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Today's the Day!
Right. So I was all set to do it on a certain day.
Then, the night before I was supposed to walk in there, I got kicked out of my ex's mom's house! >:(
It was for some dumb reason (leaving the fan on before I left for work).
My ex's mom was going to give me a few days, but I left the next morning because of the extreme amount of bullshit.
So now I spend my nights at the Salvation Army, the women's shelter. It's awful. It's such a hassle. It's like, I have a job and I'm a well-educated young woman. What am I doing here with psychos and pregnant women?
So I want to get my shit together. I thought that me getting kicked out before The Big Day was a sign that I shouldn't strip, but I really need the money.
I was actually talking to some of the women in the shelter about it this morning. One woman in her fifties said that when she was 24, she worked as a stripper in a Marine town. The first time she did it, the Marines were cruel and she cried. But this stripper named Angel told her to focus on one particular thing when she danced--a person, an object--hold her head high, and strut her stuff. And she did. "You've got to do what you want to do. You've got to find out for yourself", she told me.
So, okay. I've got a million things to do today, but I'm going to squeeze "exotic dancing" on the list.:flirt:
And the situation with my boyfriend...I dunno. He DID try everything he could to convince his mum not to kick me out, and he gave me money before I left, suggesting that I put minutes on my phone so that I could call him if I needed anything. But when I told him that part of the reason that I didn't go home to my parents was for him, he said vaguely that he shouldn't factor into my reason to go or stay. So that's all bent and twisted up inside.
He also said that he wouldn't date anyone who was a stripper, so I'm torn between not caring and hoping that none of his friends are in the club tonight. :-\
I've got my two outfits: a wifebeater, bronze hoop earrings, really short/tight shorts, and some bronze wedges. The second outfit is a babydoll with a black bra and panties, and some white high heels and silver heart hoops.
I'm not nervous at all, really. I wasted all my nervousness on the first time that I was going to strip. So hopefully hopefully, everything will go all right.
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Re: Today's the Day!
Good luck to ya, sweetheart. I hope you make tons and tons of money and you can at least get into a hotel for a while. Keep us posted :)
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and this is exactly why i hate when people look down on the homeless. technically you're homeless right now and like you said you have a job and youre an educated person.
anyway.. you prob already auditioned, but i hope you went w the second outfit, its more appropriate i think. good luck!
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Sorry about your boyfriend. Pretty soon you'll be making money and will be on your way to bigger and better things. Lots of luck at your audition. You can do it!!