Damn it! I guess I just need some encouragement from everyone. Lots of 'you can do its!' and stuff.
As lots of people know, I'm here in Guam dancing and on an 8-week contract. Well, I'm 1 day away from completing it!
My options are thus.
a) Finish my one more day. Take my final payment from the club, the money I get reimbursed for my airline ticket to Guam, and use that money to purchase my own ticket back to Portland.
b) Finish one more day. Continue an extra 2 weeks to ten weeks. The club will pay for my return ticket.
c) FInish one more day. Take my final payment. Go to a club down the street and work for two more weeks. Take that money and buy my own plane ticket home.
I KNOW that the best option is plan B. (ha!) But I have all of these fatigued and half-assed reasons for why I should just get out of here. "That's a 2k difference, MINIMUM!" isn't quite resonating with me. Working 6 days a week is just tough on the system and th idea of just getting out of here after doing the bare minimum (even though it's a 2k MINIMUM difference!) isn't quite registering with me.
So I guess I just need lots of encouraging words in this thread so I can motivate to stay here two more weeks. Tell me how cold it is in Portland! How I won't be able to find an office job untl the beginning of January, anyway! How I already specifically allocated all of my earnings to financial goals! (This much for my emergency fund. This much to pay my bills for the next 6 weeks or so 'til I get a Real job. This much to totally eliminate credit card debt, or at least reduce it to 20% of its current state.) How since I already did (as of tomorrow) 48 days, 12 more days is nothing!
Aaaah I'm just so demotivated and my feetsies hurt. Help me out SW! I'm in the final stretch but I don't feel quite like the workaholic that I should.



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Somehow I'm kind of thinking that two extra weeks of not working/losing 2k minimum is better than continuing with the routine I'm settled in here in Guam for two more weeks.


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