I feel like there is this duality that exist within stripping, and its especially apparent if I compare this forum to what actually takes place in a strip club. At least at a high pressure "grinder" club.
A strip club is so many different things to the dancers, and to the customers. Its probably one of the most fascinating places to go if you like people watching.
To me the best comparison is to that of a drug. That its just all these people experiencing this drug to various degrees, but the difference is the drug is a human being behind the persona they give out.
Everyone has their drug of choice. There was the episode of weeds the other week where this kid admits that pot, or alcohol doesn't really do anything for him, but that touching boobies does. What if you're that guy that likes touching boobies over any other drug? Yeah, I might be perverted but I can't imagine a better drug. Its not really addicting at least not in a "withdrawl pains" sort of way. To get un-addicted you just take a little breather.
I still ask the question
Do I wear pervy pants to see a girl who's even pointed them out as pervy pants, but who seems to be cool with it and has "fun" with them? Where I've had unbelievably great times with her? She is a major libra and excels at saying things that make me feel great even though I know all the falseness within. In the moment the fantasies rule over logic, but in the end I know its fake. I don't like the idea of cumming while at a club, but the logic of a club sort of goes hand in hand with cumming. With the kind of chemistry change that happens after a dancer is done with you, and running to the next guy. If you don't cum then you still have the same chemistry as you had while getting the dance. Bad, bad, bad..
Do I latch onto the idea that there must be something wrong, and that I probably make her feel like shit one some level (that she probably showers to get my stench off and she probably goes ewww when in the backroom after being with me). That like any job the money you get from it comes at a cost. What you get from something is always a question of what your willing to give up for it. Its a high pressure club so knowing that I'll spend at least $100 at minimum if not $200 or $300 on her means that paying house will be easy (at least $130 but most girls owe back rent so its more like $160 a night).
That just because I'm a person that has no problems saying "no" to shit I don't want doesn't mean that everyone else is.
Do I wear khaki's in the search of a new girl? I do like meeting new dancers occasionally even though its a pain in the ass. That now they charge $30 a dance so just trying to see if your comfortable with them is harder. There is a bigger difference between $20 and $30 then just $10. Part of it is psychological and part of it logistical (you get $20's out of the cash machine and not $10's). So normally I just fuck it and stick to the tried and true even though its a bad idea to get too attached to one dancer. Although the last time I tried a new dancer my regular dancer ignored me for the rest of the night because she was pissed at me for "cheating on her". She even huffed at the girl I got dances from. ughh I hate that. Jealously destroys the fantasy.







..thanks!

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