um. hi?
so, my name is emily. no, my name is not rebecca. rebecca solidarity is just my working alias. i have not ever danced before but i have been involved in 'the industry' for awhile, having done some modeling and other things. apparently my first ever modeling job is actually being used as part of some adult film retrospective thinger at manchester pride this year. so that is exciting, even if it was done under an old alias i do not use anymore. it was just kind of stale. anyway, yeah, most people i have worked with or for end up calling me beck which is nice and i like. i also have a lot of stage experience as a sideshow performer and actress. i am a professional glass eater actually, like i can eat real light bulbs and martini glasses and wine glasses. i also walk on beds of broken glass or get topless and lay face down on them and let people stand on me or whatever, and i never get hurt. i like doing that sort of stuff a lot for shows. it makes me feel good. also i kind of think the broken glass is really pretty.
sooooo. i am here because an acquaintance on a message board pointed me this way because i am moving to the san francisco bay area and am hoping to get involved in dancing. mostly i want to get involved so i can diminish the necessity of other forms of trade work that i am presently involved in, but also it looks like it could be kind of fun too. i guess it is not likely that i will be able to find work though because i am a committed member of the industrial workers of the world 690 union, which is their sex trade workers union for dancers and models and other 'industry' workers of various kinds. since i am pretty much committed to ethical union politics i guess that most of the clubs in the bay area - if not all of them except for one - will black list me the moment they find out that i actually care about organizing for improved work conditions and the like. which pisses me off so much but whatever.
ummm. but yeah, so i guess that is me in brief. oh right, i am also trans and was born a boy and all. started young so my body is very noticeably "female" and such. had me some surgeries down below and on the face and pretty much pass all the time even when i am naked. even when i do not pass in some moments people still think i am cute. ummm, so i guess that also makes me nervous but whatever. there have totally been super successful dancers out there (like tula!) who are like me in that way so i do not stress it too much. i just kinda get tired of other women like me looking at me as if i must be insane for pursuing this kind of work. but yeah, i feel that i will like it so i am gonna try and such. in fact the only thing that makes me really nervous is the whole diving off the deep end kinda plunge "learn it by doing it" thing because i just anticipate feeling really awkward and nervous and silly.
so that is why my acquaintance pointed me here. she thinks i can maybe talk with people and build up confidence and learn some things and stuff. which would kinda pretty much rule. okay, so i guess i will go now. yeah, bye for now.

