Any of y'all get like that? I just hit a crash point today, it WAS going so well, i wrote a few pen pal letters, got some sewing stuff ready, watched a movie, and then it.... hits........
Booom. SO sad it hurts to breathe and i can't finish my sewing and don't want to cook dinner. don't even want to hold the dog. just feel so sick and helpless.
Hands have been hurting, i finally got a stronger painkiller for them, but painkillers really worry me so i haven't beeen able to talk myself into taking any, except for one last night. Hurts to move them, letter writing and pattern cutting was excruciating, yet i HAVE to keep doing it, like i'm afraid to stop! Dont want to be a bum and just spend the rest of my tendonitis aggravation in bed.
WTF does this happen to me?
Urck.
Doesn't help that the guy i had been flirting with is so on-and-off that its hard to tell WTF is happening... He'll be all apologetic and clingy in person, and then after he leaves, he won'tcall for days, even if he's already TOLD me he'd call. I hate people who assume i have nothing better to do than sit around and wait for their call. If your interested in me, SHOW IT, by respecting my time, and not expecting me to continually be chasing you, or that i'll JUST HAPPEN to be there when you're ready.
Fuck i hate people.
But this REALLY can't be healthy-there's only 1 or 2 people i see outside of work... other than that, i've completely isolated myself. I think i like it that way, but it doesnt seem like it's a good thing.
I need some green tea.



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