I swore off dating men about a week before I found out I was pregnant which was summer of 05 and I haven't dated since . I wanted to stop dating because I was really getting my heart stomped on . One date for example took place right before Thanksgiving , it was a casual date with a guy I met online . He seemed really persistent and sorta cute . We met up at a gas station because I was semi new to the area and then we had drinks at one place , things were going great and then he asked me if I wanted to go met up with his friends for a drink ( so he must like me right ?) This next place was super nice , trendy restaurant way atop a building over looking the city ...so nice .....anyways I am having a great time . Oh at the first stop he looked at me and so sincerely he said "wow you are really beautiful" with big eyes and I totally bought it . Anyways I was living in this college town so we did the bar hopping thing and I ended up at his place because he said he had some beer and we could hang out for a bit , then he could take me to my car ......yeah I bought that one too . He had no beer nothing to drink at all , we hung out for a bit and then he proceeded to beg me for sex and then he wouldn't take me to my car because he was to tired to drive (blah blah ) he started to get pissy .....anyways I ended up having sex with him but honestly I liked him so much and I knew that if I had sex with him things wouldn't be the same .....anyways he acted all weird in the morning , dropped me at my car and then blew me off for our next set of plans . He took me lunch a few days later and it was clear he felt obligated and that things were over .......they were , until several months later when he booty called me .
That was just an example of how my good dates go !
If things actually progress into a relationship , they usually end because the BF's friends hit on me or treat me like crap or fill his head with insecurities ......I have never had a good relationship with a guy and I gave up , if your not good at something and its hurting you why continue ?
So since I was pregnant I spent alot of time online and sometimes I would talk to a guy BUT every damn time things would get sour within 2 weeks !! This has been going on for 2 yrs ! They are always so dishonest . I let them know sometimes about the 2 week thing and ALWAYS I get the I will prove to be different , just watch I will show you .....yeah they show me alright , they show me that I was just one of many and sometimes they can't even remember personal things about me like were I live !!!! I am trying to keep this short so I am sorry if any of this seems vague BUT really I could go on and on with examples and all the bad dates ......After awhile I had to start thinking that it was me BUT the only thing I can see that I did wrong was not doing do anything wrong ...you know what I mean , I am nice and friendly , I dress cute and take of myself , i like(ed) sex and was open to new things , I cook and clean , parents like me , I have a good relationship with my mom .......I dunno I just don't know .
If they didn't like me why couldn't they say so ? Why did they have to drag me through crap and break my heart ? Even now I will talk to someone online and still they act like I am the friggin cats meow at first time we chat and then they get cold like the next damn day ......I wish I didn't care but its confusing . I think the Internet was the worst thing to happen to dating , at least for me . It lets these guys play the field to much , they send out 10 emails trying to get one date for the weekend ...sucky ...Anyhoo thats my rant for the day !!!



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