mentioned, hopefully it wont happen again!
in response to sexygemini, i have only done a couple of saturdays and this one was intense! loads of girls working, tons of big groups. it's a medium sized club i just felt like everyone was busy but me! usually that doesn't bother me, still being a newbie, it takes me a little time to warm up and stuff, but this time it felt really strange. it's so weird how different saturdays are. i dunno maybe because i was tired and i'd had a long day it just hit me?! i just don't want it to happen again.