
Originally Posted by
georgiapeach
i lost a few good regulars...though i don't know if that caused me to lose my confidence or was a result of it. or maybe i lost one and then it sort of snowballed.
and i'd been expecting things to pick up in october (after the l.a. summer lull) and they've only gotten much slower.
i've been distracted by the fact that a number of girls (mostly new) have been giving extras, not even trying to hide it and not getting fired when they're caught. this tends to make me feel bitter and angry about the club i'm at, which only ends up hurting me...it's silly, i know.
and i've been feeling an unusually high amount of anxiety about whether i will make money at work or not. not just and hour or two before work, but all the time. i will drive home after a good night and already be worrying about whether the next night will be ok.
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