I have an opportunity to go to the Superbowl in Miami. Some friends of mine do a very large prestigious party each year and they have invited me to come down for it. They have a ticket for me, and accomodations and I have so much airline credit, it's ridiculous. So I could basically go for free except for just spending money. It's basically going to be just a big , crazy, high profile PARTY for like 4 days.
Here's my dilema and it's sort of ridiculous. I have gained about 12 lbs since anyone last saw me and I'm really embarassed. People make comments to me like, "Oh you've gained some weight." I have always been thin and right now, I'm not and it bothers me . A lot. I don't want to be seen in a swimsuit because I'm really uncomfortable with my body. This is the biggest I have ever been and I can't avoid a swimsuit in Miami when everyone is partying on a yacht!
I don't know what to do . Do I miss out on the Superbowl because I can't stand the thought of feeling fat and being uncomfortable. I also am trying to be good and drink less ,try to be focused because I want to get out of dancing and try to have a "normal life." I know I'll be boozing it up for days if I go and it will probably take a few days to recover completely. I'm torn. What would you do?

