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so most of you know my relationship situation by now...
i broke up with my gf a while ago
and have since then been trying to get back together
so, we had gotten into an argument 2 weeks ago, and i couldnt take it anymore, and baught a plane ticket that same day, and went to see my friends in LA for 10 days...
when i came back, i saw her...
we had dinner
and i told her i wanted to talk to her...
i told her that my trip in LA was really good, and it relaxed me ..
bla bla bla
i told her that i was felt miserable for how i treated her sometimes (pushing her away, when she opened herself up to me)
i told her i just wanted her to be happy, and to be there for her..
i said i wanted to be "that guy"
i told her how she was such a great person, and that i wanted to give back, what she gave to me.. (pleasent experiences, etc)..
she looked like she was gonna tear, and she interupted me and said
"im putting my foot down this time. i dont know if you can be that guy. i dont want a relationship right now. i have to focus on school, work, and my disease(chrones disease). im not saying we wont be together in the future, but right now, all i can offer you is friendship. if you dont want it, then theres nothing i can do".
i said thats fine. and that i would take it.
now at the same time, when we were together, she had work and school.. and she was doing a fine job on juggling all that, and a relationship.
now, i did notice something wierd about her when i saw her.
firstly, she is a BEAUTIFUL natural blonde...
she colored her hair brown, and i think it looks horrible. she also seemed to have lost a few lbs.
she's a thin girl to begin with..
she told me she was going to st. martins for 3 weeks during her winter break.
how do i know if she really just isnt ready for a relationship because of her issues, or if she just doesnt have the balls to tell me straight up NO I DONT WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU..
keep in mind, when we were together, 90% of the time, SHE was the one who was head over heals for me, and all that shit...
her family loved me... her girls liked me... everything was peachy..
i feel wierd because, i know im a good looking guy. im tall, really funny, caring, smart,healthy and make money.... so, why wouldnt she want me ?
i cant figure this girl out,



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