
Originally Posted by
sexy_celeste
Yeah it was an eating disorder, which started due to illness.
I was really ill with pneumonia and a viral infection and couldnt eat successfully for 3 weeks. I got scared of the food, as every time I ate I was sick, so I didnt eat.
I now suffer from emetophobia (fear of vomiting) and not eating was a good way not to vomit.
As a result of this illness I ended up not wanting to eat, in case I vomited.
Now I have a messed up hunger function. Most people get hungry, eat, then feel full. Sometimes I dont feel full no matter how much I eat, and other times I dont get hungry for days on end.
I was on meds earlier this year, to increase my appetite, and to supress on the days when I just didnt stop being hungry. It worked, and I was really healthy for a bit, but I stopped them with the whole cancer thing, and I dont want to take meds for my whole life anyways.
Ive started counting calories again, but for me the solution is exercise. If Im exercising I feel hungry, and can usually feel full after eating.
Im off to see a nutritionist next week, and Ill go back to the doc for some more advice.
But I cant stay this heavy, even without stripping. It'll put too much strain on my body. Plus I hate how I look right now, I have lovehandles and a real gut.
Im sure I can be healthy again, I have before.
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